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Day 17: Youtube video

Day 16: A letter to someone who has hurt you lately

I WAS hurt recently as in the past couple of days. I don't know if they read my blog or not. So I hesitate to write it. Yet, my Hero would say I should because he's frustrated and hates seeing me hurt.

Dear Person,
I had been looking forward to getting together with you for eons. While we're not really bff's, I do enjoy my time with you and you, likewise. I think. I say that because everytime we set up a time to get together, something always comes up. But I see you posting on fb about all the fun you're having and blah blah blah. It puts a bad taste in my mouth, you know? But I have just chalked it up to... "whatever." This past weekend though, you said let's get together! Okay! You canceled 40 minutes before I was to come out. "Let's do it tomorrow!" You even sent me a text, you fb me, gave me lots of signs that yes, you wanted me to come out and play! Then I get a call and you canceled again.


My husband was very upset last night. He felt you should be called out on it. He figures that we actually get together maybe less than 10% of the times that were set up. He sees a pattern and it's not right. Me? I don't think it's right either. I have noticed a pattern too and it's very sad when I plan something with you knowing that in all likelihood, it'll be canceled. Isn't that sad to you? Don't you see the pattern? If you're going to commit to something, you need to commit completely. I do understand that there are times when you're just too tired or the kids/you are really sick. But when it's almost all the time? Um. Might want to figure something out.


I really do like you. I think you're funny, creative and are truly a blast to be with. Yet, when it's something that I'm needing - a girls' night out, it's not nice to keep cancelling. I don't want to have to say "see ya later, aligator." But I'm thinking that perhaps, we should just be friendly and not be friends. I hate saying that.


I do hope that you're able to sort things out. You may have a lot on your plate so perhaps it's just best that we just not try and set things up for now. Okay? I do truly wish you the best.


With a sad farewell,
sariqd

Day 15: A picture of something you ate today

I don't have a working camera. Hence, no picture. (But I do have a new one coming! YAY!)

Which means I could totally lie and say I ate an awesome salad and was all that.

But that would be LYING.

Truth is....

I ate.........





candy.

Day 14: Someone who fascinates you and why

There are a number of people who fascinate me... for example, YOU. What makes you tick? What do you get pleasure out of? What makes you sad? What brings you unfettered joy? What are your personal beliefs? What are your challenges? Do you ever feel lonely? Why? In what ways are you creative? Parenting style? Crafts? Arts? Writing? Cooking/baking? See? I'd love to get to know each and every one of you because truly, I think you are all amazing in your own unique way!

Another person that fascinates me is Van Gogh. Have you ever taken the time to read his letter to his brother that I have posted at the bottom of my blog? You should read it. I feel like he captured my essence in how I feel like I'm going through a rebirth of sorts. That the journey there is so... I don't know, ugly & chaotic but the end result, I hope to be, beautiful.

Anyway, I love reading his letters. I enjoy some of his artwork. I don't "hate" bits of it, there are just some that doesn't resonate with me. I suppose that to be true for most people in their views on art? I don't know.

Day 13: Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous and that you find attractive.


Out of respect for my husband, I will pass on this.

Day 12: Your highs & lows of the past year

Hm. I have a terrible memory (I blame all the migraines burning up my brain cells). Looking back, I don't really have significant "highs" - they're more like lots & lots of moments. My kids, my Hero, my friends & family. Ooh. HRH's visit last year and my trip to my sister & brother in Idaho! Both, lovely times. My "lows" would be my constant fight with depression, Hero being laid off from work, and chronic migraines that are worse than ever. That's pretty much it.

Day 11: Somewhere you'd like to move or visit

Well, it's no secret that I'd love to live close to HRH. She's one of my besties! Actually, what I'd REALLY like to do is to develop a community of all my girlfriends and their families (Hi everyone!). Spread out a bit but not too far. I think 15-20 minutes away max is perfect. :)

I'd love to live in Wisconsin. That's where my Oneida Sioux tribe is. There would be multiple benefits from living there. The downside is, church membership is low. Something I'm hesitant about in that my children really need to have friends that share the same principals and standards. Some would say, "MOVE TO UTAH" but um... no. And no offense to my friends that live there. It's a little too homogenized for my liking. I mean, hey-lo! I live in Seattle and here there is such a diverse community here! Anyway, Boo needs girlfriends in her Primary class that live close and that attend the same school. It would help her out in a lot of ways. (Utah peeps? If you feel I'm wrong, tell me why. But don't be mean or defensive about it. Okay?)

Another place I'd like to live is... well, HERE! Seattle! But in a house. It's just too darn expensive here though. Besides, it's just time for my family to go on a new adventure. (Benefit of living in WI is they would help us get a house!)

There you have it folks. The reality of it all is... we'll move to wherever Hero gets a job. Which is another challenge... do we just pick up and move to the area of our choice and take the risk/chance that he'll be better able to be employed? Or do we just keep waiting and keep applying for those out-of-state positions? Even offering to not ask for relocation costs? Decisions! Decisions! Hopefully, we'll receive inspiration soon. And employment. Can't forget that! ha!

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She loved the contrast of the colors.

There were dozens of paper airplanes outside of a building at the highschool.

See the eagle?

Weird fuzzy string she found. It cracked her up. :)

"Acorn" shaped root

Made her think of a mustached-man.

She purposely "framed" the fire-looking tree in the middle.

She loves this one and calls it her painting.

Day 10: Bullet your day

• Up every hour on the hour from midnight on. (Little Slugger, I think, is going through a nightmare phase.)
• Woke up at 8am - took shower.
• Played with Baby.
• Had breakfast.
• Did dishes
• Changed baby's diaper
• Put on make-up (bought new stuff, LOVE!)
• Worked on Super Walmart list
• Looked at my "Sleep Teal Dawn" painted nails. Love it.
• Took meds for weird headache.
• Printed off list.
• Started blogging
• Prayers with Hero
• Left for Super Walmart
• Shopped.
• Discovered that sinus meds I picked up for Hero was a controlled substance.
• Went to Pharmacy to let them know it's on the regular shelves. (Should have been behind Pharmacy counter.)
• Received multiple apologies from 2 store managers & pharmacy manager.
• Purchased the meds as Hero has been dying from sinus pain.
• Came home and unloaded van.
• Had lunch with Little Slugger
• Changed diaper and discovered a horrible rash.
• Held & rocked Little Slugger as he kept crying and saying, "Ow! Ow! Ow!" Truly horrible rash.
• Nursed Little Slugger
• Read books to Little Slugger
• Chatted with moms at school
• Picked up kids & walked home
• Issued snacks to kids
• Helped Big Guy with prayer (we have prayers before starting homework)
• Made meatloaf. Whoops - forgot to put it in the oven. BRB.
• Put meatloaf in the oven
• Worked on post.
• Got bored and so is ending this mindless drivel of bulleting my day.

:)

Carry on.

Day 9: Put your iPod on shuffle and list first 10 songs. (I don't have an iPod. I do have a ZEN by Creative.)

1 - "I've Just Seen a Face" Jim Sturgiss
2 - Nocturne in C Minor/ Janusz Olejniczak
3 - Don't You (Forget About Me) / Simple Minds
4 - Off the Wall / Michael Jackson
5 - I am the Only One / Melissa Etheridge
6 - Hard Habit to Break / Chicago
7 - True Colors / Glee Cast
8 - The Sunny Side of the Street / Harry Connick Jr.
9 - I Think We're Alone Now / Tiffany
10 - Lovelight / Paula Cole

I'm a little embarrassed about #9. I didn't know I had that on. : |

And so sorry I didn't link up the songs. I'm too frazzled to try and do that.

And I really need new music. Suggestions?

Day 8: Something you miss.

Something I miss? My sanity? Or is that just a given? Hm. On a superficial note - I do miss having a 2nd car. This coordinating gig sometimes irks me. But, hey - we have a car so I should be grateful! On a more serious note - I miss people. Not things. I miss my Mom. I miss my Daddy. I miss my sister Barbara. They've all passed on. This may sound silly or "she needs help" kind of thing but...let me whisper it to you. I haven't deleted their email addresses out of my account. It's my tie to them. Perhaps that's silly but... Hm.

My mom - I miss her chatty ways. I miss her warm hugs. I miss her "ho-ho" laughs at a silly joke. I miss her offering tootsie rolls to the grandkids. I miss her puttering about in her garden. I miss her vast knowledge of the opera world. I miss her sparkly eyes when Dad would pat her backside. I miss her warmly greeting my friends. I miss her telling me about the things she learned about her ancestors. I miss playing duets with her. I miss... her telling she loves me.

My dad - I miss his chuckles. I miss the smell of Dr. Pepper about him and the gazillion empty cans in his car rattling around. I miss his smile. I miss quiet moments of drawing pictures with him. I miss him bringing flowers every Saturday for my mom. I miss him standing at the top of the stairs checking out the dates I brought home. I miss him being silly and holding his pinky finger out when he'd start writing. I miss... holding his strong hands.

My sister - I miss her giving me opportunities to learn new things. (Tap-dancing, stage make-up, anything with the arts.) I miss babysitting for her. I miss her infectious laughter that just springs up from the bottom of her soul. I miss her love of music. I miss running out for ice-cream with her and throwing them out the window. I miss watching her paint. I miss singing crazy with her on different musicals. I miss... her beautiful voice.

Day 7: Bible Verse

I am including verses from both the King James Version of the Holy Bible and also the Book of Mormon.

2 Timothy 1:7-8, 13

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.  This is something I need to repeat often to myself. I let fear rule my days and just how is that helping me become a better person? It's not. I HAVE the power, I HAVE love, and I HAVE a sound mind. Well, mostly on that last bit. ;)

Be not thou therefore ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, nor of me his prisoner: but be thou partaker of the afflictions of the gospel according to the power of God; I'm not "ashamed" of my testimony. I AM afraid of offending someone. However, I learn (and relearn) that if I share my testimony with those that I love and care about, it will be received in the same spirit. And again - I need to not have the "spirit of fear."

Hold fast the form of sound words, which thou hast heard of me, in faith and love which is in Christ Jesus. I love this. All I can hold onto is my testimony which is based on faith and love.



2 Nephi 31:20-21

Wherefore, ye must press forward with a steadfstness in Christ, having a perfect brightness of hope, and a love of God and of all men. Wherefore, if ye shall press forward, feasting upon the word of Christ, and endure to the end, behold, thus saith the Father: Ye shall have eternal life. Something that I say to my family is that we just need to "move foward." There is nothing we can do about the past, right? What we can do is PRESS forward, work through those trials & tribulations, and know that we'll have eternal life. There IS a reward for being faithful. 

And now, behold, my beloved brethren, this is the way; and there is none other way nor name given under heaven whereby man can be saved in the kingdom of God. And now, behold, this is the doctrine of Christ, and the only and true doctrine of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost, which is one God, without end. Amen.

I don't know of my readers who are or not of the The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. Or, the LDS faith. However, I would like to invite you and all of you, to visit: mormon.org You will find more information on the beliefs shared by us Christians. You will even find why we were nicknamed "mormons." :)