29 October 2008
On Monday night i went to my ex colleague's house for dinner. It should be an ex ex ex colleague. haha... Because she, Stella, was a colleague when i worked in a cafe in the city as a kitchen hand. Coincidentally, she's also from Kuching. Just that she's much more older than me. I was close with her when i worked there but did not get into much contact after i quit the job.
I think after a year's time, KW got the job there too in the same cafe. Stella was still working there too when he went and work at the cafe. That's how we begin to hang out with each other and some other workers in the cafe.
It was a great dinner and we had a lot of fun taking photos. One of our friends even brought her graduation gown as she won't be attending her graduation next year so she rented it first and let us have fun with it.
So i shall let the photos do the talking. Let's take a look at the food first.
Curry, Sweet & Sour fish, Mix veges, Pork Rib, Honey Chicken
Do i still need to explain since its so clear?
The desert
The gal whose leaving us soon to get marry in Las Vegas
A group photo for the night!23 October 2008
I admire birds flying freely at the sky. Nothing to worry and nothing to think about except where to stay. Looking at the birds at the sky flying here and there makes me want to be like them too. Then this would be a good chance to fly between Brisbane and Kuching. haha....
This week i will only be working for 3 days. So other than the 3 days i stayed home most of the time to save money on buses and shopping. So far i have been successful in controlling my finances. I plan to dye my hair for a darker colour. Hopefully KW will help me to dye it if not go salon will cost a fortune. I'll try to force him if i can.
Im having a boring life now so not much to blog. I don't think much nowadays. Just let my brain rest for a while and maybe it will next working soon as in maybe next month.
18 October 2008
When it comes to weekend i always feel bored. Spending my weekend with my computer is the worst part even though i have him by my side. I always think if i am at Kuching, i still have my brother, father, mum and fiffy for the weekends. There are always no ending at home with so much entertainment around.
I know im always whining about how good if i am back at Kuching. But i always ask if this is all worth it and is this what i really want? Am i happy here? I really don't know. I can never give myself a certain answer. I don't dare to take the risk. I know nothing except being just a daughter, sister and girlfriend. I really feel tense when i do not know what i want from myself. I really want to do what i feel and think. I don't know what's holding me back! I really don't know!
I wish i can see the path that i want to take soon. I feel like im just wasting my time bumping around. I really hope God will be able to lead me to the right path.
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16 October 2008
i've been trying to do some changes onto myself. transforming my appearance but its not that successful yet so when i've really learn and have the confidence then i'll show it to you people.
i am trying to change my style of wearing clothes such as mix and match what i have in my closet. from there i realize that i have too many clothes that i haven't wore for ages. i also have too many t-shirts so from now on if i buy any clothes it must be something more mature and feminine. i can already see myself spending lots for my new clothings. sigh...
i've also tried make up but still can't get hold of it. i really suck in it. how can a 23 year old woman don't know how to make up. i know i should be embarrass when i say this but i don't. i just don't have the interest in learning it. i only force myself to learn it because i need to look good when im working. i know its for my own good maybe not for now but in the future. i won't want people to be laughing at me when they know that i don't know how to make up.
i have 2 poems to share with you people:
He said, "Who is at my door?"
I said, "Your humble servant."
He said, "What business do you have?"
I said, "To greet you, 0 Lord."
He said, "How long will you journey on?"
I said, "Until you stop me."
He said, "How long will you boil in the fire?"
I said, "Until I am pure.
"This is my oath of love.
For the sake of love
I gave up wealth and position."
He said, "You have pleaded your case
but you have no witness."
I said, "My tears are my witness;
the pallor of my face is my proof.'
He said, "Your witness has no credibility;
your eyes are too wet to see."
I said, "By the splendor of your justice
my eyes are clear and faultless."
He said, "What do you seek?"
I said, "To have you as my constant friend."
He said, "What do you want from me?"
I said, "Your abundant grace."
He said, "Who was your companion on the 'ourney?
I said, "The thought of you, 0 King."
He said, "What called you here?"
I said, "The fragrance of your wine."
He said, "What brings you the most fulfillment?"
I said, "The company of the Emperor."
He said, "What do you find there?"
I said, "A hundred miracles."
He said, "Why is the palace deserted?"
I said, "They all fear the thief."
He said, "Who is the thief?"
I said, "The one who keeps me from -you.
He said, "Where is there safety?"
I said, "In service and renunciation."
He said, "What is there to renounce?"
I said, "The hope of salvation."
He said, "Where is there calamity?"
I said, "In the presence of your love."
He said, "How do you benefit from this life?"
I said, "By keeping true to myself
Now it is time for silence.
If I told you about His true essence
You would fly from your self and be gone,
and neither door nor roof could hold you back!
-Rumi-
Let go of your worries
and be completely clear-hearted,
that contains no images.
If you want a clear mirror,
behold yourself
and see the shameless truth,
which the mirror reflects.
If metal can be polished
to a mirror-like finish,
what polishing might the mirror
of the heart require?
Between the mirror and the heart
is this single difference:
the heart conceals secrets,
while the mirror does not.
Rumi is a Persian. He wrote many poems which are really touching and true to our life. So i hope you guys really like it.
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11 October 2008
i brought a wig back from work to practice. its so fun playing around with the hair with different styles. i need to learn so that i can help the customer to tie up their hair so that they are able to feel how tight the hair accessory is.
my half head model
09 October 2008
i am have settled myself down. but has been sick after a day i came back. a bad start actually but just try to be positive everything will be seen differently too.
the day i came back and entered the house, the whole house looked so messy. i never knew that without me in the house, it can be so dirty and messy. i nearly fainted when i saw there's plastic bags on the dining time and the kitchen table is so dirty too. plus KW is sick so need to take care of him straight away.
i cleaned part of the house because i could not stand to live in a messy house and did some cleaning. i was really tired after cleaning but was glad the house looks more neat again. staying with 4 guys are hard especially when they are don't really cooperate.
i got myself a job after a day back from Brisbane. im so happy at least i got some income. and i get to see different customers. im selling accessories such as hairclips. i'll post some photos up when i get the chance to snap some photos of the stall.
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06 October 2008
in another 5 hours time i will be departing Kuching and don't know when i'll be back again. suddenly i feel like staying put in Kuching to work so that i can be close with my friends and family. i have a mix feeling now. i don't know if i will be that strong like i was when i leave KW behind 3 weeks ago. i did controlled my sadness well that i don't really cry much.
but this time seems different. because im feel belonged and love when im back home. that's why i never wanted to leave Brisbane back here at the first place if its not for my student visa. now i hate this feelings. i doubt that there's many people like me whose always emotional when they have been travelling to and from so many times. for me, everytime before i leave here i will always cry when i leave my family.
no matter what i must be strong and study when i have the opportunity. the only thing i can do now is not to let my parents down.
i'll blog again when im back in Brissie!
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