RG's Reality in Dream

How can we describe time after exam exactly by words?!!....

Ya... No matter you feel anxious that didn't do well in last paper, or feel very confident bout the last paper... We will completely forget everything in the exam after it's over... The only emotion that welcome us is CRAZY!

11am... the moment that had been waited finally arrived... We gathered and went to take komuter immediately... Our main destination today were Times Square and Low Yat Plaza....

another number 11.... 11 chinese boys were in this trip... let me list out: Teck Pei, Poh Wei, Yit Yung, Eddy, Andy, Beng Ping, Yiing Seng, Kelantan's Tan( KMK friends still remember this guy?), Terence, Peter and I !

We had our nice lunch at McD in Times Squares.... Then went across to Sungai Wang Plaza, BB Plaza and finally Low Yat Plaza... I achieved my main purpose today at Low Yat: bought a pen drive... and I bought a external floopy(A) drive for my laptop... At that time, we had walked for the whole noon.... Legs were so painful and lesu....whole body felt very tired too... ( I didn't sleep at all the whole night before to study Bio!!!) Throughout this trip, I have a few first time experience! It's the First time I took Monorail, went to Sungai Wang Plaza, BB Plaza and Low Yat... Wah! that monorail was always super packed!!!

Really hope the time right after the final paper of exam will be stopped moving forever....

Our actual one-month Hari Raya holidays have been reduced to two weeks only...

Oh my God...

The reason is JPA demand that our course must finish earlier, so we can attend some camps before fyling to Indonesia... tat's mean now... our Foundation of Medical Science course will end 2 weeks earlier...

My holidays will still begin on 28 Oct... but will be finished on 14 Nov...

Haiz... really like from sky down to the earth...

Here are some notes that i took down during a talk given by AIA on 6 Oct (Thursday):

Secret of Success:
Find out what everyone else is doing,
Then.... don't do it!
( of course, this doesn't mean we can disobey rule and instruction...)

Successful person are:
i) Rare people
ii) Strong enough to succeed
iii) Have inner self-confidence
iv) Have strong self-image


Bout my activities... My final exam for 1st semester will begin on 17 Oct... and the last paper will finish on 11am, 27 Oct... then i will have a month holidays!!! I will take 10.30pm bus back to Penang on 28 Oct night...so...i will be at home town from 29 Oct... All friends there, juz call me out whenever have any gathering or lepaking ya...

C u all soon!!! and good luck to everyone who are in exam...

【明心网】作为医生，天天和病人打交道，看惯生老病死，已经很少有事情让我感动了。

那天，我接诊了一个患乳腺癌的患者，五十多岁，因为发现得晚，病情已到晚期，并且肺部已有转移，手术已没有任何意义。在我看来，这样的病人花钱看病已没有什么用处，在有生之年多吃点喝点才是正经。我的意见已对病人的丈夫明确过了，看得出他是多么的伤心和失落，当时他那种失望的神情简直让我自责。

现代人都在提倡病人有病情的知情权，我正在考虑怎样和病人交待病情。那女人的丈夫走进来，还顺便掩上了门。男人很恭敬的样子，有点笨嘴拙舌，他对我絮絮叨叨地说了许多的话。最后我终于听明白了，他请求我不要将病情的严重性告诉他的妻子，因为她还不知道，只以为是乳腺上长了一个小瘤子，割掉就没事了。

这并不奇怪，许多病人家属都有这样的要求，他们怕得病的人禁不起打击而失去生活的信心。事实上也是这样，临床上，许多癌症病人的死亡并不是因为疾病本身的恶化和发展，而是因为知道病情以后的病人失去活下去的信心，这样会加速病人的死亡。

我自然答应了他的请求，同时对他说手术已无多大意义，他还可以节省一笔手术费，可以用这笔钱让他的妻子吃些好的，或者玩得开心些。我还对他建议说我有一个好朋友在旅行社，如果他愿意，他可以带他妻子去香港玩一圈，我可以和我朋友说给他们最优惠的价钱。

出乎我意料，他却坚决地要求手术一定要做，但是只要切除乳腺上那个小肿瘤就可以了，他说他知道那样对他妻子的病情并无帮助，但是可以让他的妻子放心，让她认为她真的只是得了一个小小的病，并不是什么大病。看得出他很爱他的妻子，他很坚决，我只有答应为他们安排手术。

同一天下午，我正在办公，一个面容平静的女人推门而入，是那个女患者。我注意观察了她一下，她实在是一个不起眼的女人，衣着朴素长相平庸，很瘦也很老了，从各方面说都是个平常人家的平常女人，表面上看不出有什么魅力，但是我知道她的男人深爱着她。

她的话不多但很直接也很有条理，这让我知道她是个很理性的女人。她的意思大致有三条：第一，她说，她早已知道她的病情，因为她很早以前在村里当过赤脚医生，她已在家看过相关方面的书，知道自己得了那种不好的病，而且已经很严重。第二，她让我不要将实际病情告诉她的丈夫，她说，她这一生都是她照顾他，老了也不想让他过分担心。第三，她要求手术，但是只要切除她乳腺上的小肿瘤就可以了，做做样子可以安慰她的丈夫，以为她真的只得了小小的病。

女人条理清晰地说着，我已经呆住了，我想不到一对夫妻在不同的时间对我做了同样的要求。
在某一时刻，我还以为她是故意来试探虚实要向我了解病情的。但很快我就知道我错了，她是真的知道自己到底得了什么病。我只有用好言好语告诉她实际上她的病情并没她想像的那么严重，只要做完手术就可以痊愈了。她却平静地笑着打断我的话，她说，谢谢你，医生，我的病我知道，我只要求你对他保密。

我正不知如何是好的时候，女人的丈夫推门进来了，看到女人后一脸惶恐的样子。女人见了他，却首先开口说：“你来得正好。你看，我刚刚问了医生，医生说，我这只是一个小小的纤维瘤，做了小手术切掉就没事了，就像十年前我的表姐长的那个一样。她现在好好的呢！”女人一脸灿烂的笑，看不出任何假装的痕迹，男人也很开心的样子，“就是嘛，手术切掉就没事了，我们走吧，别耽误医生工作了。”女人就起身让男人搀扶着走了出去，临出门的时候女人还特意回过头来对我说了声“谢谢”。

两人开心的样子仿佛真的是她只患了一个小毛病，而不是让人谈之色变的“癌”。那一刻，望着他们两张苍老但却有着孩童般无邪笑容的脸，还有他们已略显佝偻的背影，我忽然内心充满了感动，看惯了人世间的生老病死，我以为我早已麻木了，但此刻我却为这对老夫妻所感动着，为他们相濡以沫的感情。我有着要为他们做些什么的冲动，而我又能做些什么呢？

我依从了他们的意见，事实上我已无从选择，手术很小，我也只是做了我所能做的。

事后，他们很快出了院，出院的时候，那个丈夫又来到我的诊室，红着脸问我是不是去香港旅游真的可以优惠许多。他说他要带他的妻子去香港玩，看看灯红酒绿的世界，他说他的妻子跟着他没享过什么福，他想让她在有生之年里能快快乐乐地生活，但钱不多，请我帮忙看能不能更优惠些。我当然义不容辞，我找我那当导游的朋友给了他最优惠的价格，并托我那朋友沿途对他们多加照顾。

后来我听朋友说，这对老夫妻是他所见过的最恩爱的一对老人，也是香港之游最开心的一对。最后，他给了我一盘录像带，是那对老夫妻的香港之游，他们说很感谢我，知道我很关心他们，所以特意录了像让我知道现在他们是多么的快乐。

听着朋友的诉说，我的脑海里突然涌出一句话："你快乐，所以我快乐。"


(My point of view: This is one of the reasons why I want to be a doctor... for me, Helping people in dark is a touching task... "I am happy becoz u r happy")

曾经听说过一句话，“成功不是一种奇迹，而是一种坚持到底。”这显然是用来勉励人家的一句至理名言。这简单的道理大家都懂，但怎样才算得上成功呢？要如何把成功定义呢？这就因人而异了，每人都对成功二字持有自己一套的想法，而我们也绝对不能去控制或影响人家。

提起成功这字眼，相信一般人的脑海里浮现的都是这些，收入高，名誉佳，学历高，职位高等等。也许一些历史事迹可以作为借镜。爱迪生自小被人认为是个低能儿，但后来却凭着他那天赋与努力钻研发明了数以千计的新东西，造福了人类，名留青史。牛顿也以让人折服的想象力发现了地心引力，继而发明了牛顿三大运动定律，成为科学史上最重要的发明之一。再看看现今的一些例子，全球首富比尔盖茨当年选择了提早从大学退学，投身于电脑软件研究，创立了微软公司，从此家财万贯。

但是不是除了这些，其他的就不能与成功挂上等号呢？以上这些成功人物如果缺乏一些其他方面的援助，他会完成这些壮举吗？其实每个人都有自己独特的潜质与才能，正所谓“天生我才必有用”，所以无法完成以上这些典型成功例子的人也无须气馁，反而应靠着坚持毅力继续走下去，寻找自己的天赋所在，在那领域闯出自己的一片天。所以就让我们以这句名言共勉之吧。


( This is a post that I copy from a friend's blog... I've get his permission...I think it's very meaningful... Sadly, my friend's laptop that i m using now don't have chinese typing programme, so i can't edit by inserting some of my thoughts.. i can copy it plainly only... By the way... let's me translate the most important phrase in this post:
“成功不是一种奇迹，而是一种坚持到底。”--> Success is not a miracle, but it's a spirit of not giving up till the end.)

Now reach half-way through this tough week.... and I juz get a sneak of time to relax a bit...and enjoy blogging and reading friends' blogs...Wah...recently the posts in the blog of Chong It, my very best friend in Jit Sin, was damn good and interesting...he wrote in chinese...but that's the language that he can express himself the most... He is so serious in doing blog... u know... typing in chinese using computer is one of the toughest task.... He wrote bout his Football Diary...and the contents are very good...know a lot bout the history of EPL... and I m deeply impressed by some of his posts on his thought... showing his maturity there...

Today was one of the most eventful day in this week... got First-Aid presentation for Health Science class and then got Malaysian Studies' quiz... and fortunately... everything went on smoothly...

Bout First-Aid presentation...Eddy and I were same group with the other 6 malay classmates... our title was "First Aid treatment on Skull(head) Fracture"... and few days before the presentation, both of us started the preparation...but what made us very frustrated and even angry... all malays never showed up in the meeting... All the task of searching information and preparing transparancy were done by two of us only... Finally, those malays were willing to emerge at the last day before the presentation day... and suprisingly... they were able to give plenty of useful idea... and they had solved our main problem-- bout how to balut the skull by bandage... got a group member was previously in PBSM..so he knew the technique... and on today's preparation, I m sastified of our group performance... We present some general knowledge of skull fracture using transparancies... and most importantly, we showed the procedure of giving first aid treamtment pretty well... demonstrating 4 kinds of treatment...

Sometimes Malays are very capable in doing a task... but they don't have the urgency and passion to prepare it well....need to be forced by the others.... and then being a bit kelam-kabut coz doing preparation in very last minute... speechless~

Beginning from today... malays enter their Bulan Puasa... wish all malay friends 'Selamat Berpuasa'...

Entering a brand new October… and this will be a hard and challenging month…

Recently, my life was almost in crazy mode…spent much happy hours at ‘Paradise’… Of course, such days seemed like free of tension, stress and problem… but I juz can’t deny that behind these fantastic and exciting days, it lays a storm and disaster…thus, it’s time for me to take it seriously…really… it’s time to back to normal way…

Next week will be a busy week… plenty of assignments to be done…then follow by several presentations in the class…and there are some classes that previously had been cancelled by lecturer to be replaced on next week…

In about two weeks time, it’s our first semester Final Exam (begin on 17 Oct)… as lecturer has mentioned, all the topics in syllabus will be tested even though some topics are unable to be taught in time… many things that I need to learn myself and crap into my brain… surely, this exam will be tough…

This October is very busy and full of stressful tasks… it maybe tiring…

AM I READY???

Eating Spicy Chicken McDeluxe Burger...

With Yiing Seng...