I have helped a friend that I really shouldn't have. It was an ex, one that I have a hard time being friends with because I have never been a fan of being friends with your ex's. Once the relationship is over its over to me. I received a call from the ex telling me that said Ex was lonely and about to do something stupid. I said that nothing good comes from it and to stop. Do not entertain those thoughts and just try to mend things with your partner. Its going to destroy alot more then you realize..the ex agreed and that was the end of it.
I had been in a relationship for 2 years and just recently we parted ways. I like a fool changed the status of my relationship on Facebook and before I could realize what I had done I was getting phone calls and text messages asking what happened. I am a private person and will not share any of that info with anyone. I do not out of respect to the other party involved. I forgot that people find my life entertaining and watch every detail or read everything that I post. I was very bothered that the previous Ex contacted me and wanted to know if I was now straight..what does it matter? Is it really any of your business? I think not. I replied back that I am not going to discuss this with you, it none of your damn business. Today I was again contacted by said Ex and of course the question came up of "Well are there any guys out there that you like" Are you straight again? I again was ticked off. Reason being that I do not have to justify who I am with or what my preference is. I have not been with the person that is asking the question in a very long time and stopped all contact after that point. Why is what I am or who I am with so damn important to you? I asked that they please stop caring about what I do and just move on. I guess they want me to be straight.
I also have to deal with this crap at my work..one of my employees brought up the same question to me after finding out my new status and was "hurt" when they asked the question. Let me explain..the employee was very much into me and I of course shot down all and everything that was ever mentioned to me through 3rd parties. I never allowed myself to be in the same room alone with the employee, I always covered all my bases. So in passing I was stopped by one of my other employees and was asked if now that I was single would I be straight again. I quickly chuckled and said why does this matter to anyone? The employee simply said I am not the one asking because I really don't care who you are with just as long as they make you happy and treat you good. I said I appreciate your response, but that it is really none of anyone's business what I do, who it is with, where and when! Well it got back to that employee and of course they took it as I was shooting them down...WTF? Did I miss something here? Was I asleep for a week and somehow missed out on when I gave them any type of indication that I was looking to "score" or whatever?...
I know what I want. I know who I am and I know what I prefer. I am NOT secretly hiding my feelings or preference as I have been accused. What bothers me is the whole we need to know your business so we have something to talk about. I know that when I was with my Ex these last 2 years that we were always told we make a cute couple, we take pictures together well, we compliment each other..I was always told by both Male and Females that they were jealous of what we had because of how good we were to each other and how attractive that we both are. We always joked when out in public and just looked so much in love. Our pictures always had very genuine from the heart and souls smiles. I never realized how big of an influence we had on others relationships. I was told all of this over the last 3 weeks and I will admit it has stung and hurt the heart more then I wanted it to.
I know that I am in a position at work that my staff likes to follow everything that I do. Some of them are always talking positive while others not so much. I know that I try my hardest to keep my life private and sometimes I do a very fantastic job at it..once and a while I might slip up. I hope one day that people find a hobby or a life and stay the hell out of my business...damn read a book cause my life is not that interesting enough for it to be made in to A Lifetime Network special.
I want to watch a cry my heart out movie tonight, one that will cleanse my soul and hopefully clear up some of the random things going on in my heart and mind...I wish I could be held. The kind of holding that makes everything go away, one that you can feel and hear the heart beat of whomever arms you are in. The kind that puts you to sleep and makes everything right in the world...this sucks!!!
