tonight I thought I would do a post or shall I say an ode to motherhood. I didnt have a particularly wonderful day, so no thats not why I'am writing this, I just wanted to write this for my posterity, so that someday my children will know that even though mommy runs around like a chicken with her head cut off and constantly pull her hair out when the monster emerges (my alter-ego nate calls the monster because I look like one when im upset and I tend to growl like one as well!) I still enjoy being just that a mommy, I love to cook and fill my house with comforting smells of food, I love (even though I hate to admit it) to do laundry, I love the clean refreshing smell it brings to my home and the kids shirts, pants, whatever it brings to my families sweet backs, I love to clean my house and look on in awe at what I have accomplished and the up-lifted spirit it brings to myself and nate, cuz you know cleanliness is next to godliness! :) I love the thank you kisses I get from me babies because I played with them, or made them something to eat or just because they love me. I love to watch them sleep and see their sweet faces in such peace....I love motherhood it is without a doubt the most humbling, hard (at times frustrating), rewarding and precious job I know I will ever have. I know my heavenly father chose my children for me perfectly and even though times with coby can be REALLY tough, he chose me to be his mother for a reason and im gonna try my dang hardest to do the best job I can for him. I know chase was sent to me, to bring me peace in times of utter chaos and despair, if you could just hear that lil babes giggle and see his smile you'd know exactly what I mean! :) and I know that my lil princess Caitlyn (to be) will add something to the mix that is much needed. I love my babies and yes there 4 and 17mon.'s but to me they will always be my babies!....well with that I will leave you all and my babies with a pic. of the belly for those that havent seen it yet!
our attempt at a family photo! :)
not the best photo, but I will have more soon! im gonna get some taken! but here is the bump at 32wks. and IM 35 NOW! soo.....its a lil bit bigger now!
