LNG: day 6

met elwin today. it wasnt as bad as i tot... i was expecting somemore "undiluted shit" from him...

got loads of GP work to do...

tml got 2nd full dress... tired!

renowned prof savage came for a talk on tourism... dunno why he suddenly made me feel like being a tour guide! hahaha...

how come i so busy these few days arh...

LNG: day 5
"O bloody period!"-Lodovico, OTHELLO act 5 scene 2

my all time fave movie... the league of extraordinary gentlemen

its kinda tiring... going off to lala land early...

i feel like ive just gone through distillation...
moral of today's experience: its a must to stay as clean as possible at all times, esp after pe.
lemme see... gotta put up my check list for revision soon.
or maybe a homework list?
mug mug mug.

LNG: day 3

3rd day of 13. hope everything will go well. i didn't expect this... but... ok. never mind. i shall write the full details.

check out the website: thirteen

details are as follows:
13
date: 25-27th july (friday to sunday), 1-3rd august (friday to sunday)
time: all at 8pm
venue: Singapore Federation Chinese Clans Association (397, toa payoh lorong 2)
tickets at: $13
contact: 6354 1972

its been quite a let down cos the ticket sales are poor, this time. we used to haf full house for all the rest of the productions... pls come and watch... this production is a brand new experience... do come! i'll be calling yu pple!!!!!!!!

LNG: day 2

2nd day of 13. total flop. im not so stressed already. since my part is only 3mins. but i was quite hurt by some stuff they said abt me... but thats not the point. i almost wanted to cry at backstage. its so touching! when the music came out... the backstage crew were counting the beats of the music and were slightly dancing wif the music while the dancers were dancing in front... i dunno... but it made me tear...

i cant believe in the desperate circumstance to sell tickets due to poor sales, i asked kenichi fujima to come. of ALL pple. he came wif his malay friend, and another friend. after the thing i was like so damn reluctant to talk to him, but i did anyway.
now guess wad. he's bringing MORE pple to come to watch next week. i dunno whether to cry or laugh.

ive been blasting my discman into my ears non-stop for hours... i tink im going abit deaf... drowning myself frm the rest of the pple out there in the world.
was pmsing severely for hours. kicked my beloved soft toys and everything.

celebrated rouxin's bdae yesterday... the made this surprise thing for her... i dunno whether it will be the same for me... i doubt so.

i love brocolli, fermented beancurd, potato, meepok, ban mian, ribena, and peanuts!

first day of 13. VERY tired. cant talk now. will blog soon.

its been two days. two days seemed like eternity. seriously, i just cant keep offline.

had been studying, tuesday i forgot to go down for full run. talk abt forgetfulness. preparing for human geog test (studied damn hard, but mental block at last min! *ROAR* cant believe im gonna fail this time again. so unfair!!!) italy!!! yu make me crazy!!! donne! i'll come undone! in short, im tired.

full dress rehearsals for the past days. nice costumes, nice setting, 10 lines to speak. i wondered why i took up the role. considering the fact that the person i accepted the role for is totally ungrateful. but its inside me. the blood of theatre.

went to kallang airport there to makan wif suz's family at the loh mee stall. the family was... nice. as in, i havent experience the family where bilingual-ality exists. although there's uhm, some sort of disparities... but suz's mom and dad were funny pple. esp the mom.
compared to MY family. which the shittiest thing happened. hp was flat, mom picked me up frm the LRT station to home, door locked from behind. no answer. went down stairs to call up using a non credited card, went upstairs again. still no answer. mom went down i was up called and tried opening. brother opened door, found out sister locked it, i wented down again, no mom, went up, went to bathe. next thing i knew when i came out frm bath was mom scolding sis.

check out how different families can be.

tired tired tired.

i cant believe i cleared my JCTs... i mean, right after MCTs i was involved in the TJ production, after which i fell terribly sick for 2 weeks of NO sch, followed by the holidays, then the new production. i still remember going for a full run the day before math and saying "aiya. i give up on my math liao lah" and missy pang clutching my neck in her fingers and screaming "christina! i wanna KILL you!!!"

God has given me grace... i will treasure it...
i dunno why... though physically tired it seems like there's so much excitement in me... as if life has more to offer than mugging... and ive yet to experience... i feel so... NEW!!! *takes a deep breathe of fresh air* come on world! show me what yu've got!

made up a list of factors:
1. the love of God.
2. the love of friends, yu pple know who yu are...
3. the love i haf in the new theatre production.
4. the love (pseudo perhaps?) of family.
5. the love i haf for myself.

it all points down to one thing: love is everything!!!

after a full day of rehearsing... reached home ard 11.30pm.
the cast went for a little field trip in little guilin. was surprised to know NO ONE frm my class knew where it was. they tot its in china.
the past few day had been raining, mud was everywhere. we girls went wild wif excitement and started taking fotos wif clara's digicam. it was REALLY weird looking at ivan wearing a SCGS pe tshirt for the trip? we certainly looked like tourists.
the hike was great. the whole trail was full of rotting leaves and logs. mosquitoes were everywhere. so weiyuan handed us the mosquito coil that was SUPPOSED to keep them away. ok. dis is silly. there was this mosquito that landed on my leg and i started screaming and used the burning coil to burn the pest, and ended up sinking the coil into my flesh. i did that TWICE. so now im horribly scarred on my leg wif burnt marks that make me look like an escapist from a torture camp wif cigarette burns from the instigators. cukoo me. so wads new?
i was the no-im-gonna-fall-cos-theres-mud-im-never-gonna-make-it person in the grp, forever complaining. i guess thats me. complaining non-stop but i'll always walk on to the end. like during pe lessons ill always go like "i dun wanna run!!!" but in the end i'll be dashing here and there... jokes.i find myself kinda irrtating.
going back to the starting point was horredous cos of the mud. just when the trail was abt to end both sides of me, ting slipped and splashed into the mud; immediately followed by hualong. i was like "im not gonna make it, im not gonna make it..." but i made it.
the full run was quite fun... it was cos i was only in it for 3mins or so. haha.
SOMEBODY pls... ANYBODY... come support the show!!! check out the thirteen webbie... (for cukoos, click on the word thirteen just now!)

ive never felt so loved before...

Hey all,
Ms Seah's bdae falls on the 27 of July..ie a Sunday diz year. We were thinking of going back to CGS on Saturday, 26 July, to celebrate her b'dae. 26 July is also Crescent's Speech Day but that's not the point ah. The point is that hope u pple can make it on Saturday. Try to reach Crescent at 11 am. We estimate that is the time when Speech Day will end[if Mrs Lee do not give elaborate and LONG speeches]. The Speech Day starts at 8+.

Hope many of u guys who are free on that day can come back to celebrate Ms Seah's bdae. Don't worry, i dun tink Ms Seah will nag at us like before. If u guys r coming back, pls bring $2 per person. Must sponsor for Ms Seah's cake. Not sure if got present for her or not. Hope the $2 won't deter u guys from coming. Must come k..see where all our donations have gone to. Like the renovation of the hall n new air-conditioned classrooms. Crescent is realli getting better..too bad we are not there to enjoy it. Just to warn you guys..if u are coming back and wearing uniform, make sure it's tucked in. Remember that danger lurks in the least expected corners. Ms Chia Chen Chi is WATCHING. Those coming in outside clothes..not too skimpy. I know u have good bodies..but Mrs Siah is jealous of it. Haha.

Pls inform me if u are coming back k. If can come back with your clique of friends. Can catch up on old times mah. Remember to email me ah. Really hope u guys can come back. Wanna see how pretty u pple have become. Take care in the mean time. Help me pass the message around too coz some of u have changed ur email add or smth.

Cindy
19/07/03[exactly 1 more month to my bdae!!]
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hey pple...
how are yu all getting along? really hope to come down on 26th...wads that? 11am? btw, im still as drama as ever. yeah.

anyway yah i heard that most of the classrooms are air conditioned already. madame butterfly(mrs siah) is no longer the discipline mistress and unfortunately(not to us though) chia chen chi has NOT, yeah, NOT been appointed as the new one.

i can still see her visage in my mind... same guy's whispy short hair, small face, round faded golden specs, RED checkered/striped(she alternates between these two) blouse buttoned up to the very top, the NAVY BLUE A-lined skirt that ALWAYS ends at the knees.

miss goon is the new DM. however, heard frm some IRC juniors that miss goon is adopting the chia chen chi's girl-pick-up-the-litter-from-the-floor-why-are-you-wearing-navy-blue-rubber-band-go-to-the-principal's-office style and mrs siah's croaky-voiced-girl-wads-yr-name-yu-are-not-supposed-to-wear-black-bras-though-im-wearing-one-myself tyranny.

ok. so ive got carried away. but the point is, i cant wait to see yu all on 26th!!!!

btw for those who dunno, my hp number is ******** and my ICQ number is 178431305 and my IRC nick is sadako. pls keep in contact wif me yah.

take care pple. love ya all loads.

-christina-

how issit like, to haf a singer singing less than 800m away from you "live" while yu are bathing?
its van. fan4 yi4 chen2... serenading "i believe" to me... heehee...
yeah. right now he's with other singers like wilbur pan wei bo all downstairs... there's this live concert here... its kinda weird. cos usually my neighbourhood here is super ulu, and suddenly all of them are right downstairs?!?
yeah. today is like a... dream?

today finally met with kenichi fujima... the fantastically rich kid whom i know through mich, who through joseph saw, knows me.
oh wadever. too difficult to explain.
anyway. im trying to sound perfectly mild here.
i went to bugis like, really early there? and went to stay at the macs there to do my stats...
made this wirecraft thing that writes "oneichan" on it... $11.
we met at the taka info counter, he appeared... shorter than me, wif alot of hip-hop stuff hanging ard his neck... but he's SO not hip-hoppish.
top to toe... hugo boss cap, some ralph lauren shirt? newest adidas shoes... etc etc etc.
he treated me to marché (oh my god. i hardly pass by it, let alone step into there!) i din dare to eat anything. only drank snapple. ended up he had to cut a piece of his steak for me...
went to annex to play arcade... he was quite sianz cos he probably haf like the whole arcade at his house?
den went to eat haagan daaz. 2 scoops for $6.50. i still remember the taitai day suz me hy and xp went for. the 4 of us haf to chip in for a $8 one...
this is incredible.
den we took his white nissan safero, chaffeur included, each sold non-seperately, from mattel all the way to his friend's house and to joseph's bdae party to meet mich, grace, qb, merv and ed (hallelujah!)
i sort of abandoned him after that...

thank goodness.

YAHOOOO....
this has gotta be one of the best days of my life...
after years of learning... ive finally learnt how to cycle.
thanks xp... this has been one of my most memorable days...

today during rehearsal yingwen broke down and cried...
saying that the script has some serious feasiblity problem...
this is the first time in many years working with her that ive seen her break down...
i din noe how to console her... so i just... squeezed her arm and said "take care ok."
its 9 days more to our first day...

im worried.

today's revision plan: GP: international population issues

ok. slacking on the job at the comp lab now.
supposed to haf this math lesson... ya. so suz is checking out the error in her blog and we're doing stuff like dat...

its gonna be a long day later... P.E later, prolly running to lucky heights, and then i bathe, makan dinner, and go down to the toa payoh library to catch up on my work... den 8.30pm to rehearsal till 10pm.
argh.

today, i felt like i was the only sane person alive.
wad i always wanted is starting to come true, but in a weird way.

accompanied amanda to play basketball with this guy she met few weeks ago.
OBVIOUSLY he's interested in her. i feel so sorry for yu dada.
then SOME SHIT was there too... and i forced that poor boy to fake a lttle for me...
and i tink i dislocated his arm while clashing my elbow into his...
i SWEAR the left elbow bone is in a grotesque shape compared to the right one...

there's so many things that i wanna do... but i cant do them.
there's so many things that i wanna haf... but i cant haf them.
there's so many things that i wanna say... but i cant say them.
and i dunno why.
in a word, i feel lousy.

its really sick when yu force yrself not to enter IRC...
to me, ive been really attached to IRC...
i dunno. maybe to others, this may sound "loser" but i tink when im in IRC, ive been really myself.
those who know me well, i care alot abt how i look in front of others...
with this kind of barriers, its hard to converse freely.
i guess at least ive found some real pple that i can actually talk to online...
bitch about the math teacher, PMS, consoling one another when something shitty happens in sch or wadever, and we take the "screw mugging" attitude.
swell.

i can tahan. i know i can.

today is the fresh new beginning of another week of school.
suz has brought a new meaning of "mugging" altogether.

i tink when yu become a friend to someone else, there are some things yu want to say to him/her but yu will not.
(a) cos yu're scared yu will jeapordise the friendship if the person does not accept it , or
(b) cos yu just cannot be bothered to.

when those things are being said, there's only one combi that will ensure everything stays fine.
1. yu gotta haf enough courage (yes, courage.) and love for yr friend to say it
2. the friend has gotta be those who know yu well and is able to realise what yu say is... true.

thank goodness 1 and 2 applied today.
i guess somehow this has alleviated our friendship to something that defines the true meaning of the word "friend".

ive made this super major decision to delete my IRC...
i havent told anyone in there yet... but hopefully they read this and understand wads going on.
cos if i only vow to stop using it, i'll only click on it again everytime i on the comp.
this is really making me nuts, but im quite determined to carry it out.
i'll still update my blog daily...

im moving the radio out of my room really soon too i tink.
havent been receiving any sms these few days...
am i THAT unpopular? *sigh*
met C4 at bedok MRT after bidding suz bye.
this is the LAST time in my life im gonna stop freezing and asking myself:
"oh fuck. do i look like shit in front of he/she?"
i am what i am!!!!!
how many times must i tell myself!!!! damn it!
"i am a tiger. i can roar! *rarrrgghhh*"

thank goodness i still haf my ICQ... but nonetheless...
2 and a half months...
how low can yu go?

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for the sake of dear joshy...
i shall write abt the day at the channel outing...
feared going up there and feeling awkward all alone.
so i made pigmoon wait for me down at the platform.
really sorry pigmoon!
din haf much difficulty finding the pple... cos joshy was there.
no not bcos of his size... but cos i know how he looks like already.
C4 and wads-her-name? were there too...
then we made our way to the bus stop to wait for 400... in the frizzling rain... my one and only roxy hat!!!
that was when joshy started displaying his crappiness.
well. as for me and pigmoon, we still needed a little more time to melt away the... uneasiness?
well we waited for the first can of sardines to pass... and took the next 400.
when we reached the arcade, the rest were there... first we met elemental... who i stupidly cannot recall seeing his foto before and tot it was some extra guy, and found xigua and (was it anthony?) who were playing dunno-wads-that-machine.
then the whole group of us met sobi and walked down to the dunno-which-steamboat place and settled down to one...
unfortunately the irritating uncle refused to help us and (yes, yr fave part) joshy had generously moved one huge table all by himself for us...
the uncle, out of guilt, had to help us wif the next one, wif the reverse psychology from me and pigmoon. (dun ask me how!!!)
so we sort of dried the tables and chairs and settled down (finally!) and started grabbing some pathetic (and i really mean that) stuff to makan.
den yeash... the rest of the time i was laffing at jokes by joshy and C4...
wif occasional addition by the rest of the pple... its really urm... not much.
so in short, wad i did was simply... cook, serve pigmoon and the others, eat, listen, laff.
yah. but overall i rate the outing a 6.5? at least i gotta know how the hell the people ive been talking so much to looks like.
and not that bad...

soon, it will be the beginning of a week of yet another mad rush.
the whole thought of it weakens me...
hopefully i get to pull through it once more...

will You give me the strength?

YEASH. finally bought my hat! can strike it off the list AT LONG LAST.
not bad. went to haf a nice day wif G3 (is that our name already!??!)
i was late AGAIN!!!

went for the channel outing!
got quite a few people...
pigmoon, joshy, elemental, alex, sobi and his brother, c4, xigua, anthony, me and a friend of c4's...
i didnt get to play arcade!!!
so sad...

there's a piece of gothic writing i haf to do...
its another round of hard work! i mean, real hard work this time!

tired... lemme go sleep now... heehee...

its the weekend, at last...
why do i feel fatigue?
i must persevere...
tml going for sushi lunch followed by the channel outing...
quite excited... so excited that another blemish has appeared.
i shall study between my sushi and outing...
at the national library!

today went to watch fan yi chen at the audi...
not as much pple as the other time rene and victor came.
he's SUPER cute.
lydia helped him take his temperature! how can she forget taking a photo with him at the slightest chance!
i got his autographed poster!!!
woohoo!

wad happened to yu... things are looking dull.

You are.. UNIQUE! Wow, you are a rare breed. You do
what you want, say what you want, and wear what
you want. Screw labels and subcultures! You may
be considered one of the oddest people in your
school, but you really could care less. What
matters is what you like, and what you like
only. You're a shining star!


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wif xp's generous help... ive changed the blog's layout...
thanks sista.
really tired these days.
bad news come incessantly.
wad else is next?
i'll start mugging.

"you are mine, you shall be mine. you and i are one and for ever." -carmilla

i made it. but tomorrow is another long day.
God save me!!!!

"undiluted shit. really."

not in my 14 years of education have i heard any teacher say that about anything.
worse ones were lamanagor in primary 4, who called me "fat-christina"
followed by "bloody hell" by miss pillai back in primary 5, who made us swore to secrecy.
but undiluted shit?!? unless yu're referring to sueann? ok. kidding.

physical geography was... as usual. spotted the WRONG question, yes. miss jeba$, i deserved it.
getting back the rest really soon. ive long predicted my shit results... so no worry.

as i always say, "its not a matter of passing or failing. its a matter of how badly yu fail."

morning was a joke. the OM came trailing behind 36/02 to catch us eating in class... i mean, HUH?!?
and he brought the darlings to the P's office. made them sign on the book, and refused to let shifu see the P.
obviously cos shifu knows the P better than the OM himself...

somehow i managed to survive through the first half of my day... i'll be on to my next rush hour at 4pm...
right now... let me finish up my geog presentation. like its gonna help anyway.

yes... tomorrow is a dreadful day...
2 math lessons first thing in the morning!!!
somebody save me!!!
the whole day will last till 10pm...
am i gonna last till then?

not bad.... today felt a sense of achievement...
piah-ed my geog project till the sun went down...

looks like im all ready for working now~

later going to some NDP thingy wif suz and huiyu...
hope its gonna be fun...
4 days in a row... FUN FUN FUN!
but i know wads gonna come after this is total disaster...
thats why i choose to enjoy before my doom,
just like criminals on death penalty enjoy the last meal.

im still a quarter through "the monk", by matthew something lewis.
its overwhelming... really.
but the language is so... john donne-ish...
lies=lyes
connection=connexion
etc etc etc...
there's the part abt the gypsy and the fortune telling thingy...
once again, "the dreaming place" by charles de vint comes to mind.
ive gotta get my hands on the book... like NOW!!!
i'll marry anyone who gets me the book!
kidding.

now i FULLY understand why girls turn to lesbianism...
qianyi!!! where are yu!!! i wanna make out wif yu!!!

im feeling... *sigh*

today went watch charlie's angels wif sheena!!!
so fun!!!
feel like being one of them too.
so tough, so sexy, so EVERYTHING!

my drama show has cancelled me out of the play...
feel kinda sad...
kinda disappointed.
serious trauma... but no one will understand...
how important that script, that show, the acting is to me...
need a shoulder to cry on...

but who? who will provide that for me?
truly...

the baking sun answers me.
there will be no shade unless i find one.
i will NOT. cos i keep to my stand.
i'd stand under the sun than to compromise.

today went iceskating!!!
so fun!!!
but im mutilated...

blue blacks at:
1.left elbow
2.right knee

internal skin bleeding at:
1.left elbow

broke:
1.right hand, fourth fingernail

but i can iceskate now! hahaha...
and when walking out to the mrt station, fell onto the pavement...
felt like another skating fall...

played para para at the arcade... hahaha... so fun! at first the leg was aching frm skating... then it was the hands... addictive though.

explored mama's digi cam... managed to haf some special effects thing... i posed this foto as ayumi hamasaki... kissing myself... will upload ASAP!!! lol....

today went sentosa!!!
so fun...
but rather tired...
learnt a little cycling...
bought my VERY own FRISBEE!!!
luminous ORANGE!
tired...

and yu're tired too...