RG's Reality in Dream: November 2005

25 November 2005

What had I done?

Semester 2 has gone through 2 weeks already… What had I done after the first 2 registration days in this semester 2??

Despite feeling like falling into the hell of confidence-less life for a few days and keeping on to review my mistake in semester 1… Here are some concise reviews of what had happened on me for past 2 weeks:

Went to Pustaka Mukmin with several friends on last Saturday (19 Nov) to buy a thick Chemistry text-book…We could get the book for RM65 from there instead of RM80 if buy from lecturer…Then, have some time in the nearby Plaza Sogo…throughout the way, I kept on thinking was it worthy to travel to KL city to buy a cheaper book…Though after deducting the cost for transport, the expenditure to buy that book is still slightly less than RM80…but I had to waste the whole noon and energy…and had to face some trouble while doing the plan for outing before departing…

On the way back to Shah Alam…we kept on wondering whether to go to Apartment Seroja (girls’ hostel which is located in the middle between college and our guys’ hostel) to attend their Deepa-Raya open house…Decision still hard to make while we already in the cab…At last, we changed our destination while on the way back to our hostel…Did nothing much and stayed for a while only at there…have some taste of food and drinks…but it let me have the chance to know the difference between Seroja and our Cendana…

On 24 Nov (Thursday)… went to Sunway Pyramid…But throughout the trip, I felt like very down… Maybe what I had to do with friends was totally opposite with my initial intention to go there…as there were 2 gangs went there at the same time… and situation at that time seemed like dragging me more and more far from my actual motive…After all, I guess some people might be not very happy with me for things happened that day… I had to admit that I had done mistake while making some decisions too…Outing in a big group is very fun, but sometimes it also makes problem easier to occur too…I am tired already to recall all such things…Hopefully time will erase it…

At the moment, I think it is better for me to concentrate on solving problems in my studies first......

18 November 2005

我安好

把这心情文字与现身处各地
所有认识我的人共享
大家正走在自己目前最好的前程道路上
祝愿大家排除万难
也幸福快乐每一天

从前的我一塌糊涂
看不到未来的路
忘记了自己的抱负
现在我怕时间不够
凡事都加快脚步
世界在转动
停不住
我知道情况不妙
我也知道要很努力才可以达到目标

你以为我安好
你错了你错了
只是不要让你知道我跌倒
我现在要起跑
我来了我来了
想要改变我的世界
我想这些年错过爱过了难忘的情景

有些很遗憾有些忘了珍惜

难过的时刻哭过熬过了也不算什么
也许年轻宁愿错过都可不要紧

时光飞逝屡战屡败才得到原因

也许我不应该关键时刻意志不坚定

要比以前更有毅力

压力可以变成动力

辛苦会换来成绩
偶尔打打球
透透气

我知道情况不妙
我也知道要很努力才可以达到目标

你以为我安好
你错了你错了
只是不要让你知道我跌倒
我现在要起跑
我来了我来了
想要改变我的世界

有些失去是注定的
有些事情是永远不会有结果的

如果我不小心流下一滴眼泪
那是因为我不想忘记过去....

15 November 2005

坦然接受

这篇我得用我较能表达的母语－中文。

今天对我是残酷的。拿了第一学期的成绩，应该算是蛮中等的成绩。没有满分，但至少仍远远超过公共服务局的最低平均积分三点五分。虽然在考试期间我很清楚作答得有点失常了，也作好准备接收任何可能，但事实在前时，看着其他人一个又一个的拿到满分，那种心情多少有点难受。

对于命运的安排，我欣然接受。其实，我能处在这个地方和这个处境，是四个月前从没意料的。当我来到这里时，我告诉自己，每一天都必需在感恩中度过。对于一切难堪的处境，都是上天给予的磨炼。是的，不是每个人都能得到从苦难中面对考验的机会。只要依然能达到奖学金的标准，我觉得在学习时代面临各种考验，或许这些经验在未来将让自己不一样。老故事重提：爱迪生失败了千多次，才伟大地发明了灯泡。在这千多次失败中，他何尝是尽了力而也得失败，也肯定曾因没尽了全力而面对失败。

从以前求学时代起，无论是在学业上或球场上，我经历了为数不清的不如意。所以，面对无情的不顺利时，已学会了如何淡定地处置，如何继续如常地生活。也因为熟悉了失败的滋味，让我在取得到开心的事时，懂得感激。无论面对什么处境，我都要求自己一定要淡定。尤其不可因太失意而控制不了情绪，伤了在旁边真心支持自己的人。

虽然对今天这成绩完全不开心，但我必需对它满意。对自己的准备过程很不满意也很失望，成绩显然告诉了我还有很多地方要改。而且，今天一起身，感冒已侵袭了我。可能上天以生病的痛苦来转移我对成绩的痛。现在在眼里打滚的泪水都不知是鼻塞造成还是不开心造成。

五月天作了一首很不五月天的《知足》。转过来问自己，这次这个算足吗？是的，知足的快乐，叫我忍受心痛。

我得勇敢地面对一切我需负责的事。

除非放弃，世上是没有绝路的！我一直都相信，当面临失意时，只有上天和我依然会欣赏我自己。

或许我注定无法成为最出色的人，但我绝对有能力让自己成为快乐的人！可能这几天因生病而得面对过渡期，但以往的我很快就会一样地回来的。

再次诚心感激上天给予我学习的机会，也感激所有真诚支持，鼓励我的朋友。

13 November 2005

Back to Shah Alam, Prepare for the New Sem

Reached hostel at around 8.30pm… and fortunately my housemates reached here earlier and they almost finished cleaning the house… So…I juz need to spend energy to clean my room… and from now…I can online own my own and anytime I like after yityung configured my laptop to be accessible to the ‘Paradise’s wireless internet router… but this also means my monthly expense has to be increased to pay the internet fee…

When I stepped into the bus in the afternoon…A strong feeling of reluctance stormed in my mind… ya…reluctance far more than excitement…. I don’t really know why I would have such feeling…Such feeling never appear so strong before when I leave for study elsewhere…

Perhaps I am about to leave my own house for quite a long time after this, or maybe I am going back to a very competitive study environment, or maybe I realize that I have to face 4 tough subjects in the category of Science & Maths in the coming new semester… I dunno…

“Leave the past, Live for now, Strive for the future”

11 November 2005

Peter & Poh Wei in Penang

Peter (from Sitiawan, Perak) and Poh Wei (from Bukit Jalil) came to Penang and stayed at my house for 2 days and 2 nights... Here are some of the photo....

Peter(centre) & Poh Wei(right) visited my high school, SMJK Jit Sin!

Feeding turtles at Kek Lok Si

View of Pagoda at behind...

Eating the famous cendol at Penang Road...Huh! So many people were willing to eat them even though have to stand while eating...

A nice woodwork in front of KOMTAR crafted by a japanese who is well-known in this industry

At Gurney Drive during sunset time...

Accidentally met Kiran in front of main entrance of Gurney Plaza...Unexpected!

Duet with Poh Wei on my house's piano?!!! Haha...

Cute Chicken Little poster in front of Prai Megamal Cinema....

Peter's birthday gift....Snowy at 600cc....

I think Peter & Poh Wei will write a long long detail report bout their trip to Penang... Then I feel lazy to write long long one leh... hehe... so, maybe can go to Poh Wei and Peter's blog these few days to read the detail journey report and see more photo... hehe...

06 November 2005

Manchester United Rulez!!!

Very excited now!!! My long-life favourite Manchester United won 1-0 against Chelsea! Finally Chelsea didn't have number ' 0 ' in the row of lost matches in the points table... Thanks to Darren Fletcher's superb and decisive header!

Though I could only follow the match online, as the time of match was too late at midnight and very inconvenient for me to go out to kopitiam to watch live (my house don't have Astro)...especially have to come back after 2 am alone...yet, I still felt the excitement of the game by reading the interesting minute to minute match report from net...

This victory again, shows that the strength and power of 'underdog' really can't be taken easily... Manchester United had gone through a very very tough week following two painful lost in both last two matches... Even I as a die-hearted Man Utd supporter was so disappointed seeing the true Red Devils spirit which is the proud of every Man Utd supporters had fade away in last two matches.... But tonight...it proves that I am totally wrong...

The United players congratulate goalscorer Darren Fletcher(source:GettyImage/soccernet)

Again... Manchester United acts as record destroyer...Chelsea's record of 40 consecutive unbeaten league matches has vanished on the head of Fletcher, in the hands of Van der Sar and spirit of Red Devils! Fletcher, a player who grows into the first team from the youth team, was quite silent in his appearances on the pitch before...He never shine brightly and juz played his role well but couldn't be a decisive player of the match... But in this match against Chelsea... It's time for him!

I do believe, whether before, now or after... The Kingdom of Manchester United never vanquish!

04 November 2005

Review of 1st Sem

So fast! My 1st of 3 Semester in KUTPM (Kolej Universiti Teknologi & Pengurusan Malaysia) had finished… This 1st Sem was from 4 July till 27 October which lasted nearly 4 months…

In 1st Sem, we studied 6 subjects: Biology, Health Science, Mathematics I, Malaysian Studies, English for General Proficiency and Co-curriculum…Generally, Biology and Maths were purely using Matriculation syllabus, but we studied less chapters than those in matrics…While Malaysian Studies was based on Malaysia History…

Let’s talk bout the most vital thing studying outside hometown- Hostel…The hostel that arranged to us is not located in the campus, but is a normal residency apartment. For male, our apartment is Pangsapuri Cendana which locates at a undeveloped rural place called Bukit Subang…Really didn’t expect Klang Valley still have such place…Hostel’s distance from college is very far and we have to take college bus everyday…We spent about 20 minutes to travel on bus from hostel to campus or campus to hostel…. During the first few weeks... the bus service to fetch us was very few…This had forced us sometimes had to stay at campus from early in the morning till very late in the evening… Caused me felt very tired… But luckily after a month, the bus service has increased…then, normally we can take the bus half hour or one hour before our first class of the day start… and can directly go back to hostel right after our last class… But one thing that never improve is we always have to stand in the ‘sardine’ bus!

I think there is nothing much to complain bout the hostel facilities...Much much much better than in Kedah Matrics! 6 students are arranged to live in every unit of apartment… Each unit is same as a normal house…1 living room, 1 master bedroom, 2 bedrooms, 2 toilets and a kitchen (with no any cooking stuff)…Besides the necessary study desk and beds, so great that JPA provides us television, washing machine and dryer! Then one of my housemates brings rice cooker and refrigerator to our unit…It’s like living in own house but without family…

In lecture class, no any big problem… Just the studies were moving super fast…and sometimes the lecturer just simply taught through using the transparencies without any further description…And sudden change in schedule has become one of the specialties in KUTPM…The class often cancelled in last minute… and even the only two holidays in 1st were not going as what had planned earlier…

As a conclusion, my 1st semester can be considered as a satisfaction…

01 November 2005

Gathering, Futsaling & Snookering

I am back...back to my home town, Bukit Mertajam, back to my warm house, and back to my blog again...

I am very glad that close friends here arranged a gathering as soon as I returned for my holidays... This was really a great time to held a gathering as most of us have the holidays during Raya and come back to BM...Matriks friends have holidays now... Form 6 have holidays too...and i have holidays too...

We had a gathering at Prai Megamall on 30 Oct, Sunday... Since this is the gang that always stayed back or returned to school in the evening to play football during our days in Jit Sin...so...it was time for us to have fun on the field again after such a long time... Playing Futsal!

After playing futsal and having our meal... we went to play snooker after knowing that Zorro movie showing time was not appropriate to us... I think all of us are not master in snooker la...but we had fun and chat much at there... By the way... our aim was had time to reunion... Everyone don't have any much changes... Everyone still full of sense of humour...

Throughout this gathering... i muz say that the thing that I was very satisfied was finally I can meet Khai Sheng again since our last meeting on a day before I left to Shah Alam...time really flies like rocket... nearly 4 months went on already... Khai Sheng & I spent almost all the time after school in Kolej Matrikulasi Kodah together...It was a very fantastic 1 month for me to have such chance to live together with a very nice and superior friend... studying together, playing together and eating together...I learnt a lot from him...

As human with feeling and memory...we often recall our previous time with friends who are not beside us again...ya...the days with jit sin & KMK friends surely were very fun and memorable... but sometimes...i require myself not to think those days too much... We need to move forward... Enjoy & appreciate every precious moments reunion with them that I can have when I am back... and look forward happily for the next gathering in next holidays... I am sure everyone of us won't mind how long we have to wait to gather with friends again... as long as it will happen...

As communication system in this much developed world is in so high standard already...I am sure after 10 years, 20 years and more we still will have much opportunies to gather no matter wherever we are and whatever we are doing... Maybe that time our form of Jit Sin former students reunion gathering will held annually already....Looking for it...and it need our co-operation too...

Do keep in contact owaz...friends....

:-)Here are some pictures that I took ( Hehe! I can use my dad's digi cam as I am at home town):-

Me(left), Khai Sheng(centre) and Rhu Yann(right)