Life's crawling faster and faster...

Chalked up quite a lot of pictures to be sent, because of the fact that I don't have internet access at home. Been rushing back and forth from home to hall, hall to home. And my long list of "to do list" is not getting any shorter.

And to make things more challenging, I have this to triple the fun.



Okay maybe it's much more than triple.

Anyway, I will be going Malaysia with my family from 26-30 Dec. This will be my first family trip "overseas" after like 2 years 6 months. Will be staying at a relative's place, and I hope my GPS will be working so I can bring my family around.

And sianz. It seems like my photography page is not having any "reaction" at all. Hai, have to think of better ways to either "improve my skills" or "better publicity" plans.

Sianz.

More fun to the "to do list".

Jiahe is so..... Jiahe -_-"

Things that I have done in hall.

1. Finished with my photography page (2 days of hard work)

Birthday and Wedding packages, finalised.
And this time, I "invited" everyone on my friends list to help me boost up the "fan" number, to make it look nicer so at least when external people see, the page "look" Pro-er". Now looking back... haha.. I wonder how I have 900+ friends.... just by taking photos (it was 800+ before first FOC camp). I told myself not to add anyone already so I can conclude that "camera" = friend.

And I spent some time to read up on copyright issues of the use of music in video. It's super messy. Anyway, I have concluded to use the "future investment" mentioned below if I ever need to create a video montage. It's super cool anyway, so I think it will be worth it.

Investment already made:
upgraded my multiply account to "premium" so that "1 click download" option is available.

Future investment:
a website that can create professional videos. (but it's US$200+ for a year, see how bah)
below is a 30 second limited preview, which is free.



(updated: Some days ago, upgraded... unlimited time, but low quality)

2. Complete my committee planning for work allocation, throught email. - Hope everyone do their little amount of work and 天下 will be 太平 ：）

Done up a Facebook page, with pictures and video, survey.... simple yet not easy. Anyway, it's done.

Ok, shall just note down these for now.

and I am staying in hall to do all these...
I want to get out!! Hope some gatherings pop out then I will be "forced" to get out.
It just doesn't feels like a holiday... yet.....

2nd day was okay, 2 more "old" friends came back to join in the camp, but then, they were not in my group so didn't have chance to really talk to them... anyway, after the camp with lack of sleep and tiredness, I've got flu!

Anyway, it's going to be another count down of 3 more days before it recovers.

There's many many things to do. And each day, I just have to clear it one by one bah.

For today, I have finished up the design of my name card, uploaded the 2 days of photos online, upgraded my multiply account to "premium" (US$19.95) so now my "future" customers and friends will be able to download full quality pictures just from 1 link instead of many many links, for just 1 year.... ok this is a investment.
(hope I really don't invest too much. dot dot dot 血汗钱 leh Jiahe....)

And this is my future name card!!

The front




And the back.



And works that's left....
1) to learn 4 stuff, Adobe premium Pro and After effects, Solidworks, and Maths 4.
2) My OEC (overseas camp) planning, to be cleared by this holiday.
3) My photography writeup, packages improvisation.
4) My IPPT training.
5) .... add next time, anymore of these will make me emo.

Because my nose was running, I can't go for my ex-photographer boss' training... today suppose to follow him for a wedding shoot in Sentosa, and tomorrow morning 5 am till afternoon, for another Actual day wedding shoot. (but it's not paid so it's considered lessons for me in exchange for my pictures haha)

Anyway, I will be back in hall on Sunday night.

And I shall leave hall now to visit my parents....

I went back with the intention of seeing old friends.

But there's none..... not that there's no friends, it's just that there's no "ex-comm" old friend in my group.

Anyway, here's a picture of my group.



Still quite fun bah.

haha... it looks like my life's karma pattern is such that I lose touch with "friends" every period of time.....
since the time I know what is the meaning of "friends" from primary school.

From time to time, those that I want to see always get "lost" in bunches.

Maybe I think too much....
good night world.

Good night Jiahe....

The study room in my hall.



It's interesting to see that there's actually still quite a number of people who still staying in hall because of exams. Or at least, there's people whom I know... yet not really know (haha)

anyway, last night I had a good supper with my roomie.



It's always interesting to see people.
Especially after being "cave" in NTU for so long, or in my hall to be exact.

I came to 80% sure of something, yet 80% of the times, I am wrong.
ha. See if I every get to confirm the 20% bah. It will be interesting :)
(6 Dec, +10% to each category, seems like more there's people who knew something before I did -_-)

Ok I am going to test Jiahe's memory by not writing anymore, so I can have some challenge guessing what I am trying to say at this moment.

Anyway, it's not important, so it's okay hahaha :P
Been "slacking" through the whole day, took a 1 hr nap so carefreely. I better go back to my "full force" mode and not wander around anymore with my notes and "laptop" in front of me.

OK to infinity.... and... whatever.
K off :)

AhhHHh!! 3rd paper down... last one on Monday morning.
Been here on this great NTU island for quite sometime already...
I feel like a local overseas student...

counting back.... I think since this week, I am already in...
lost touch with how long I've been here...
But I guess that's at least 4 weeks bah -_-"

At least I had a feel of how it is like to be an overseas student like my China roomie...
just that I am the only "overseas student" of my own country around.... or maybe a few visits now and then by my Malaysian ex-neighbour from lvl 6 of my block, and 1 house visit to my ex Singaporean roomie's room.

This weekend... hai...



looking at the doggie makes me want 1 too....

Ok, today's paper was... lucky I hope. With the lousy belief "to calm yourself down" that "whatever you don't know, won't come out" faith. I went into the war ground.

It was so "facts" twisting and untwisting intensive, that even with my "Triple" power mode, I can only manage to read thru 1/2 of the materials 2 times (2nd time is reading of my personalized summary), and the other 1/2..... just once.... and forgotten most of it.

This is the "Jiahe-rised" summary for "max" efficiency revision (for Jiahe only?? dunno :P)






Imaging.... this is just 2 page, out of the 30 page.... of summary.
And what's even more power.....

I haven't got time to "read" even the other 1/2 of the lecture materials......
that means.....

at this rate, I will be "generating" another 30 pages of "summary".... if I've got the time (which I don't, so I can only "read thru" before I go for exams.

and this is supposed to be in "NTU's Engineering student's memory".

Per Module.

Per Semester.

(and we have at least 5 modules per semester. WOW didn't know I am so "POWERFUL" as well despite the fact that I am pushing the "bell curve" up!)

HOW TO DO THAT SIA! that's why I always tell my friends, who could "eat" these kind of things in, that they are really "good". And they should treasure their "ability".

Anyway, as I was saying, the "Triple" combo move may be health damaging, so it's still better not to stretch myself to this level.

But it's still effective, if I really need it. Here's goes the "summary" for myself to refer to in future :)

1. Combo drink - Coffee reduce to 1/2 a pack to reduce side effects. (still working fine for now)
2. the soft copy "summary" while-I-study method - To counter the "forget whatever Jiahe study syndrome".

Firstly - it force me to understand before I continue
2ndly - sure forgot everything after studying.... no scare no scare! Summary is ready!! :)

and the last one... which is finally solved.
3. The sleep issue.

Auntie Sew has always been surprising me with "power" items.
Liang Tehs, barley drinks, Ling Yang Drinks. And now....




This thing is pOwErDeRfUL sia!!
And I have been looking for this "smell"... since I left my JC.... 6 years ago!!?
(wow now that I counted, I realised I am super old -_-)
oh ya back to the place of the smell...

Guess what!
It's actually the smell of the deodorant... from my LT5 toilet!
(ha the reason I can remember it is because, the smell is "lemon barley" flavoured, and it can't be smelled anywhere since I last left! Been "missing" that smell for so long already.. haha :P

Then guess what again...
This bottle contain.. what Jujube Date extract and Camomile and some oil, actually smell even better than this "toilet"!!

It's a stronger smell, super similar to that of "lemon", and when sprayed on my pillow, it makes every breathing in "enjoyable". Super COOL! Then I fall into "deep sleep", I think I indirectly did the "Yoga" breathing thing haha :P

Thanks Auntie Sew... now my exam life is "in control" for now. At least now that I found a way to "max" awake, "max" effective studying and the "max" rest "combo". It shall be used again :P

Oh ya, anyway, I've added a wish list to my previous wishlist.

1. A new "desktop" to replace my laptop's workload. And now it must come with "Windows 7" and touchscreen. My efficiency for processing photos will then be at "max" speed as well!
(ha seems like I kana the "max" virus today... I ran at "max" speed today (10:37) and did my "max" number of pull ups of this year as well.... today :P)

Anyway, I learnt a new lesson..... today.


If I try my best, there's actually a "bester" waiting for me. So don't stop trying.

1. When I try to study at my "max" concentration, I realised that my concentration level is not as short as I thought.

2. When I try to stay awake because I've got a purpose, I realised that I won't fall asleep, even if I am tired.

3. When I try to run at my "maximum" speed at the start, I realised that I can still end with my "maximum" speed at the end, if I just try my "maximum".

The key word is "if I just try". And not only that I must understand this, I must "accept" and believe in it too, in order to succeed.

Ok, Year 3 was fun.. so far....

2 more exams to go!

Ok maybe it's not so fun... yet :P

K 加油 加油 加油！!

Glad I manage to "lived" this far :)

I still have 1/3 of the whole lecture to go... better put in more effort.

Oh.. and looking at my friends' facebook pictures and saw the places they went around really makes me want to go "out" and see the world....

Norway looks so nice.... and with a great BUNCH of friends there, it looks ULTRA fun!

QY! Life's fun over there ah! :)

This post is super time wasting.....
but I really really want to remind myself of the great life I have in NTU.
Here's how I try to study my 4 slides, out of the MANY MANY slides I need to "eat".




Maybe I am really stupid or what.

Anyway......
Engineering slides in NTU rocks.

Today, my 可爱的 Grandma went up to heaven.
Shall visit her one of these days.

In less than a centuries time, I shall hear her say, in Hokkien....
"吃饱了没, 要喝水吗？" again.....

Provided that I am a good boy and I go heaven too :)
She's really a very very nice Ah Ma and I am glad for her presence around for my 23 years on Earth.

See ya Ah MA!!
(Anyway, I have dreams in HD quality every night since like.... dunno when. I wonder if I will see her tonight.... I hope so!! Too bad I can't "download" if it really happens. Anyway, I really think too much haha.... ok study for now bah!)

I keep "hai"ing through the afternoon, after a meal, and although I do feel the tiredness (standard feeling from digesting the food), I can still keep awake and continue to do my studying.

haha, it's all thanks to the 3/4 packet of coffee "combo" drink this morning.

"hai"ing most probably means I am "down"or "sad", or something to do with these feelings, as what I've understood while revision through super ??? topics and modules for the previous years. But I guess this "combo" drink is really able to remove the "emotions" part, which I still couldn't figure out why there's such a effect (didn't even hear anything about this from news or anywhere).

haha, maybe a breakthrough research piece of data from the "caveman" Lim here?

ha, no choice but I need to become a robot for today...
cos I can't afford to be inefficient like the past 2 days, trying to test without the combo drink....

一切顺其自然。
Through these years, it's interesting to note that some conclusions came to agree with the teachings of 孔子，庄子 and what other Mr 子s.
(Maybe I am 老夫子。。 哈哈）

never mind that for now.
Exams tomorrow!
Jia you :)

ha, today, I just found out that there's actually people who stalks "this" place too. Often or not, I don't know. But even if it's 1 time, it's still "stalking" if you see the defination below.

defination of stalker: Someone who prowls or sneaks about
and the defination of sneak: To go stealthily

I am not "stealthy" at all since I showed myself everywhere and left big hints around.

You know, most information (about me) is not available in the "market" easily, and compiled together. And this "stalker" happened to know a few things about me which "she" didn't realised when she told me. But then again, if the info is gotten from somewhere else, eg: some other stalkers, then she won't read this post.... Anyway, it's doesn't really matter haha :P
Hmm.. actually it's interesting to know how "information" can be "stalked" out from people nowadays, Facebook, friends, etc... :)
haha, now something interesting for me to think: Is there's another "Jiahe" stalking me? haha! It will be so fun to know if there is, but "stalking"... so I won't know. Sianz. No fun liao -_-
And to Ms Stalker if you are really here:
"ha, go stalk your boyfriend la haha :P"

haha, is Stressy standing?
It all depends on how we look at it.
I am learning to look at life from different angles, and to accept life from all these angles.
2 years ago, I would have died in piles of notes if I am left alone in my hostel room for just less than a day.
Good that after so long, I am "totally fine", and it's been almost 2 weeks, morning till night, then my roomie returns at night to entertain me haha :)

For the picture above.
I choose to believe that he is.....

still head standing :P

My energy's drained.. don't know if it's the result of being unable to recall much from my brain that affects my emotions, or it's the other way....

No matter which way, it's not good for studying. Nothing went in and nothing came out either.

Yesterday, I went down to shifu's Martial Arts' School's celebration at a restaurant in Tanjong Pagar complex, as he really hoped that we will be there to "give" support, knowing that we are having exams. Although I am very very tired, it was still a worthwhile and fun trip as they are really a bunch of entertaining people to be with. Hope it's a good "break" for me, I hope....
(am losing the "happy feeling" again.. don't know if it's the effect of not having the "combo drink"... which I tried not having for the past 2 days.)



Now to think back, They always appear to be "smiling at me" so carefree-ly. I wonder if I am the only one placing myself in "my own world".
If I am placed together with them and someone else is taking a photo, can I do that?
Most probably can't I guess.... haha ._.

For now, I just tried to listen to some new instrumental music, hoping it will pull me back....
Jiahe ran out of tricks to make me happy already...

Being alone in a room is not good, but it's not a option either.
anyway, now I felt better because...

Jon Schmidt piano music is nice.

:)

The 1 cup "combo drink" per day, is making me "super charged". My brain feels like a "CPU" more than like a self controlled brain...

The good

I can feel and understand exactly every single emotion/ reaction from the body.

I know when it's bored, when it's drifting off or whether concentration level drop....
and the thing is: I can pull it back up just by a "command".
I make decisions fast, without emotions. I behave as if... I had enough sleep (which I have always wished for)

but....

The bad

I can feel everything, even the body's tiredness, but I couldn't fall asleep at nght for at least 1 hour too...

My hand is trembling...

I take in lesser amount of air per breathe, usually this will make me even more tired, but now I can just feel tiredness, but wide awake...

it feels like I am converting "health points" to "Mana Points" like some game.
Most probably it's because I don't used to drink coffee as I thought coffee will give such "side effects" and now it have a "maximum effect" on my body now.

Anyway, now since I can "think" at 100X faster. The decision that I make is faster and easier, and it's strangely "unaffected" by emotions this time. (it's the coffee's effect I think... weird..)

This would have been a tough decision when it's the normal me, but now...

for one of the modules that I am retaking: MC for Maths 4.

Reason: It's too near my core, and I haven't digested it yet, at all.
Initally the plan was to study it before this Semester even started. But due to my commitments, be it work, for my CAC's Orientation Camp, here and there.....

I didn't manage to study it at all.

And this sem: All Maths classes clashes with my Core, and I end up having no time to study on my own again.

So there's some problem with the "planning".

So now, I shall start a new "war" plan.

1) Every now and then in future, the "combo drink" can be used to quick charge up, so I can start doing a "summary" of the module, to be "recalled" for reading before exams.

2) Maths 4 shall be "conquered" again next Sem, with a properly decoded "Jiahe teaching style" summary ready, when my Sem 2 doing Industrial Attachment (IA) finishes.
And the summary shall be use in Yr 4 Sem 1.

3) The current war plan is to: Conquer all the rest of the "4" core modules. And I mean, conquer, not just attack. Point 1 will aid you... I hope.

Ok, and unlike last timeS...
the war plan shall be here even before the war finishes, to let me remember how come such a decision is made.








haha, it's not meant for others to digest it, but if you think my "plan" can provide some entertainment, then read loh :P

Ok, now to continue :)

The combination drink, for exams.




The chocolate, that's to "activate happiness". (180 ml of water)
And the coffee, which keeps up the length of concentration longer. (150 ml)

三碗水，煮成一碗水

Combine in a cup. ( about 330 ml?)

Still studying the logical theory modules for exams, so far so good. (if it works it's going to be used for next 2 sems in Yr 4)

Hope it still works when I switch to Maths 4 later in the evening.....

I'll just have to write out my problem.
and after a 10 min nap...
it's solved :)

New resolutions.

1. I shouldn't look down on myself because I can still see improvements ahead, just that it's out of reached.

2. we build on one another's success, that's what makes the world fun to live in. We don't have to be able to do everything just to complete a task. That's why we have friends and colleagues :)

3. my photography is not stagnant yet, I still have 2 more things missing before I can "try" taking the "intended" photos. And photography is good, and there's a reason why you had interest.
You shouldn't forget why you like taking photos: You wanted to preserve your memories remember? =)

so something to look forward to:

1) it's another DSLR, to be used together for events attached with
2) a AF-S DX NIKKOR 35mm f/1.8G (on 19/11, I may consider sigma 24mm f/1.8, but the size is -_-)

It's like a wishlist, but PLS DON'T BUY FOR ME by pooling as a present because this is my personal "motivational" list.

And I will "try" to win the 1st item when I am more free, and buy the 2nd item when I've got it.
(or I will just buy the 2nd item and start shooting, to increase my chance of "winning" the 1st item)

Whatever you are going through now, just do whatever you can. Try your best and see what happens :)

(zzz monster I hope you can wake up your idea too and leave my emotions alone)

I will be a happy human being once I can sleep properly again... so I will try all means and ways to sleep properly and become a stronger person.

And being happy, you will get a "bigger brain". So you'll be able to remember more stuff. Isn't that good?
And being able to remember more stuff = higher chance of passing exams, and you should be happier!!
so study whatever you know first, and ask whatever you dunno.....
Simple :)



I say: forget about this curve.
It's never easy to be able to control "stress".




this will be much easier to understand :)

So 加油 Jiahe!
(haha, crazy self talks again from the crazy jiahee =P)

Last night, the plan was to sleep at 2.23am, then wake up at 9.30am.

A total of 7 hr, 7 min. (that's shown on my hp alarm just before I slept, nice number so easy to recall)

Then when I woke up for the first time, it was to stop the alarm clock.
And I went back to sleep "a while" more.

Then the 2nd time I woke up, it was 11.44 am.
This means I have slept for another 2 hr 15 min.

Of course this "long" timing means that I have been "trapped" in dreams again.
But this time, I'm thinking if there's any meanings behind it.....

Inside the dream, many people appeared, but I can only remember the last person, it was Mr Ham in my hall, going in and out of my block's level 5 (girls level) door, and I was at level 6 (I used to stay there) when I saw him. The "fact", that I manage to bluff myself is: his gf is studying in NTU and he's here to visit. (totally false).

But through this, I am guessing that... my inner Jiahe really wished.....
to go out and see some friends...
But I am using "physical" strength to trap him in NTU... and do something that is seriously.... antagonizing.
Most of the modules is turning him off slowly because the sheer amount of "facts" to remember is simply, too much.
(at least, not the type which is easily adsorbed by him)

I hate looking down on people, no matter what. Unless it's their character that has problem.
But now, I think I am looking down on myself... and that's pathetic....
I've heard many times before, that there's people who's not good with studying, but are excelling out there. So grades doesn't determines everything.

But that doesn't seems motivating or even assuring to me.... I keep linking myself to some failures that I couldn't do in life.
Even with the stuff that I can do, like I manage to entertain myself with a another video creation, I will end up putting a wet blanket over myself and come up with stupid conclusions on my "things I enjoy doing" like....

1. The video is nice, not because of me. The reason why the video is good is because, the composer of the music is good, and the video programme which is made by other, is powerful. You have no credits. Anyway, it's a useless skill....

2. you think you photos can earn you a living? It's just that the camera is good. Anyway, it's still a question mark if anyone would "really want" to hire you as a photographer, even if you just want it to use it as a part time job if you really think it can be done... have you managed to compare your pictures with other professional "photographers" yet? How do you know if yours standards are enough to work?
you might as well just play with your camera and take pictures for your own, forget about this "job" thing.

I can't believe that I actually believe these at some point of time. Why will I "look down" on myself like that when I will not do such a evil thing to others....

what the hell 林家禾.

Have always been trying to remind my friends to endure through these 4 years, it will be good training despite the stress. But now I am losing faith as well... although I'm trying to motivate myself too with what I say to others..

Maybe after today, I shall study with some friends, and talk a bit to humans.
I realised that most thing I've written here, no one else would know about it because I won't say.

And now, I dunno if I am like living in this stupid world of my own.....
bluffing myself that I am happy, when I am not, and I actually believed that I am happy.
I am so tired now, although it's like 9 hours on the bed.



whatever.
I shall continue my reading alone.

I am someone who likes to learn everything.
It all comes from this saying, passed down from my Ah Gong, to my mum, then to me....

拿起手，就会做。

these words have been really useful, and I will pass this on.

Some people can learn faster, some learn slower....
but now I've realised that there are some things which can't be learnt...

Limit breaking...
been 叹气ing many times a day while I study...

shall just endure and hope you don't die on me Jiahe...
there's still many other stuff that's waiting to be done... after the exams so jia you!!!
(ha.. the self talk thing is back....)

You have woken up your idea, so now the new direction is.....
"not fall asleep".

Be stronger Jiahe....
You need to.

He's been reading off lots of jokes from China forums and the chinese version of Facebook (known as 校内).

Here's one that he told me when I am still stressing over my work.
according to China's Laws.

男人23岁才能结婚，
可是18岁就能当兵。
这说明了3个问题：

一是杀人比做丈夫容易；
二是过日子比打仗难；
三是女人比敌人更难对付

Time to sleep soon after laughing.....

And he's still reading off more now =P

24/10/09
Sat morning, went for Nike Human Race.
Thought that I would be able to go with some people, but ended up going alone from hall.

At 5.30am, bus 179 was not driving yet.. and those in the "rat shirt", were all taking taxi out in 4s...

So I had to cycle out to Pioneer MRT. (as if it's like mini biathlon)
Anyway, meet 2 friendly people in "rat", both were brother from NTU EEE Yr 4. And we went together.

Along the way, more and more of their friends joined in, but they keep assuring me and tried to keep me entertained, making sure I won't"emo" away on my own.

I ended up running with them for the whole journey, even when I saw other friends along the way, I didn't "jump" group.

Cos this group told me that if I don't see any friends to join, they will run with me.
And because of these words... I ran with them all the way.





Hope the pictures I gave them is a good way of thanking them for their warm-heartedness :)

After that, I found a group of my CAC friends at the end point.



I don't know most of them well, just a few of them, and the rest happen to know them through my lens. (I am taking pictures everywhere haha...)



Actually I don't feel like I've accomplished much from this 10 km run. So I just gave my band to "stressy" hoping it feels less stressed up....

ok he's still like that.

For runturtlerun I shall run.
(ok that's crap, I am running for myself, at least I ran this distance in my life on Earth so I can "wow" my grandchildren in future when I get fat in future)

I hope to run 21km.
Then finally end off with 42km.
Then that's it :)

Then Sun, I went for my first "wedding assignment" from 1-4pm.




Nowadays people are getting married younger and younger haha.
(okay not these kids getting married)


Considering the first paid shoot alone, I do get a bit stress, so I noticed that my "overall power" dropped a bit when I start talking to people. (I have to tell people where to stand)

But overall, I still did well bah..... :)
(patted my own shoulder.... haha.... no one around to know what I did so have to encourage myself a bit)


1. A "deposit" collected through ibanking, a lesson from my last great experience.
2. A "Letter of Agreement" draft out with my "Business Manager" skill from FOC....

Ok I didn't expect I am able to do such things haha!!
(Maybe I still haven't got used to this "I'm working for myself already" status bah...)

Anyway, Mon night, it was my primary school friend's Wedding.



It's great to see so many faces after 11 years. Am glad that we are still in contact :)
(I am able to recall everyone's nickname on top of their full name... then now I can't recall most of the names of people in my class within 5 seconds..... I think I have 老人痴呆症 symtoms 了....)

Then time flies when you are "enjoying" yourselves.

Tues morning got stunned and have to stress "treasury" stuff from last committee....
Afternoon in school.
Come back, planned for a 20 mins nap which ended up 45 min.
hello Good evening....!
Still trying to upload all the photos for the past 3 days again and again on the lousy NTU network....

Then Wed liao -_-
Then wed morning surprize came.
Someone contacted me through youtube and say that he would like to discuss about wedding package for his actual wedding next March.
(ok morning burnt)

Then to afternoon, lessons.
Come back hall, a 30 min nap turn out 1 hr plus again. (I observed this trend of multiplying 2 to my planned nap time...)

my body gave me this "seriously dying from lack of sleep" feeling, so I thought maybe just let it rest "a bit" more, then I got "bluffed" then I got a Knocked Out (K.O.)

Wed night, wushu last training.
Back to upload photos..

Kooo Kuu Koooo... good morning 12 am!
time to "prepare" to sleep.
(did some light lecture notes reading, then slept at 1am)


Then wake up.
Thursday loh....

Still doing project alone in hall.

Then rain comes.
Seriously bored to death.... so take picture.
Then I realise that DSLR is really powerful.



LOL I can take rain in "droplets" form.







Ok, I am always trying to express my emotions in pictures. Don't know if "the world" understand what I am trying to say with it, but at least I am able to decode most of it.

Seeing the picture above, can you tell what feeling is it?
It's a "old feeling" actually. But at least it's not as bad now after so long :P

Ok, 乖乖 Jiahe 。。。
Go study and eat dinner later.
less than 1 more month to exams.

Jia you k 小家禾。。。

Today is a Monday, a makeup Holiday for Deepavali.
And I am supposed to be the photographer for NUS's Ministerial Forum, which is a fun thing!

And it all turn to naught, when I woke up this morning....

Shall just use 3 pictures, to summarize, and remind myself.










haha I wonder if he's really sorry about that :P

This situation was mentioned lots of times before, in a very good local forum, but I thought I won't fall into this kind of situation.

Even universities students, are not trustworthy nowadays, and that's patheric.... and considering the fact that I talk to this person 2 times and he was one of the "director" of NUS Political Association, and knew him for 1 year already -_-"

But I am glad that this "small" thing happened to me early.... now I have extended the "benchmark" of people, and on the bright side, I also had the night freed for my school project :)

Lesson learnt:

Remember to collect a deposit, no matter how "reliable" looking a person is from their background. A stranger, is still a stranger :)

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update for the night.

I chanced upon this event by Willy Foo on Facebook, about Photo Competitions. It was from 7.30-9.30pm at Vivocity.

(Ok if you don't know him, he is the photographer for our TCS Christopher Li and Fann Wong's wedding)

So, I went out from hall to attend it, and I was so glad that I was "able" to go! He was really a smart and nice guy, who taught quite a lot stuffs which we don't normally see on the internet. And it looks like he have a "class" of fans following him around, I dunno..... yet. But I will follow him around for some time too :P

He's another good man :)

Tonight night, marks a Guinness turtle moment...

This cockroach， （international Chinese codename 小强） was resting on my quarter shorts, which was hanging on my hanger.

I've always hate to see 小强 around...

Firstly, 我佛慈悲，善哉善哉. (wo fo ci bei, shan zai shan zai...)
Translation: My buddha is kind... then I don't know what's the last 4 means haha.)

2ndly, capturing 小强 with a plastic bag is impossible, unlike all the rest of the insects.
3rdly, I will d i e if 小强 can fly....

I turned around and asked my roomie if he dares to catch it with hands.
He said:" 用纸巾吧..."

Use tissue, then it's GG (Good Game) for 小强 already lah....
So I ask myself, for the last time.... to use hands.

...........

Buahahahaa.... I have conquered my last fear and added one more into my "cute insects" series.

Now I am......




haha =P

With internet.... this means, I am not home. But with 2 years of "Pulau NTU" training, I have sort of, got used to this feeling. I don't feel "alone" and if it's not much of a choice, then so be it.
Work is piling up and if I am not the smart type, I better be the hardworking type.

Just a summary of what I have done.
For my photography, I have done 3 weddings now already, although it's "free" ones, the hong baos (red packets) the experiences and the pictures I got for myself, is worth it.




Alex and Hui Fen's wedding.
26 Sep, Sat 10pm , till 27 night dinner, 10pm.

This was my first full day wedding (24 hr), it was from my friend who helped me looked out for weddings.
And this wedding was from my friend's sister's friend who's getting married.

I got a hong bao of $20+$20+$20,
Not forgetting to mention the 1 bowl of Bird Nest, 2 bowl of Shark Fin and 3 small Abalone that my table of 8 person, fed me with.
(okay I don't waste food haha :P)

then Alex passed me a $50 to thank me as well.
So a total of $110. It's considered a great surprise already, for someone who expected nothing :)

Not forgetting the memories from the great family.

Thank you Auntie Sew :)

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then the next Wedding.
I am not the "main photographer" (again)

And that what makes me more "powderful", in my way :P




It was a 2 day thing,
Sat morning, the tea ceremony.
The first photographer from Essential photography, is a good man.
His name is Helmi (I will try my best to remember good people of the world)
This is the first time I've seen someone using the same "skill" as mine.

The "through the lens aiming" skill.

Ok, I know most probably you dunno what this means.

In picture form, this means....



I am able to take pictures like "this".
(actually anyone can, just whether you dare to try or not)

This photo is taken by my friend during my hall's DnD.
(and my friend was actually in my firing range haha)

My hand still can't handle more than 5 "moves" of angles in all x-y-z axis (full 3D rotation LOL!), after all the training I have went through.

So now I went online to find out how much "stress" I am actually giving my fingers.

This "cannon" consist of 3 main parts.

The body itself, the lens, and the flash.
703g with battery, 434 g and 300g

Oh....
so the total is: 1.437 kg.

Compared to my previous 2 cameras
FZ18 - 407 g
LX3 - 229 g

It's at least 3 times heavier.
No wonder :P

Back to the wedding shoot with Helmi.
ya, I noticed that I have something different.
I believe in training 1 hand operation, and as "lightweight" as possible. (Helmi uses a battery pack to make the camera heavier, so more stable)

He uses “P mode" while I use "M and A" mode most of the times.

The 2nd day evening, it was the dinner.
But the 2nd photographer was not as friendly.
But he holds my "dream" combination.
2 DLSR with 2 lens.
1 so called the "1X to 10X" zoom range, while the other is my 50mm prime lens.
beat me flat.

But this unfriendly photographer have more "stunned" (and perhaps unhappy) photos.
He literally points his cannon into kids face and "shoot" them -_-

But he also uses the "through the lens aiming" skill

But this time, his "trigger happy" speed is faster. (I think he's faster than me)

So to summarize the things that I've learnt from these 2 days.

1) My "self created" skill is used too!! (that assure myself a bit of my "skill")
2) It seems like I am able to tell what the rest of the photographers are doing. This means.... my ex-boss taught me well haha :P

No hong baos this time, it's for my cousin so even if he gives, I won't take.
Kinship explains it all :)

Then the next wedding, on a school day's evening. Tuesday, 6 Oct 09.

Wedding of Goh Chee Wee and Adeline.




the great buffet at Goodwood Park Hotel made up for my trip down :)

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Ok, so much "fun" for my "job".

But for my studies, there's "nothing much".
A Maths quiz, which I only manage to study less than 1 topic out of the 2 topic, not to mention that it's "da bao-ed" subject. But heng.... my friend helped.

yup, and tomorrow is a Sun.
I hope I start off with a good night tonight, so tomorrow I can wake up happy to do work.
(anyway, today I did most work, but none related to school work)

And now, I am my hall's OEC chairperson.
(nothing much to do one, but still, it still a role. haha.... Hope I won't die again bah)

Ok now.

jia you.... Jiahe

The pictures that I took during the 168 couple wedding at Botanic Gardens.



As for the rest, I will just wait for my friends to help boost the "fan" list, so if some people wants to hire me, they can see that at least I still have "fans" haha.

That's about all that I am contributing for that page. Jiahe is nudging me to do school's work.

If there's lobang, then have. Dun have, then dun have.

.....ya agreed by Jiahe too :)

There's more people turning to using Facebook to advertise :)
And one of my same age friend's wife, has also set up her online clothes shop!

& they've got a cool name as well :)

"Wardrobe Desiree"

The upon going into their profile pic, I realised that they TOO had the same design versions as me. LOL!!

One with black, then one with white background.
haha, I wonder who designed their logo haha :P
(it's not me just in case you're thinking)

Anyway, the model shots are very well taken!
(LOL looks like Jiahe is more interested in the pictures rather than the clothes :P)

Wonder if I will have the chance to take such pictures in Singapore.
iT will Be sO Co0L!!!

Last time almost had the chance, cos my other secondary school friend was trying to open up a online clothes shop as well. Told him that the picture are too cui, and he still want me to help photoshop and improve on those photos....... he really thought photoshop 万能.

In the end, also dunno where his shop go.

So I thought, if we really want to set up a online shop, even if the advertising is free, it shouldn't be slipshod. It's should still look decent, if not, professional. Cos it's still a business, and it's still a shop afterall!

Ok, my "shop" is declared "decently" up too :)
With 5 more albums of pictures in there for advertisement.

For now, I am left with wedding pictures of "my own" to put up....




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This weekend it's gonna be a fun-filled one for me, not to mention that it's a long one somemore...

(although another side of me wished that it's wasn't that all packed with fun.... cos the other part of me really really wanted to finish up his super long list of school work....)

Bringing my wife out along with 3 lens for 3 different purposes.

Later, Sat night, Wushu outing to see a "1 year once" Wushu competition (or performance?) at Kallang.

Since our VP of wushu manage to get ticket free of charge, most probably it will be very very very far away from the stage......
So the zoom lens 70-210mm will be used.
(the 250 doLLar lens)

Tomorrow Sunday.
Initially have got a Lobang from my future wedding shoot "Art Director".... a $7 photographer job at Botanical Garden... TO TAKE PICTURES OF 100 WEDDING COUPLES for some record!!!

But too bad, in the end, they said they have enough people already.
But that's not going to be it......

I am going there myself HAHAHA!!
this time, will use my 2nd a 50mm prime lens (F/1.8) which I call it my "journalistic lens".
(and, exclaiming to myself: "Guess what! I just realised that some pro shares the same "theory" as me!!)
(the 160 doLLar lens)

Then Monday holiday....
My CAC orientation Group has another outing!
But now they are going to some place to K (karaoke session) at Paya Lebar.

Going to be there to listen to music and take some photos.
Ok, will take out the 3rd 17-50mm F/2.8 lens for the so called " 1-6X optical zoom"
(the 420 doLLar lens)

My "wife" quite a investment sia.
Now you know why photographers have so many different lens, and I am considered the "least expensive" freelance already.

Ok that's it for now.
I still have to quickly make 1 video for my hall's birthday boy or it will be really sad for him to make his own video -_-
(I know I don't have time but I've decided to make for him cos he's quite a nice person who always make video memories for his friends too.)


Ok, work hard, play harder, work even more harder again!
:)

I still remember the day when this little cutie just "popped out" of nowhere when I was in school, queueing up with my FOC orientation Group for Pin Guan's campus concert.

When I realised it's existence, it was already resting on my arm and I dunno who put him there -_-"

After so long, I still don't know his name, but since he always look like that....
I decided to call him Stressy.

He shall be on my table to always remind me that I should try to stress on my school work.....

Today's evening, I have a photo assignment at NUS.
Took out my equipments for a check.

And here...
Stressy is reminding me that besides work, I still have my piles of notes to be cleared.

Thanks for being there to stress the point Stressy :)


I will work hard.

This is how the first version looked like.

The later, I thought black background looks cooler.
So it's changed :P



the link to this Facebook Page

For now, I only inform my ex-FOC committee people. So it's 26 people who knows it for now.

Give comments/criticise lots if you can k. I don't plan to ask all my friends to become "fans" cos I think it's lame. Anyway, shall not "announce" it yet since it's not really done.

Maybe I shall upload a "introductory video" about what I do, then it's considered about done.

haha...
work work.

Saturday long awaited videography workshop...... turned down....

and Primary school BEST friend birthday celebration...... turned down too.......

Hai.....

Due next Monday.....

A lab report.

Project presentation for 3 person..... doing alone......

8 lessons of online lecture = 16 hours = 32 "Jiahe" hours required......

And I haven't touched Maths 4 module since school started.....




..........

Yesterday, I was "invited" by my freshie to see their investiture.
As usual, I don't like the idea of sitting still for 4 hours doing nothing, so my camera was there as well....
haha :P


This year, I have made a decision to step down from everything.
Anything that require work, I am not part of it.

And this year, I have 4 person asking me for advice, if they should take up a ExCo post.
(wow this digit 4 made me look like some ultra wise senior LOL~!)

Ok, actually only 3.
The 4th person, I didn't "advice" much cos this person ask me about JCRC position. (and it's ultra random cos I haven't been in JCRC before and this person is asking a lot of opinion.... which is like ^_-???
Anyway, this person didn't try to run for any post after that -_-")


The other 3, a freshie, a 2nd year, and a 3rd year friend.
Now to think back, so funny.
It feels like.......
How come I suddenly like "highly respected"? (ask me for advice? haha :P)
Did I do anything "powerful"....? I am not part of the ExCo before.... Maybe I have serious 轻人痴呆症.
(light people amnesia?)

If I think harder.... I am at least still someone who tried to went in 1 year ago and sort of know what is it about, so other people asking me, it's still normal haha.

Ok cut the crap liao.

The main thing I want to remind myself is:

Hardwork is not something that can conquer everything.
Look before you leap, and never leap if the step is too big.

My legs have certainly transported me "higher than average" speeds for the past 2 years, with all the mad rushes around school.




Looking at how each pieces was passed on, and put up, it certainly feels..... quite funny.
I've been the club's photographer for 1 whole year now, and I, and my cameras, have watched this previous batch got in, and out. (and this reminded me about that time, when I am also running for the position, but ended up somewhere else... without even interview haha!)


I hope this new batch of people will pull through, as judging from all the things that they have done (and seen by my camera), it's really not easy.




Wait till I recover from all the tiredness.
reading back on my plan, 1 year ago.....

Maybe I'll consider again in Year 4.

haha........

再说吧 :)

It feels like I have done a lot of stuff this week, but it seems like it's not dedicated to school work at all -_-"

At this rate, I will really be gone.
So before I forgot, I shall just set goals and type it down.

Goals

Time wasters (reduction programme)
1. Facebook (once per day, 10 min at most maximum)
2. ....... huh I dun have any other entertainment already -_-"

To REALLY increase effort
1. Concentrate on completing my projects (3 of them this sem, it's piling up)
2. Maths 4 (unable to attend the clash lectures, and this means I have to study myself)
3. Shall add on more if needed

And before I continue, I think I should drop some initial goals that doesn't seems to get anywhere due to certain constrains.

1. Photography - Wedding shoots

It's rather impossible now before I can get my first set of "advertisable" pictures of my own, to be put on the page, so Si Si, it seems like the partnership of "photographer-digital imaging Artist" combo cannot be carried out this semester. Will see if I get lucky to have someone (or relatives) to take photos , at least a free one, so I can start a online portfolio.

2. Birthday shoots

If my photo studio Boss really pass me some birthday celebration requests, then I take loh. If not, time will be dedicated to my school work.... which I haven't done much yet.


Another thing I must tell myself (cos I can't just put all the blame to Jiahe, cos it's not totally his fault, later he depression then Jiahe is responsible...)

Long long time ago, a planned "8 hours sleep" can last a day, while a 6 hours sleep can be easily topped up by having a 1 hour nap, and the body and mind lasts as good.

Now the situation is different.

Lack of "quality" sleep seriously spoils all mood and concentration to study, no matter how hard I try.....
Anyone knows how to have a less dramatic dreams at night or not......
Most of my dreams are making use of 100% of my brain power..... and some unreal "problems" that I encounter in there are seriously making me rEaLLy emotionally frustrated -_-

I just made a mini version of " End lousy dream v1.1" (cos I lost it when I formatted my com last time... and I dunno how come this link was gone as well -_-)
Put it to use last night.... it manage to "wake me up" a few times, but doesn't seems to have positive effects.

I hope I can wake up my idea soon.....

Today when I go for dinner alone (as usual), I actually took the effort to avoid 2 groups of block people who are not people from my block.
I thought to myself, since when I became so anti-social...

then some familiar phrase popped up.....

I wonder if I have reached some nivana level and understood the "need to cut down the social circle".

Okay......
If I can get a square happy already :)
(as if I got even a square..... oh ya, my laptop.....)

Oh, and I just had a Orientation Group gathering with my FOC 09 group, at someone's place.

And she had a pet!



Guess what....
It's name is called 乌龟 haha!!

乌龟 is bigger in real (It's at least a palm size opened)
Totally Big and cute.
Just too bad the owner is at home or I'll take 乌龟 out for a walk....

Ok that concludes the post......
I am weird.

I just randomly chanced upon my freshie's blog, and he was going to write about "personal improvement" to help others improve their character. I thought that was a good initiative to help others, and also, for self reflection to help yourself.

Now as I am eating 3 pieces of peanut butter and berries and chocolate bread, I reflected on last night lousy dream...

I wonder when will I recover from my "overexertion" of my pea brain....

Anyway, last night I helped my friend to complete the shoRT speech, which took that person 4 hours and it's not even 1 page full.

Seeing this friend like that, reminds me of the me, 4 years ago.

A person who wants to try to be self sufficient by learning to be strong.

2 years in army and 2 years in NTU.
I am now....

ok whatever~ I think I am going to be late for class -_-"

心血来潮 haha!

Shall just end with a quote from Uncle Lim:


You will be strong if you are not afraid to show how weak you are to others.
What's face?
It can be eaten haha :)

There's a Hokkien saying.

Kiang Jiu Hou, Mai Gei Kiang.

I add one more:
Bueai Kiang?
Then just anyhow dOnG DoNg QiAnG :P
(I don't mean to "wayang" okay, just try your best and you will learn something for sure :))

k...
I declared myself officially late for 5 mins of lecture -_-"

Every "period" that I didn't update this place, it means there's events that is big enough to zap me off my mood or energy to update....
Since the past week have been a crazy week, with my great nights sleeps, I've got my nose running around already :)
Mr Flu is here and now I get to wear a mask in lecture yeah :)
(ok that's lame, but start tomorrow I going to wear a mask and hide one corner)

Shall just update with pictures again.

22 Aug, Sat, I went to the studio to work.



$60 pay :)

Then Sat evening, CAC Ball at Novotel Hotel, Clarke Quay.



I walked from Chinatown to that place.
That night was enjoyable.
Although I brought my wife there, I wasn't the official photographer.
I guess this is the first time I am taking more personal photos for my friends, and for myself :)




Wow, friends with cameras are increasing, and 2 of them are like paparazzing me with my wife.


(Grabbed this pic from Facebook)
Think it's karma. Been taking too many paparazzi shots already hahaha :P

That night, many people wanted to take photo with me.
Compared to normal events, only 1-2 ask to take photos with me, so that.....
I can be in a picture LOL!
Nice of them haha :P

This time, I think maybe they knew I was leaving CAC this year or something, so wanted to take a picture with me before I "disappear"....

haha, I am resting from all the CAC events this year :P

Then Sunday came.
In the morning, I went to my nearby Anchovale CC to take a photo assigment.



It's a lunch with the old folks.
Was given a table full of yummy dishes (same food as what the rest are eating :P)
And I was given $50 for 11-2pm :)

Yeahe! I've earned a total of $60 + $50 = $110
Then I went to Sim Lim Square, bought a electronic dry box for my wife.

Then I ask for a discount.

Then yeahE!
$110 exactly all gone!
-_-"

But it's a good investment la, if I were to bring my wife to stay with me in hall, a "fungi attack" would cost $200-$300.

So it's okay :)

Then book in with my wife, lots of other stuff, and a big box worth $110.

Haven't been felling well already, so I knew Mr Flu will come soon.

Was back in hall at about 7pm.

fixed my bicycle by changing the "inner tyre". It at been at Hall 9 (1 hall away) when the whole tyre totally cui and the wheel can't even turn.

Set a goal to finish in 30min.
Took 1 hr 15 min ++ in the end to play with all the cool screws and what not.
A great Mechanical Engineering student in the making indeed..... and I am like cursing at how lousy the design of the screw is.

wah, I think I am the problem -_-
ok nevermind.

The next following day, 3rd week of school started.

I receive a corn flavoured barley drink from my Auntie Sew :)






+10 HP haha :)

Then night came soon. Was taking photos at the Wushu Welcome tea.



Was stretch a bit from cycling around back and forth from hall, cos I was too kind to help some poor soul.
(okay it's some human, not literally referring those on holiday during the 7th month...)

Anyway, Wushu welcome tea was at night.
Many came :)






Our 3 day CCA week actually attract 120 people.
This was 2 times more compared to last year!!
This time, I helped to make a video to attract more attention to our booth :P

First day - 60 sign up
2nd day - 40 sign up
3rd day (without Video) - 20 sign ups.

I am wondering how the power of publicity can affect the numbers.
So I ask those who are helping out the booth if there's anyone who stand there for the full 5 minutes to look at the video.

They say there is! LOL!
But this still doesn't tell me if the increase is due to the new publicity effort or not.

But if it is, I will be so happy :)

Anyway, here's the video which took 2 days to make, during last weekend while I was working at the studio :)




Okay need to add this also... the cool video effects which most probably you think is I my creation, is actually inbuilt in the programme. I not PRO yet to do such a cool thing haha!
I just have to select the photos and it's done.

Spent 2 days mostly on filtering the pictures out from what I have taken through the 2 years.

Just too bad I didn't have the chance to observe how the people look at the video. Think it will be fun :)

Then at night, some food appeared as a "Thank you" treat for being kind and helpful (I no choice but to help one loh!)



-3 HP but +20 happiness.

Received 2 special food today haha :P

Okay, that's the updates.

For now, still seeing if I have the time and mood to go set up my Facebook page for my "mini photography" business.
Thinking of a proper name to start with, before it's openes.

I like the idea of "speaking with pictures". That has been my way of talking for the past... dunno how long haha :P

My boss just called me to say that he may have birthday request from his side. He says he will pass it to me although it's little.....

about $100+ for 4 hours.
(And I exclaim to him:" like that alot already loh!!")

Hai, but for now, shall just turn down as much outings or what not as possible....

need to catch up with my school work and running nose.