Thursday, December 31, 2009

Happy new year y'all!

The Singapore Solution
How did a sleepy little island transform into a high-tech powerhouse in one generation? It was all in the plan.
By Mark Jacobson

If you want to get a Singaporean to look up from a beloved dish of fish-head curry—or make a harried cabdriver slam on his brakes—say you are going to interview the country's "minister mentor," Lee Kuan Yew, and would like an opinion about what to ask him. "The MM? Wah lau! You're going to see the MM? Real?" You might as well have told a resident of the Emerald City that you're late for an appointment with the Wizard of Oz. After all, LKY, as he is known in acronym-mad Singapore, is more than the "father of the country." He is its inventor, as surely as if he had scientifically formulated the place with precise portions of Plato's Republic, Anglophile elitism, unwavering economic pragmatism, and old-fashioned strong-arm repression. People like to call Singapore the Switzerland of Southeast Asia, and who can argue? Out of a malarial swamp, the tiny island at the southernmost tip of the Malay Peninsula gained independence from Britain in 1963 and, in one generation, transformed itself into a legendarily efficient place, where the per capita income for its 3.7 million citizens exceeds that of many European countries, the education and health systems rival anything in the West, government officials are largely corruption free, 90 percent of households own their own homes, taxes are relatively low and sidewalks are clean, and there are no visible homeless people or slums.

If all that, plus a typical unemployment rate of about 3 percent and a nice stash of money in the bank thanks to the government's enforced savings plan, doesn't sound sweet to you, just travel 600 miles south and try getting by in a Jakarta shantytown.

Achieving all this has required a delicate balancing act, an often paradoxical interplay between what some Singaporeans refer to as "the big stick and the big carrot." What strikes you first is the carrot: giddy financial growth fueling never ending construction and consumerism. Against this is the stick, most often symbolized by the infamous ban on chewing gum and the caning of people for spray-painting cars. Disruptive things like racial and religious disharmony? They're simply not allowed, and no one steals anyone else's wallet.

Singapore, maybe more than anywhere else, crystallizes an elemental question: What price prosperity and security? Are they worth living in a place that many contend is a socially engineered, nose-to-the-grindstone, workaholic rat race, where the self-perpetuating ruling party enforces draconian laws (your airport entry card informs you, in red letters, that the penalty for drug trafficking is "DEATH"), squashes press freedom, and offers a debatable level of financial transparency? Some people joke that the government micromanages the details of life right down to how well Singapore Airlines flight attendants fill out their batik-patterned dresses.

They say Lee Kuan Yew has mellowed over the years, but when he walks into the interview wearing a zippered blue jacket, looking like a flint-eyed Asian Clint Eastwood circa Gran Torino, you know you'd better get on with it. While it is not exactly clear what a minister mentor does, good luck finding many Singaporeans who don't believe that the Old Man is still top dog, the ultimate string puller behind the curtain. Told most of my questions have come from Singaporeans, the MM, now 86 but as sharp and unsentimental as a barbed tack, offers a bring-it-on smile: "At my age I've had many eggs thrown at me."

Few living leaders—Fidel Castro in Cuba, Nelson Mandela in South Africa, and Robert Mugabe in Zimbabwe come to mind—have dominated their homeland's national narrative the way Lee Kuan Yew has. Born into a well-to-do Chinese family in 1923, deeply influenced by both British colonial society and the brutal Japanese occupation that killed as many as 50,000 people on the island in the mid-1940s, the erstwhile "Harry Lee," Cambridge law degree in hand, first came to prominence as a leader of a left-leaning anticolonial movement in the 1950s. Firming up his personal power within the ascendant People's Action Party, Lee became Singapore's first prime minister, filling the post for 26 years. He was senior minister for another 15; his current minister mentor title was established when his son, Lee Hsien Loong, became prime minister in 2004.

Lee masterminded the celebrated "Singapore Model," converting a country one-eighth the size of Delaware, with no natural resources and a fractured mix of ethnicities, into "Singapore, Inc." He attracted foreign investment by building communications and transportation infrastructure, made English the official language, created a superefficient government by paying top administrators salaries equal to those in private companies, and cracked down on corruption until it disappeared. The model—a unique mix of economic empowerment and tightly controlled personal liberties—has inspired imitators in China, Russia, and eastern Europe.

To lead a society, the MM says in his precise Victorian English, "one must understand human nature. I have always thought that humanity was animal-like. The Confucian theory was man could be improved, but I'm not sure he can be. He can be trained, he can be disciplined." In Singapore that has meant lots of rules—prohibiting littering, spitting on sidewalks, failing to flush public toilets—with fines and occasional outing in the newspaper for those who break them. It also meant educating his people—industrious by nature—and converting them from shopkeepers to high-tech workers in a few decades.

Over time, the MM says, Singaporeans have become "less hard-driving and hard-striving." This is why it is a good thing, the MM says, that the nation has welcomed so many Chinese immigrants (25 percent of the population is now foreign-born). He is aware that many Singaporeans are unhappy with the influx of immigrants, especially those educated newcomers prepared to fight for higher paying jobs. But taking a typically Darwinian stance, the MM describes the country's new subjects as "hungry," with parents who "pushed the children very hard." If native Singaporeans are falling behind because "the spurs are not stuck into the hide," that is their problem.

If there is a single word that sums up the Singaporean existential condition, it is kiasu, a term that means "afraid to lose." In a society that begins tracking its students into test-based groups at age ten ("special" and "express" are the top tiers; "normal" is the path for those headed for factory and service-sector work), kiasu seeps in early, eventually germinating in brilliant engineering students and phallic high-rises with a Bulgari store on the ground floor. Singaporeans are big on being number one in everything, but in a kiasu world, winning is never completely sweet, carrying with it the dread of ceasing to win. When the Singapore port, the busiest container hub in the world, slipped behind Shanghai in 2005 in total cargo tonnage handled, it was a national calamity.

One day, as part of a rehearsal for the National Day celebration, I was treated to a veritable lollapalooza of kiasu. Singapore armed forces playacted at subduing a cabal of "terrorists" who had shot a half dozen flower-bearing children in red leotards, leaving them "dead" on the stage. "We're not North Korea, but we try," said one observer, commenting on the rolling tanks, zooming Apache helicopters, and earsplitting 21-gun salutes. You hear it all the time: The only way for Singapore to survive being surrounded by massive neighbors is to remain constantly vigilant. The 2009 military budget is $11.4 billion, or 5 percent of GDP, among the world's highest rates.

You never know where the threat might come from, or what form it will take. Last summer everyone was in a panic about swine flu. Mask-wearing health monitors were positioned around the city. On Saturday night, no matter how stylo milo your threads, there was no way of getting into a club on trendy Clarke Quay without a bouncer pressing a handheld thermometer to your forehead. It was part of the unending Singaporean state of siege. Many of the newer public housing apartments come with a bomb shelter, complete with a steel door. After a while, the perceived danger and excessive compliance with rules get internalized; one thing you don't see in Singapore is very many police. "The cop is inside our heads," one resident says.

Self-censorship is rampant in Singapore, where dealing with the powers that be is "a dance," says Alvin Tan, the artistic director of the Necessary Stage, which has put on dozens of plays dealing with touchy issues such as the death penalty and sexuality. Tan spends a lot of time with the government censors. "You have to use the proper approach," he says. "If they say 'south,' you don't say 'north.' You say 'northeast.' Go from there. It's a negotiation."

Those who do not learn their steps in the dance soon get the message. Consider the case of Siew Kum Hong, a 35-year-old Singaporean who thought he'd be furthering the cause of openness by serving as an unelected NMP, or nominated member of parliament. With only four opposition MPs elected in the history of the country, the ruling party thought NMPs might provide the appearance of "a more consensual style of government where alternative views are heard and constructive dissent accommodated." This was how Siew Kum Hong told me he viewed his position, but he was passed over for another term.

"I thought I was doing a good job," a surprised Kum Hong says. What it came down to, he surmises, were "those 'no' votes." When he first voted no, on a resolution he felt discriminated against gays, his colleagues "went absolutely silent. It was the first time since I'd been in parliament that anyone had ever voted no." When he voted no again, this time on a law lowering the number of people who could assemble to protest, the reaction was similarly cool. "So much for alternative views," Kum Hong says.

The Singapore government is not unaware of the pitfalls of its highly controlled society. One concern is the "creativity crisis," the fear that an emphasis on rote learning in Singapore's schools is not conducive to producing game-changing ideas. Yet attempts to encourage originality have been tone-deaf. When Scape, a youth outreach group, opened a "graffiti wall," youngsters were instructed to submit graffiti designs for consideration; those chosen would be painted on a designated wall at an assigned time.

Similarly, the government has maintained a campaign against the use of "Singlish," the multiculti gumbo of Malay, Hokkien Chinese, Tamil, and English street patois that is Singapore's great linguistic achievement. As you sit in a Starbucks listening to teens saying things like "You blur like sotong, lah!" (roughly, "You're dumber than squid, man!"), Singlish seems a brilliantly subversive attack on the very conformity the government claims it is trying to overcome. Then again, one of Singlish's major conceits is the ironic lionization of the flashy, down-market "Ah Beng" culture of Chinese immigrant thugs and their sunglass-wearing Malay counterparts. You know that won't fly in a world where the MM ("minister de-mentor" in Beng speak) has advocated "assortative mating," the idea that college graduates should marry only other college graduates so as to uplift the national stock.

Perhaps the most troubling problem facing the nation is a result of its overly successful population control program, which ran in the 1970s with the slogan "Two Is Enough." Today Singaporeans are simply not reproducing, so the country must depend on immigrants to keep the population growing. The government offers baby bonuses and long maternity leaves, but nothing will help unless Singaporeans start having more sex. According to a poll by the Durex condom company, Singaporeans have less intercourse than almost any other country on Earth. "We are shrinking in our population," the MM says. "Our fertility rate is 1.29. It is a worrying factor." This could be the fatal error in the Singapore Model: The eventual extinction of Singaporeans.

But there is an upside to all this social engineering. You could feel it during the "We Are the World" production numbers in the National Day show. On stage were representatives of Singapore's major ethnic groups, the Chinese, Malays, and Indians, all wearing colorful costumes. After riots in the 1960s, the government installed a strict quota system in public housing to make sure that ethnic groups did not create their own monolithic quarters. This practice may have more to do with controlling the populace than with true multiracial harmony, but at the rehearsal, as schmaltzy as it was, it was hard not to be moved by the earnest show of brotherhood. However invented, there is something called Singaporean, and it is real. Whatever people's grumbles—and as the MM says, "Singaporeans are champion grumblers"—Singapore is their home, and they love it despite everything. It makes you like the place too, for their sake.

The kicker is that things are about to change. In a famous quote, Lee Kuan Yew said, "If you are going to lower me into the grave, and I feel something is wrong, I will get up." But this is beyond even him. "We all know the MM will die someday," says Calvin Fones, a psychiatrist who runs a clinic at Gleneagles Hospital on Orchard Road. Fones likens his homeland to a family. "When the country was young, there was a need for wise oversight. A firm hand. Now we are in adolescence, which can be a questioning, troublesome period. Coming into it without the presence of the patriarch will be a test."

The great engine of cultural change, of course, is the Internet, that cyber fly in the authoritarian ointment. Lee acknowledges the threat. "We banned Playboy in the sixties, and it is still banned, that's true, but now, with the Internet, you get much more than you ever could from Playboy." Allowing pornography sites while banning magazines may seem contradictory. But attempting to censor the Internet, as has been tried in China, would be pointless, Lee says. It is an exquisitely pragmatic reply.

And so bloggers, like the satirist Mr. Brown and the urbanely pugnacious Yawning Bread, are free to broadcast opinions unlikely to be found in the pages of the government-linked Straits Times. As a result, more and more young people are questioning the trade-off between freedom and security—and even calling for freer politics and fewer social controls.

Last August, a wide-ranging speech by new NMP Viswa Sadasivan created a lot of buzz on the blogosphere: "I do lament our lack of freedom to express ourselves, and the government's seemingly unmitigated grip on power and what appears to be an inconsistent willingness to listen to public sentiment that does not suit it," Viswa said before parliament. "Accountability requires the government to go beyond lip-service in addressing the call for greater democracy … If not, people are likely to feel increasingly alienated."

Irked by Viswa's criticisms of the way some ethnic groups are treated in Singapore, LKY interrupted a medical treatment to angrily refute the "highfalutin" speech in a rare appearance on the parliament floor. The patriarch, in case anyone needed reminding, was not yet in his grave.

Singapore can be a disconcerting place, even to the people who call it home, though they'd never think of leaving. As one local put it, "Singapore is like a warm bath. You sink in, slit your wrists, your lifeblood floats away, but hey, it's warm." If that's so, most Singaporeans figure they might as well go down the tubes eating pepper crabs, with a couple of curry puffs on the side. Eating is the true national pastime and refuge. The longer I stayed, the more I ate. It got so I'd go over to the marvelously overcrowded Maxwell Road Food Centre, stand in the 20-minute queue for a plate at the Tian Tian food stall, eat it, then line up again.

On my last day, I climbed the hill in the Bukit Timah Nature Reserve, at 537 feet the highest point on the island and the closest thing in Singapore to the jungle it once was. In the unexpected quiet, I returned to what the MM had said about Confucius's belief "that man could be perfected." This was, the MM said with a sigh, "an optimistic way of looking at life." People abuse freedom. That is his beef with America: The rights of individuals to do their own thing allow them to misbehave at the expense of an orderly society. As they say in Singapore: What good are all those rights if you're afraid to go out at night?

When I got to the top of the hill, I thought I might be rewarded with a view of the entire city-state. But there was no view at all—only a rusting communication tower and a cyclone fence affixed with a sign saying "Protected Place" and showing a stick figure drawing of a soldier aiming a rifle at a man with his hands raised.

Later I mentioned this to Calvin Fones, the shrink. "See, that shows the progress we've made," he said. "Until a few years ago, we had the same sign, except the guy was lying on the ground, already shot." And then, being a Singaporean, living a life he didn't believe possible anywhere else in Asia, he laughed.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009




这不是一部赞颂孙中山带领中国人走向民主政治的电影。
这是一部为那些深信革命后美好未来的小人物敬意的电影。

十月围城,让现代人对现在因物质,身份与地位丑陋的资本家思想感到惭愧。
戏中的小人物因不同理由聚集以性命保护一个从未见过的大人物。

我想起了初院时期戏剧盒导演郭庆亮提起的“人物的赌注”。
分析故事时,总要先了解,每个人物都有动机,而这动机是来自于个人为某件事情所下的赌注。
例如在戏里,方红的赌注是自己对与父亲的遗憾和未实现的诺言,阿四的赌注是对少爷的忠,老爷给予的好,和对与心上人结婚后的美好未来。

细节上慢慢的刻出人物性格, 让人不自主的在心头上点了怜惜他们的灯火,却又突然狠狠的一盏一盏熄灭。
沉重的画面,让我不禁紧闭着双眼。原来这就是所谓 “残酷的现实”。而我就是无法接受。
越开心的画面,越波动心玄。 因为真正触动人心, 不是死亡,而是默知生存机会渺茫,但没人说出口,在等待那一天的巨大压迫感。

王学圻独挑大梁当串戏人,演技令我盎然佩服。

这是一部不能不看,看了又却处于在沉甸甸的心酸,散不去的片子。

Monday, December 21, 2009

R.I.P Brittany Murphy.

before your autopsy report publishes, i really hope you did yourself a favour by not dying from OD.

still, loads of respect for her portrayal of daisy in girl, interrupted. and how uncanny about daisy's death and hers.

Monday, December 07, 2009

its funny how we thought it was funny when we spend less than what we expected to.

Thursday, December 03, 2009



i never knew there were grade differences between the butters in restaurant city, which is probably the reason for the price difference?

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

"Nature is stronger than you think"- Kazuhiro Nakajima

Respect grows each tuesday with him!

Saturday, November 28, 2009



can someone tell me what the hell is vitas doing in this show?!?!?!?

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

The term Anti-art refers to art which presents a challenge to the currently existing definition of art. It is a term that by wide consensus seems to have been coined by Marcel Duchamp. This would have been around the time that he began making readymades around 1913. Some still regard the readymades as being anti-art, for instance the Stuckist group of artists. Duchamp's Fountain is highly noteworthy. Anti-art is associated with Dada, an art movement founded in 1916 in Zurich, with which Duchamp is also importantly associated. Many more art movements have over time taken a position in relation to anti-art.

Anti-art is a loosely-used term applied to an array of concepts and attitudes that reject prior definitions of art and question art in general. Anti-art tends to conduct this questioning and rejection from the vantage point of art. An expression of anti-art can take the form of art or not. In general, anti-art rejects only some aspects of art. Depending on the case, "anti-artworks" may reject conventional artistic standards.

Anti-artworks may also reject the art market, and high art. Anti-artworks may reject individualism in art. Anti-art may reject "universality" as an accepted factor in art, and some forms of anti-art reject art entirely. Depending on the case, anti-art artworks may reject art as a separate realm or as a specialization.

Anti-art artworks may reject art based upon a consideration of art as being oppressive of a segment of the population.


THAT'S WHAT I MEANT, STUPID SCRIPTING ANG MOH!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

the following blog post is about manga/anime, only read on if you're interested!

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dashed my way through 186 chapters of d.gray man (188 to be exact, because i couldn't hold the temptation and bulldozed through the 2-chapter comfort buffer i designated, in vain).

have you read/watched d.gray man?



the story background:

Black Order, an organisation formed by the Vatican, seeks this matter called Innocence to battle the demon-producing group of people called the Noahs, headed by the Earl of Millennium.
Innocence was broken by the Earl into 109 pieces. How these fragments of Innocence work is that they'll each find a compatible human who can utilise it to develop into an anti-akuma (demon) weapon. These humans are called "Exorcists". One of this Innocence is the "heart", the key to successfully destroy the Earl and the 13 Noahs.

what i find interesting is how carefully the author crafts the story according to biblical references, as well as novels that deal with gothic themes.

the following are my observations and theories of the story:

1. the Noahs are the decedents of Noah, whom survived the great flood. They possess enormous powers but the reason why they belong to the 'dark side' remains unknown. apparently hints of plot twists are scattered throughout the story. there is a clear reason why the Noahs are producing Akumas, but it yet to be revealed.

2. the story actually speak of balance of the universe. when there is something positive, there is something negative that balances it. for example, dark matter, created from despair of people, is the the opposite of innocence. in my opinion, i believe this has much to do with the revelation of the Noahs as the story develops.

3. this is the most interesting part: the title of the story, D.Gray Man. This actually was derived from Dorian Gray, hence the title D.Gray Man. this is probably referring to he protagonist of the story, allen walker.

if my hunch is correct, (God let it be!) the story of allen walker will probably parallel the misadventures of Dorian Gray.

Dorian Gray, convinced of the need to preserve his beauty and youth, does a Faustus, and ends up neck deep in sins. He tries to repent by destroying a painting of himself, which ages in place of his real form. but he ends up dying as he destroys the painting.

i believe that allen walker is probably an Exorcist believing himself to be doing the right things. but after he realises that he should have been with the Noahs, and that his betrayal to God is beyond redemption, he will have to sacrifice the thing he loves most (according to Cross Marian) or maybe even himself.

also, because Noahs can be reincarnated, allen walker is probably the reincarnation of the 14th Noah, hence his true age is like the physical age of a 15 year old boy but his soul is in fact, very old. but he hasn't awakened yet. that's why he is the parallel of Dorian Gray.

ok i'm done theorizing! now to hurry Hoshino Katsura to continue with the freaking manga!!!! stop getting sick!

我才是真正的宅女。 prawn, beat that!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

from this...


to this...


I hereby pronounce the death of hollywood innocence.

RIP dakota fanning.

Friday, November 06, 2009

一个字。

KNNBCCB TMD CBK!!!!!!!
youthinkyouverygoodissityousolihaiyoucomeanddolah!saysomuch.youarethefreakingpartyatfaultstillwannaKPKBdunnothewholestoryanyhowmakeassumptionstilldaretosaywearetheoneswhomadetheassumptionwewannadothisafteralltheshityou nevercountyourluckystarsstilltmddaretosayusgoanddielahyoumotherfuckersallslutsandbitchesoneandthesamestillwannaaskustoapologisewadstheretoapologisetmdyousilangSPGsmellyourownshitnexttimeseewhichidiotwannadothisforyoustill!!!!!

Sunday, November 01, 2009

officially missing you.

Friday, October 30, 2009

so it's true when they say

"absence makes the heart grow fonder."

感觉似乎心里空虚或少了些什么。
炎热的天气, 却觉得有点冷。
后来想了想, 是因为少了你的温暖。

快回来。

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

anyone lost a labtop?

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

check out the game, word sailing. click here!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

a lovely dinner with amanda and suzanne at miss clarity cafe on thursday night. i must say once i stepped into the little shophouse (purvis street outlet) my adversion of giggling girliness and lollipop candy fantasticals were thoroughly muted as i join the other 20+ female strangers swimming in a cotton candy aquarium.

we were all reduced to little girls. a few in a corner playing masak-masak. bitches, sluts, butches, sportsgirls, were all equal in the realm. utopia!

i exaggerate. but you get the idea! the food wasn't too bad as well. would like to go there someday again. :)

note to manager of miss clarity cafe: if you happen to read this, do away with your current waiters and waitresses! i guarantee you'll earn big bucks if you make sure they look like this.



i miss you girls :)

Sunday, October 11, 2009



to say the least, this soup is boomz. and you know what? i'm not going to tell ANYONE where to get this from.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

perchance, i read a certain someone's blog and got directed to this quiz:

http://go2.wordpress.com/?id=725X1342&site=amandina.wordpress.com&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.okcupid.com%2Fthe-dating-persona-test

and my result is:

You are...

The Priss Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer (DBLD)

Mature. Responsible. Aristocratic. Excuse me. The Priss.

Prisses are the smartest of all female types. You’re highly perceptive, and confident in your judgements. You’d take brutal honesty over superficiality any time—your friends always know where they stand with you. You’re completely unfake. Don’t tell me that’s not a word. You’re also excellent at redirecting internal negative energy.

These facts indicate people are often intimidated by you. They also fall for you, hard. You have a distant, composed allure that many find irresistible. If only more of them lived up to your standards.

You were probably the last among your friends to have sex. And the first to pretend that you’re pregnant. LOL. Though you’re inclined to use sex as weapon, at least it’s not as one of mass destruction. You’re choosier than most about your partners. A supportive relationship is what you’re really after. Whether you know it or not, you need something steady & long-term. And soothing.

HAHAHA!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

i busy myself around at home, while my friends indulge in cupcakes, cookies, shopping, talking, blading. but i am waiting.
sometimes i meet my friends. i laugh, but each time i do my chest tightens with guilt.
i've long accepted the unfairness of life, or rather traded the possibility of flighty enjoyment like my globe trotting peers for something heavier.
i congratulate them. often i hear their laments, and i momentarily convince myself i could identify with them. but soon i learn of their endeavors in another part of the world, or donning a web-bought number, i understood i was never anywhere near there.
nonetheless, i now gladly admit that it was a choice made against my better judgement to arrive myself in this environment, and i begin to understand my siblings more, and appreciate what they have gone through and who they are. as if by divine command, our fates have been cemented through this episode. and we are waiting.
but it is difficult to understand how everything lays down to form into a single picture, and to cherish with a careful heart is all that could be offered. what can a heart's pain be soothed by when the source is too dear to be forsaken?

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

manabu oshio got investigated for having drugs together with a woman who died after she probably ODed.

MANABU OSHIO! omg. and to think he made my heart jumped everytime i watched him on love revolution.

and he was even married! but is now divorced because of his affairs, which im sure he did it again when the woman died.

stupid celebrities.

Saturday, August 29, 2009



some people just don't deserve to be so lucky in life.

DJ AM, survivor of a plane crash that killed almost everyone, was 1 of the only 2 people who made it, and with the least injuries at that. i remember seeing that news when i was at the glasgow central rail station checking my train timings thinking, wasn't he the ex bf of nicole richie?

after he was discharged he said "I can't believe I made it. I've prayed every night for the past 10 years. There's a lot more to thank God for now. ... I was saved for a reason. Maybe I'm going to help someone else. I don't question it. All I know is I'm thankful to be here."

and now he's dead. OD. what the hell!!!! i supposed after such a huge accident you'd be telling yourself to do something about your life! make it more meaningful! i guess you couldn't think of a better way huh.

seriously. all the bull crap about the stress of living in hollywood, feeling lonely at night in your hotel room etc etc. but there are celebrities that live life without drugs and self degradation.

is it just me or its a little odd how he was so close to death once before he killed himself the second time, and how nicole richie gave life on earth recently the second time.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009



It says: Eusoff Hall wins best float design, best presentation, most creative float for halls. so the ONLY reason why kent ridge actually won for overall is because of the 70% weightage on the amount of money collected for flag day. ppphhhtttt.

Monday, August 10, 2009

paris hilton's doghouse



the interior

Saturday, June 27, 2009



how can we ever say goodbye?

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

i just realised my sister's keeper is now a movie, the mother is played by cameron diaz -____-

Friday, June 05, 2009

another reason to further laugh at the incompetence of nus aki admin.

From: Seet Hee Ling Christina
Sent: 05 June 2009 12:39
To: Lim Hwee Lee
Subject: request for letter of verification

Dear Hwee Lee

I am trying to gain access into a few schools to do some studies for my dissertation. May I request for a letter from the office to verify that i am a NUS aki student doing some research? My supervisor is Dr Ong Boon Lay and he is aware of this matter.

Thank you,
Christina Seet
U054661U

and the reply....

Hi Christina

We have already informed library to extend your borrowing rights. We will notify you once the updates are done so you can continue to borrow books.

Best Regards

LIM Hwee Lee (Ms) :: Assistant Manager, Department of Architecture:: National University of Singapore :: 4 Architecture Drive Singapore 117566


what the...

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

FEDERER!!!! JIAYOU!!!!
PLS WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, June 01, 2009

it's june! and it's back to work again... :(

i really like my job, but i feel really terrible when i have someone like mr.meng as my boss. he preaches about love for being an architect, about recognising our responsibility to shape society... sigh. how can i bear to tell him that i don't think i'm really going to be a QP next time!??!?!?!?!!? i hope he doesn't get to read this.

btw me and 老婆 are discussing on msn now abt how our generation came up with the short phrases lingo... if you all have read sunday's papers, the "life" section did a write up on the youth's lingo that no adults seemed to understand. i recently came across the new phrase "imba" and i had a really hard time trying to figure out what it means. turns out it is "imbalance", where you will usually use it to say someone very zai, and his skills are "imbalanced" as compared to others. so you will say "wah your chinese very imba leh!" for example.

i think its full of BS lah. i think the younger generation are coming up with low standard words! as compared to ours:

enthu
zai
CMI
btw
nvm
wtf
lol
rofl
emo
cui
seh
sian
knn
saart saart!
noobie
glam
jelat
skill
power
diao
tml/tmr
nuah
sial lah!
cheebs
tmd
omg
piangz
kaoz
wah liews
in
don't bluff
rox my sox
sux/suxors
plus the ah beng/lian's 1314, 3344 etc.

we are the pioneers can? all these vocab are like how swee? i take pride in them loh.
"imba" is like wadever man seriously. LOUSY leh these youngsters! can you think of more that we came up in our generation? if you can, tag them on the board! :)

Sunday, May 31, 2009

the following is a reflection of my days in aki as a mediocre student.

in most of my days in aki, i struggled with the fact that i was never really cut out to be an architect. while during some rare days i felt i could most definitely see myself designing a building from concept to construction.

truth be told, i never thought about this career path until i was choosing the nus courses. i never took art or AEP or had any artistic qualities. i wasn't good enough for law, neither did i want to take arts unless i really had no choice, and aki seemed like a fine choice because it was something different, and i was always interested in classical western architecture.

when i was in year 1, my civics tutor back in jc was surprised by my move and commented that i wasn't "architectish". back then i somehow knew he was right. i preferred writing, maybe reading, doing literature on movies or plays. totally lacking discipline, i entered a course which fundamentally required 85% of that (the other 25% i'll credit to talent, luck, artistic intuition).

in retrospect, i never regretted it. in fact, i believed i've actually spent the past 4 years was trying to make it up to myself by training self discipline and concentration. what could be better training then to cough up 6A1s every semester trying to contain succinct ideas of concept, intention, strategies, process, perspectives, plans, sections, elevations, details and physical models?

by the end of year 4 i guessed i only managed to achieve a year 2 standard of a someone who probably has much more discipline and the other 25% of previously listed qualities.

but i had already developed a guiding principle in life, which is to never regret whatever happens. you know those guilt pangs we usually feel when we are slacking instead of doing work? when it happens i'd always ask myself "do you want to continue slacking, or start doing your work?" if i chose the latter, i'd then make a pact with myself "if you get screwed in one way or another for this, you aren't allowed to lament or wallow".

so i wouldn't say life sucks, or bad things happen because it was never meant to be, but because the shitty things that happen usually occurs due to your own doing, or your own limitations.

but hey! besides being a QP, there are still so many other things to do with that same degree. i could still design buildings (or part of it, depending on how big the project is), do interior, i could still do stage design... but i don't think i can ever see myself as a QP, taking legal responsibilities for collapsing buildings. i still like my designing... and i think i can conveniently predict that in the next 5 to 10 years, only less than half of us would ever be a QP.

but i think the best thing that came out of all this, would still be the friends i've made :)

Saturday, May 30, 2009

i finished my sister's keeper by jodi picoult. after stashing it away in the cupboard for the past 4 years, i finally picked up michelle's bdae gift for me.



it started out as a really engaging plot. a test tube baby conceived as a pre planned donor for her sister who's suffering from leukemia. when the baby turned 13 she decided to sue her parents for the legal rights to her own body, to prevent her parents from conveniently using her blood and marrow everytime her sister relapses.

it then turned really shitty when in the last chapter she won the case and immediately got into a car accident and was brain dead so her kidneys went to her sister who got well. worse was the writing style which named each chapter after each character in the story, where in the chapter would be told in the perspective of the character. i figured out in chapter Sara aka chapter 4 that the dying sister won't be featured in the book till the last chapter... and sure enough. i hate the predictability of the book. ughh.

Friday, May 29, 2009

managed to catch just a tiny part of the new show, the ultimatum. anyone saw miss felicia chin monkeying away? if you ask me, i wouldn't say she 丑化 herself. rather, i believe its the real her! without makeup. she's not acting, people! just being herself.



wait a minute. where were the boobies? where was the double eyelids? hmm.

Monday, May 25, 2009

ewan mcgregor in a tartan! oh my god.



i prefer him MUCH more in that pope's tailor, uh, tailor-made cassock!



a closer look...



seriously some of the comments from people who saw the photos made me LOL.

"OMG! that close up did unspeakable things to me. *is positively going to hell*"

"OMFG!!!!!!!(yes, I have to visit Father Ewan now and confess my basphamy...)"

"Hmmmm! I don't think that would work for me, I'm sure I'd commit more as soon as I'd set eyes on him! LOL"

"OMG! I don't think I can take much more myself, I'd better stop looking!"

"He's so gorgeous in the one where he's sitting at the desk, and, wow, I really, REALLY love that outfit. He's beautiful in it (as he would be out of it!!"

"He looks very sexy in black and adding the priest makes it not fair! I'm tempted to sin."

WTF! LOL.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

i feel a mother huge sense of accomplishment cleaning up stacks of rubbish and sucking up tons of dust into the vacuum cleaner... only to find out that my mom took the filter to wash and hung it up to dry.

so there came the sickening sensation of realisation. the dust got sucked in and discongregated and was dancing right in the air once more in the form of minute particles.

ah fuck it.

老婆 comes back tomorrow! i'm not exactly sure if these few days were well spent doing things that i couldn't really do while he was around... maybe most things except k-ing!!! everybody! let's go k hao ma????

Saturday, May 23, 2009

not say i want to say... but sometimes the ignorance of some americans just gets to me. i remember a couple of years ago preparing for our GP, our tuition teacher showed us a documentary where they surveyed some americans about their thoughts on global warming, to which they replied "it's all a hoax created to scare the people. there's nothing such as global warming!"

not to mention a year ago where miss south carolina unwittingly replied to the question "Recent polls have shown a fifth of Americans can't locate the U.S. on a world map. Why do you think this is?"

"I personally believe that U.S. Americans are unable to do so because, uh, some, people out there in our nation don't have maps and, uh, I believe that our, uh, education like such as, uh, South Africa and, uh, the Iraq, everywhere like such as, and, I believe that they should, our education over here in the U.S. should help the U.S., uh, or, uh, should help South Africa and should help the Iraq and the Asian countries, so we will be able to build up our future, for our children."

FTW!

what irked me today was the response to kris allen winning american idol. some fella on a forum wrote
"I personally think, in person that is, that most Americans cannot tell where Hollywood is based on a map because of the children in 3rd World Countries. If we were to learn to count using an abbacus like they do in the Country of Asia or Africa, may be Adam could have won. With no intent to offend anyone, Adam lost because Ms. California is stupid and does not agree with gay marriage. BTW, Kris has a nice ass...while Adam has an amzing voice and talent!"

Dear Lord, get me away from the stupidity of these people as far as possible.

freedom of speech is thoroughly wasted on people like them.

Friday, May 22, 2009

somebody congratulate me please. this is the 2nd time this week i'm blogging!

it kinda sucks that i'm having a 5 day break but no one seems to be free to hang out the whole day with me!

it sucks more to know that it is already the 3rd day of the 5 day break and i have wasted the 1st 2 days on lng.

it sucks bloody most to know that i shouldn't be hanging out when i have to do things like clean my dust coated random things at home, and to work on my dissertation.

老婆!快点回来!

100 things i'll remember about my aki friends
#1- thomas gyrating his hips to the tune of la bouche's 'be my lover'

Thursday, May 21, 2009

it's not the beginning of a new year, but here are a few resolutions i've came up with, mostly while showering.

1. stop hunching
2. lose 8.5kg
3. stop being greedy + overeat
4. blog more!
5. be ruthless and ditch old junk i don't need anymore
6. have better time management
7. finish my work before deadline
8. learn to work: 快,狠,准

i shall add more to the list when i can think of more "to do"s. hurhur.

as some of you may notice, i did some tiny adjustments to the blog. a white background might make the blog look less gloomy... i hope!



went to watch angels and demons on sunday, and proceeded to read the book which i finished yesterday. i must say i noticed that many changes made from the book to the script was to make the movie less offensive. not that the book is, in my opinion. but just certain character backgrounds that would be otherwise totally acceptable placed upon characters like the pope and the camerlengo.

speaking of the camerlengo, ewan mcgregor is how hot lah! he has definitely been missing from the hollywood big screen, opting for indie/brit movies (yawn!) for the past few years, so its definitely a triple-plus bonus to have him in the movie. please note i'm not saying this because he's scottish! but since coming back from glasgow i was more aware of his scottish accent in the show, which is rather melodious, deviating from the silly and rowdy versions i heard on the streets everynight last semester.



i'm also reading a manga called kyou koi wo hajimemasu! i have no idea why but the lead character kyouta makes me swoon! i think its a majorly loser thing to be gaga over an entirely fictional character... BUT...

ok i have no excuses. i AM a major loser.

that aside, the story is about this new highschool girl tsubaki hibino who has some inferior complex but loves to doll every other person around her up. but she herself wears her skirt knee length and braids her hair up. she meets tsubaki kyouta, her classmate (who also happens to be the hottest and smartest guy in school) who teases her a little too much for her cui-ness. but yes, predictably, he makes her fall in love with him, and after what he thought was a bet, he falls in love with her as well. the other girls are irritated and finds trouble with her... and there you have it, a cliffhanger. DAMMIT!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

You appear to others around you as a person who is simply 'laid back'. From time to time you shelve your ambitions and forgo the desire for prestige and recognition and you are often considered as mentally lazy. You have the ability and you are the first to know this, but you prefer to take things easy and indulge your longing for comfort and security.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

You honestly believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, but there seems to be no one around to give you the necessary reassurance and encouragement. You are egocentric. You believe that you are always 'right' - well maybe you are but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.

It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.

The fear that you may not be able to fulfil or realise all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervour.

Friday, March 06, 2009

i know there's always weird suggestive spam emails that everyone get...
but today's one really cracked me up:



WTF!!!

Sunday, March 01, 2009

thank you for ending the mess you created. at least you do have some 良心 left in you, no matter how little. let us all pray for forgiveness! and shall we just seek perfection like God to love, to melt your cold cold hearts.

this has gotta be the worst joke to play on anyone.
remember, what goes around comes around.
better watch your back, you never know when a tight slap will land on your pussyface.