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hello this is nette's blog bt nette cant think of an intro to post up! so make do w this la hor =)

i think most of us are now at this phase in our lives, when we hv to make many decisions tt wld greatly impact how life would turn out in e future. of course, said decisions may not cause tt massive an impact in e long run, for e.g. when we're on our deathbeds haha. bt yeah.. big choices tt we hv to make now huh. like whether or not to further our studies, what career to take, decisions tt wld cause much change to ur family, romantic decisions..

what's daunting is tt we really dont know whether e decisions tt we make, are e best in tt point in time. haha dr. seng once said before tt we hv to trust in tt, trust tt e decisions tt u make at any point in time are e best. but it's so.. hard y'know. how do i know for sure? i don't, i really don't. and im scared haha. i wish thr was some way to know, many years down e road.. and does e fact tt im doubting now, say ath abt my beliefs? are they nt as strong as i believe them to be, do i not hv faith in myself and my circumstances? or is it jus normal to fear?

ohwell. emo ramblings late in e night. haha dont mind me. shudders is supposed to have died a natural death, but certain things u jus dont feel like talking abt except to an inanimate object like a blog.

e serenity of mind to accept tt which cannot be changed,
courage to change tt which can be changed,
and wisdom to know one from the other

还没好好的感受
雪花绽放的气候
我们一起颤抖 会更明白
什么是温柔

还没跟你牵着手
走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以后
学会珍惜 天长和地久

有时候 有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开 都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

还没为你剥红豆
熬成缠绵的伤口
然后一起分享
会更明白 相思的哀愁

还没好好的感受
醒着亲吻的温柔
可能在我左右
你才追求
孤独的自由

有时候 有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开 都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

有时候 有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开 都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

was watching bai wan da ge xing and i was reminded of this song! i actually loved it since pr. 5 haha, rmb buying e casette tape when i was in beijing. 很有意境。 perhaps i knew since a long time ago tt such songs appeal greatly to me haha.

and one of the things, abt looking fwd sooooo much to smthn, is tt it sucks when e smthn is over. coz then thr's nth much to look fwd to in e horizon. sigh.

actually, one of e worst things is going thru this daily grind non-stop, w not much view of e end sign. ok perhaps i do hv an end-sign, but that cld change, so when things are uncertain, u really dont knw whr ure headed towards.

I GOTTA GET THIS ACT TOGETHERRRRRRR.

this' one of those times when i start to feel really down and sian abt sch haha. yeah it's e break but im feeling e blues coz it's gonna be over soon =( whr did my break go?? theoretically, i didnt slack that much except for wed and thurs.. but aye.
i know i wil prob take these words back eventually, but now i jus feel so tired abt this incessant wake-up, try to do work, try to finish 390182782328 readings, worry abt nt being able to finish said readings, worry abt not enough time to complete stuff before their deadlines, go for gatherings reluctantly w work at e back of my mind (then leave gatherings sadly coz it's back to reality), then slp happily and wake up to e cycle again. thr has got to be more to life than this, isnt it? sure im doing it for e knowledge but.....
it is no fun to wake up dreading e day haha.

helloooooo. was told nt to close this place down so okay i'll give v sporadic posts haha. am in sch now, waiting for time to pass.. slpy beyond belief, even tho im supposed to do my work. so yes ive ended up fb-ing and as u can see nw, blogging haha.

e past week has been a rather tiring one.. work-wise, sch is cranking up and projects hit qt some snags, bt things look better for one nw. e other still looks rather crappy bt im nt thatttt bothered coz aiya, nt worth my attn la. a confusing issue happened this week too.. which directly resulted in me being v v slp-deprived (hello mascara eyes!) for e past few days. but im glad we've grown stronger =)

cant wait for e term break.. i realize tt e biggest thing i'll miss abt sch when i work is e long periods of free time. i love own time own targetting.

hello! long time since ive blogged here, im actually seriously considering either abandoning or deleting this blog coz i think ive reached this point in life whereby i do not feel the need to blog anymore. no, i hv nt run out of things to say, it's just that.. im nt e sort of person who will blog abt events or things i did in e day, so u wont get to see how happening my life is (supposing it is la haha). heck, i dont even take pictures readily, so sorry there wont ever be lovely picture-laden posts here. if im unhappy abt stuff, i dont like to rant coz i dont like to vent my frustrations covertly like this. e creative juices flow e most when im sad, but being e private person that i am, i do not like to share much so publicly haha soooooo i think shudders is dying a slow but natural death.

just some updates on life thus far - hons is crazily stressful, thr're so many things to take note of, plan for, strive, be independent about.. used to think that e 3 years previously, while tough, were relatively manageable. so i thought hons wld be e same too. but how wrongggg haha it's so not a piece of cake. still.. it's sorta fun (in a sick way), all this adrenaline and stress and independent learning. think i wld be v glad if/when i survive adequately and graduate 1year later.

also at a crossroads now about life in e future, after i graduate. so many things to consider practically, financially, emotionally.. really feel like a real adult now. coz these decisions, once made, wld really influence and swing my life in totally opposing directions. so.. -shrugs- im praying for e wisdom to make e best choices at this point in time.

hope all is well for all of u! i will appear as and when i feel like it, but if i dont.. then yeah, at least i mentioned tt this cld be goodbye haha. take care!

Why are there so many songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions, but only illusions,
And rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some choose to believe it
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers and me.

Who said that every wish would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that, and someone believed it,
And look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us stargazing
And what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.

i think this is v apt w regard to what im thinking abt now. hahaha isnt it.

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