The Wind Wrote in the Water at 11:04 pm

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

in this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. these have come so that your faith - of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire - may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honour when Jesus Christ is revealed. (1 peter 1:6-7)

though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls. (1:8-9)

like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you have tasted that the Lord is good. (2:2-3)

live such good lives among the pagans that, though they accuse you of doing wrong, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day he visits us. (2:12)

submit yourselves for the Lord's sake to every authority instituted among men: whether to the king, as the supreme authority, or to governors, who are sent by him to punish those who do wrong and to commend those who do right. for it is God's will that by doing good you should silence the talk of foolish men. (2:13-15)

wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behaviour of their wives, when they see the purity and reverence of your lives. your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. (3:1-4)

finally, all of you, live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble. do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing. (3:8-9)

always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. but do this with gentleness and respect, keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against your good behaviour in Christ may be ashamed of their slander. (3:15-16)

for you have spent enough time in the past doing what pagans choose to do - living in decauchery, lust, drunkenness, orgies, carousing and detestable idolatry. they think it strange that you do not plunge with them into the same flood of dissipation, and they heap abuse on you. but they will have to give account to him who is ready to judge the living and the dead. (4:3-5)

the end of all things is near. therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray. above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in various forms. if anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. if anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. (4:7-11)

dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. but rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed. if you are insulted because of the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you. (4:12-14)

so then, those who suffer accordingly to God's will should commit themselves to their faithful Creator and continue to do good. (4:19)

be shepherds of God's flock that is under your care, serving as overseers - not because you must, but because you are willing, as God wants you to be; not greedy for money, but eager to serve; not lording it over those entrusted to you, but being examples to the flock. and when the Chief Shepherd appears, you will receive a crown of glory that will never fade away. (5:2-4)

cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. (5:7)

be self-controlled and alert. your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. (5:8-9)

bq is at 2 peter.

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the bible quiz Boys are in the silver honour roll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm so happy because i prepared them MUHAAHahHAHAH XD

thank you Lord. i'm so surprised because i didn't tink we can achieve anything. faithless me.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 8:30 pm

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

south family day @ sentosa - boys

we're throwing tomatoes. serious.

gimme gimme the squishy soggy tomato XD

missssssssss =PPPpp~~

3.. 2.. 1.. ignition.

airborne!!!

everybody! =D

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finally recovered some long lost photos at cell just now. today record low attendance.. many didn't turn up.

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ab213 project.. crashed smu. everything was nice.. only that the wireless was really bad.

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need some answers.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 11:33 pm

Saturday, September 22, 2007

it's the recess week finally.. feels rather good.

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thur's xroads.. i suddenly felt in a flash the many things big and small that God has accomplished through me, this year that i dedicated myself to him. left me silent for a while.. and the year is coming to an end soon.

and also reminded of mortality. some people of my batch are gone already.

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dear friends,

if ever i go early, don't take it too hard. i won't say don't cry because not all tears are evil.

i'm going to a nice place to prepare a place for you, ahead of you. a place where "there will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away".

whatever wrong i have done to you, i'm sorry, please forgive me. whatever good times we shared, share it with others.

i can't bear to leave and i will still be looking after you. one day when we reunite again, transformed in glory and with a crown on our heads, we'll go to see Jesus together and put our fingers through those holes, and know that everything that happened in our lives are not in vain.

tell mum i always love her. and i love you all too.

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a soldier destroys in order to build; a father builds and never destroys.

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consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. (james 1:2-4)

if any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. (1:5)

blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. (1:12)

my dear brothers, take note of this: everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires. (1:19-20)

with the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. my brothers, this should not be. (3:9-10)

what causes fights and quarrels among you? don't they come from your desires that battle within you? you want something but don't get it. you kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. you quarrel and fight. you do not have, because you do not ask God. when you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures. (4:1-3)

why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. what is your life? you are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. (4:14)

anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins. (4:17)

you too, be patient and stand firm, becaue the Lord's coming is near. don't grumble against each other, brothers, or you will be judged. the Judge is standing at the door! (5:9)

is any one of you in trouble? he should pray. is anyone happy? let him sing songs of praise. (5:13)

therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. the prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective. (5:16)

bq is at 1 peter.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 5:38 pm

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

today's cell was canceled.. so no need to rush down to church after 6.30pm. i tink it's an opportunity to catch up on quiet time, which i haven't done in a long while. there seems to be a pattern.. when things go downhill, stop doing quiet time stop praying, and things go further downhill. until things are put right.

this hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast. (hebrews 6:19 NKJV - Boys' Brigade moto)

let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. and let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another - and all the more as you see the Day approaching. (hebrews 10:22-25)

now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. (11:1)

and without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and tht he rewards those who earnestly seek him. (11:6)

our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. no discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. (12:10-11) wow

keep on loving each other as brothers. do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some people have entertained angels without knowing it. (13:1-2)

keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." (13:5) wow

bq is at james 1. page 897 of 923. it is almost done.

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the school newspaper featured an article about campus crusade. the bible in the bottom right corner is mine. yup.. page 897 of 923. hmmm it's 10 years old this year.

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yan yin and gerben are flying back to netherlands tomorrow night. will be sending them off. gerben is a real pal and i'll miss him. much common interests. able to hold conversations with him... serious ones too. he promised to take me around scheemda or groningen if i visit holland. actually i kinda miss holland.

i was able to share my christian testimony with him because he was interested to know what i do in church and why am i a christian. he was the one who asked me such questions out of the blue. God open doors yeah? =D

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God has never meant for anyone to be haunted by the past. in him all chains are broken.

ready or not.. Jesus is coming!

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woooops can't join the MAF activity at hall 11 tomorrow liao.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 11:21 pm

Monday, September 17, 2007

no reserves. no retreats. no regrets.

- 6 words written in his bible, william borden (1887 - 1913) gave up his worldly wealth to become a missionary to the muslims of china, but died in egypt during his training there at the age of 25.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 11:10 pm

Sunday, September 16, 2007

cuzzie and me @ vivocity

gerben and me @ orchard road

cineleisure arcade. 1 credit no life lost. gerben didn't make it till the end.

nydc @ wheelock place.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 11:28 pm

Friday, September 14, 2007

these couple of days ain't so good. worrying about things that i shouldn't be worrying about.

i feel like my mind and soul are invaded. don't know where to start. it's like a flood that comes as suddenly as it goes.

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bringing cuzzie and gerben around singapore, shopping and eating.. nice clothes, gadgets, books, shoes... she just goes in and picks whatever she fancies. and most probably they will be worn once and then chucked into the closet and forgotten. just sorta reminds me that i don't have that kind of spending power.

after paying this sem's school fees, dunno wat's gonna happen.

many people are going overseas or have already gone overseas. destinations like france, new zealand, switzerland, china, US, canada.. for one whole semester. i wish i can go too.

there are times when i wish my dad's a rich man.

and i can replace a disintegrating wallet without tinking so much. and then load it with credit cards and lotsa cash.

and buy those nice clothes for every conceivable occasion. half the stuff i wear are actually my brother's.

replace the worn out shoes of more than 3 years... list just never ends.

life's unfair? yes. God's unfair? no.

i tend to splurge on gatherings, fellowships, people. people and relationships are what really matters ultimately. money is a means to an end.

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twice in two days i heard pple say that i seem know a lot of pple and popular in that sense.

sometimes i feel like a insignificant worm that nobody notices. a short and skinny one. nothing outstanding. unlovable.

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my weekends and even weekdays are occupied by bb and church. to be effective i don't tink i can take up serious part time work. but a part of me reasons that i should get some part time work. perhaps it's natural for a non-christian to work part time coz they have no reason to be involved in christian commitments. i guess i'm storing treasures in heaven?

find work.. and i'll probably get overloaded and really really tired. remain status quo.. and i can hear mum say that i'm lazy.

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tomorrow it's closing parade... old Boys coming back, parents, buffet dinner... the usual.

sunday it's practice for 40 day of purpose campaign end celebration. big and very important. which means much more serious practice.

coming wednesday it's mid autumn festival @ hall 11. time flies... it's been a year already. so many things have changed. i'll be with the audience this time while the freshies take the stage. gotta talk to some pple regarding staying in hall.

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on a lighter note, had my first dg session with michael and zack yesterday. i'm very thankful for them.

and also yesterday morning during comms class we were all offended by the people nex door who banged the wall to tell us to lower the volume. extremely rude. my tutor was very disturbed and i felt that i should try to encourage her since she's christian. happened that i was wearing the "Jesus beat the devil with two sticks" t shirt. and so i went up to her after class and mentioned to her the message on my shirt and said something like "don't worry, Jesus is in control". she said i'm making her cry.

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i'm still peeling horribly. splotches of skin that darker and lighter everywhere. eeek.

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bq is at hebrews 9.

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God, You heard me. need Your touch.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 9:16 pm

Sunday, September 09, 2007

today is ministry fair in church... it was good exposure for all the ministries esp for us coz we don't operate in church. some pple were afraid that we'll be discouraged because of the response at our booth, but none of us thought of it that way. it's not for everyone because of the committment and passion required. booth and displays aside, i tink the lot of us in uniform sitting together during service made a lot of impact.

i saw my commanding officer's two daughters for the first time in church today (coz my bb madam when i was in primary school is in the same church). valerie, 8 and vanessa, 6. can't help but feel the pureness of their expressions and the sunshine in their hearts... innocent and bubbly. thank you Lord for shielding the small ones from the darkness and storms before their time. i asked them to say hi to dad for me.

then little children were brought to Jesus for him to place his hands on them and pray for them. but the disciples rebuked those who brought them. Jesus said, "let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." when he had placed his hands on them, he went on from there. (matthew 19:13-15)

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for physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promise for both the present life and the life to come. (1 timothy 4:8)

don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity. (4:12)

but godliness with contentment is great gain. for we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it. but if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that. people who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge men into ruin and destruction. for the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs. (6:6-10)

command them to do good, to be rich in good deeds, and to be generous and willing to share. in this way they will lay up treasure for themselves as a firm foundation for the coming age, so that they may tke hold of the life that is truly life. (6:18-19)

flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart. don't have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. and the Lord's servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will. (2 timothy 2:22-26)

in fact, everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted, (3:12)

all Scripture is God-breathed and i useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work. (3:16-17)

preach the Word; be prepared in season and out of season; correct, rebuke and encourage - with great patience and careful instruction. (4:2)

bq is at titus 1.

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common sense is not so common - voltaire

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 9:21 pm

just got back from tm... watched bourne ultimatum with cuzzie and gerben. i tink it's a really nice show. very edge-of-your-seat kind of exciting. 11.35pm show... finished at around 1.45am. i drove them back to po po's.

dinner was with family lim. ah ma, uncle robin & tony, auntie julia, dad, kid cuzzies (gladys, julian & tiffany) @ no signboard restaurant in geylang. yan yin and gerben tagged along. too much to eat. lobster and all.

before dinner we're at orchard road... borders, wisma and taka. checking out some stuff.

lunch was at ikea tampines. meatball and stuff. spent the whole day with them.

last nite the two of them were at my place and we jammed a little bit. the stuff that i'm into and he's into is quite different. frankly it's easier for me to accomodate to him than he is to me. had a good time anyway.

tink come monday i'll bring them to sentosa. but enuff of sun for me... i'm still peeling and it's scary to look at. just gonna lay back and chill out with my oakleys on.

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gerben is a nice guy. pretty quiet (maybe coz he's a lil shocked by the number of relatives he met these couple of days). he and i got pretty much in common. he loves green. and if i talk about d&d or rpg stuff with pple i know, nobody will understand... it takes a dutch guy to come all the way to singapore for me to have someone to talk to hahahaha.

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it's sunday. it's ministry fair. gonna be in bb uniform with the rest of the brothers to "sell" bb in church. dunno how it'll turn out. Your will be done.

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the natural me is pretty allergic to meeting new pple, much less getting to know them. i build barriers to protect myself from other pple. protection from possible hurt, shame etc maybe? and it's not surprising to hear pple telling me that they thought i'm cold or anti social. i open up better when pple open up first.

the "unnatural" me tries to reach out to other people. and i realise that there are many pple like me too. i didn't realise if i open up first, pple will open up too and it's not as awkward or weird as i thought it would be.

there's always a risk in any kind of relationship. the closer you get to someone, the greater the potential for pain... we all learn that. i suppose if we're not willing to take such a risk, we'll never get anywhere with relationships.

many times it's not other pple who don't accept you, it's you who don't let other pple accept you. by building walls. by taking preemptive actions. by tinking negatively about others. by being in a constant state of war preparation. by tinking that you're too small and unworthy.

God is bigger than all these. He's always around to comfort and assure and help... if only we let Him. cause He's a gentle God. not one who shoves things down pple's throat.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 2:07 am

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

ok... cuzzie is back with her bf, but i haven't seen them yet. wanted to meet up with them today but couldn't get hold of her.

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tmr gotta wear formal for AB214 presentation, and wake up very early... 0830 lesson. 4 hours in the morning and then a 4 hour break till 1630 for BT201 until 1730. then it's xroads. i hope all my disciples turn up.

tink i'll look weird. formal attire and carrying a camouflage patterned guitar bag. for the last time, it was a 21st birthday pressie from my Boys. no, i'm not mad, and no, it's not because i like green. if you look carefully it has brown, black and kaki too. but then again it's darn cool... tink i would have gotten it anyway.

i'll spend more than 12 hours in school...

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skin's starting to peel. peeeeel banana peeeel peeeeeeeeel banana...

and then just eat it lah. chop wat chop, shake wat shake.

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the case about the guy stealing a rifle is uber madness. he's only 1 month away from ord.

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ok cuzzie just called. want to come over to jam soon.... whoaaaa... bring it on mr gerben grave =P

come to tink of it, i haven't touched my explorer in a while. need to warm up before a guitar duel! keep thinking not enuff time but actually it's more like time got squandered on unimportant things. soon... soon... crank up the volume... crank up the distortion and then every downstroke is like a bomb exploding 3 feet away MUhAHAHAHHAHA.

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bq is at 1 timothy. a part of me wants to finish, a part of me doesn't want to finish. finishing it is a christian milestone. but finishing also gives me a feeling of... emptiness... nothing to look forward to... in a way. wat then? start all over? it took me more than a year to get here.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 10:54 pm

Monday, September 03, 2007

just got back from airport. seeya in january 2008 wen. have a good experience in france (i wish you can pack me into your luggage). XD

cuzzie's coming back from holland on the 4th along with gerben. if that viking sleeps on my bed i tink his feet will stick out of it XD

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owwwww.. my skin is red still flushing heat. prickly pain. itchy. ache in some weird areas like the butt (coz gotta hike out mah).

and for those unsuspecting pple who gave me a "friendly" pat on the back of the shoulders... OUCH.

in front of the altar receiving holy communion... out of so many pple, pastor evan came near to pray for me. i tink i needed that. thank you so much.

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i don't know wat to say... i must really thank God. and thank you.

there are reasons why things happen to me. both good and bad.

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i just did my qt.

my purpose is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ, in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.

so then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.(colossians 2: 2-7)

therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. forgive as the Lord forgave you. and over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

let the peace of Christ rule in your hears, since as members of one body you where called to peace. and be thankful. let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs to with gratitude in your hearts to God. and whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. (colossians 3:12-17)

bible quest is at 1 thessalonians 1.

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thank God for everything.

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus, the kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out with the trust of a child, he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
To feed them all"

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 12:55 am

Saturday, September 01, 2007

AHHHHHH WENT SAILING @ PASIR RIS IN THE MORNING WITH BEN AND HIS IMPERIAL (DSTA) FRIENDS - CHARLENE, ALPHONSUS AND DARYL. 1130 - 1700.

WEATHER WAS GOOD. SUNNY BUT WIND CONDITIONS ERATIC. GUSTING AND THEN CALM. AND THEN REPEAT.

WATER. SUN. WIND. BLISS.

SAW A FLYING FISH JUMP 3 TIMES ACROSS MY BOW. RACE AROUND KELONGS. SURFING WAVES ON A REACH. PUMPING AND FANNING THE SAIL WHEN THERE'S NO WIND. STOP THE BOAT, LAY BACK INSIDE THE COCKPIT AND JUST CHILL OUT... LISTENING TO THE LUFFING SAIL AND ROLLING SEA.

I'M CHAO TA... BACK OF THE NECK FEELS BURNT, FEET AND HANDS FEEL RAW FROM ABRASION.

AHHHHHHH I LOVE SAILING.

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70% of the world is covered by water. spend your time accordingly.

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recently so many cases of people dropping dead after strenuous activities. these people are of coz really fit, and they would have said that they know their limits and nothing would happen to them. but the trend shows a disturbing pattern for these super athletes.

perhaps it's a pursuit of health, pride, challenge, goals, ego etc... but nothing can ever justify losing your life over it.

against a backdrop of mortality, whatever objectives seem infinitely insignificant.

The Wind Wrote in the Water at 11:29 pm