It had been a long time since my last post...the reason is that I am busy and I don't have the mood to post anything. Perhaps sometimes being too concerned and sensitive over some things is really what I should not do. Once again I questioned myself, am I too bothered about other people? I did it again, I started it all out and now things aren't going well, but should I be blamed for everything? It's my fault...It's my fault again...

I am Sorry for being unreasonable.

I had finished my applied illustration module today, actually not, there is still a so call "debriefing" session tomorrow, guess what I am not going for it. Hahas I guess I can't wake up also. It is damm freaking early lar. I shall sleep till the sun burns my ass tomorrow, let it burn bah, WHAHAHA, who freaking cares? Lols, South Park rocks. Tomorrow is Chia Minda's birthday aka Charmander, I am going for his chalet, oh greats.

My friend Liu Yue is leaving for China on saturday night, I guess I will be sending her off....O wells endless trips to airport again. Airport is seriously not a good place to go frequently. Trust me. Eliza actually planned to celebrate her birthday, but O wells she is leaving but we are still giving her a surprise by sending her off to China.

Okies thats all for today. Don't know why I just don't feel like blogging everything I think and feel. It is necessary for everyone to know. I know myself best, the other person is my mum who knows whats going on my mind and how I am feeling. Hahas. Okies.

Thats all. Bye Bye. Ciao.

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

English Translation

where are the rainbows please tell me
can i have my wishes back
why is the sky so quiet
the clouds are all above me

do you have a mask please give one to me
comfort won’t come if you talk about it too much
perhaps time is a kind of antidote
and also a poison i’m taking in now

how can i fall asleep without seeing your smile
your image is so close yet i can’t hug you
the sun will still turn without the earth
and i can still walk without a reason to

you wanted to leave, i know it is easy
you said dependence is whats obstructing us
even if we separate, can you not confiscate my love
i’ll only understand when it ends, take it that way

do you have a mask please give one to me
comfort won’t come if you talk about it too much
perhaps time is a kind of antidote
and also a poison i’m taking in now

how can i fall asleep without seeing your smile
your image is so close yet i can’t hug you
the sun will still turn without the earth
and i can still walk without a reason to

you wanted to leave, i know it is easy
you said dependence is whats obstructing us
even if we separate, can you not confiscate my love
i’ll only understand when it ends, take it that way

without seeing your smile
how am i supposed to sleep
your image is so close yet i can’t hug you
without the earth the sun starts to rotate rotate
without a reason i can still walk away
i said it too much so it won’t come true
perhaps time is a kind of antidote antidote
and also a poison i’m taking in now


Who says Salvins' World of Korean Madness cannot have chinese songs.
Enjoy the MV and the song.

My hearts hurts when I don't see you. I wish someone could drown me in the waters. The excessive projects and rushing deadlines does not seem to help much in easing my pain. I just can't split myself into two different persons.

I can't help but to think of you every now and then.

I am really questioning why am I in TP Design. I chose the path myself, so now I have to decide and make decisions myself to stay on the same spot or move on. I can't give the simple and plain stupid reason that I don't know how to do this and do that when I don't even make the effort to learn and find out from friends who know. I think I just simply too lazy, that is the fact and it won't change if I don't have strong mentality to push myself to the limits. Or perhaps I am just not talented or maybe I am fated to do theoretical stuff, which I don't think so, I neither good in operating design softwares nor good in studying too. I think maybe I don't even have a brain. I do silly things, I give retarded comments, I ask the most stupid questions a person could even think of and I irritate people with my fussy and outrageous attitude.

Did I made the wrong choice?

I think so.

School is starting today...I just only had 4 days of fun only...not enough~~~not enough~~really not enough lar~~,I am just too lazy to go school. I need to wake up early, crack my brains for ideas on CD cover and packaging design, working, important dates to attend to, need to squeeze onto bus 969 and a lot more. I just can't help but to complain about everything.

However, I can't deny that this year's Chinese New Year had been fun and memorable for me. I was running from places to places to collect "ang pows", playing majiong and blackjack and gathering with friends. Somethings are definitely memorable for me, the time spent will be recorded down and remembered for lifetime. I feel so young, I want to embrace this moment for as long as I could, hahas, there are a lot of things which I want to embrace but somethings are just beyond my abilities.

Okies, it took me long enough to type this post. 4 days never touch keyboard liao. It seemed so foreign to me.

Buai Buai...