Life's crawling faster and faster...

There's so many friends around me sending me invitation to their weddings, and I am even doing my sec school classmate's pre-wedding and ROM shoot, soon next year..

My ex-photography boss, now my friend who's constantly helping me. Gave me these words...

成家立业

要成家，才能立业.

He advices to set up the other part of my life soon too, and only with it, I will start to advance in whatever career I am in.. he says that from his experience, this will help to stabilize our thinking.

I can see where he is coming from.

In a way, I can't seem to derive any form of positive motivation anymore, unlike the me during university, where I can continue with sheer, but helpless, perseverance. I am just not suited for massive memory work which I can't make out the logic.

4 years now.. I can tell the Jiahe back then, that I have endured and finished what you set out to do... that is to complete this degree. And I have exceeded your expected "super lousy" pass with, at least... a lousy honours.
But then, I shouldn't say it's lousy, because I know that there are poorer souls who struggled even more than me, yet get back more disappointments..

life's not fair, I know.
and besides knowing it, I will remember.
and when I meet such people, I will understand.

At this point of time, I have loads of photos to clear...



This amount of photos is digusting...

My NTU classmate called me and another friend out today... without telling me it's his birthday...
it sure feels sad to know there's no one to celebration your day...

Hope this world will be a better place for everyone bah...
I hope...

阿弥陀佛。。。
放下书包，立地成佛。。。
满地烦恼。。。该喝四杯。。。

醉过醉过。。。

yeah!! I am "not" allow to do work. Since it will prolong my sickness only, and more work can't be done.



rest time :)

I think I am blaming myself too harshly for the things I forgot, the things I did wrongly, and the things I missed out every time a problem happens.. The way I screw my own mind is seriously not healthy.. and to think that I am not quite doing well in what I should be doing... That's the root of the problem for why I can't destress well at night.

I am seriously a pathetic perfectionist... pathetic.

Having wind in the face is a great feeling.. It's been long time since I had that..

The home that I've finally returned to, at least every night, doesn't seems to be as windless as what I've imaging to be... since 6 years back, I have not stayed at home for long periods, like the life now.

2 years of staying in camp during army,
and 4 years of staying in NTU for even longer extended periods, with all the self confinements.

It's 6 long years already.
I'm think I am the odd one who's broken off from the family.

I hope some group of friends will actually suggest a gathering to be at a place full of wind..

No, I don't go out with any one person.

It's weird.
Going out with a girl, it's weird.
Going out with a guy, it's weirder.
And when it's random friend who asked me out, it will sure turn out weirdest.
No longer going to catch up with any 1 person from now on.
Unless I know them too well... not many.
And none are free.


And I don't feel like going out alone.

It's emo.

......



What the turtle do you want?

... and I was on the roads already.



How fast can private Instructor get!? 5 mins of intro, and it's practical.
Great actually. I like.

Hope everything gets learn fast enough..
Driving - the art of 4 limbs

It shouldn't be much of a problem to the prawn, who have 10 over legs.