Boon's Blog

I'm actually kind of person lack of confident,
I always doubt on my ability to do things,
afraid to disappointed others...
but still want to try everything,
at the end, still screwed up the things...
Besides, I also hate to be alone,
cause it made me think a lot
and get myself in trouble in emotional.

But to others,
what I show in front of my friends,
they might think I'm cheerful guy,
made people laugh all the time,
no worries, funny..
love to joke.
Because this is who I want to be.
I wish I can make my surrounded friend smile because me,
a helpful and kind person,
but things doesn't always goes what I wish to,
sometime I can't control and get mad to my friends,
or have a quarrel with friends.
For me, this is sad.

What I want to be still far away from me,
still a lot of things to learn in just a little time..
I have so much thing that I want to learn,
but I'm still lazy to start...
keep giving excuse to myself and delay and delay again..
Telling myself, wont't you confident and hardworking  a bit
Sometimes, I felt disappoint myself.

Read a comic book about the main character went to a different world
and he got a power of sword god.
At first, the friend he trust the most, betray him.
He started to ignore all the people around him,
suddenly he went to the other world.
That world are in trouble and all believe him could save the world,
that's he got the power of sword god
and getting stronger for all the people who believe him.

Believe is the biggest strength to ourself,
people who affirmation us will give us confident
the confident to done the job successfully.
So do I, sometimes I have been chosen as a leader,
I'm worry whether I can do it good or not,
but there is always a team member that believe on me,
for not disappointed them,
I should do my job as a leader of the group.

Believe,
although without a proof that one is right in doing so,
but only we believe,
we can make someone or ourself confidently,
and everything will be fine.
Believe always gave us strength and motivate us to done the things
that we always doubt on ourself.

Went to art gallery Wei Ling Contemporary at The Garden today,
The painting was paint by an artist, Toon Hian.
Every of the drawing use pigment and water colour to paint..
is quite interesting because most of his art work only use monochrome but play with different tone.
When I look at his artwork,
I also try to think about what he want to show in his painting,
but some of his painting I'm not sure what he trying to paint about..

Besides,
The painting which are most impression for me is a paint call "Come and Going"
What I see in this painting is many people walk down and up at the staircase,
and also bring something on their hand.
It made me think that just like our life...
many people appear and come to our life, to be our family, parents and friends
but they can't be always together with us all the time...
they might leave and going one day.
Although they come and leave us at last,
but they still bring many meaningful things to us...

Not only that,
just like our nowadays society,
many old building was built many years ago and used to it,
many old building that bring  meaningful and historical to us in our place,
but due to developing the place,
all the historical building have to destroy，
even they rebuild with modern building but it lost the feeling of  reminiscence..
it seem doesn't have any different with others places or country anymore...
those historical building just gone like that.

This is what I feel in this gallery on one of the painting I impression to.

Watch an advertisement Dove real beauty sketch on youtube,
Dove company invite a drawing artist to draw the people by describe how they look
and artist draw it,
besides they ask another person to describe how that people look like..
and artist draw again.
In final draw, the people themself describe how ugly they are
but actually they are good looking in other people eyes..

In this actually can know no one are look down on you but only yourself...
We actually are more better than we think,
we always lack of confident on ourself,
Confident is also the biggest enemy to us,
we can't really do anything without this unless there is something we used to do..
but when come to unfamiliar things,
normally we will think  a lot before action.

Sometimes, we can actually do the job nicely
but because lack of confident make all the job worst..
We should self enhancement to promote ourself, not hiding..
If confident is a goal,
then we have to believe how great we are than we think.