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Thursday, December 31, 2009

Life is Fragile.

Okkar gave me a call to request for one of the pictures of a group of us in the evening. He sounded strangely solemn, and I thought he meant it as a joke, or a birthday card for someone. I playfully asked why and attempted to guess who it was for. Then he told me that there has been an accident. That our friend has passed on this morning. And that we were using that photo for his funeral the next day.

I felt nothing and everything at once. Denial vs. deep shock and sadness. As I put down the phone, I thought about it long and hard. Suddenly it was like there was a loss in my life. An unplugged gap never to be fixed again. I was on my way for dinner with the peerhelpers followed by ladies' night, when I got the news, which made me question why I was still going out to enjoy myself when something so tragic had happened. But life has to go on.

I didn't understand why it should happen to a man of such a bright future and a friend you could count on. Trying to gather whatever news possible of him, Facebook statuses of friends posted this: "SMU friend, Rajan Rishyakaran, has passed away early today in a car accident, at Shah Alam, Malaysia." One line, hardly any details.

And then you see once again, that life is fragile. It can take just a moment to move from a healthy life and death. A friend's life, one who has been always just there, is gone just like that. So much potential, so much more to come, gone.

To the rest still living life, please live to the best of what you want to be, and without regrets. And at the same time, live treasuring the people that mean the most to you before it's too late.

Just feeling so so sad right now.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Rest in Peace, Dear Friend.

Dearest Rajan,

I heard the tragic news this evening as I was heading out for dinner. I was deeply shocked, saddened and in denial all at the same time. Even up till now, I'm just hoping so hard that it is a bad dream gone wrong. It still feels like you'll be around. And we will still catch you around hostel and school next sem. But sadly, it will not be so.

Much as we did not really hang out for most part, I caught you at various parties, chatted with you in the hostel lounge and main walkway, and greeted you at school. You know, the normal stuff.

While doing all "the normal stuff", you struck me as a very knowledgeable and interesting guy. I'd hear you go into mini light-hearted debates while talking to the group of us. We'd always end up with more insight somewhat, or in laughs. And you'd laugh the loudest heartiest laugh.

I can still picture your enthusiastic face while sharing stories with us. How it easily goes red. How you were so easygoing with our jokes with you. I heard about your heroic story in Tioman where you saved a lady from getting raped, and that also says a lot. With us, your presence was there, loud and clear, and we loved it.

I hope that you lived life with minimal regrets, and to the fullest that you could ever have. Now that you're gone, we still acknowledge this presence, and how you were a significant part of our lives. You will still live through our memories.

Thank you for sharing your life with us.
You will be missed very much by all your friends, family and loved ones.

RIP, Rajan.

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Nothing else better to do on the train.

Blogging using my phone for the first time :). Exams for everyone have ended or are ending soon, and I'm feeling in a terribly festive and celebratory mood now with December just approaching. My days are already pretty packed. Peerhelpers' retreat for the next three days, followed by the half marathon *gulps*, then a 10-day long NZ trip and ending with a 5-day Phuket trip yay!! All with stuff to celebrate in between :D

The first thing I wanna dedicate some free time to, is to start editing some of my favourite photos. Lots to do!! Can't wait!!!


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Hit counter code here	Thursday, December 31, 2009 Life is Fragile. Okkar gave me a call to request for one of the pictures of a group of us in the evening. He sounded strangely solemn, and I thought he meant it as a joke, or a birthday card for someone. I playfully asked why and attempted to guess who it was for. Then he told me that there has been an accident. That our friend has passed on this morning. And that we were using that photo for his funeral the next day. I felt nothing and everything at once. Denial vs. deep shock and sadness. As I put down the phone, I thought about it long and hard. Suddenly it was like there was a loss in my life. An unplugged gap never to be fixed again. I was on my way for dinner with the peerhelpers followed by ladies' night, when I got the news, which made me question why I was still going out to enjoy myself when something so tragic had happened. But life has to go on. I didn't understand why it should happen to a man of such a bright future and a friend you could count on. Trying to gather whatever news possible of him, Facebook statuses of friends posted this: "SMU friend, Rajan Rishyakaran, has passed away early today in a car accident, at Shah Alam, Malaysia." One line, hardly any details. And then you see once again, that life is fragile. It can take just a moment to move from a healthy life and death. A friend's life, one who has been always just there, is gone just like that. So much potential, so much more to come, gone. To the rest still living life, please live to the best of what you want to be, and without regrets. And at the same time, live treasuring the people that mean the most to you before it's too late. Just feeling so so sad right now. 12:06 am · Wednesday, December 30, 2009 Rest in Peace, Dear Friend. Dearest Rajan, I heard the tragic news this evening as I was heading out for dinner. I was deeply shocked, saddened and in denial all at the same time. Even up till now, I'm just hoping so hard that it is a bad dream gone wrong. It still feels like you'll be around. And we will still catch you around hostel and school next sem. But sadly, it will not be so. Much as we did not really hang out for most part, I caught you at various parties, chatted with you in the hostel lounge and main walkway, and greeted you at school. You know, the normal stuff. While doing all "the normal stuff", you struck me as a very knowledgeable and interesting guy. I'd hear you go into mini light-hearted debates while talking to the group of us. We'd always end up with more insight somewhat, or in laughs. And you'd laugh the loudest heartiest laugh. I can still picture your enthusiastic face while sharing stories with us. How it easily goes red. How you were so easygoing with our jokes with you. I heard about your heroic story in Tioman where you saved a lady from getting raped, and that also says a lot. With us, your presence was there, loud and clear, and we loved it. I hope that you lived life with minimal regrets, and to the fullest that you could ever have. Now that you're gone, we still acknowledge this presence, and how you were a significant part of our lives. You will still live through our memories. Thank you for sharing your life with us. You will be missed very much by all your friends, family and loved ones. RIP, Rajan. 11:26 pm · Tuesday, December 01, 2009 Nothing else better to do on the train. Blogging using my phone for the first time :). Exams for everyone have ended or are ending soon, and I'm feeling in a terribly festive and celebratory mood now with December just approaching. My days are already pretty packed. Peerhelpers' retreat for the next three days, followed by the half marathon gulps, then a 10-day long NZ trip and ending with a 5-day Phuket trip yay!! All with stuff to celebrate in between :D The first thing I wanna dedicate some free time to, is to start editing some of my favourite photos. Lots to do!! Can't wait!!! 5:51 pm ·