不知道你们相信‘缘’这个字吗？

很多人觉得， 一见钟情，
都只发生在电视上。
很多人觉得， 人定胜天，
才是真理。

Ah Boy时常对我说，
我们能够在一起，
只因为一个‘缘’字。

对呀，有时候真的不得你不相信，
一个陌生人，也许你只见他一面，
就爱上他了。
一个素未谋面的人，才讲几次话，
你就知道你寻找的是他。

当然，很多人会说，
那也许是孽缘，烂桃花，
可是，不能否认，那也是一种缘分。

情侣分手了，很少可以做会朋友的。
情侣分手了，多数都是责怪对方的。

其实，该谢谢伤害你的人，

因为他，让你更坚强了。
因为他，让你知道自己要的是什么。
因为他，让你不会再犯同一个错误。
因为他，让你找到你真正的幸福。

换另一个说法，
如果当初你们继续下去，
离婚的时候，不是更糟糕吗？
所以该谢谢他。

缘分，有好也有坏的时候，
我知道不该用好坏来形容，
可是就在这一瞬间，找不到适合的词儿。
刚刚看到了朋友aniq的blog,
他说这种欲说又说不出的状态，
叫做tip or the toungue.
这形容词，来得真合适。
这也是一个我和这个词儿的缘分。

你们相信命运吗？
对我来说， 缘分，是命运的臣子。
吃多少，住多少，天早就注定了。
缘分，是天派来的臣子，
来告诉你该走的路，
来领导你走向他早已安排的路。

不要己人忧天你们的缘分和使用尽，
不要怨天尤人为什你和他不能开始，
不要一直揣测你的他什么时候到来，
不要一直担心你们会又怎样的未来。

当状况出现时，
你能做的只有面对。
所以就算你先担心，
也只是让自己伤心而以。

担心那么多做什么？
弄到自己那么伤心，又是为了什么？

依我说，
活在当下，最好。

是你的，就是你的。
强求，是没有幸福的。

I trap myself in the toilet today,
can't breathe.

It ain't any illness,
just I'm sick of life.

I can't be trap in here anymore,
not a moment.
I rather to be teared apart,
or to die in sudden.

I'm a hot tempered person,
I remember how people treats me,
especially those who treat me badly.

I remember every word how people comment me,
especially those people that I care.
Although I don't bother other people's comment.

I don't take revenge,
but I accumulate all the mistakes that you did.
Just like what you did.

There's no doubt I'm following your steps,
because we got the same blood in our veins.
What you did i will do,
and anything bad you have,
I got it.

Don't blame me for being bad,
cause I'm not.
Even I did,
you force me so,
and you are too.

You're the one forcing me to a dead end,
you're the one causing me my illness.

Today I might just trap myself in the toilet,
but there's no guarantee whether tomorrow,
you'll the one who trapped in the toilet.
I can't guarantee myself.

Don't force me to lose my tempered.
Cause I felt myself annoying,
for keep blaming you yet being nice to you.

A sick person may be pitiful and need care,
but doesn't means that I need to be your puppet,
just being quiet to accept all your ridiculous accuses.

keep it on,
I'm living dead.

Don't get shocked,
especially Aniq,
when you see this,
doesn't mean that I'm getting married already.

Haha, just suddenly thought of this topic.

I believe that many girls have their very own planning for their wedding since I don't know, maybe 15 years old.
At least they have their dream, about how the wedding party looks like, neither to be traditional or outrageous.
(I guess not much people dream for this but me.)

I wanted to get married,
and thought of getting married since 13 I think.
I wanted to get married by the age of 21, and give birth by 25,
cause I heard that having a baby by that age,
the baby will be smarter.

Then now I'm 22, but still not married.
And I change my thought,
from to have 4 babies, to 0.

Ok. Back to my topic.
I said I dream bout getting married since small,
but guess what, I never know how will my wedding party be,
I just simply want to get married,
and be out of my family.

I've always been thinking,
which type of wedding party I wanted?
It's a hard decision for me,
as I got really A LOT of friends,
and A LOT of relatives.
And if I do it with the traditional way,
it's gonna spend me my whole life saving.
(It's gonna be my husband's money.)

But if I don't call all my friends
(the important ones, believe me, the amount is shocking)
it's so sorry for them,
and I believe they will be blaming for my whole life.
And of course, I will regret.

Then all of a sudden,
I get a great idea,
which is the wedding that I wanted.
I will have a traditional one,
which is those in the restaurant,
doing clown and model taking pictures,
and cannot eat much even how delicious the food is,
and forced to smile even don't like to,
the type that I think is so lame,
just with my relatives and really IMPORTANT friend.
(so if you're not in it, please la, don't come and ask me why you're not and humiliate yourself! haha, just kidding)
it's just for friends that I treat them as a family member and in my DARLIN category.
They know who they are.

Ok, can't wait to tell this..
How am I going to settle my friends?

I always wanted to do it the church type.
You know, walking in with a long red carpet,
accompanied by my father,
and wait to the moment to say 'I DO'.

But I'm not a christian or catholic,
so I ain't gonna do it in the church.
Where I'm gonna do it?

IN THE CLUB!

I wanted my wedding party in MOIS.
Haha, I got plenty of clubbing kaki friend,
and I suppose all my friends will be ok and glad if I do it in the club.
(For Aniq, you'll be in the traditional 1!)
the I can walk on the red carpet,
wearing my Lady Gaga style wedding dress,
which allows me to dance after saying the important word.
Haha, I wanted a long tail wedding dress,
which could allows me to remove the tail anytime,
I wonder if there is any.

Then we gonna party all night!

Oh ya, I skipped the most important part,
I wanted 2 lengzai to bring me in on the red carpet,
instead of my father,
and I wanted a RX7 to drive me to the club!
haha, then the wedding song it's gonna spin by the deejay,
soft then follow with remix version,
the the deejay it's gonna be the one who ask whether I do or not.
Then.. party time!

Ok, why it's gonna be mois,
cause so far, for clubs that I've visit
mois have the most strategy place,
and it's the closest to the main road,
which i don't need to walk so far,
and my only deejay friend is in there,
so that makes everything perfect.

So guys, how does it sounds?
Haha, it's gonna be like this!