Every Mile Counts

It was raining when we went to the Christmas party. So we have to be in the building rather than out. The place itself was a cricket stadium so you can imagine how large was it. But i could say that there were not as many people as i have expected.

The party was kinda of boring and i don't feel any Christmas mood at all. The live band did not even play any Christmas songs. Everyone was standing and waitress were serving just finger foods and everyone was practically chatting and drinking wine, champagne or beer. I had a couple of drinks but didn't drank much as i was sick when i went.

I met quite a few of his colleagues and its good to know whose his working with. By the end of the party, i was really really tired as i have been out since 10am in the morning till 11pm at night. I don't think i can always go out because im old now. It's sad to say that but its true so might as well admit it.

I went to check out our new place too as we will be moving sometime during the Christmas season. The room is actually smaller than what we have now but its nice and cozy. But most of all what i am interested in is swimming pool. Yes, the apartment has a swimming pool and the shopping center is just a 5 minutes walk. I can't wait to splash into the pool especially this hot summer.

Christmas is just around the corner and i haven't done much shopping yet because i am currently broke and there's not many friends here to celebrate this special day with me except him or my cousin. I am still thinking if i should visit my cousin for Christmas or New Year.

This Saturday will be KW's company Christmas party. Kind of looking forward to it as i never attend a Christmas party here. Its a smart casual party so nothing too fancy. I am not spending anything on it but just wearing whatever dress i have and put on whatever accessories i have.

The weather these days are crazy. It can be really hot during daytime and raining mad at night. That is why i have been coughing because of the weather changing just anyhow they like. Ok, i shouldn't be blaming the weather also because its out of my control.

Nothing much is happening lately. Just handed in assignments and another 2 weeks time i will be having a multiple choices exam. I should start studying but guess what i have no text book at all. Not even one! See how lazy i am and the text books are damn expensive also. I am still asking around friends who wants to sell their text book secondhand to save up some money.

Since uni started last week i have skipped 2 classes. One is becos i need to work as my boss was travelling and the other one was because i was really tired and the class was at 5.30pm. But luckily during the week there's only one classes at 5.30pm which falls on a Tuesday. I also have classes for 3 weekends and the first one starts this weekend. The classes starts from 9am to 4.30pm. Sigh... Its on Saturday and Sunday.

Its only week 3 and i need to hand in 2 assignments. One is a proposal with 500 words and i have no idea how to do it. The second one is i need to read a presentation book and explain the questions given by the lecturers. WHY?????????

The text books are still so expensive. The uni doesn't a library which makes things worst. But there's a small section of text book and only the staff can grab the books for you. You can borrow your books but its just until 5pm. I guess this is a good thing too because you will always have the text books around you.

So far the lecturers are not too bad. It feels wired studying again after almost a year without touching books and doing assignments. I hate this feeling!

Things just happened without us knowing. After it happens then we will only realize that why didn't we appreciate at the first place.

Going back down to the memory land at 2003, i still remembered the first time i saw him was at Malaysian History class at Inti. I was sitting in front with my cousin and him sitting few rows behind me with his friends. I didn't notice much about him except knowing him is in the same class as i am. We began with a simple smile with each other at college and nothing more. But i get to know him more through a classmate of his whom i knew. That's when i began to take a lot of notice of him.

The first time when i went out with him was to a movie. Actually my friend invited both of us to let us both get to know about each other more. After the movie with him, i did not thought much about anything else as i didn't know what he feels about me. One important thing is that we did change our mobile numbers.

The first real date was when he called me and asked me if i was interested in going out for a drink with him. I immediately agreed and was really excited. We went and have pearl milk tea somewhere near my place and from there i get to know him better. That's when he started calling me regularly.

His dad even called me up when he got his mobile bills and thought that someone might be stealing his line. I was kinda of shock when he called and at the same time was also scared after i knew it was his dad. Thinking back, i always laugh of how funny that his dad get to know that his son has a gf.

I still remembered after his diploma at college, he decided to go Singapore and work. During that time we did not gave each other up but he ended up coming back after a month because he couldn't take the stress. He then worked in a company related to his field and some mornings i made him breakfast before going to work.

We then decided to come to Brisbane and study together at the end of 2005. The first time being away from my parents was really hard for me and i was crying for a few days. Luckily he was here with me and made everything so much simple for me. He's always here when i need comfort and hugs. This was also the first time we stayed together. I didn't quite like the idea of staying under the same roof because i know i won't be able to have my own private time. But it then turn out fine.

Today i can say that we've been through the ups and downs together. I can see that he also changes a lot since we stayed together. I can say that staying together there's always good and bad. One has to forgive so there won't be a lot of argument happening.

Some days, he said 'Thank you for all your hard work.' I got touched with his thank you to me. If you treat people with respect and influence them through your actions, they really change because of you.

I would like to take this opportunity and say 'Thank you for loving me!'

p/s: But then he never read my blogs so there are still chances for me to say something bad about him. hehe....

This is my first time going for a seafood buffet. We went Marriott Hotel to have the buffet and it cost $60 for weekdays and $75 on weekends. It's always good to have buffet on weekdays to save some money and have the food all by ourselves.

I'm not a seafood person but my colleague insisted on going since its her birthday so might as well try it. She loves fresh oyster and that night she ate around 60 oysters. I just only ate one because after i ate it, i felt like im getting sick. There's all sorts of other food around and i tried all of it. Just that i forgot to take photos and also feel paiseh bringing my camera around and take the food. But i hope the pictures that i took will satisfied all of your hunger. The crabs and prawns are boiled so its very tasteless.

I did enjoy myself and the services at the hotel were really good. I guess its always different when your in a 5 star hotel having lunch or dinner. If you ask me to go another time for a seafood buffet i won't bother to go anymore. I would rather buy oysters from the supermarket and add cheese on top of the oyster which are nicer.



The desserts are super nice but i didn't get to eat a lot. I was very very full when i start eating desserts. My stomach was already bloating and i just felt like i couldn't walk anymore. I should have leave more space for desserts. The pudding was extra nice.

The shop im currently working at. The first thing when people pass by will say 'OMG! All this are so shiny.' This gives some people of interest to take a look at the stall to see what we've got to offer. Even though its not a very big stall, its still more than enough because if customers have more choices then they would take longer time to decide what to buy.



Basically these are just parts of the stall's display. This is what i have been selling since i came back. I love this job because i get to meet lots of different people and most of all i love all these accessories. My boss opened this stall is because its her hobby. This made me think that sometimes a hobby can really help us to earn our living too. It's not that bad after all.

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this morning i start working at 9am but got out of the house at 7.45am to catch the bus. one thing i need to remind myself is that if im working in the morning i must use ferry because using bus in the morning means getting stuck in the traffic. usually it needs around 15 minutes to get to the city by bus but this morning needs around half an hour just to reach the city.

i had heavy breakfast at McD. i ate egg & sausage muffin with hash brown and orange juice. i don't usually have breakfast at home as im too lazy to make one for myself so would rather eat brunch.

opening the shop in the morning is always boring as there won't be many customers till noon. so i spend most of my time reading a story book i borrowed from the library. the book that im reading at the moment is "The Sister's Keeper" written by Jodi Picoult.

working in the shop is actually an easy job because i don't do much except talking and promoting. the first thing i reach the shop is sweep the floor, clear the glasses, arrange accessories, tie up my hair then i'll be sitting down on the chair to wait for someone to come and look and i'll serve them. sometimes it does get a bit too boring and that's when my boss will appear. she's a very bubbly person and knows how to really dress well. she's also a very successful person at her age. she really encouraged me to work hard to earn quantity at the moment and later days live in a quality environment.

today there's 2 Turkish ladies came to the shop. they are really fussy and wanted to look basically at everything in the shop. so me running here and there to take the accessories for them to look. one of them liked pink a lot so was asking me to take watever's pink for her to try onto her hair. anyway, serving them helps me to remember the prices so i was quite happy with that. the worst part is they want to negotiate the price with me. so i told them i could only give them 10% discount. but after giving them 10% discount they still want to negotiate with me. by that time i was kind of angry but of course can't show it out as its not a good attitude. so i told them straight to the point that 'I'm sorry i can't make the price for you as this is not my shop and my boss is not here.' guess what? they asked me to call my boss and ask her. i replied them saying 'My boss is in the hospital having consultation now.' which is true so in the end they didn't ask for more.

i don't know if this is a right way but sometimes we need to be firm with customers if not they will take a step ahead of us to tell us what the price they want to pay us. i now can see that sometimes its hard for business people to make profits if they don't set their sales margin high because there's always people who will be negotiating the price with you.

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On Monday night i went to my ex colleague's house for dinner. It should be an ex ex ex colleague. haha... Because she, Stella, was a colleague when i worked in a cafe in the city as a kitchen hand. Coincidentally, she's also from Kuching. Just that she's much more older than me. I was close with her when i worked there but did not get into much contact after i quit the job.

I think after a year's time, KW got the job there too in the same cafe. Stella was still working there too when he went and work at the cafe. That's how we begin to hang out with each other and some other workers in the cafe.

It was a great dinner and we had a lot of fun taking photos. One of our friends even brought her graduation gown as she won't be attending her graduation next year so she rented it first and let us have fun with it.

So i shall let the photos do the talking. Let's take a look at the food first.

I admire birds flying freely at the sky. Nothing to worry and nothing to think about except where to stay. Looking at the birds at the sky flying here and there makes me want to be like them too. Then this would be a good chance to fly between Brisbane and Kuching. haha....

This week i will only be working for 3 days. So other than the 3 days i stayed home most of the time to save money on buses and shopping. So far i have been successful in controlling my finances. I plan to dye my hair for a darker colour. Hopefully KW will help me to dye it if not go salon will cost a fortune. I'll try to force him if i can.

Im having a boring life now so not much to blog. I don't think much nowadays. Just let my brain rest for a while and maybe it will next working soon as in maybe next month.

When it comes to weekend i always feel bored. Spending my weekend with my computer is the worst part even though i have him by my side. I always think if i am at Kuching, i still have my brother, father, mum and fiffy for the weekends. There are always no ending at home with so much entertainment around.

I know im always whining about how good if i am back at Kuching. But i always ask if this is all worth it and is this what i really want? Am i happy here? I really don't know. I can never give myself a certain answer. I don't dare to take the risk. I know nothing except being just a daughter, sister and girlfriend. I really feel tense when i do not know what i want from myself. I really want to do what i feel and think. I don't know what's holding me back! I really don't know!

I wish i can see the path that i want to take soon. I feel like im just wasting my time bumping around. I really hope God will be able to lead me to the right path.

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i've been trying to do some changes onto myself. transforming my appearance but its not that successful yet so when i've really learn and have the confidence then i'll show it to you people.

i am trying to change my style of wearing clothes such as mix and match what i have in my closet. from there i realize that i have too many clothes that i haven't wore for ages. i also have too many t-shirts so from now on if i buy any clothes it must be something more mature and feminine. i can already see myself spending lots for my new clothings. sigh...

i've also tried make up but still can't get hold of it. i really suck in it. how can a 23 year old woman don't know how to make up. i know i should be embarrass when i say this but i don't. i just don't have the interest in learning it. i only force myself to learn it because i need to look good when im working. i know its for my own good maybe not for now but in the future. i won't want people to be laughing at me when they know that i don't know how to make up.

i have 2 poems to share with you people:

i brought a wig back from work to practice. its so fun playing around with the hair with different styles. i need to learn so that i can help the customer to tie up their hair so that they are able to feel how tight the hair accessory is.

im still not really that good but i'll share with you guys what i've learned. don't mind if you see the hair is not tied up in a straight line.

i am have settled myself down. but has been sick after a day i came back. a bad start actually but just try to be positive everything will be seen differently too.

the day i came back and entered the house, the whole house looked so messy. i never knew that without me in the house, it can be so dirty and messy. i nearly fainted when i saw there's plastic bags on the dining time and the kitchen table is so dirty too. plus KW is sick so need to take care of him straight away.

i cleaned part of the house because i could not stand to live in a messy house and did some cleaning. i was really tired after cleaning but was glad the house looks more neat again. staying with 4 guys are hard especially when they are don't really cooperate.

i got myself a job after a day back from Brisbane. im so happy at least i got some income. and i get to see different customers. im selling accessories such as hairclips. i'll post some photos up when i get the chance to snap some photos of the stall.

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in another 5 hours time i will be departing Kuching and don't know when i'll be back again. suddenly i feel like staying put in Kuching to work so that i can be close with my friends and family. i have a mix feeling now. i don't know if i will be that strong like i was when i leave KW behind 3 weeks ago. i did controlled my sadness well that i don't really cry much.

but this time seems different. because im feel belonged and love when im back home. that's why i never wanted to leave Brisbane back here at the first place if its not for my student visa. now i hate this feelings. i doubt that there's many people like me whose always emotional when they have been travelling to and from so many times. for me, everytime before i leave here i will always cry when i leave my family.

no matter what i must be strong and study when i have the opportunity. the only thing i can do now is not to let my parents down.

i'll blog again when im back in Brissie!

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its almost a week since i've been back home. i don't really do much except eating and sleeping. im actually kind of tired of such life doing practically nothing. feel like im a bit hopeless. haha.... but its a good time to really relax and sit back what i really want to do for life.

for now, i really want to go back aussie and study. in the past i did not try my best to study as hard as i can. so this is another chance that i am given to study. so hopefully my refused visa will not be the reason that they will refuse my student visa. sigh.... everything seems so complicated i know. and its even harder to explain.

this is what i have been thinking for the past few days but i still need to wait for my student visa to be approved. this waiting has been making me feeling anxious and worried. i don't know why i always have to worry so much when God is there to look out for me. i guess this are what humans usually do is to worry about their life and future.

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im back to kuching. just arrived yesterday and now the weather is super hot. i've been rushing to do my medical checkup and stuff. i guess i've been rushing and things seems to be turning a bit bad. the second lesson i learnt since my visa got refused.

after this incident happened, i have learnt 2 valuable lesson. one is learn to save money and the other one is learn not to rush things especially its something really really important. i screwed up some information of my visa that is because i did not let my agent know everything before she did it. at first she was blaming me that i was wasting her time because of my visa application and i was in the airplane when she was doing my visa. this is what happened when your too rush but i hope everything will be fine now because i have just let the immigration knows that my situation and i know things will turn out alright. i now need to pray hard that i will be able to get my student visa.

until now i still can't believe that i am back in kuching. this is the first time that i am really far away from KW. part of me is worried about him and part of me is happy that i am back. this time back is also my first time sitting in the plane alone. i tried to be strong and not to cry and i think i actually did it. not to say i did not cry at all.

if anyone wants to call me out just let me know and ask my mobile number. my mobile number has changed because the previous number had been disconnected.

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do we actually need a trip to the beginning of the universe? sometimes i wonder if its God who really wants to make end of the world happening or the people themselves. people always thinks that doing great things make them great but did they have think that they might kill the earth and let all the other humans suffer?

will this be the end of the world? i am beginning to feel skeptical about it. this morning when i was listening to the radio, the DJ was asking what would you like to do if today is going to be the day that your gonna die. i sat on my bed and thought for a while. at that time i realize that i just want to be with the people i love the most and spend the very last day with them and appreciate every single second with them.

people let's share. what would you do if today is the end of the world?

i used to work in a kebab shop and i was kinda of close to one of the girl from China. we can talk practically about anything when we were at work.

but tonight i found out from our friend that she has been saying bad things about me since the day i started working. i was really surprise because all this while i have been treating like a real friend. she told our friend that i am rude and did not know how to respect her.

ok, to clarify things up she's just 5 years older than me. i know sometimes i am a bit straight but i never would have thought that she would be that mean to say my bad behind my back. so what if she's 5 years older than me? if i always think that she's 5 years older than me and always need to be careful with what i talk i don't think i have much topic to talk to her.

i know she's someone whose judgemental but i never even care because i always see her as a friend not a hi bye friend. i really can't believe that when our friend told me that she just treated me as a hi-bye friend. then why would she even bother to ask me out for dinner or something? why would she even care when my visa got refused?

i really don't have many friends here in Aussie and i guess its really hard to find a true friend here. but then there are always friend who would be here for me right Zel? hehe...

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i realize that i can't seem to trust something to someone easily. i should really learn how to trust because there's always people whose willing to help me such as the agent offering to help to do my visa but don't know why i just cannot entirely put 100% trust on her.

i was wondering if i should do the visa myself but after much thinking, i should not because she's the one who has experience in all the visa thing and not me. so i now need to learn to TRUST!!!

did not do much last weekend. just laze around at home and did nothing but some laundry and cooking. its always good to spend time with him. even though we will be looking at our own computers and doing our own stuff, i still feel nice when his in the room with me.

i think that when i am back home i depend on my parents a lot and now im here with him, i depend on him too much. i should really change my way on depending on my love ones too much. i don't think this is a good thing but how can i change?

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things have been happening way too fast lately. luckily i am still in control of everything, with the help from God which makes things goes more smoothly.

decision has been made so now i can only what is being made. i shall not tell you guys what decision will it be until i am sure that it is done.

my cousin bought a new car and just got it yesterday. KW and i were the first guests to sit in her new car. i did not get to take a photo with it as it was after 5pm when i get to meet her up. but i super like the car and i will be sitting in it again in another week's time. haha.... my aunty and uncle are stopping by in Brisbane for a night before going back KL.

i don't know what i should write anymore so its just another boring entry.
sorry to waste your time.

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too many things have been happening recently. i am really frustrated and don't seem to know i should lead my future life. my visa for continuing to stay in Australia has been refused. when i first saw the email, it seems like someone has just slapped me hard on my face. suddenly i felt so weak and my whole body just turn cold. i know this is a bit exaggerating because my family told me that i still can go home if things turn worst. there will always be a home waiting for me.

at that moment, i wanted everything turned back time by being normal and treat that i never read the email. i am scared that i will lose my job as it was just the beginning of gaining the trust from colleagues. another thing is i can't seem to take a long distance relationship with KW. everything became so blur and i can't seem to predict what will happen in my life anymore.

i will have to continue studying if i want to continue staying here. but no matter what i still need to get myself out of the country for a while until my study visa is being processed and allow me to come into the country again. so many trouble just because i did not meet my 2 years requirement to study in Australia. how am i suppose to know that 2 years mean 16 subjects? damn it... (sorry for my language, really feel angry when i mention this)

i shall update again when i have some more news and information. i still feel really sad!!!

these 2 days i've been shopping around online. i realize that lots of young Malaysians are selling clothes online and to me its kind of cheap especially after you convert. haha... i guess that's a bad thing too because i tend to spend more than im suppose to be.



there are a few good e-shop around and i have inserted their links at the side of my blog. so your just once click away and from those e-shops. when you start with it, you will continue with others too. there's too much to see and compare. most of all it makes me feel close to home when it comes to shopping. haha....



so far i've bought a tee and tube top from stop.shop.splurge. i can't wait for it to arrive even though i know that i can't wear the tube top until summer. im now also trying to but a tube dress for my photo shoot next year when im back to kch from crazy.sunday.closet. Most of their close are from Taiwan so its still not that bad.



im totally *heart* this gladiator sandals!!! but i guess its sold out. sigh.... its from Velvet Ribbon. where can i get this in Brisbane???

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Congrats to my girlfriends Zel and Dot!!!! welcome to the exciting and at the same time boring working life. i did not attend Dot's graduation but only Hazel's graduation.

Zel getting her expensive Degree cert

I feel so old with them.

Taken on 2006 at train station after shopping

i came to know her for 6 years now. i knew her from college and we were in the same class throughout for 2 years then she left to Brisbane earlier than me to continue her studies. i then joined her in Brisbane after half a year. we went different uni so our chances of meeting up with each other were really low as she was working and studying.

2007: In the car on the way to Gold Coast

there are times when we argue and did not talk for a few days but we never ever let ourselves become enemies. out atittude and dress up are entirely different and how we click i also don't know. we have very different thinking and sometimes what we talk does not seems to be favourable to each other. all these things does not matter because i know she would never betray me and she will always be there for me when i need her no matter how busy she is.

2008: Just recently taken but the animal didn't want to take a photo with us.

Lucy, take care and have an enjoyable holiday! hopefully i will be able to see you next year. Missing you lots here!

The Piglet she wanted to bring home.

today is gonna be a exciting day with the number 8-8-08 and Olympics grand opening tonight. a lot of couples will be getting marry today as its a lucky number for chinese. everyone will be out celebrating!

a friend of mine asked me to watch the opening of the Olympics tonight in MSN. i told him i won't be watching because my television is too small to watch with. i think the TV is just 15" inch only and yes its that small. its from my cousin's friend. it feels so wrong watching such nice colourful opening ceremony in such a small TV, what a waste. maybe i'll watch it on KW's computer if he allows because his monitor is bigger than the TV.

i'll be busy again this weekend. wohoo!!! 2 weeks in a row im out for the weekend. but im kind os tired now and need some rest. haha... when i don't go out during weekends i complain and if i stay home on weekends i also complain. i don't even know what i want. sigh...

im planning to buy an Nintendo DS Lite. any comments for it for those who have it?

at the age of 23, i make no achievements or any proud moments for myself and my parents except the day i graduated and got my degree. reflecting back to my teenage time, i was emotional, playful, someone who always disobey her parents wishes and thoughts. i never think if my parents were hurt by me.

i depend on my parents a lot even now i still am, just a bit better only. i can't see myself alone without my love ones around me. i don't think i will never be able to accept the fact that one day my grandma, parents, Janice, Edgar and KW just suddenly leave me like that. i think i will entirely collapse because i am a person who needs assurance and secure from them.

OK I'm thinking too much and also worrying too much.

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where are the moral attitude from people? how can people just throw rubbish like they are couldn't care about the future? this morning when i was crossing the road. an indian lady just threw a tissue paper in front of the cars and us the pedestrian when she was crossing the road. obviously she is not orginally from Aussie but how can she do such thing. if want to throw also throw somewhere that people aren't around to see her action.

doesn't she feel embarrass at all? i know im making such a big fuss about it as its just a tissue paper. what if next time she throws a can or something? i was complaining to KW and he said i should have taken a photo of her but the action was to fast so how am i suppose to do that?

can't people think of the future that their kids, grandchildren will be living in this world one day and they just throw rubbish around like there's no tomorrow? what will happen then?

im not saying i don't simply throw rubbish. i do and that was long time ago. i am trying to save the earth and even though i can't help much, i believe if someone did something there's always chances for changes.

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the bag that i bought is a medium one which cost me AUD$39. the name of my bag is medium Luxe - DOT. but soon i will buy another 2 more which i like. OMG!!! im crazy about it. im also planning to buy one for my sis and mum too. Janice don't get too excited k! tell me which one u like and i'll do it as a gift for your christmas. hehe...

there are also some tall ones which you can put files and stuff. it is named as Rootote because it is a short term of kangaroo. and kangaroo's have pockets so this bag have 4 pockets.

i'll leave this to your own reading at the Rootote's website.

The outlook for the bag

The 3 inner pockets

another angle of the bag

the french wording of the bag which means 'happiness has those which can laugh'

recently one of my good friend became a model to a photographer and my first thought was also getting my own personal photo potrait too. people usually take personal photo potrait at the age of 18 and 21 but its sad that i don't. so if im going back for CNY next year, i'll definately take one of my own and also with my bestest girl friends.

today is already Thursday and Friday is approaching. i can't wait for it but when it comes to Sunday, i just want the time to stop there so that i don't need to drag myself to work on Monday. this weekend i had plans again and yes this time is with Lucy again. but i won't be telling where am i going till im and there and back from the place. yahoo!!!

as for work, i've become more and more busy but only certain times. at least its helping my days to pass faster and learning more things. the OM still always demand me on this and that. im trying my best to cooperate with him because i won't want to have any trouble with him. sometimes he's a ok guy but sometimes he's nasty. but i trust that i'll get over with his attitude and don't care much about how he treats me. cos im here to learn as much as i can and get out of here.

till then bye!

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Congratulations on your graduation Lucy!!! My best friend just graduated yesterday at Gold Coast and i did not get the chance to go because i need to work and the ticket to got for the graduation is freaking expensive. it cost AUD$22.70. this of course is not the reason. the reason i did not go because its too far and i need to use train all the way to Gold Coast and change a bus to get to the uni i think. Not too sure about that cos i never went to her uni also.

that is why we went out with her on Sunday to celebrate. plus we bought her a new monyek/lamb face animal with a square hat on it. since she's going back to M'sia for good we thought we might as well buy something small and light so she can bring it home with her. i feel so happy for her.

All the best Lucy dear!!!

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i've been busy for the whole weekend. life's just great when you get to go out of the house but its bad for my pocket as its burning every single day even though i don't go out. its just hard when you need to pay everything by yourself and its even harder to save because of the rent, electricity, internet, telephone bills. if I'm back home i don't think i need to bother with these things. looking at things positively, it helps me to grow up and be responsible with my own money and grow mature on how to differentiate things.

on Saturday we went to eat lo mee with roast duck and pork with another friend of ours. super nice!!! we went there to that particular place because we got an appointment with an agent to do our tax return. he always went to have his hair cut. it was tiring tho as we haven't went out for quite a while during weekends plus the busway was on construction so we need to change 3 times of buses in order to get to the destination. of all weekends it has to be the weekend that we choose to go out.

we met up with Lucy on Sunday for yum cha session. it was really nice to meet up and chit chat with her again. this time would be the last few times that i will be going out with her. she has decided to go back Malaysia for good. another friend leaving here kind of sadden me especially i don't have many friends around me in Brisbane. im glad for her that she's going back since she's not that happy here and be back to where she belongs and feel happy.

a weekend full of programme make some differences. once in a while is alright but not always cause its really tiring to use bus when you don't have cars.

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I've been working non stop for this 2 whole days. Everything seems to be coming at one go and at the same time everyone in the office needs me to do something for them. Maybe because one of my colleague went to Melbourne so the project managers can't do much without him as he's the only designer in the whole company.

but then i just love the busy working life because time passes by faster like that. im learning lots of building things from my colleagues. im also currently trying to learn how to differentiate the drawings. there are different drawings such as shop drawings, architectural drawings, structural drawings and etc. one of my colleague Pete* is a good guy and always willing to help me when im in doubt. he's always willing to teach me even though he's busy. i just heart his company and he never seem to be moody too!!!

i haven't been to the gym for like 3 weeks now. im getting more and more lazy. that is also how im getting fat and im trying to eat less so that when i go back to kch for CNY i look slim and nice. hopefully i'll be able to do it and start going to gym every week now if not im really wasting my money.

i received an immigration email. the email contents includes a checklist for me to see if i have completed what they asked from me. i was stunned when i see from the check list that i need to do skill assessment which i did not do. skill assessment means i need to get a certification from an institute what i studied at uni is accredited by the govt. it cost AUD$319 which is damn so expensive. KW only need to pay AUD$100 because he's studying engineering which is currently on demand in Australia. wtf.... so unfair!!!

so im now waiting for my pay so that im able to pay the institute on monday and send all my documents to them to access.

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landlord came on Saturday and it was great to see them again. this landlord is so much more nicer and funnier than the previous one. they even didn't charge us for 2 nights rental. but they are now off to Bangkok then Germany for holidays.

the cleaning up was a bit tiring. but everything was worth it because i felt great when i see everything is clean and nice. hopefully the cleanliness will stay for a while. i think it will be a while that i clean the house again. staying with 5 guys in the house is not an easy task especially in cleaning. usually guys couldn't care less about cleanliness and I'm not saying all guys are the same. but the guys in my house don't really have the thought of tidying the house. but then they are nice guys when you come to talk and nag about them.

Sunday: was KW's birthday and he didn't want to celebrate it outside as he just bought a new computer so staying at home seems to be the best choice for him. he requested for a pillow as his birthday present which makes my life easier not to think what to buy for him. cooked lamb shank for him and gave him a surprise mini birthday cake. this time he is really surprise!!!

i almost didn't make it to buy the cake for him because when i reached the city the shop's light was closed. luckily there were people in the shop so i asked them to let me buy a small cake. after buying the cake, i met up a very old friend whom i never really talk to and is Lucy's cousin so just met up with him and also Chong Boon. i didn't stay long because i wanted to go home and cook dinner for him as it was his birthday.

Front: John & Alex, Back: Chong Boon & me

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so how does my new outlook looks? its still a bit wired but bear with me cos im still learning. so hopefully it will be done perfectly real soon.

i took sick leave the day before for 3 hours and now im still taking sick leave. i went and see the doctor today and the consultation fee for $55 and the medicine cost me $38. Just a visit to the doctor cost me bloody $93. if not because i need antibiotics and sick certificate i won't even bother to see the doctor. too darn expensive!

KW stayed home with me as well getting sick leave when he's not sick at all. don't get it wrong that he stayed home to accompany me. the reason he stayed home is because he's waiting for his new computer to arrive. he's now rich to buy a computer on his own. i want to buy a laptop too cos my laptop is getting old.

ok then, i need to get to bed for a rest. bye!

on saturday morning when i woke up i felt dry in my throats and when i try to swallow my saliva i felt pain. that was when i knew i am having a sore throat. it was really bad because it turns out to be coughing on Monday so now im coughing and talking with a sexy voice in the office. its just my throat and im still healthy overall.

my landlord is coming this saturday to sign a new contract with us as we are going to extend our rent for another half a year till january so hopefully by then we will be able to move out and find somewhere cheaper. when landlord says they are coming i hate it because we need to clean the place and put things neatly and orderly. luckily they are only coming in the afternoon. i just hope things goes well because its his birthday this sunday so i don't want things to be spoilt. how am i going to celebrate with him? i have no idea....

the operation manager (OM) is not in today till thursday because his off to Sydney. im happy he's not in but i am actually missing him because office seems to be more quiet when his not in. funny isn't it? when the OM is here im hoping he can shut up and when he's really not here im hoping he's here.

work seems to be less nowadays and im happy with that. maybe if they increase my pay i'll work harder than now slacking. the tax reduce which means i get more pay but still not enough so who cares. these few days i've been looking through blogs which are really entertaining and help my time to pass by faster. im happy with that as long as im entertained.

for the meantime i'll try to keep the blog up-to-date!

for the pass few days I've been thinking of my grandma. she's now 88 years old. i don't know what makes me think of her but all i can say is i really miss her. last Sunday when mum told me she hasn't been feeling well i just felt down. I know she sometime feels tired and uncomfortable and other days she might be well and healthy.

she loves gardening. i remembered when she was a bit younger, she used to pluck and cut the flowers but now we won't allow her to do anything that's too heavy or things that she focus on too long. so nowadays, she just stays at home just by sleeping, eating and waiting for my parents or relatives to visit her.

when my siblings and i were young, she will always come and live with us and cook some of her specialty for us. she will also give us some pocket money every month for us to keep it in our little piggy bank. my grandma will always shower us with love, gifts and share everything she's got with us. even when I'm naughty and is being scolded by my mum, she is always there to protect me and trying to advise mum not to scold me.

i loved her stories she tells even though some of it is always repeated but that's her real life story that made me really admire her. she's always brave to face the problems but at the same time she's also actually scared.

when me or my sis goes back home, she will always try her best to allocate a time to stay over at our place for a few days. even its just for a day, she will also stay over as she knows that there will be people at home talking to her or us walking up and down from the house. but now i only go home once a year and my sis few times a year.

i can almost feel her loneliness when she's at home all by herself especially when my uncle and aunt goes travelling. part of me wants to fly back to take care and chat with her. but she always encouraged me to stay here and earn and get the experience here. even when she asked me when will i be going back and i told her I'll be going back during CNY, she will always say its alright if you have to work. she's really some sort of a modern grandma who understand what is more important to me.

my grandma is my best friend and also the best grandma that i would ever want. God really blessed with such loving parents, grandma and siblings that i won't even ask for more which makes me really really appreciate them. Take care my dearest grandma & I'll definitely be back to see you this coming CNY!

I love you ah ma!

i know im slacking in blogging. Sorry!!!

this morning im so reluctant to get out of the bed because i've been hibernating at home for the weekends as it was cold and cozy in the bed. but in the end i still manage to drag myself out of the bed to take a morning shower. it was raining when i was on my way out to the bus station and i quite like it because its just drizzling and not the heavy rain type so its still ok.

he moved to a new office last week and now we go work together. i like the feeling of going to work together so that i won't feel so alone when im in the train even though there are others who are in the going off to work too. but still it makes a difference.

one of my project manager is back from his 6 weeks holiday. this is the first time that i met him so it feels a bit awkward when he's in the office because im not use to it yet. he seem quite like a nice person so hopefully he will be a person who will be an easy person to communicate.

i was not very happy when the operation manager asked me to go to the post office and check the post box because the weather did not look sunny. if not because of the 1 million dollar i won't even bother to go and check it today. but then it was a worth it trip cos at last we got the cheque. they have the wrong address on the letter that was why my operation manager was so anxious about it so i don't really blame him just that he has a car why so lazy to drive. sigh... i guess im nice to bully because i can't say NO!

its now 4pm and im in the office waiting for the time to tick at 4.45pm sharp. then i'll make myself disappear from the office. haha...

After 3 weeks of working i actually applied sick leave yesterday. It was a half day sick leave. My head was spinning so i left for home during lunch time. Instead of going home directly i headed out to look for KW for lunch. Sick also have to have lunch right?

Before getting a sick leave, i asked the accountant in Sydney if i am entitle to have sick leave. When he told me that i was only a casual in the company i was kind of shocked because from what i told i was working as a full time worker. In the end, he asked the administrator in Sydney as she used to have the same situation as i am so he called me back and told me i was entitle to it.

I also realized in this situation, is that i never got an offer letter or anything from the company. That was the reason why i did not know if im entitled to any leaves or anything that benefits me. This morning when i came to work i clarify it with my operation manager and asked what is my actual employment. I did get to get myself an answer which is a full time office administrator. But what i really want they did not agree with it. sigh...

Now i only have to wait for the operation manager to do the offer letter for me. This whole morning was crazy and i did not even have time to stop for a drink. After lunch time i was more free till now. After work today, i'll be going to gym classes. I've missed the classes for 2 weeks now so i can't afford to miss it again. I need to exercise because i have been eating too much this few weeks as the weather is getting too cold. But this is what i love about WINTER!!!

Working life seems to busy when your boss is in the office and practically boring when he's out for travelling. When i first start for the first two weeks my boss was away to China and UK so i was just learning the basics and surfing online with nothing to do but just to chat with friends through MSN, listening to music and playing with Facebook (this is how bored i get ok!).

Since my boss was back last Monday i have been pretty busy doing things for him and time really passed by very fast cos by the time i finish my work, its time to go home. I love it this way more because I won't be wasting my time to think what i need to do to make my time pass by a bit faster. I did he's expenses, booking his airticket to Sydney, making reservation and typing letters for him. He's such a nice boss to have rather than working for the operation manager whose always fussy and demand more. But then my boss will be going to Sydney tomorrow for a day trip. I wonder how i should pass my time tomorrow. hmmm.... So im leaving some of my work for tomorrow. hehe...

Life hasn't been happening at all. Maybe because im now working so by the time im back home its almost sleeping time. OMG!!! I need social life!!! Anyway, i might be meeting up with some of my uni friends this weekend and will be attending Amelia's 21st birthday next week. Hopefully i will be getting back some of my social life.

It's a wet wet day today! I went to work with wet shoe and wet trousers. Its been raining none stop since last night till now. But then it also rained last 4 days ago. So basically i am beginning to hate the rain.


I need to be positive in thinking when it rains for so many days because it helps to feel the dam in Brisbane. If not soon we can't take bath anymore. The dam in Brisbane is so try that each one of us have to limit ourselves to 4 minutes bath. I never really care though because our tap in the bathroom is leaking and the landlord never even bother ask a plumber to come.


But in the morning i need to limit myself in taking too long in the bathroom as there are 3 other people who wants to use the hot water. I am actually successful in it. I used to take shower very fast. Since now it is winter i have to taken longer bath to make myself hot.


I just hope that this rain will stop by tomorrow so that i won't be wet on the way to work again. Maybe i am asking too much i should have said don't rain when i am on the way to work and also when i am going home. But Wednesday don't rain because i need to view 2 properties. I will be moving out mid of July and most probably to city. It's expensive but if we stay too far from our work place we will be wasting to buy ticket for our transportation. So hopefully I'll find a place soon.

About my new job, its still ok. I have really good colleagues and they are all very helpful. But this is my only 3rd day of working so there's nothing much to talk. Maybe after a week i'll blog about my job.

Oreo cheesecake

My sweetest cousin

She brought me to eat sushi for our lunch and we went for shopping. She wanted to buy some baby clothes for her friend's daughter and we were browsing through the baby clothes and it was so cute. But at the same time its really expensive too. At least both of us did not spend too much time shopping for ourselves as we are really low on budget but in the end i still spend around $90. sigh...

After shopping for 3 hours, it was time to pick up KW from his office. We then went to a chinese supermarket and shop for some instant noodles and drinks. We then went to have dinner. It was a great dinner and thanks to KW for treating both of us.

We reached home around 8pm and KW, my cousin and my 2 housemates sang Birthday song for me. The cake was really delicious. Why??? Because its a oreo cheesecake and its specially baked by my own beloved cousin with strawberries over the cake. (Feeling hungry now? hehe...)

The Bardon Gals arrived shortly after my cousin left. The sent me over my present, chatted and took some pictures. I really what they gave me because its Winnie the Pooh !!! I'm loving it and its a new addition to my bed. To them im still a big baby because besides giving me a Pooh bear, they also gave me a lollypop. I feel so happy being treated like a baby. hehe... Thank you so much gals!!! You all are the best!!!

The Bardon GaLs

My new family

Thank you for all the wishes that my friends and family sent. I was also surprised that quite a lot of people remembered my birthday but still im disappointed that some of my good friends actually forgot my birthday. Overall, i am still happy and thank you everyone!

I quited my job today at the kebab shop but Wednesday will be my last day working in the kebab shop. Then Thursday i will start working in the company as admin. I have my own table which is also part of the counter but basically i will be doing small little things for everyone. The office had 7 guys and i will be the only girl in the office so hopefully they won't bully me in doing everything. 5 of the guys are Aussies and 2 guys are from China. But they seem friendly when i was there this morning.

After going to the office, i went and work in the kebab shop. We had such a great time today because there was not many customers and i was playing with one of my colleague's hair. I'll show you the picture why. It's really cool and he did it for the hair show. But we also played around with the camera and i look ugly in the pictures because I AM FAT!!!!

I finished work at 4pm and hanged around in the city to wait for KW because we were going to celebrate his ex colleague's birthday which falls on June but she was going to San Francisco so we celebrated her birthday early. The food was delicious!!! We were chatting and having fun together but we left early because we need to catch the train and KW needs to work tomorrow.





I want to talk to my parents and they are going to Bali this Thursday. I'm so jealous of it!!! I want to go also. I can't talk to my parents through MSN for the mean time because my speaker is either spoil or something happened with it. DAMN!!! I will try to reformat it first then see if the speaker still works if not then i will have to waste my money into repairing it. sigh... $$$ again!!!

Anyway, will post something up soon again!!! Have a great tomorrow people!