A Journey of White Spray

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 12:00 am

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

had the opportunity to share about God today with a colleague of mine. must say i'm really glad. to tink that we hated each other at first coz he thought i was a bad instructor and i thought he was a bad trainee. now it's alright already.

he just popped some tough questions about religion all of a sudden, especially about christianity. me and joshua had quite a hard time trying to explain to him concepts that non-christians find it difficult to understand or accept (he's a free thinker). after listening to his questions and responses, i figured he wants all the "good" of all religions/teachings minus all the commitments and rules. i asked him frankly and he bravely admitted to it. tell any person with a belief and you'll get the same response - IT'S ABOUT TIME YOU DECIDE YOUR LIFE/AFTERLIFE/ETERNITY!

he reminded me of the time when i didn't come to know God... so reliant on oneself to shape one's destiny. so reliant on one's judgement to decide what is right and wrong. i managed to enlighten him abit about certain things. i certainly believe God gave this opportunity to do some evangelism, and i hope i was a good avatar.

mum and dad was quarreling. frankly i'm annoyed by this kind of.... waste of time. shouting and screaming gets you nowhere, suddenly two adults became kids. the best thing to do is to avoid an argument in the first place, coz arguments happen precisely becoz the parties involved hold stedfast to their own opinions and refuse to give in. and what do you get in the end? more shouting and screaming.

i hate this blog skin, the colour is nice and all that... but the layout is freaggin terrible. got to change this.... and end of the month is coming time to change the song.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 9:37 pm

Sunday, March 27, 2005

just finished a two day marathon of all 10 parts of band of brothers borrowed from joe. basically ordinary people in extraordinary times. their experiences made me feel even more about what we're doing nowadays - is one big show, one big joke. shouldn't be dissing about national service and all that... but what the heck. it's just amazing how people can be so contented with things and fail to see that they're all just in a real life matrix. the self righteous confidence that all is fine is simply astounding. there's a lot of ramblings in my heart about this, but i don't tink i should let it all out here.

i haven't played my guitar for a long time.... very long time. the sporadic occasions i touch my guitar didn't even last 5 mins. funny compared to the 2 or more hours everyday during a.h days. everytime i pick it up it's the same old chords, riffs, leads, songs etc. the same old comfort zone. it's this dreaded feeling that i can't improve anymore on my own, but there's still so much more to learn. i'm really a shitty guitarist. i can't read proper music notation. i have almost no music theory. can't transpose properly, can't play scales, can't play by ear, can't shred... i can go on and on. i never took any lessons before, maybe it's about time.. but i'm so old already. and signing up for proper music lesson is just plain weird... i've gone about as far as i can go by myself.

finally, dad got a nokia 8850 for me... old model but good enuff. it's light and nice, unlike the 3210 grenade i carried for so long. so inconvenient... camera fones not allowed in airbase... but i guess it's neccessary.

dang... signed up for driving basic theory yesterday... but i just found out i don't have the theory book... must borrow liao. [-_-]

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 10:11 pm

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

coming end of this month is my 1 (one, satu, yi, ein) year of national service hooraaaayyyyy... seems like so fast... hope this keeps up!!

electrico rocks! listen to the songs! support local bands!!

isn't it shocking when you look back and figured that in points of your life you were in the middle of a crossroad... two or three paths that lead to dramatically different futures. isn't it shocking that you have missed out the other paths? such is the price of choice.

electrico's keyboardist rocks! listen to the songs! support local bands!!

if i form a band now i will call it "white is merciful". i dunno why ... just for fun. naaaah.... it's a dream only boys come up with. somehow... thru out the times when i just picked up the guitar, was part of a crappy amateur band who thrashed the top floor of councilling centre upside down every weds, there were some great souls who supported this bunch of crazy boys. many thanks to ms long and ms charis wong for their enduring emotional support. the recording is dedicated to both of you (at least for me).

electrico's keyboardist, amanda ling rocks! listen to the songs! support local bands!!

watching tears of the sun as im typing... last part liao.... so many seals kia already. sad to see so many brave soldiers fall.... f-18s coming in.... final run now... napalmed the baddies yeah! alamak... out of the smoke 1 squad left only 4. all injured. sad.

it's thurs tomorrow and that's the end of the work week. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHEEEEHE!

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 10:10 pm

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Dedicated to all those who are supadupa annoyed with insolent bastards. May the dark side be with you =D

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 11:18 pm

Saturday, March 19, 2005

it's 11.14am. i just woke up. went clubbing with the sailorz last night at mohammad sultan road. there was jun song, wilfred (flirt), titus (tits), chris, these are my sailing juniors. plus daniel my trusty secretary. and so we met at dhoby ghaut at 11pm... and walked and walked and walked to mohammad sultan. seems like tits didn't have so clear an idea of how to get there, luckily didn't walk so long... from plaza sing to river valley road.

so we ended in this club called rush... it's a techno dance club. beng beng that kind. $15 entrance fee. on first impression it looked like a scene from the blade trilogy movies, where the vampires all club to techno music. they only need to spray blood from the sprinklers and it'll be like it lol. i was half expecting blade to come in through the doors at any moment. the drinks came and i had this vodka mix. i don't tink it's very strong and the cup is only slightly bigger than my fist, and i finished in less than 30 seconds coz it tastes like sprite, with alcohol after taste. about 10 mins later i reaally feel a little light headed... or heavy headed depending on how you wanna look at it. light headed coz you feel like floating... the movements seem so slow... heavy headed coz i wanna sleep... my eyes closing LOL. wat to do i don't drink very well and i club rarely... i tink it's only the 3rd or 4th time. i just sat there inhaling the smoke, listen to the thumping music and trying to figure out what the heck we're going to do.

actually there were some really new birds around. daniel and flirt both first timers clubbing. after wat seemed like a looooooonnnnnng time, i tink about 30 mins, i ok liao from the effects of the soft drink. hahahaha. and all of us went to the dance floor.. shake it away yeeaahH! it's fun losing yourself in the music, dwell in a temporary fantasy. you can see people are not who they are normally, so in a way it's like true selves... they behave differently... more open and more garang.

the objective of chatting will never be met clubbing coz it's just too loud. BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM BOM BOM BOOM BOOM BOOM.... it's just natural to start moving your head or your feet and just follow....

temptation everywhere... left right up down centre and back literally. the girls are realllly pretty, and so open to anything, it's so dangerous. can understand why joe likes to club. it's this tension and danger and mystery that makes people so intrigue, so bold as to do things they don't usually do. so bold as to take risk.

after a while at rush we went to another one called cheeky monkeys, a hip hop lotsa indian people club. i liked it there better, better atmosphere, music, and not that much smoke (but still a lot). we got in for free, thanks to tits who had "connections". wow didn't know he "underworld" one hahah. as we're looking around suddenly daniel put his hands on me and uttered these words:

"i tink i'm going to faint"

i really didnt know wat to do. to laff or to console him. obviously i took the later one. "hey just relax and rest... you wanna sit?" apparently the 1 cup was too much for him. he said he felt like his mind went blank and he's going liao. he's not so bad... just need some help to the chair coz he's abit jelly by then. after that he went home straight. i stayed with them until the clubs closed at around 3+. they still want to chiong summore... at boat quay. i said no thank-a-you and went home. didn't realise how tired i was until i was on the nightrider. was sooooooooo alert just a couple of minutes ago hehe. luckily i didn't join them to chiong sommore. just chatted with tits and he said they wasted their time. hahaha.

club once in a while but don't frequent hor! and girls always be aware of the danger yah!

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 11:14 am

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

"...there is some good in this world, and it is worth fighting for..." - samwise gamgee (The Lord of the Rings II)

"the only thing neccessary for evil to triumph is for good men to stand and do nothing."

Genesis chapter 18 verses 20-32:
Then the Lord said, "The outcry against Sodom and Gomorrah is so great and their sin so grievous that I will go down and see if what they have done is as bad as the outcry that has reached me. If not, I will know."
The men turned away and went toward Sodom, but Abraham approached him and said: "Will you sweep away the righteous with the wicked? What if there are fifty righteous people in the city? Will you really sweep it away and not spare the place for the sake of the fifty righteous people in it? Far be it from you to do such a thing - to kill the righteous and the wicked alike. Far be it from you! Will not the Judge of all the earth do right?"
The Lord said, "If I find fifty righteous people in the city of Sodom, I will spare the whole place for their sake."
Then Abraham spoke up again: "Now that I have been so bold as to speak to the Lord, though I am nothing but dust and ashes, what if the number of the righteous is five less than fifty? Will you destroy the whole city because of five people?"
"If I find forty-five there," he said, "I will not destroy it."
Once again he spoke to him, "What if only forty are found there?"
He said, "For the sake of forty, I will not do it."
Then he said, "May the Lord not be angry, but let me speak. What if only thirty can be found there?"
He answered, "I will not do it if I find thirty there."
Abraham said, "Now that I have been so bold as to speak to the Lord, what if only twenty can be found there?"
He said, "For the sake of twenty, I will not destroy it."
Then he said, "May the Lord not be angry, but let me speak just once more. What if only ten can be found there?"
He answered, "For the sake of ten, I will not destroy it."

Blessed is the Lord for He is merciful and just.

Despite all the evil we see in this world, there's always some good. bloodshed everyday, terrorism everyday, stealing everyday, genocide everyday, violence everyday, rape everyday, war everyday, bombing everyday... how can anyone - ANYONE - tolerate such nonsense. how can you not watch on tv and not feel anything? not get furious or upset?

how can soldiers do their duty without vigilance, without believing in their duties? we have come to a point when evil things are so distant from us, physically and mentally. if we have loved ones who are victims of evil, maybe we will all see things differently. if our society is ravaged by civil war we'll react differently altogether. soldiers may do they duty with more conviction. but no, now it is all a waste of time, just a show, souless duty. there's evil out there and it is better to be aware than to be ignorant. there are people out there who want to harm singaporeans, my countrymen. let them all come, so that i can take care of them once and for all.

"...for they have come to destroy what i have come to love..." - Captain Nathan Algren (The Last Samurai)

Despite all this there's good somewhere, somewhere.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 9:11 pm

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Welcome aboard the S.S Boat (aka Da Baaaaad Pirate)!!

I downloaded ares file sharing (don't report me hor!). In 1 hour I downloaded 117Mb. not bad... 117Mb/hr. Keep this up and I'll run out of "road" space. "ya know i'm baaad, i'm baaad, ya know it!" (bad - MJ). I rip cds (tat's not bad), download from ares *whistles*, record my own music (tat's goooooood).

anyway, Forever I'll Stand has been spreaded around quite a bit. Copyright! please respect and support the artists by giving them a small donation. hahahahha. just joking. it's a demo single it's suppose to be pirated anyway. who knows nex time this version will be very expensive. hang on to it!

i downloaded a lot of 80's music. hmmmm. must be retro mood now..... IT'S THE FINAL COUNTDOWN!!

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 9:54 pm

Thursday, March 10, 2005

DON'T MESS WITH DARTH BAAH!! *meh.... meh.... meh...*

Was figuring out how to edit music and all that... how to post them here on the blog. Turns out that there is no such thing as a free file host on the net. All eat $$ one. The bandwidth transfer limit for some of those "FREE" servers is like 10Mb a day... wow how to survive like that. Luckily angelfire not so bad, 1Gig bandwidth transfer a month... so unless my blog gets so popular that everyone visits... if not still can handle, i hope.

The song is composed by "me and my, me and my, me and my, me and my friends" (Red Hot Chilli Peppers). yup, it miraculously was composed in 2 hours flat. including lyrics and music. 6 heads is definitely better than one. we performed it during lunch time concert when we're sec 4. i wonder who still remembers.

now that i know how to use my sound editing software to cut all the hissing background noise.. change the recording volume and the such....(IT'S SO AMAZING!) i tink i may post other recordings in the future.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 7:24 pm

Saturday, March 05, 2005

hmmmmmmm.... wat to write when there's nothing to write. when there's things to do you go crazy doing them, when there's nothing to do you go crazy doing nothing. nothing is also a part time job. we all moon-light as part time do-nothingers.

was playing metal gear solid 3 and the graphics is so fantastic... it's like a movie. there's just this problem with games. it's still in the end programmed with artificial intelligence. the baddies are "smart". there's 5 difficulty levels: very easy (you wuss), easy (mama's boy), normal (you nerd), hard (you hardcore 24/7 gamer), extreme (you suicidal). at very easy and easy, the baddies are like blind, handicapped, disabled people who can't see you even if you walk in front of them (a little exaggerated but you get the idea). by the way, i chose normal... coz im not a wuss... neither have i played metal gear for long. at normal diff, the baddies are generally alert, but to kill you they have to pump around 50 bullets into you. by extreme level, you will get killed in 2 or 3 hits. this is wat they call "realistic". how i want to laff!! i shall laff now. MUHAhaHAHHAhhA. ok... how can this be realistic... yes pple can die in 2 or 3 hits, but which idiot is going to send a lone soldier deep inside enemy territory, doing funny stuff like rescuing, infiltrating, and generally nosing around under the watchful eyes of an entire hostile army? not to mention this time you have to pump 50 bullets into them to kill them. so funny! realism isn't like this....

*hic anywaaayyss, last nite met up with the guys. miraculously everyone turned up, including sookz. he got A, B, C! good work chum! haven't wasted that one year staying back. eat, drink, talk. century square food junction, then coffee bean. there was this couple, the girl is dressed really "seductive" (jon), "slutty" (joe), ... (sookz), "SLURP" (me.... the chocolate ice blended lah!!! wat tinking you), (0_0) (xh). should be a good enuff descrip. they keep walking in and out of the aircon place to the non aircon side. obviously everyone diao the char bo. so who's fault issit? the bf keep on diaoing back. aiyoh... tell your friend to package abit leh. wear like not wearing like that.

pple from vj are called victorians (or was it vegetarians?). from saj called saints (once a saint, always a saint PUI). from rj called rafflesians. from tj called temenggongs, temasekians ooops.. it's tjcians (so weird!). from tpj leh? tampinesians? tpjcians? can-you-say-hugamongalousians?? all so weird. so i tink they should be called ten penisians. yup tat's right.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 11:07 pm

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

my brother lives with his gf. it's practically like a live in thing. it's like the girl's side "yang3" him. my brother wasn't like this when we're young. he's a smart guy, but i think he wasted it all with bad attitude and bad company. in anglican he underwent a dramatic change over those 4 years. i'm saddened that i can't really do anything about it.

he's a super chiongster... frequenting clubs and pubs since secondary school. he was arrested for vandalism once. he smokes, not that my parents know. he drinks quite a lot. he spends a lot of money on fashion and all those. he squandered his money. he's been working part-time since sec 3 or 4... at first it was like an experience or kill time thingie... now i believe it's to support himself. it's been 3 or 4 years already... imagine the money he could have saved... but i believe he has almost none. frankly i don't know much about him... i don't even see him often. maybe once or twice a week, if i'm lucky. take my jc days for eg, when i wake up in the morning he's still sleeping. when i get home he's not at home. when i sleep he's still not at home. so i don't even get to even talk to him for once entire week.

i object to his way of life and moral values, but i really can't do anything. my parents seem to be giving up on him totally... it's like he's "grown up" already... it's his choice. i'm glad that they think of it this way... coz it's really his life... they can't do anything about it. they tried everything... scolding, discussions since secondary school... all in vain.

despite all this, my mother seem to have a soft spot for him. it seems to me that the same doesn't apply to me.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 6:25 pm

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

so much to do. so important. so little time. so unclear. so lost. so screwed up!

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 11:44 pm