Disgusted
You said you’ve never done any evil. When you speak, you don’t think. How disgusted we are by your actions, you don’t fit. You’ve lost our respect. The more I think, the more disgusted I am. Still don’t appreciate how blessed you are. Living in your own delusional world, how pathetic. If I were you, I would have reflected on what I’ve done but no, you think you’ve done all right. Yucks to you. Enlighten me, is cheating not an evil language?
"A lying man will never be able to handle an honest woman"
How I met my Fiancé
Many of you wanted me to do a blog post on how I met my Fiancé. To be honest, this journey was never easy, we’ve been through a lot but it wasn’t shown, or maybe it did but it wasn’t obvious enough. I met my Fiancé through Xxx , to me, it was all about finding someone to chat with ; an accompanyment. That’s how my impression to my Fiancé was like initially, I did not give much hope, just chat and let nature take its course. We decided to meet up, 2 days before Valentine’s day, to even catch 50 Shades Darker on our first meet in Platinum Suite @ Cathay Cineleisure. He even gave me 1 stalk of Preserved Red Rose & a card stating “You have my number, so call me maybe?” & I still remember he ordered Basil Chicken Rice & Red Wine (And gave me the red wine after the movie ended). Come to think of it now, he don’t even drink…. Yes so after the movie, he sent me home via cab & went home himself after. Our conversation got mundane and dry after the first meetup, a normal reaction of an insecurity me goes “Yeah you don’t like me after you’ve seen me in real life right ?” And his reply was like a very boring no , a very different vibe from before we’ve met. Maybe I was just thinking too much & I felt so devastated I started an argument to ask him to stop texting me further. But things proved otherwise, we met up a few times more and this time, I guessed our feelings were mutual then.
2 Days before my Birthday, we went to Universal Studios Singapore. It was really awkward, until we rode Human & I told him I was very scared whilst on the ride, he led out his hand and I held his hand throughout the whole ride. We didn’t let go of our hands till we reached my house. Bid goodbye & thats where we both confirmed our relationship to be together as a couple (20th February 2017). The honeymoon period begins, until one day he decided to bring me home to his mum, I had a tattoo on my forearm, two on my back & I don’t bothering covering it up for the one on my forearm because afterall, every of his family members will have to accept me for who I am & not just base on my appearance, I got judged & was told to not go up to his house again. I was really hurt, but he assured me that everything will be ok eventually because his mum was more traditional. Things went up and down, sometimes his mum was ok to me, sometimes she was not. I did told him my unhappiness and I nearly gave up this relationship. It was too much for me, like I live not to please others, why can’t she just accept the way I am & not thinking that I’m some Ahlian that will led her son astray ?
Things do get better eventually, but when I was allowed in their house again, for the first few times, I kept on wearing long sleeves shirt / dress to cover myself up. Not easy I will say, but anything to leave a good impression for his Mum. One day, I decided not to cover myself up anymore & bravely went up to their house. Surprisngly, his mum did not say anything, everything went smoothly, me and my Fiancé still argue sometimes, but due to other matters. 1 Year plus had passed & I felt like ok, he should be the one for me and so we decided to sign up a Wedding Photoshoot Package & placed a deposit. The very excited me went on to google on their reviews / photos etcetc & was telling him how excited I felt because it will be with him and it was like my dream came true. Him on the other hand, doesn’t felt the same way like I do, we quarreled really badly as he mentioned, he didn’t think of such future plans because he wanted to focus on his studies first. I thought that he would be as excited as me but in return, I got his cold shoulder instead. In the back of my mind, this guy was not ready for the future, why should I be bothered with creating a future with him ? Again, I nearly gave up this relationship. After we’ve cooled down, I never mentioned about the Wedding Photoshoot with him, ever again.
We just went on with our lives as per normal, living life happily & during around Dec 2018, he asked if I wanted to try applying BTO with him. We did, but we didn’t managed to get to our ideal unit. We gave up our choice & decided to wait till the next one comes along. This was when business get serious as he had also completed his studies. He kept emphasizing that he will want to secure a house first, before talking about wedding plans. He even said, if we did managed to get our first-applied BTO unit, he will propose to me in Japan & when we didn’t managed to get what we wanted, I knew he wasn’t going to propose anymore, not expecting anything but I knew I had to wait longer, it’s fine with me.
One month ago, we went to Japan with his group of friends for their Graduation Trip for 11 days. On Day 3, we went to Tokyo Disneysea. Nothing suspicious from him or his friends, everything was normal. The act was indeed very good. We had our dinner & after dinner, his friend’s Gf told us to remember to go see the Fireworks at 8.30pm and that she will see us there (He wanted to propose there, in front of such a huge crowd). To me, it was nothing special, in my mind “Aiya, I get to see for the whole month of every Saturday before the actual National Day, what’s so interesting ? Never see before Fireworks meh?” So I heck care & went shopping, it was quiet indeed & that was the best time I can do my shopping peacefully without having to squeeze with the crowd. Shops were one after another & I told my Fiancé that I’m going one after another. Normally, he will let me do the shopping until I’m done, but this time he said “HUH YOU WENT SO MANY & YOU’RE NOT DONE ?” I did not care & went on cause I’m stubborn like that. Finally I’m done & it was already 9.30pm, his friend was like “If we don’t speed up, we will need to cab back to our hotel already” I was ok cause it was already kinda late. My Fiancé told his friends that we should take a group photo and find somewhere where there is not so many people, we gathered in front of the Disneysea’s globe. Since the rest were packing their buys from Disneysea, my Fiancé told his friend to help the both of us take a photo first. After taking the photo, he told me to wait and not to go off first, I thought the rest were going to join us for a photo & asking a stranger to take a photo for us. NO, he questioned me “Just now you asked me what’s my dream right ?”
Oh & because I bought a Stellalou Popcorn Bucket & there’s this quote “What is your dream?” Such coincidence !!
There, he took out the Photo Frame, a Rose Stalk Ring Box, kneeled down & pop the question “Will you marry me ?” I cried in tears of joy, I was trembling and didn’t expect him to propose !! I was very touched & surprised. I was lost for words. Even those passerbys clapped for us, I didn’t know what to say! Yes, thats when we got engaged on 12th June 2019. :’) Coming back to SG with a different status, it was really memorable & it will be forever in my heart. I really didn’t expect such surprise & I really want to thank his friends for all the effort & time in planning this. :) :)
And for now, we are very happily engaged. Planning for our future together & nope, I am not pregnant by any chance. :)
P/s: Did you know, I was his first girlfriend ? *Giggles*