farktheshit

well well.im still troubled over my own personal stuff.i made up my mind.but its so hurtful to do it.i really cant bring myself to do it!.but i have to!.this is just geeting so complicated for me!.i might just collapse one day!. all this shall leave me soon so i would live happily!.


*today had class.i totally did not wanna go!i wanna sleep so badly but tinkin bout my attendance i actually told myself if i do it again duno what will happen to me.so i drag myself to the toilet and i nearly fell asleep in the toilet lahh.but im not that pig!so i woke up!reach school in time!i hate DE so much!!teacher kinda know im totallly useless for tt lesson he juz keeps comin and askin me.and all i did was gave him tt leave me alone face!!hated it!!.at 10 had breakfast at mac!i fell asleep at mac.i was tooo tired.everyone left lahhh.only me and hang leng was left there.got back to class and realise i did my hw wrongly which was totally funny!!my hw was to make a sun sat thingy with shapes!guess what i did?!. i took a picture fm the net and draw shapes on it!!.i was so wrong!!.heee!!stan did not come to school today again!!damn!so wanna help him but dunno how to.guess 3 of us(me malinda and han leng) are so darn bloody concerned bout him!.well, hope everything is fine now!!.aft school i took 162 to town, got into the bus with sec school kids sittin behind me.the whole trip was for me to sleep.which i did get a chance to! they were talkin so darn bloody loud!!.once the guy hit one my seat.i turned and gav him one of my fark look den heard him whisper :p but he stil did again.i did the same thing den he nv touch le!!hee!!so met clair and paulene at town!!damn!!did not realise i miss so much fun with them!!.i miss them!and its evn more saddenin!!.one goin to america another to thai and me wil be here in sg!all of us are shattered!!.well i hope one day we'll meet each other aft we all complete our studies!.so 3 of us shopped!and me!i bought a bag and a shirt!.i have no more money!!.hais the shirt i bought is like small lahh..gotta go back and change it.cause i ask for M dunno what they give me!!.yepp.when home pretty early today!i was too tired!.
PICTURES!!










This are pictures took with ed yesterday!my sec scch friend!

my answer is certain

just finished my BIS test!well this test is not that bad!got a feeling i'll pass this.but come to tink of it.abit no use!!cause my other test result is striking!! ive got 5and a half upon 20 for the recent one, 3 and a half upon 10 and 4 and a half upon 10!hmmm see this has been my reslut!!.i only pass 2!!sian!.dunno whyy yesterday and today i seriously no mood!!i dunno whyy.mayb its because there's something inside me that wanna let it out so badly but cant!whyy whyy!!.it feels so bad.i did not evn hav the right mood to study!.something is so wrong.mayb i shall let the thing i want , to go! mayb ii should! but mayb not.i dunno!! forget it!


in class now!.teacher talkin bout some excell thing!.don wanna listen to her!.hmmm lata after school wil be goin home straight!but am plannin what to do!.i wanna be occupied!.mayb will go to my auntie house, long time neva go her house help her look after her kids le- the 3 irritaing cousins!!.hiya.jus tink bout what i'll be doin.like so sian leehhh!!.dunno what to doo sia!!.*confuse!!*

ok currently cravin for green curry!!i wanna eat green curry!!!whyy nobody know where got sell green curry!?!?..

well tt day when i wen out with nor nor took all this crappy pictures!!

well well.gues what i just saw on tv?or shall i say what me and my mother saw on tv!a news bout a bus travellin from tioman to singapore which got into a accident!.2 dead!.just as when me and nor nor wanted to plan a trip to KL together, my mother have to see this news.haa!!.ya!so me and nor nor want to go KL together! probably during the june holiday :D if we both ever go i tink i'll go broke in malaysia and probably hav no money to return back to singapore..haha!

so today, again i did not attend english class.thats cause when i woke up, looked at my hp and it was alreayd 8 plus!.totally cannot make it.den i skipped math classes as well!.and went to school at ard 2.but before goin to school ard 12 i went to meet calvin!he came to serangoon central which was totally wrong (dui bu qi) as there was nothing to do at central!.haha.so i ate my tou hua and headed for school.we both took the long way to school because calvin has lots of time to waste! yeahh..he lahhh skip classes den work does not start til 430.damn i bet a gave him a very boring day out!haha!!so he came to my school and see see look look and left.which was fast!.i send him to the bus stop though.haha thats because calvin is anoher sua ku!heee!!he is also another one that hangs ard orchard tampines and bedok(where bengs come from) only and like neva see the other parts of singapore one!.talkin bout ah bengs, i was sayin he looks like one and he says i look like one too!oh damn it!!im totally not a ah lian!im those innocent type one!and he said something really funny.bout the netted socks?.he crap with me sayin that i actually have it at home and if i relle don i was plannin to buy that!.eeewwww!!!no wway!!and whyy i say h looks like a ah beng? thats cause the first time ive ever notice him he was with his beng looking friends so i tk him as one!and he really have the beng look but aft looking for a long while don really look like ah beng le!heee!ok so i returned to class.class was boring!.hate it now.dunno whyy..and right after class i kinda like rush home.like hate school so much!.probably hate how dumb ppl think.yeahhh!! nah juz realise i probably rushed home bcoz of food! mama bought food for me!dunno whyy whenever im hungry i'll get angry!haiss


tmr is tuesday!!boring long day.goin home again after school which i might die!.BORDOM will kill me!.well probably lata in the night i shall plan what to do!.haha!im borednow already..mayb i should go cycling today!.

see photos i took with eleanor at RVP mac!


heee!today woke up at like 7 plus!.my lower stomach towards my backside hurt so badly!i could hardly walk.and when i pee it hurt so badly!!i so wanted to see the doctors but i got no money at tt time!.i was so afraid that something might happen to me!it really hurts!!lucky thing i manage to sleep back and it was fine by den.i scared lata i sleep the same thing happen again!.hmmm!.today i finished work at 3!!so early!as i was at orchard mrt station!there so much beta lahh!!hahha..although i KINDA got chase away by OCBC ppl.hmmmp!!i'll kill u guys one day!.so aft givin out,met nadia and jason ate at lido's mac!.den they left met nor nor!we both when shopping!this time im seriously broke lahh!i don wanna spend money le!!save save!!.ya.today also saw my tattooed friend again.and michelle and eddie!.ya! guess what im doin now?.watchin devil beside u on tv!! heee!!but i watched this b4 le.tmr got school don feel like goin for english classes lehh.but i cant!i must be good!!.

*yawn*i freakin tired today..i hate the work im doin!thats cause i had to carry the bookmarks home which is reallly heavy.i bet ive grown shorter.i seriously tired from carryin it!.today work was sucky thats cause forum hardly has anyone!.i kinda got alot left.not till sam, sylvia and christy came to my rescue!!they 3 helped me to give out my bookmarks!hope my boss did not see it!haha!.actually i gave most of my bookmarks at the car park.which is really tiring!.haiz.so aft i finish my work went to Big O and ate.i ate calamari!yupp..not ful not full.haha.so sam and sylvia was in the shoppin mood.so they shop and their shoppin is really crazy lah.they stay in one shop for like an hour it kills me!.eleanor came aft tt with jasmine and bf..aft tt me and nor nor went to wheelock to eat fish.co!.which was great.den lata walked to cine!.found diana, chun keen and desmond they all lah!.dennnn..got problem lahh..so kinda stayed there or a long time.was suppose to go drinking.den sam sylvia wanna go home,mee too as well.so diana and nor nor went to drink.okok!im sooo go ddamn tired.today's bloggin is like shit..got photos!!

at mac now! with nor nor and her friend and senkang!.heee! im am trying to do my bloody homework which a man in the video would teach me..but dunno why the video keeps stoping! damn it!.cant do it lah.den another project cant do as well cause i dunno whats the fomat size!damn lahh.waste my bloody time comin here!mama evn bought me my fav punngol nasi lemak lahh!its on my dinning table!waiting for me to eat it!haha!well today its amazing for me i did not go out today!!but i got up fm my bed and bathe change and den lata decide not to go!.anyway nor is now doin her homework so damn hardworkin lahh!!i also must be like her,try to my stupid flash project!.



*listenin to ke you lun's - ling the song!!best song!!*nice!

k decided not to go home that early le coz mama sleep already.tmr workin at forum!!ALONE! nor nor will be at parkway!yeah!!hope tmr i wont die in town!!anyway i might work at mac!!the pay is good!!7.50 an hour!!..goodie!!

anyway just realised that i stopped watching devil beside you!.ive been out always till i forgot to watch my showw!!

it 26th may!.its papa's birthday!.happy birthday to my wonderful daddy! though he is not here and said he is very disappointed in me!.im still wishing u a happy birthday!!..









kk.we start from yesterday.got to school by cabbie with han leng as my bus was like 1 min later den 159.so we both share cab.got to sch had C# test.FAILED!.my programme cant evn enter anything! im so domed!.so aft class it was jus 10!.he sat at FJ.aft eating it was 10 plus waited for 11.when it was 11 han leng so gan choing lahh..wanna go town! its like wantin to be the first customer!.haha.so we hang ard sch till 12 like that!.yeah and stan did not join us.he got his valid reason!.which i kinda pity him!he so need to come sch! but yet he got his problems.hmmmm.so 3 of us board the bus at 12 and i slept first while the both kept talkin!.and wen i woke up at far east bus stop.both of them sleepin like pigs as well.and if it was not for me!!i tink we would sit all the way to shenton way!aft sleepin me and malinda recharge our battery!heee!!toturing time for han leng poor uu!!wen to cine and took this pic!

aft tt malinda had her smoking period!while waitin for free cigarette took this lame pic!.




got to far east and kinda spend all out time there!got to meet my friend calvin and my fidiot ftapid classmates asked stupid questions!which calvin believes!argh!!thanks to themm.we walked like rounds and rounds ard far east aimlessly!!.heeee!!saw my long lost tattooEED friend joshua!.yepp.got to KFC to rest.i fell asleep over there as i was tooooo tired!.classmates still dun wanna go home!.wen to far east at 7pm.walked ard.den back to heeren to fins tshin!playin hid and seek with us lahh!!.he was with his frens and we made him leave his friend and join us!.haha!ard 9 malinda gotta go home!and me meetin calvin!yeahh!so we spilt ard 930.

wen to kopitam with calvin and friends!did not eat was totally not hungry!.yep they chatted and stuff which i listen?.hmmmm.aft their snack period was done got our butts to cine and drank 1can of beer.aft that we headed home!.i took mrt to serangoon!and calvin took it to tampinese!he reach home faster den me!!i'll neva tk that stupid serangoon route again!haha!took 105 saw han leng on the bus lah!!..oh no! i see him for so many hours le still have to see him!!.haha!

omg!.i just bought fried rice to eat!and look at the time! its 10plus.damn night snacks agin!.whahaha..anyway i just got home from town.when to watch x men!.i was half way asleep ZzzZZZZ..haha! but they last part was nice though!.heee.

okok i skiped english class today!.went out with my fallows to grassroot.played arcard and i had to borrow this VERY VERY ugly sandals cause i wore slippers!!so ugly until i cannot tk it lor.haha.we played arcard for a while den malinda, stan and han leng go play pool and i went home and slept!.see the pictures we took!!.wahaha.

















*these are the craps we did



Yesterday, i went out with calvin watched poseidon!.was not that bad! i just like the kid in the show!.that makes this show more interesting!!yeah!!.aft watching that walked to cine den wen to buy another movie tickets!.which was VOICE!.the show that i didn't wanna watch cause its a ghost showw!!.heee.but since we got nothing to do so....watch it lorrr!!.and in between that nothing to do period calvin went to eat!.so we juz chit chat!.yeahh *don pierce your tongue!* heee!.12.05am* went into the cinema calvin look at the screen den he was like i tink i watch this b4.den he says later the paper cut the throat and when it did!he was like ya i watched b4!! goodness i've neva met anyone who is actually that blurr to not know that they actually watched the show already!!.mann!!so he juz kinda slept!.and i was not scared lehh!!.coz he told me when the scary part is!.haha.


*tmr goin town with my fallows!*

LSL lessons again!.and this time i got 4 and a half upon 15 for my test!!..i tink i kinda did the worse!!.cant help it!!i totally have no idea what this teacher is teaching me!! :p mayb i'll buck up soon?.anyway yesterday my brother was asking me to watch U tube some english lesson thingy!!.its funny!!!!.i like the part wen the guy was suppose to say 20.but but he don know so he say ten ten!!..whahaha den it reaches 100..he say ten*10!!whahahaa.ok test time!!!!.hais im goin to fail this again!




*signing off before she calls me up and answer some stupid question!!*

mood: bad (in the morning)
feeling fine(now)

whahahha..i juz got home from school!!.in the morning i was so damn bloody moody.goodnes!sorry to friends that saw my shitty face!.whahaa.at ard 1 plus?..ah too called.he was alright! but not fully alright.which make me happy cause he's fine now!!..yeah!!*3 cheers*.yup so aft reciving that phone call i kinda went crazy!.wahahaha!!..in class me and malinda went mad..i juz kinda sing some stupid songs the whole day and malinda was juz laughing all the way through.haha. we took this pic see:


















there more pictures but i hate them..malinda purposely place the camera right in front of my face!!made me look fat only!.haha.so we were like laughin all the way through! and teacher kinda scold the whole class!.sadness!!.aft school went home with han leng!!.mayb lata goin to eat tao huai with him!!..yupp


*tmr goin to watch poseidon with calvin
*on wed goin to watch da vinci code with nadia and jason -_-". i need to find a boy to accompany me!!.haha
*on sat and sun goin to work with malinda goin to give out bookmarks!!support us!whahaha..come forum on sun!!whahhaa

how shuld i decrible the feelings i have now?.i don't know as well.how i wish i could help him turn back time?.i wish!.i wonder when will i ever meet him again, when will be the day that he would tell me everything that he wanted to tell me and the things i wanted to tell him.i wonder when?.or will the day never come?.i hope the day for us to watch a movie soon will come.im really waitin for the day that you will find me back again!.



ppl will say its kinda stupid for me to feel this way.but its really because i have made up my mind because of him,but all this are destoryed now!.whyy whyy whyy?!?! whyy this must happen?. but boy just take good care!.its might just end here.




*where you go i miss you so, seems like its been forever thats you've been gone. please come back home*

blogging again.fianlly i get to talk to you!.im relieved but yet sad!.well ah too i'll be there for you now. don be sad!.evn though this things happened aft knowing u.i'll neva regret knowing u!.ah too i wish ya luck.i'll pray for you!..i will..

in eleanor's house now.bored at home!.was watchin devil beside you the whole day?..nono i slept frem 4 to 8.whahaha.my goodness devil beside you is such a nice show man!..though eleanor thinks i hav no life!!.haha.anyway juz now when i was at central saw wei kang!!my long lost taiwan friend!!.and he has become one blooddy bad boy that hangs ard in serangoon central.and me a unlucky human gave him 2dollars.yupp.


anyway life is now any beta for me now!.thanks to you!.

its a boring friday for me!!.got up at ard 12.met paulene at ard 2.30.yup today both of us juz kinda walk ard.had laughters which was good!.wahhaha till we wen to cine.saw one of ah too's friend den he started tellin me what happen to him.at tt moment i was pretty shocked and juz nodded.and kinda giving him those don wanna talk to him tt face.well pretty sorry juz that it was shocking!!.aft what he had told me i kinda lost my mood.till now ah too hasn't msg me,hmmm worried and confused!.damn!!..whyy is it that there's always something stoping me or something out there to destory what i've finally decided!.this time its for real.and now it might be ruin!.

weeee!!.ive finally gottan my notebook.so now i'll probably blog alot!..well i hope lahhh!.heeee!!. so today arrive in sch by cab coz i woke up late.den i realise that this teacher does not mark anyone late no matter how long we're latE!!.damn wasted money on my cab lahh!..sooo after C# lesson(most terrble lessooon!!). me and some of my classmates wen to eat mac.and aft eating mac they all decided to go grassroot!!..well i tink grassrooot should move!!wahahhaa...all NYP is hangin out there instead of class!?!.so we got there played a few stupid arcade games den wen back to sch already!.pass up the photoshop homework den we're done!fastt!!.den we went back to grassroot, pool table all fully booked.so me, han leng and malinda headed towards town!!...yup yup!!..3 of us, oh no i should say me and malinda kinda got tired out.well coz we bullied han leng till we've got no more energy!!>.whahahaha!!.so 3 of us kinda walked ard, played pool, eat and hang ard sammuel and kelvin!!..den aft tt i wen to meet eliza.played some stupid drinking game!!..but this time we drank water!!!...i pee alot!! hee hee!!...anyway yesterday stan came to my house!!..amazing this is like the first time ive ever allowed a guy to ever enter my house!!..whahaha!!.but eleanor was there too.took some photos.



this is eleanore and me!!













and this is me and stan!















eleanor and me again!