Sam's Life

Well it was the longest and most stressful doctor's appointment I have ever had. They took some blood and made me pee in a cup. I scheduled and u/s for May 12th, at which time they will check my lining and the cyst and hopefully we will be able to see a heartbeat.

I was given progesterone supplements that I get to stick up my hoo-ha. They are "natural" supplements rather than synthetic and I have to get them from a special pharmacy... they are idiots at this pharmacy. I get to do it 2x a day... OH JOY! I haven't had any side effects from them yet.... thank goodness... and Im still not really feeling pregnant... just some cramps in my back.

I AM rather moody though....

I feel like I rained on everyone's parade by getting pregnant. All the ladies I have been close to are now saddened because they have not had a BFP. I feel for them , I really do, I remember what it was like when someone ~else~ got a BFP.... I just hate being THAT person. Don't get me wrong, I am estatic to be pregnant, I just wish everyone else could be pregnant too... blah.

So today is the day my period was supposed to come... I keep going to the bathroom and checking just knowing she is going to show up and this was all just a dream. Im tempted to go get another brand of test thinking the FRER were just defective.. lol. Bloating is gone for the day.... but backache is making an appearance... the kind of backache I get when Im about to start my period :/

I still cannot believe that I am pregnant... and we did it on our own?!? I just don't see how that happened! I mean I knew there was a small chance that we could do it on our own but odds were not in our favor. I do not feel pregnant at all. I am getting some minor cramps and some gas, but would probably have just shrugged it off as pre-AF stuff.

So here is the story of how it all happened.... I usually spot starting 10-11DPO... it was 13 DPO and I still wasn't spotting. From what my RE had told me I pretty much thought that there could be no chance of me being pregnant this month. So I was 13 DPO and Misty and Jamie convinced me that I needed to test just to put my mind at ease. So I picked up a pregnancy test on my way home. I was not going to tell Chad that I was testing cause he would think I was crazy. He was running late so I figured I would just go ahead and take the test before he got home. It had only been about 3 hours since I last went to the RR. I did not really have to go so i went ahead and peed in a cup to make sure I got enough urine. I dipped the test in, sat it down, flushed the toilet, looked at the stick, and there was a VERY pink line. I was STUNNED. I started crying and then jumping up and down. I had no idea how this could have happened. When Chad got home, I had left the stick on the counter and I told him I had a surprise for him in the bathroom. He looked at me all puzzled and he must have read it on my face cause all he said was "nu-uh". He went and looked at the test and said NO WAY. He was just as surprised as I was.

I could not sleep at all last night, my mind was racing with all kinds of thoughts. My due date will be January 3rd. Crazy.