i can't believe this photo was taken TWO years ago. we were oh-so-young then. and i can't find any other decent photos of us! how can! (though partly because i look horrible in the other photos and i refuse to upload it. lol.) but really, we didnt take much photos together. =(

anyway. i love you bestie!!

i went to her wake last night, with rachel and tiff. i saw her face, so surreal, but that prominent smile's no longer there. she simply lay there, at peace, i hope. i cried. i couldnt help it. as i read her blog, her friend's, her facebook memorial photographs, i cried. and each time i talked about her, the tears will start to fall again. even now. and i wonder, God, what her family must be going through. it had to be a hundred times worse.

i really cannot imagine how things could change so drastically within a night. one day, she was so perfectly fine. the next, she's gone. i wonder at length, what could have driven her to do so within the space of the night. she was so young. so pretty. so cheerful. so bubbly. so loved.
and i believe, will always be, in our hearts.


we'll always remember you, you and that smile on your face, you and the warmth you always brought, even if it's a short 3 years i've known you. i will remember playing in the same band as you, i will remember you waving happily down the corridor. i will remember knowing you.

goodbye, nicole.

i know i'm supposed to be in class now. but i really need to blog. to talk about it. to keep the hairs from standing, though it doesnt really seem to be working. i can still feel the chills down my back.
that sick feeling remains.

the news came as a shock, and despite not being that close to her, i could feel tears almost welling up. almost. images of her so happy-go-lucky and always smiling started appearing in my mind, and i thought, no one would be able to see that smile anymore. at most, in our memories. in photographs. in our hearts.

rest in peace.

there goes the weekend again.

everybody knows that time flies, yes indeed, but it's such an understatement. it doesn't just fly, it's somewhat like a bullet train. at least, when it flies, you can still see it and follow it with your eyes, and if you're close enough, you can see the details. but, a bullet train goes past so quickly that you wouldn't catch it if you'd just turn your head away, and even if you see it zipping past, you won't be able to catch the details; it'd be just a blur.

rambling on, i'd say i've enjoyed this weekend, which also marks the end of my so-called one week term break. so-called, because we still had to go back for 3 lessons. attended the PITCH '09 conference/event at ngee ann poly yesterday, then met yockie at jurong point. yes, you didnt see wrongly, i was at Jurong, a part of singapore you'd hardly find me in. i figured that since i'm at clementi, no harm going even further west to meet yockie, since she hardly ever shops and i'm supposed to be honoured that she asked me along. haha. lian joined us later on. what fun we had. xoxo =)

i'm having difficulty uploading photos on facebook. rahhh. facebook is giving me problems, taking such a long time to load. and i might just visit it lesser. and lesser. haha.