Friday, July 31, 2009

These are my firsts..
If I tag you,
it means I want to know yours too..
Copy and paste this note into your notes,
delete my answers,
and fill yours in..

Tagged by Shu Pei...

1. Who was your FIRST prom date?
I never been to a formal prom.

2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
If means my first gf,then v'd lost contact;
If means my first bf,then yes.

3. What was your FIRST alcoholic drink?
Beer

4. What was your FIRST job?
Promoter

5. What was your FIRST car?
I haven't own one.

6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
Fox

7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
Fox

8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher?
Don't remember.

9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
Never ride on the airplane.

10. Who was your FIRST best friend?
Chin Ean

11. Where was your FIRST sleep over?friend?
Don't really remember,i think it was an apartment stay with friends~

12. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?
Mummy.

13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
Should be my cousin sister's.

14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
Open my eyes

15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
Never went for one.

16. FIRST tattoo?
Don't have one,although i wanted it so much.

17. FIRST piercing?
6 year old. Got 12 in total now.

18. FIRST foreign country you've gone to?
Never ran out of Malaysia..what a pathetic life i have..

19. FIRST movie you remember seeing?
I don't think i remember,cause i'm kinda old d..

20. When was your FIRST detention?
I don't remember i tried it or not..although i wasn't a good student.

22. Who was your FIRST roommate?
A fucking bitch.

23. If you had one wish, what would it be?
I wish to get infinity wishes.

24. What is something you would learn if you had the chance?
Violin

25. Did you marry the FIRST person to ask for you/ you asked to marry?
There's no one asked me about this.

26. What was the first sport you were involved in?
Basketball i think.

27. What were the first lessons you ever took?
Erm, don't ever piss of your parents

28. What is the first thing you do when you get home?
Switch on my laptop or bathe~

29. Who do you think will be the next person to post this?
I got no idea..

I would like to tag:
-Wocky
-浪子爵
-黑暗天使
-弟弟
-benny
-alexpun
-poh yin
-ashley
-greentea

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

让我哀伤的-第九夜

‘在这第九夜
没有你的我
终于开始感到寂寞
过去这期间
我的无所谓
全都是谎言’

地点:coffee island
时间:5点37分

这首caller ringtone,
我打了一通电话,
听了一遍,没接。
鼓起勇气,再打一次。
可是,还是再听一遍,
没接。

星期一,
我也试过打给他,
可是也是没有听。
是巧合,
还是你不想接电话?

今天,
考完试后,
肚子快饿扁了。
等了紫慧一个钟头,
她终于出来了。

今天这一科,
我想repeat,
因为我的预感告诉我,
我会拿到C。
我不想让一个科目,
拉倒我的CGPA。
为什么会拿到C?

因为这个老师很变态。
我们的coursework,
他才给我C,
试问我要如何拿B或以上?

同时,我今天有一题,
好像有写错了。
考完试出来,
我本来很轻松的,
因为我对我写的东西,
蛮有把握的。。

直到。。

我的朋友提醒了我那个format,
我好像是错了。

不想了。。

然后我和紫慧不懂该吃什么?
兜着兜着,
就到coffee island坐了下来。
[之前说过,
不会给它另一个机会了,
可是看在今天有缘份上,
就再给它一个机会了。]

吃了东西,
紫慧又要上厕所了。

在她离去后,
我试着打给他,便便
因为我很想念他,
好久了,
我们都没有联络。

不懂我们是不是有误会了?
自从上一次我们本来要出去,
然后他没有出现过后,
我们再也没有联络过了。

说真的,我并没有生气他放飞机,
可是为什么,他没有解释些什么?

我不懂为什么,
我有一种不祥的预感。

是他误会我什么了?
还是我做错了什么?

我没有勇气打给他,
因为我怕,怕他说:
‘我不想跟你说话!’

为什么我会那样觉得?
我也不知道,
因为我们并没有发生什么争执 。
可是强烈的感觉告诉我,
我们之间,
出现了一些问题。

他是以为我很珍惜的朋友,
我们,出了什么问题?

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

一个人的午餐

一个人的午餐


吃了浪子爵想吃的云吞面*tengten*,
买了一罐liptop的红茶,
一个人地,走回gym room.
相伴的,
就只有红茶。
[这个有加糖的,
所以不是很理想。]


Ps,人物介绍:
浪子爵是我和wocky中学的学长,
一个整天自称‘浪子’家伙。


[喝了一口红茶,
不冰了,可是还不错。]

今天,没有考试。
本来打算去家,
抱着她一整天,
然后霸占她的电脑的。。(呵呵,邪恶)
可是呢,
早上接到她的电话,
说不能去她家咯,
因为她家有点内乱,
我实在不方便过去。。[有打战的感觉]

没办法啦,
就打算一个人到图书馆去咯,
[那边有冷气嘛]
哪里知道,
去到那边 ,
管理员说要暂关1小时,
哎。。衰*qiliang*

[再喝一口,
原来不冷过后,
就喝得出酸味了]

没有心情读书啊!
哎。。我真是没用。
现在听着的是xiah 的
Beautiful life.
紫慧介绍我听后,
我就上瘾了。*good*

跟‘零’的感觉一样,
是一首听了会上瘾的歌。
很悲伤,很忧郁。
加上我现在的心情,
还有我那罐终于有酸味的红茶 ,
赞!*good*

昨天,
wocky到prangin去拍拖,
好爽哦,好久没有那样了。
考试过后我就去吃东西,
然后wocky打来,
说她要去看harry potter,
ryu[她表妹]去。
还没有看的我,
当然吵着要去咯!
于是她就来麦当劳接我。*yamjin*

[HP让我失望了,
因为还挺沉闷的,
没有什么特别的高潮。。
而且浪子爵说它的effect不错,
我觉得只是一般。。]

Ryu四点多才放学,
于是我和wocky就到prangin闲逛先咯。
哎。。就说不可以去试衣服嘛。。
在ISOS看到一件,
很可爱,很适合我。
可是那边的衣服,
真的是贵到太离谱了,
一件上衣,既然要rm69.90*cry.r*
Wocky也看到了一件。。
哎。。可悲啊!
又要放弃另一样心头好了。。*suicide*

走着走着,
我们各自看到自己喜欢的包包。。
[也是同一档的]
哎。。不懂是不是命运的安排,
还是一样的价钱。。rm69.90*cry.r*
死心了。还是什么都不看好。*jump*

[红茶就剩下一半了,
好想买多一罐。。
可是为了减肥,
不可以!!]

在接下来呢,
就去popular闲逛咯,
又看到很多喜欢的东西啦。。
有很多可爱的书嘛。。*haixiu*
wocky一人买了一本小日记 ,
等下次写了,
就互相交换来看。。
哈哈,好幼稚哦!
可是跟他这样我就不觉得怎样,
因为他是我最爱的wocky~*paise*
呵呵。。
[有爽到吗?*yamjin*]

本来要去拍大头帖的,
可是那架比较便宜的机器居然坏了,
哎。。还是衰。。*haih*

过后本来是要载ryu了去gurney看的,
怎知道无论如何都联络不到她,
呵呵,没办法咯,
唯有放她飞机,
我和wocky在prangin看咯~
I’m so sorry Ryugene~哈哈

去看戏之前,
我们就去tako king吃,
和平常一样,
让我们等到颈项都长了,
不同的是,
昨天等了特别久,
一个小时也!
太过分了啦!
害到我们看戏都迟了,
没有看到HP的片头。

[红茶所剩无几,
剩下四分之一。]

wocky出去的时间真得过得很快,
可能是两个很无理头吧!
这个星期五,
我们又要去野餐咯~
期待!!哈哈。。*lalalal*

刚才问紫慧要不要去,
她说:
‘Tsunami要来了,
你想死我可不想,
真搞不懂你为什么那么喜欢海边野餐,
那边又热,空气又不好,
咸咸的海水味很好嗅吗?
哎。。可是。。
我知道无论我怎么说,
你都会逼我去的。。’

呵呵,
对呀!*hng*
人家难得要聚会嘛,
那时好朋友之约哦!
你以为我随便叫人去的吗?!*langzi*

我也只是叫了wocky,紫慧
达人还有而已也!
你不给面子就!*scold* *dxr*

期待星期五的约会!

可是在那之前,
我怕会死掉,
因为还有三科要考。。*jump*

[终于,也喝完我的红茶了*haih*]

又要继续读书了。。

Ps:
**里面的字,是msn的emo,
最近习惯了跟wocky还有浪子爵那样沟通,
你们ignore就好了。

Saturday, July 25, 2009

失眠论

失眠,真令人讨厌。

我身边的你们,
有失眠这个问题吗?

失眠就像便秘。

失眠时,
你会觉得痛不欲生,
因为明明已经很累,
可是翻来覆去地,
无论如何都睡不着。

就好像你便秘时,
明明肚子里已经充满了便便,
可是你就是打不出来,
那一种不能一得解脱的感觉,
是不是跟失眠很像?

失眠时,
很多东西会侵袭你的脑袋,
尤其是那些你觉得心烦的,
然后你就会越想越多,
越想就越心情浮躁,
然后你就会越睡不着。
明明你就很想把它赶出脑袋,
可是就是没有办法。。
它就像病毒一样,
不停的侵袭。。

便秘时,
你没有时间去想任何东西,
你能想的就是如何把它挤出来,
然而无论你多么努力去挤,
便便都还是坚持到底,
不肯出来。
越是挤不出来,
你就越痛,越无力,
越是如此,你就会越心情浮躁。

失眠跟便秘是不是很相似?

失眠后就算睡着,
醒来后,你还是会觉得不满足,
因为感觉上你就好像没有睡到,
因为它已经让你折腾了整个晚上。

便秘后就算便得出,
便过后,你还是会觉得不满足,
因为感觉上你就好像没有大到,
因为那个过程让你痛不欲生,
你还是会觉得你肚子里残留着便便。

失眠真是痛苦,
因为平时你不想去想的东西,
会一次过浮现出来。
也就是说,
你会把一件痛苦的事,
十倍放大的来看,
因为你那时候的精神状况,
是几乎面临崩溃的。

人在这个时候,
是很脆弱的。
因为辛苦了一整天的精神,
并没有得到休息。

那种感觉就好像。。

便秘:你便秘了很久,
失眠:[你两天没有睡觉,很累了]
然而当你在一个很重要的会议时,
[当你回到家后,]
你突然间肚子很痛,
[看见那软软的床,]
你很想立刻上厕所把它排出来,
[你很想立刻跳上去睡觉。]
可是那个会议对你来说很重要,
[可是你需要先冲凉。]
你一分钟也不可以离开,
[不然的话你的伴侣不给你睡。]
于是你选择忍耐。。
[于是你就去冲凉。。]
当会议终于结束了,
[冲完凉了,]
你便急忙的冲到厕所去,
[你便赶快跳上了床,]
你知道这次你终于可以把它排出来了!
[你知道你终于可以睡觉了!]
可是!你那一楼的厕所竟然坏了!
[可是!你却翻来覆去,就是睡不着!]
于是你便冲到楼下的厕所!
[于是你尝试吃安眠药!]
你很开心看厕所开着!
[你很开心你有了一点睡意]

于是便要快点冲进去,
[于是赶快跳上床准备入睡]
可是偏偏里面大排长龙!
[可是这时候,你的烦恼突然侵袭你的脑袋!]
你就唯有等待咯。。
[你就唯有先解决了。。]

时间一分一秒的过去。。

好不容易!轮到你了!
[好不容易!解决你所有烦恼了!]

走进去,脱裤子,坐下来
三个步骤,三秒钟完成。
[闭上眼睛,顺畅呼吸,不想东西]
当你快要把那折磨你已久的便便排出来时,
[当你好不容易要真的要入眠时,]
你老板打来告诉你说:
[你伴侣却对你说:]
‘你死去那里!还不回来做工!
[亲爱的,你再不起床,就来不及送儿子去上课咯!]
一分钟内看不到你的话,
[你又迟到的话,儿子会讨厌你哦!]
你就等着收信啦!’
[到时他会不睬你的哦!]

于是,你就把便便缩回去。。
[于是,你便乖乖起床了。。]

看到这里,
你能想象到那种痛苦了吗?

你,失眠了吗?

红茶与绿茶的分别

你比较喜欢红茶还是绿茶?

又是一个问题。

我喜欢红茶,
不加奶油或糖的红茶。

这是一种很抽象的喜欢。

我不喜欢绿茶吗?
喜欢啊!
可是我在点饮料时,
从来没有考虑过。
[除非吃日本餐,
绿茶最便宜~]
反而我看见红茶时,
我会想要试一试。

绿茶,
现在很流行,
大家都蛮喜欢的,
它有一股莫名的亲和力,
可以温暖你,滋润你,
而且很大众化。
很少人有本事,
泡得出难喝的绿茶。

红茶,
很少人会喝,
尤其是不加任何东西的。
它本身带着酸味,
还有点苦涩,
完全跟甜没关系。
虽然同样是茶,
可是我却喝过难喝的红茶。

绿茶般的爱情,
对我来说,
象征着和平,
不会有太大的风浪,
而且十分平稳。
你会觉得不会遇到多大的危险与风波,
而且,它会对你始终如一。

那样的爱情,
很多人都很想要吧!

可是,你有想过吗?
它太大众化了,
没有那种特别,
刺激的感觉。
平淡的人生,
是你想要的吗?

绿茶般的爱情让我觉得,
会比较幼稚。
因为太多人爱戴了,
所以习惯了宠溺,
一切都理所当然。
是它的错吗?
不是。因为它没有错。

红茶的爱情,
酸味很重,
当中的辛酸与苦涩,
有历经沧桑的感觉,
也只有会品尝的人,
才觉得享受。

当然有坏掉的红茶,
而且还很多。
可是我就在找寻好的,
因为找到后,
也很少人会跟你抢。

为什么要那样犯贱呢?
明明有一杯好的绿茶不要,
却要一杯折腾你的红茶?

又有谁能来决定,
绿茶一定比红茶好?
像我说的,
绿茶多数好喝,
可是红茶就不一定。

可是你有没有想过,
绿茶再好喝,
也只是那个味道;
而好喝的红茶,
就会让你回味无穷。
红茶还可以加奶精,绿茶可以吗?
我就喜欢红茶的变化无穷。


我不喜欢四平八稳,
因为人生本来就该挑战。
而且我也不喜欢大众化的东西,
因为对我来说,
自己的品味,不应该跟随他人。
其实也不能说不喜欢,
只是没有特别去在意而已。

绿茶对我来说,
太腻了,
虽然偶尔还是不错的。
可是一杯苦涩的红茶,
却有让我再尝第二杯的冲动。

所以朋友们,
当你对别人说:
‘You're not my cup of tea’的时候,
你知道自己到底要什么茶了吗?

Sunday, July 19, 2009

日本鬼节-我快乐又伤心的一天

My phone is gone.Damn it!

昨天,挣扎了很久,
才终于下定决心,
想要去日本鬼节。

原因?
因为wocky叫我陪她去,
她说她想看烟花,
而我?
我告诉她,我想看鬼。
[我觉得是因为我那么坏的原因,
现在有报应了]

昨天下午,
跟青茶去prangin,
打了我梦寐以求的耳洞,
就是在耳珠上面那块骨头上。
[真的想打很久了,
可是一直没机会与勇气。]
然后我就一直很好奇,
为什么昨天prangin那么多鬼出来吓人。

青茶说:
今晚日本鬼节嘛!
我才猛然想起,
对厚!我都忘记了。

就在这时候,
wocky就问我要不要去。
真的挣扎了好久,
才决定要去的。

去到那边,
不懂鬼都跑去哪里了,
看了整晚,
就只看到了那几只。
是有看到有人扮itachi啦[naruto],
还有urahara[bleach]呢,
幸好没有byakuya,
不然我和wocky会哭,可怕。
我本来还告诉紫慧,
看有没有sanzo[saiyuki]在那边,
幸好没有。

本来的目的没有达成,
反而给人偷了电话。
这就叫赔了夫人又折兵。
以后再也不去那么人山人海的地方了。

电话没了,
我就真的不懂该怎么办了。
几个月前,
狐狸好不容易才帮我弄到这粒电话,
现在。。哎。。
对不起他。

同时,
我又不能让妈妈知道,
因为我不想被她骂个半死,
所以只好撒谎咯。

现在最大的问题出现了,
那就是。。

我去哪里省钱来买一粒新的?
之前已经负债累累了,
现在又遇上这样的事情,
我真的头快要脑炸了。
真是祸不单行。

我会用会一样的号码,
明天晚上开始可以联络我了。

Friday, July 17, 2009

It's the last day of year 2 sem 1

Erm, it's kinda weird that today is the last day of the sem.

Well, i can only said that it's a tough sem for me,
to said that it's tough, i think busy will be a better word.

It's full of assignments, assignments and assignments.
Erm, I couldn't said that i hate it,
cause most of the time i do enjoy doing it,
except for certain subjects,
because the teacher sucks.

Tv Pro was a fun subject to me.
Although i think i suffered alot for it,
as I was wanting everything to be 'perfect',
and met up with lots of difficulties.
I need to thank someone for helping,
which 'nerdGod',
[he know who he is]
cause without him i'm definately gone.
Thanks, NerdGod~

TV Mag,
erm, it's quiet messy i would say,
i'm not criticizing,
but regarding such a huge group like us,
everyone is kinda confuse with their position,
cause maybe we have different thoughts,
i always thought that we have to stick to our own position.
But, everyone had did a great job tho,
at least we got a good production because everyone is helpful.
We's tried our best.
Most of us is kinda busing with own assignments,
so it's really hard for us to meet up,
but i'm impressed,
that even so, our TV mag is quite good.
THANKS everybody in my group,
for the effort and cooperation,
there's still rooms to improve for us,
so gambateh and work hard,
to reach an higher achievement!!
[haha,ofcourse includes me]
especially Glanned, he did a great job,
with lots of effort,
although we may have different point of view,
but it proves that things may works in both way,
Thanks my teammates,
it's a big release to see everything is working smoothly.

Com Theo's assignment satisfied me.
it once proved that i and Clov are the best partner.
i wasn't saying that we did super great job,
but at least, we felt glad to have such a 'nice' piece of work.
[you might not agree,
but we are just ss-ing]
Although i hated my character inside,
[to be portrayed as a super sampat arvil's fans]
cause it's what Clov required.
I need to act so over,
and everyone's is gonna think that i'm so wannabe..
But, haha, who cares,
the effect is quite good for us,
at least i've done what she required.
what to do,she's da scriptwriter.
Good job, Clov!
And also all the actors and teammates,
to make everything works.

Radio Pro's is kinda like torturing me
because now i realized that i'm too lazy to edit audio's stuff.
erm, i will definately say no to be an audio editor.
It's not that i don't know how
[i'm not saying that i'm pro in it ya,
i'm just in normal level]
but i'm too lazy to edit it,
cause maybe is because my software is too in for me,
haha, i'm so lazy to 'discover' it's function.

English pronunciation is interesting for me,
although going through those assignments are like being in hell.
Erm, Ms. Mi-chelle is really cute,
especially this sem,
she's so full of facial expression that we never seen.
so cute~
but i told her today in my speech presentation,
that i wish that she'll keep back her long hair,
as she looks cuter and better with it..haha

Erm, i wouldn't want to comment on the other 2 subject that much as...
don't bother..

On the other hand,
I kinda felt sorry for my society as i din really spend much time on it,
as everyone's time clashes and everyone is kinda busy.
It might sounds like an excuse but it's really hard to gather up everyone.
Nevermind, i'll figure out a solution next sem.
Please fight together with me, my teammates.

Switch to another topic,
Erm, some friend are kinda concern bout this,
so i'm making it clear here.

I and Fox has officially broke up,
because we found there's no use to drag it on,
as we're facing lots of problem and argued alot,
I think it's better for us to seperate.
He have his job to achieve and i have my studies,
misunderstanding and suspicion had drove us crazy.

Hearing alot from friends
thinking alot by my own,
all this has makes me down and
causes me lose focus on my stuff.
So what's the deal to keep it on,
since we'd broken up since months ago,
just that we keep on drag it on.

If we're really meant to be together,
we will be someday.
It's all about fate.
Having our freedom now might be a best way
to maintain our relationship later,
who knows? right?