So the ultrasound tech came in and the first thing she said was 'You look horrible, are you feeling okay?' I was a sweaty hot mess, and I told her what had happened. She came in and took some pictures. She was in there a long time. I asked her if everything looked okay, but she said she would have to have the doctor look at them, not wanting to give any hints as to what she could see.
After she left, more time passed and the pain kept getting worse. The good news quickly took a turn for the worse when the results came back from the ultrasound. The ER nurse came back in and said she was so sorry, but the pregnancy was actually an ectopic pregnancy. Come to find out the baby had not made it to the uterus. It had attached in my fallopian tube and then the tube had burst. So I was bleeding internally and things got really serious really fast. I was losing a lot of blood, they gave me a blood transfusion, they bumped everyone in the operating room so I could go in first. I texted Seth that he needed to come. We got Heidi to go watch the girls until Kylee could make it down. Seth made it to the hopsital and in to see me before surgery. Surgery was two hours long, they did a laproscopy so just three small incisions. It all happened so fast, but they were able to do what they needed to do. They cauterized the tube, luckily they were able to leave the ovary, which they were not sure they would be able to at first. I stayed overnight at the hospital but was able to leave the next day. It has been a pretty smooth recovery. Kylee rushed down with her kids to watch Ari and Eden. She is a saint. They said it would take about 6 weeks to recover, it has been 3 so far and I am feeling pretty good. Still cannot exercise, but other than that, pretty good. Still wondering about how that even happened. How did we even get pregnant, but I remember one of my infertility doctors telling me along the way at some point that having a baby helps reset the endometriosis, it helps reduce the symptoms, so it is supposed to be easier to conceive soon after having a baby, before the endometriosis has a chance to come back full force. So I think that may be what happened in our case. It has been so soon after Eden that maybe my symptoms were not so severe that we were able to get pregnant on our own. Miracle of miracles. But now we are down a tube and we have to wait awhile. And Seth is scared to have something like this happen again. So he is pretty gun-shy now. It hasn't even been that long, so we'll see how he feels in awhile. I had been having symptoms since the Tuesday before, so nearly a week. Seth convinced me to go to Instacare on Sunday evening and they took an x-ray and just told me I was backed up. They gave me a bunch of laxatives and that helped, but the pain was still there. I called the Instacare again on Monday and they said if the pain gets worse to go in to the ER. The pain got worse, but if I remember right, it would come and go. But I couldn't really do much. I remember laying around all morning. On the bathroom floor, on the bed. Not really being able to take care of the girls. I finally called Seth around 11 and asked when he was getting off work that day (Monday). He said he would try to get someone to cover. I tried calling my visiting teacher to see if she could come watch the girls for a bit, but no answer. Seth got someone to cover his court and rushed home. I told him I would drive myself, he said definitely not. So he drove me down to the hospital. It took forever to get in as they were really busy. Probably about 3 hours. But they had taken my blood work and urine sample before I got a room so they would have results when I got to my room.
The part of this whole ordeal that is just heartbreaking to me is that my doctor who performed the surgery (not my ER doctor) came in and was talking to me before the surgery. He told me that they could still see a flutter of the heartbeat, the baby was still alive. But there was nothing they could do. They had to take me in for surgery ASAP and there are no procedures in place to move the embryo to the uterus. Oh how I wish there was a way. My heart still breaks. Our child was still alive and probably a healthy, perfect little thing. It is just so sad that she/he didn't make it to safety, but got held up in the tube. It was so close! I just cannot believe it. I know there are reasons for things and the Lord knows the big plan. I don't doubt that for a second. I haven't questioned why, I know there is a reason why. I maybe do not know the reason why, but He does. And that is enough for me. Does that mean it is easy? Does that make it less sad? Does that mean I should just be fine? No, no and no. But I do know that everything will be okay. I have faith in that. For now, we just keep going along, grateful for the two sweet miracles that I have already. They bring so much light and joy into my life. I love my girls so much!! I am so lucky to have a wonderful husband who loves me so much and two precious girls who give my life meaning and purpose. I have so much to be thankful for!
