Thursday, June 01, 2006
**so far gone
@ 01:56
@ 01:56
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
its the term test week. my assignment is finished. today's paper was bad. at the beginning, i didnt know anything, adon fed me with answers of cos. cant wait till the end of the week.
went karaoke with the rest last friday. was totally retarded. singing our stupid heads off. we spent most of our time jumping on the sofa and chairs while taking photos. hah. and went for not nice prata supper after that.
sleepy. bored and still in school.
cant help but feel scared for this round of tests. everyone is being freaky and studying so hard. hmm.
oh. my other poor big hammie died yesterday in her sleep. booo. im only left with one small hammie now. im a hammie killer. no more hammies for me.
im infatuated.
(:
went karaoke with the rest last friday. was totally retarded. singing our stupid heads off. we spent most of our time jumping on the sofa and chairs while taking photos. hah. and went for not nice prata supper after that.
sleepy. bored and still in school.
cant help but feel scared for this round of tests. everyone is being freaky and studying so hard. hmm.
oh. my other poor big hammie died yesterday in her sleep. booo. im only left with one small hammie now. im a hammie killer. no more hammies for me.
im infatuated.
(:
**so far gone
@ 12:18
@ 12:18
Friday, April 29, 2005
>mocking bird.
but it's just something we have no control over
and that's what destiny is.
but no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep.
maybe one day we'll wake up
and this will all just be a dream.
>crazy in love
because you stay with me,
maybe because you're as crazy as i am.
cause when i look at you,
I can see an angel in your eyes.
but if i look deeper inside,
i see your freakish little side,
like a devil in disguise.
you're always full of surprises,
always pullin' devises.
crazy on you
crazy on you
let me go crazy crazy on you.
gawd. i havent updated for a month. hmm. so everything is basically over. the exams and the supp papers are all over n lucky for me i passed everything. my period is over too. but it aint that important. well. met jassie the pootie and hk the sotong 2 days ago. quite long since we met up but we had some fun talking. my hols are coming to an end. really sad to realise. i practically wasted it all working. 2 months just flown past without me even really enjoying myself. sweeet aye. i only watched ONE movie the whole holiday. how pathetic. i aint got no life. thank you very much. im like a way boring person now.
the weather has been sickening. what's with the world nowadays. i've been steaming around all day long. i stink literally. haha. uhhh hmmmmm. okayy.
MOVING ON. one of my darlingest hammie - garfield, died on 1st april. i still dont know the cause of death. but i guess i killed her. not sure. sigh. sad sad sad. i cremated her and her ashes are kept in a nice lil porcelain container on my shelf. i miss her and her cute lil stunts. but at least i still have snoopy.
anyways, changed my blog layout. nothing really different, just a small teeny shift of stuff. yup.
i'll be going now.
but it's just something we have no control over
and that's what destiny is.
but no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep.
maybe one day we'll wake up
and this will all just be a dream.
>crazy in love
because you stay with me,
maybe because you're as crazy as i am.
cause when i look at you,
I can see an angel in your eyes.
but if i look deeper inside,
i see your freakish little side,
like a devil in disguise.
you're always full of surprises,
always pullin' devises.
crazy on you
crazy on you
let me go crazy crazy on you.
gawd. i havent updated for a month. hmm. so everything is basically over. the exams and the supp papers are all over n lucky for me i passed everything. my period is over too. but it aint that important. well. met jassie the pootie and hk the sotong 2 days ago. quite long since we met up but we had some fun talking. my hols are coming to an end. really sad to realise. i practically wasted it all working. 2 months just flown past without me even really enjoying myself. sweeet aye. i only watched ONE movie the whole holiday. how pathetic. i aint got no life. thank you very much. im like a way boring person now.
the weather has been sickening. what's with the world nowadays. i've been steaming around all day long. i stink literally. haha. uhhh hmmmmm. okayy.
MOVING ON. one of my darlingest hammie - garfield, died on 1st april. i still dont know the cause of death. but i guess i killed her. not sure. sigh. sad sad sad. i cremated her and her ashes are kept in a nice lil porcelain container on my shelf. i miss her and her cute lil stunts. but at least i still have snoopy.
anyways, changed my blog layout. nothing really different, just a small teeny shift of stuff. yup.
i'll be going now.
**so far gone
@ 17:34
@ 17:34
Thursday, March 31, 2005
wish we could just sit under the stars and talk.
wish we never ran out of things to talk about.
wish u could make my everyday seem like its our first together.
wish u knew that us being together is all that matters in the end.
wish we could drink n get drunk together.
wish we could fall asleep in each other's arms, i wouldnt mind not waking up.
wish i could find the way for the both of us.
wish i could do something for u.
wish we understood the world better.
wish we could take a little time out to talk.
wish our love could grow without us hanging too tightly onto each other.
wish our love could provide everything we need.
i cry out to my father in heaven and wish that i was seven. i got everything contained inside. im feeling so condensed yet so empty. i keep trying to run away, yet i know so much that i want to stay. i want to do something for you, something for myself too.
i want to feel free, want to fly away, but when i look behind, i realise i got no wings. i look into the mirror, i dont see anyone. im not that far gone am i?
if you know, please make me feel alright. its just because i dont get it. i dont understand why my world only appears in one colour. makes no sense why my pencil case is filled with markers all of the same colour.
//im not broken, im just unfine.
wish we never ran out of things to talk about.
wish u could make my everyday seem like its our first together.
wish u knew that us being together is all that matters in the end.
wish we could drink n get drunk together.
wish we could fall asleep in each other's arms, i wouldnt mind not waking up.
wish i could find the way for the both of us.
wish i could do something for u.
wish we understood the world better.
wish we could take a little time out to talk.
wish our love could grow without us hanging too tightly onto each other.
wish our love could provide everything we need.
i cry out to my father in heaven and wish that i was seven. i got everything contained inside. im feeling so condensed yet so empty. i keep trying to run away, yet i know so much that i want to stay. i want to do something for you, something for myself too.
i want to feel free, want to fly away, but when i look behind, i realise i got no wings. i look into the mirror, i dont see anyone. im not that far gone am i?
if you know, please make me feel alright. its just because i dont get it. i dont understand why my world only appears in one colour. makes no sense why my pencil case is filled with markers all of the same colour.
//im not broken, im just unfine.
**so far gone
@ 03:28
@ 03:28
Saturday, March 12, 2005
okay.
i lost my handphone again.
again. yes. i know.
im like darn retarded n absent minded please.
er.
PLEASE email ya names and contacts to me k.
ch4r_67@hotmail.com
please please please.
i lost my handphone again.
again. yes. i know.
im like darn retarded n absent minded please.
er.
PLEASE email ya names and contacts to me k.
ch4r_67@hotmail.com
please please please.
**so far gone
@ 13:15
@ 13:15
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
hmm. today is da dateline. n i finished my work last nite. n today. i feel so goooood pls. da only ting i din do was study for my bmic quiz. but watever la pls. i did all my other work. but oso thanks to baby for helping do my creative writing draft. hahaha. MY sweetums.
im in school. its like 1015 n i m in school pleaaase. having an hour break now. later having maths. but i tink im skipping that. LOL! i know la. im in school yet im missing lectures. nonsense yes but hey, there are so many other tings i can do other den going for lecs. like keeping donnie company in da comp lab so that she can finish her econs. hoho. im nice please.
besides, lessons are really sucky. my flu is like not any better. but i'll live. n my throat is still sore. its getting better BUT i juz ate 2 choc muffins. wahhaha. nice please.
ive made up my mind. today, im going to baby's house. whether he likes it or not. i haven been der for ages la please. or mayb not. aiya. c how den. lol. n maybe i should wear my levi's tmr. i haven wore it can. thats pure nonsense la. new year is long gone n da jeans is still with da tags. spasteeeek please.
sleepy. i came to school for a test at 9. it lasted 40 mins. so my break plus slacking time would be till 2. but school is not a place to sleep la. i need a bed, pillows n definitely a blankie. MY blankie puhlease. blah blah blah.
i wanna tan again. but we'll c how after the formal presentation. i shant get too happy till da presentation is over. grr. school is darn sucky please. wooo. finally weekend work is overrrr. no need to stand for 10 hrs a day. woot. more time for hammies and baby too. time to clean da cages. stinky lil weenkies dey are.
cya. off to do something more productive. lol.
im in school. its like 1015 n i m in school pleaaase. having an hour break now. later having maths. but i tink im skipping that. LOL! i know la. im in school yet im missing lectures. nonsense yes but hey, there are so many other tings i can do other den going for lecs. like keeping donnie company in da comp lab so that she can finish her econs. hoho. im nice please.
besides, lessons are really sucky. my flu is like not any better. but i'll live. n my throat is still sore. its getting better BUT i juz ate 2 choc muffins. wahhaha. nice please.
ive made up my mind. today, im going to baby's house. whether he likes it or not. i haven been der for ages la please. or mayb not. aiya. c how den. lol. n maybe i should wear my levi's tmr. i haven wore it can. thats pure nonsense la. new year is long gone n da jeans is still with da tags. spasteeeek please.
sleepy. i came to school for a test at 9. it lasted 40 mins. so my break plus slacking time would be till 2. but school is not a place to sleep la. i need a bed, pillows n definitely a blankie. MY blankie puhlease. blah blah blah.
i wanna tan again. but we'll c how after the formal presentation. i shant get too happy till da presentation is over. grr. school is darn sucky please. wooo. finally weekend work is overrrr. no need to stand for 10 hrs a day. woot. more time for hammies and baby too. time to clean da cages. stinky lil weenkies dey are.
cya. off to do something more productive. lol.
**so far gone
@ 10:30
@ 10:30
Sunday, February 20, 2005
deadlines are killing me. its no wonder they are called deadlines. i especially hate it since everything is due on the same day.
worse part is that im sick. i kept thinking that da longan red date drink was cooling but i only found out today that it was heaty, after drinkin da whole damn bottle the nite before. not wondering y ive been having a splitting headache ever since i woke up. my throat's killing me cos its way sore. my flu just wont go away. its making me feel stuffed up.
da worst part is that my mood is jus way down. everything is just so wrong again. i get irritated at da smallest tings ever. n since small tings irritate me that much already, imagine when he told me that he watched a movie. after telling me in the afternoon that he wasnt goin to do anything but eat becos he DIDNT wanna watch a movie without me. well. that was way comforting. argh.
im so screwed with all the deadlines screaming in my head. like how m i ever gonna get my tings done. ive got work tmr, n i bloody don wanna go. not becos im lazy, but becos i juz wanna do my work. im so tired n irritated that i just keep wanting to cry.
my info for my formal presentation is due tmr. n im still dwelling on my econs articles. plus my damn draft for my child's storybook is due on tues. and so is my econs. i haven started on my drafts. da bad ting is that da draft is graded.
n pple keep telling me how many more projects they have compared to me, or how much busier they are den me, and how much better dey could cope with tings. i dunno. makes me feel so lousy. so brought down or somethin like that.
but i admit its all my fault. no one asked me to do everythin last minute rite. it was my choice anyway. ya. my fault. okay.
worse part is that im sick. i kept thinking that da longan red date drink was cooling but i only found out today that it was heaty, after drinkin da whole damn bottle the nite before. not wondering y ive been having a splitting headache ever since i woke up. my throat's killing me cos its way sore. my flu just wont go away. its making me feel stuffed up.
da worst part is that my mood is jus way down. everything is just so wrong again. i get irritated at da smallest tings ever. n since small tings irritate me that much already, imagine when he told me that he watched a movie. after telling me in the afternoon that he wasnt goin to do anything but eat becos he DIDNT wanna watch a movie without me. well. that was way comforting. argh.
im so screwed with all the deadlines screaming in my head. like how m i ever gonna get my tings done. ive got work tmr, n i bloody don wanna go. not becos im lazy, but becos i juz wanna do my work. im so tired n irritated that i just keep wanting to cry.
my info for my formal presentation is due tmr. n im still dwelling on my econs articles. plus my damn draft for my child's storybook is due on tues. and so is my econs. i haven started on my drafts. da bad ting is that da draft is graded.
n pple keep telling me how many more projects they have compared to me, or how much busier they are den me, and how much better dey could cope with tings. i dunno. makes me feel so lousy. so brought down or somethin like that.
but i admit its all my fault. no one asked me to do everythin last minute rite. it was my choice anyway. ya. my fault. okay.
**so far gone
@ 02:05
@ 02:05
Sunday, January 30, 2005
okay. ive got a new fascination. im so into wrist cuffs now. especially black leather ones. seems like an overnight obsession. hmm. madness please.
uhm. i bought my levi's on tuesday. went over da moon when my mum paid. i still cant believe that i haf my own pair of levi's now. but i'll get over it. haha. don noe if i'll ever wear it out. maybe i cant bare to. LOL!
bought a Mango spag top. da colour of it just lured me to it. not exaggerating.
and THAAATS IT. nothing else.
speaking of which, i don tink im gonna get new shoes this year. which is just crap. wats with this year's new year please. how idiotic.
went swimming on wednesday, thursday and friday. okayyy. fine. not exactly swimming. more tanning. okay? but den again. that doesnt really apply. cos i aint that tan even after 3 continuous days. nonsense please. da sun was playing hide and seek with me. n da worse part was that da clouds and wind participated too. they were so enthusiastic! nevermind. at least i got a lil darker.
hmm. thats all for da whole week.
well well. da term tests are over. n boy were they S U C K Y. im so goin to F A I L. yes. i really L O V E term tests. but love fades. so im glad that da tests are over. P L E A S E lemmi retain so that i can undo all my mistakes, so that i can go for all my lectures and finally to do better in my tests n exams. yesssss. P L E A S E !!!!
ive been hooked on Ragnorak Online [ro] lately. i cant stop playin it. all i do is play all day. especially since its da one week hols for me. play play and more play. ro was my life. till today. aiya. da account expired la please. must pay. but baby n i are broke broke and more broke. so as da story goes - im bored like hell just cos i cant play. that so duh la please. online games are just too addictive. my advise is - don start if u don haf spare cash.
i just cant get enuff of shopping. all i tink about now is bags. shoes. clothes. mainly shopping la huh. aiya. madess la please. don say le. i just wan everything i set my eyes on. okay okay. not everythin. but everything nice that i like. ho-hum. not much of a difference. but hu cares. cant get them anyway.
D E A D .
uhm. i bought my levi's on tuesday. went over da moon when my mum paid. i still cant believe that i haf my own pair of levi's now. but i'll get over it. haha. don noe if i'll ever wear it out. maybe i cant bare to. LOL!
bought a Mango spag top. da colour of it just lured me to it. not exaggerating.
and THAAATS IT. nothing else.
speaking of which, i don tink im gonna get new shoes this year. which is just crap. wats with this year's new year please. how idiotic.
went swimming on wednesday, thursday and friday. okayyy. fine. not exactly swimming. more tanning. okay? but den again. that doesnt really apply. cos i aint that tan even after 3 continuous days. nonsense please. da sun was playing hide and seek with me. n da worse part was that da clouds and wind participated too. they were so enthusiastic! nevermind. at least i got a lil darker.
hmm. thats all for da whole week.
well well. da term tests are over. n boy were they S U C K Y. im so goin to F A I L. yes. i really L O V E term tests. but love fades. so im glad that da tests are over. P L E A S E lemmi retain so that i can undo all my mistakes, so that i can go for all my lectures and finally to do better in my tests n exams. yesssss. P L E A S E !!!!
ive been hooked on Ragnorak Online [ro] lately. i cant stop playin it. all i do is play all day. especially since its da one week hols for me. play play and more play. ro was my life. till today. aiya. da account expired la please. must pay. but baby n i are broke broke and more broke. so as da story goes - im bored like hell just cos i cant play. that so duh la please. online games are just too addictive. my advise is - don start if u don haf spare cash.
i just cant get enuff of shopping. all i tink about now is bags. shoes. clothes. mainly shopping la huh. aiya. madess la please. don say le. i just wan everything i set my eyes on. okay okay. not everythin. but everything nice that i like. ho-hum. not much of a difference. but hu cares. cant get them anyway.
D E A D .
**so far gone
@ 01:12
@ 01:12
Monday, January 24, 2005
i love this hi-dunk please. n ive never seen anyone wearing it. till today. this blardy guy was wearing it infront of me. on PURPOSE. okay. maybe not. but den again. im still irritated with huever this kuku may be. baaa.
**so far gone
@ 00:23
@ 00:23
i wan so many tings. yet i have so lil money.
i have shopped seriously for 3 days. n i bought a horrifying number of clothes.
ONE pure milk shirt please. ONE!!! imagine that. n its a black shirt. meaning i cant wear it for CNY. wonderful. just wonderful.
today. my 3rd day of shopping. totally unsuccessful. i wanted to buy this purplish skirt. but couldnt really make up my mind if i really wanted that. so i din buy it. i saw a tube dress. tried it. n i din like it. i saw da wristband i liked, but i guess da black was sold out. so i moved on. i went here n der n everywhere. but all i saw, i din like. hmm.
i went to levis. wanted to buy da jeans i always wanted. but left da shop empty handed. i loved it. but i din get it. dats so HUH?!
money was kind of an issue today. but it wasnt really wat was stopping me.
somehow. i din like da tings being sold in da shops (except for da jeans), i prefered da tings pple were already wearing. ridiculous pls. lemmi gif u some examples. i saw this malay girl, n i totally loved da pants she was wearing. n der was this girl wearing this blue skirt, i wanted it! n another girl wearing this fitting berms, n it looked so good. wats wif me.
i wanna get my tongue pierced too. sammie's blog n pictures tempt me so bad. n i wanna pierce my naval too. i wan a new handphone. i wan my $159 crumpler bag. i wan everythin i wan!!! grrrr. i need money badly. i needa work. like NOW. intro me work pls. someone. anyone.
i guess ive decided not to buy anything for CNY. i can make do with watever clothes i have. well. uhm. depends. if i cant find anything i like. then this shall be watever it is. if i do find something i like. den maybe.
peace.
i have shopped seriously for 3 days. n i bought a horrifying number of clothes.
ONE pure milk shirt please. ONE!!! imagine that. n its a black shirt. meaning i cant wear it for CNY. wonderful. just wonderful.
today. my 3rd day of shopping. totally unsuccessful. i wanted to buy this purplish skirt. but couldnt really make up my mind if i really wanted that. so i din buy it. i saw a tube dress. tried it. n i din like it. i saw da wristband i liked, but i guess da black was sold out. so i moved on. i went here n der n everywhere. but all i saw, i din like. hmm.
i went to levis. wanted to buy da jeans i always wanted. but left da shop empty handed. i loved it. but i din get it. dats so HUH?!
money was kind of an issue today. but it wasnt really wat was stopping me.
somehow. i din like da tings being sold in da shops (except for da jeans), i prefered da tings pple were already wearing. ridiculous pls. lemmi gif u some examples. i saw this malay girl, n i totally loved da pants she was wearing. n der was this girl wearing this blue skirt, i wanted it! n another girl wearing this fitting berms, n it looked so good. wats wif me.
i wanna get my tongue pierced too. sammie's blog n pictures tempt me so bad. n i wanna pierce my naval too. i wan a new handphone. i wan my $159 crumpler bag. i wan everythin i wan!!! grrrr. i need money badly. i needa work. like NOW. intro me work pls. someone. anyone.
i guess ive decided not to buy anything for CNY. i can make do with watever clothes i have. well. uhm. depends. if i cant find anything i like. then this shall be watever it is. if i do find something i like. den maybe.
peace.
**so far gone
@ 00:17
@ 00:17
Monday, January 17, 2005
cant put how im feeling exactly into words. this picture best describes. if u don exactly understand wat da pic shows, its kinda down and dirty and misunderstood and a bit afraid as well. i dunno. im just feeling so like da dog.
**so far gone
@ 00:59
@ 00:59
quarrels between a couple.
so almost everyone says that it makes da bond between da couple stronger. is dat really true? has anyone ever tot otherwise?
come to tink of it. how can something like quarrelling make ur bond of love any stronger? doesnt it occur to any one that every time a quarrel comes about, whether its settled or not, whether we forget or not, da quarrel still replaces some love with hurt or disappointment or anger or watever?
wont der come a time when all da love gets replaced by other tings? or is it like most say, love knows no limits?
quarrels are such cliches.
sigh.
im supposed to be focusing on my term tests, which are starting TMR. but somehow, im just so not here. i don even noe where i m now. lost it seems. back to da old kinda days? my test are tmr n i noe nothing.
"that not everything is gonna be da way u tink it outta be,
seems like everytime i try to make it rite, it all comes down all me,
please say honestly u wont give up on me,
n i shall believe."
yahz. watever.
im happy.
so just go away.
so almost everyone says that it makes da bond between da couple stronger. is dat really true? has anyone ever tot otherwise?
come to tink of it. how can something like quarrelling make ur bond of love any stronger? doesnt it occur to any one that every time a quarrel comes about, whether its settled or not, whether we forget or not, da quarrel still replaces some love with hurt or disappointment or anger or watever?
wont der come a time when all da love gets replaced by other tings? or is it like most say, love knows no limits?
quarrels are such cliches.
sigh.
im supposed to be focusing on my term tests, which are starting TMR. but somehow, im just so not here. i don even noe where i m now. lost it seems. back to da old kinda days? my test are tmr n i noe nothing.
"that not everything is gonna be da way u tink it outta be,
seems like everytime i try to make it rite, it all comes down all me,
please say honestly u wont give up on me,
n i shall believe."
yahz. watever.
im happy.
so just go away.
**so far gone
@ 00:32
@ 00:32
Saturday, January 08, 2005
sigh.
so everyone seems to be growing up. its obvious by da way dey speak. no need for analysing machines, i can tell relying only on my senses that everyone around me has matured.
so over the years what have i become n what have i learnt? m i on the way to becoming da adult i always wanted to be? or m i still acting like a baby.
funny how i always try to be someone im not. funny how i always make da wrong decisions.
im so childish at times. i still havent learnt exactly how to be responsible for my actions. i never ever tink before i do something. its kinda stupid how i always regret da tings i do.
its sick how i always expect someone to be der for me all da time. i wouldnt rate myself da best of frens either. der haf been so many der for me, yet mayb ive taken it all for granted. im not very sure of it myself. but mayb thats just da way its been.
wat do i really care about? myself? i don tink so. my loved ones? well. yeah. to quite a major extent. my future? so i do care. but i just aint doing anything to show i care. so wat if i noe i care. der wouldnt even be a future for me to care about if i dont start doing anything about my life now.
its silly how i can always think bout such stuff, yet not do anything bout it later. actions speak louder den words. this i noe, yet i cant relate myself to it.
when im with da crowd, i just wished i was alone. when im alone, i just wished for someone to be der. wat do i wan really. i cant even make up my mind. so i always talk bout regretting this shit n that. but come to tink of it, im not even sure of wat i wan, hu m i to noe anything about regret?
dear god:
i pray that u would make me a better person. to do da tings that are right. i pray that u show me wat i can really be. help me make decisions that r honest n beneficial to da people arnd me. please take good care of everyone that i have forsaken, especially my mum n dad. pls give me da determination to go for all da lectures that i have to go for. pls open my heart n teach me wat love is. dear lord, please bring me closer to u. i need u badly now. i wanna thank you for all da wonderful tings in life and also thank you for all da bad tings too. for without da bad, i wouldnt learn to appreciate n get stronger. thank you so much for everything. pls bless all.
in jesus' name i pray,
amen.
so everyone seems to be growing up. its obvious by da way dey speak. no need for analysing machines, i can tell relying only on my senses that everyone around me has matured.
so over the years what have i become n what have i learnt? m i on the way to becoming da adult i always wanted to be? or m i still acting like a baby.
funny how i always try to be someone im not. funny how i always make da wrong decisions.
im so childish at times. i still havent learnt exactly how to be responsible for my actions. i never ever tink before i do something. its kinda stupid how i always regret da tings i do.
its sick how i always expect someone to be der for me all da time. i wouldnt rate myself da best of frens either. der haf been so many der for me, yet mayb ive taken it all for granted. im not very sure of it myself. but mayb thats just da way its been.
wat do i really care about? myself? i don tink so. my loved ones? well. yeah. to quite a major extent. my future? so i do care. but i just aint doing anything to show i care. so wat if i noe i care. der wouldnt even be a future for me to care about if i dont start doing anything about my life now.
its silly how i can always think bout such stuff, yet not do anything bout it later. actions speak louder den words. this i noe, yet i cant relate myself to it.
when im with da crowd, i just wished i was alone. when im alone, i just wished for someone to be der. wat do i wan really. i cant even make up my mind. so i always talk bout regretting this shit n that. but come to tink of it, im not even sure of wat i wan, hu m i to noe anything about regret?
dear god:
i pray that u would make me a better person. to do da tings that are right. i pray that u show me wat i can really be. help me make decisions that r honest n beneficial to da people arnd me. please take good care of everyone that i have forsaken, especially my mum n dad. pls give me da determination to go for all da lectures that i have to go for. pls open my heart n teach me wat love is. dear lord, please bring me closer to u. i need u badly now. i wanna thank you for all da wonderful tings in life and also thank you for all da bad tings too. for without da bad, i wouldnt learn to appreciate n get stronger. thank you so much for everything. pls bless all.
in jesus' name i pray,
amen.
**so far gone
@ 01:39
@ 01:39
well. let me see. urms on tuesday, i went to school at arnd 12? yeah. had maths quiz pls. i left 9 marks blank. n da quiz is 25 marks in total. so to pass is already a blessing. i had econs and creative writing later, but me n don decided to skip both of that n go shopping instead. so. i bought a pair of shorts from u2 and 2 tops from fox-women. basically. i spent all my pocket money for da week yes. after that went to baby's house for dinner and gaming session.
on wednesday, i went to school at 11. had cell bio tutorial. and later it was da faggot's lab time. darn ass. he's damn sickening i tell u. every single week he wears purple. n his actions. man. we all know he's gay, so actually he doesnt haf to try that hard to convince us that he is pls. spent da rest of da day at home. went swimming and sadly did not get tann.
thursday. best day of da week so far. missed da whole day of school. was KINDA not feeling well pls. had mc. so i missed da HPI quiz thankew. went to baby's in da evening. dinner n more gaming sessions again.
today. went to school at 2. skipped all of da morning lectures. i feel sicker den yesterday pls. im aching all over. and i just cant stop having goosebumps da whole freaking day PLS! it fels terribly terrible. i had dem when i felt cold and i had them when i felt normal n i had them when i felt hot! bloody lil clingy tings. watever. i was just zoinking out most of da time. more concentrated with my aching body with all da goosebumps den da tutor.
so i had my demostration TEST today. wat nonsense rite. a demo test pls. imagine me giving a demo on how to make ur own DIY perfume. pls la huh. just so wrong. it was quite bad. i was just doin fine at first. but later i felt like da teacher was writing down too many things that i started panicking. stupid yes?! omg.
she asked me this question : if i wanna put colour in my perfume, how do i do it?
>> alamak. y she ask me this rite?! everyone else before me got repeated questions!! she reuse all da questions. but when she came to me, she asked me this. wat nonsense PLS!!! i just answer with rubbish can. shitty.
er. moving on. had yoshi beef bowl for dinner. oooo. havent eaten it for ages, just tasted so good. n more gaming n gaming n gaming at baby's.
anyways. im so hook on this particular game pls. katamari dimension. hahaha. its a game about u making a big big big big big sized ball out of all da items u can find on earth to become stars in space. den this biggy ball would be put up by da cosmo king. LOL! its darn fun pls. so so so addictive. really cute.
anyhow. im like watching my hammies run da wheel like mad pls. dey look like their training demselves for da "hammies 5 km marathon". n garfield's wheel is like especially small, so she keeps sliding off da wheel. n she'll look arnd s if something or someone pulled her off. hahahaha. my cutie lil pies pls.
seems like i havent been talking much to jassie or vivien or anyone else lately. hope to catch up with everyone soon.
hmm. less stressed up now. altho my HPI test is on monday n my cell bio test is on wednesday. to add on, i have term tests da week after next. bloody fast pls. i need to start studying or at least start filling up my empty lecture notes. baaaaaa. running against time. wish i could plan my time better.
still amazed that its 2005 yet everything still feels so 2004. nothing has changed.
i guess thats all. since hammies are falling asleep, i shld too.
on wednesday, i went to school at 11. had cell bio tutorial. and later it was da faggot's lab time. darn ass. he's damn sickening i tell u. every single week he wears purple. n his actions. man. we all know he's gay, so actually he doesnt haf to try that hard to convince us that he is pls. spent da rest of da day at home. went swimming and sadly did not get tann.
thursday. best day of da week so far. missed da whole day of school. was KINDA not feeling well pls. had mc. so i missed da HPI quiz thankew. went to baby's in da evening. dinner n more gaming sessions again.
today. went to school at 2. skipped all of da morning lectures. i feel sicker den yesterday pls. im aching all over. and i just cant stop having goosebumps da whole freaking day PLS! it fels terribly terrible. i had dem when i felt cold and i had them when i felt normal n i had them when i felt hot! bloody lil clingy tings. watever. i was just zoinking out most of da time. more concentrated with my aching body with all da goosebumps den da tutor.
so i had my demostration TEST today. wat nonsense rite. a demo test pls. imagine me giving a demo on how to make ur own DIY perfume. pls la huh. just so wrong. it was quite bad. i was just doin fine at first. but later i felt like da teacher was writing down too many things that i started panicking. stupid yes?! omg.
she asked me this question : if i wanna put colour in my perfume, how do i do it?
>> alamak. y she ask me this rite?! everyone else before me got repeated questions!! she reuse all da questions. but when she came to me, she asked me this. wat nonsense PLS!!! i just answer with rubbish can. shitty.
er. moving on. had yoshi beef bowl for dinner. oooo. havent eaten it for ages, just tasted so good. n more gaming n gaming n gaming at baby's.
anyways. im so hook on this particular game pls. katamari dimension. hahaha. its a game about u making a big big big big big sized ball out of all da items u can find on earth to become stars in space. den this biggy ball would be put up by da cosmo king. LOL! its darn fun pls. so so so addictive. really cute.
anyhow. im like watching my hammies run da wheel like mad pls. dey look like their training demselves for da "hammies 5 km marathon". n garfield's wheel is like especially small, so she keeps sliding off da wheel. n she'll look arnd s if something or someone pulled her off. hahahaha. my cutie lil pies pls.
seems like i havent been talking much to jassie or vivien or anyone else lately. hope to catch up with everyone soon.
hmm. less stressed up now. altho my HPI test is on monday n my cell bio test is on wednesday. to add on, i have term tests da week after next. bloody fast pls. i need to start studying or at least start filling up my empty lecture notes. baaaaaa. running against time. wish i could plan my time better.
still amazed that its 2005 yet everything still feels so 2004. nothing has changed.
i guess thats all. since hammies are falling asleep, i shld too.
**so far gone
@ 00:11
@ 00:11
Monday, January 03, 2005
im like highly irritable these days pls. just feel like sleeping n never waking up. life is a routine. how interesting can it really get?
hmm. so der are all these things dat i really wanna do. den again. where m i gonna find da time to do them? seems like i dont even have enough time to sleep pls. or m i just sleeping too much? watever it is. its not right. everything aint right. nothing is working for me can.
maybe if i cut my hair, things would look slightly different. or would that only be in da angle of da mirror?
so bored. so broke. so gonna fail my tests. so unable to meet da assesment datelines. PLS!
holidays. damn. da hols r like ages from now. but i seriously need da holidays. yes. i noe its only been a month of school. n considering that i havent been to most lectures, wats all da fuss about rite? well. i really seriously dont noe. everything is just bad yes. so i tink dey are. so i make dem out to be. seems like its either my imagination is damn good. or everything is REALLY going bad.
boo! er. okay. watever. aiya. maybe if i tell myself tings are not that bad den dey wont be that bad. baaaa. like hu m i kidding pls.
nonsense nonsense nonsense. n here i go blabbering. enjoyin every stupid minute of it. thankew very much. my blog is rocking with activity.
time to shut up. god. have 8 oclock lesson tmr. i loveeee tp pls. tp allows me to haf a healthy lifestyle. a wake-up-early-sleep-early lifestyle. endurance 8 to 6 oclock day. grrrr. fiak my new year resolution of going for every single lecture. i'll tink bout it when i get up tmr yes. which depends wat time i get up.
zzzzzz.
hmm. so der are all these things dat i really wanna do. den again. where m i gonna find da time to do them? seems like i dont even have enough time to sleep pls. or m i just sleeping too much? watever it is. its not right. everything aint right. nothing is working for me can.
maybe if i cut my hair, things would look slightly different. or would that only be in da angle of da mirror?
so bored. so broke. so gonna fail my tests. so unable to meet da assesment datelines. PLS!
holidays. damn. da hols r like ages from now. but i seriously need da holidays. yes. i noe its only been a month of school. n considering that i havent been to most lectures, wats all da fuss about rite? well. i really seriously dont noe. everything is just bad yes. so i tink dey are. so i make dem out to be. seems like its either my imagination is damn good. or everything is REALLY going bad.
boo! er. okay. watever. aiya. maybe if i tell myself tings are not that bad den dey wont be that bad. baaaa. like hu m i kidding pls.
nonsense nonsense nonsense. n here i go blabbering. enjoyin every stupid minute of it. thankew very much. my blog is rocking with activity.
time to shut up. god. have 8 oclock lesson tmr. i loveeee tp pls. tp allows me to haf a healthy lifestyle. a wake-up-early-sleep-early lifestyle. endurance 8 to 6 oclock day. grrrr. fiak my new year resolution of going for every single lecture. i'll tink bout it when i get up tmr yes. which depends wat time i get up.
zzzzzz.
**so far gone
@ 23:32
@ 23:32
Saturday, December 25, 2004
do u noe how its like to just feel like crying all day?
how u stare away n tink bout someting happy, yet have tears fill ur eyes all da same?
do u noe how its like to wait for a fone call all day?
how u long to hear da words that in da end are never said?
do u noe how its like to breathe disappointment from da air?
how u imagined it to be, and have it all dashed within da next minute?
do u noe how its like to sit all alone?
how u wished u were somewhere so much closer to him/her?
do u noe how its like to type out wat u feel?
how u tink bout wat to type as tears just roll down ur cheeks?
do u?
how u stare away n tink bout someting happy, yet have tears fill ur eyes all da same?
do u noe how its like to wait for a fone call all day?
how u long to hear da words that in da end are never said?
do u noe how its like to breathe disappointment from da air?
how u imagined it to be, and have it all dashed within da next minute?
do u noe how its like to sit all alone?
how u wished u were somewhere so much closer to him/her?
do u noe how its like to type out wat u feel?
how u tink bout wat to type as tears just roll down ur cheeks?
do u?
**so far gone
@ 03:08
@ 03:08
Thursday, December 23, 2004
i fucking miss secondary school.
i even more fuckingly miss da tribe.
i miss laughing at nothing with frens.
i miss recess breaks.
i miss walking slowly in da corridors.
i miss playing in da toilet.
i miss bitching sessions in class.
i miss taking photos in school.
i miss hanging in orchard with da tribe.
i miss all da ban mian sessions with da tribe.
seriously.
sigh.
i miss working at da old coffee club.
i miss blasting da music during closings.
i miss all da fun cleaning up after work.
i miss big brother danny n joe n celeste n adelynn n aunty.
i miss feeling scared when i was alone on level 2.
i miss all da suppers after work.
im sad.
im empty.
im dead.
i even more fuckingly miss da tribe.
i miss laughing at nothing with frens.
i miss recess breaks.
i miss walking slowly in da corridors.
i miss playing in da toilet.
i miss bitching sessions in class.
i miss taking photos in school.
i miss hanging in orchard with da tribe.
i miss all da ban mian sessions with da tribe.
seriously.
sigh.
i miss working at da old coffee club.
i miss blasting da music during closings.
i miss all da fun cleaning up after work.
i miss big brother danny n joe n celeste n adelynn n aunty.
i miss feeling scared when i was alone on level 2.
i miss all da suppers after work.
im sad.
im empty.
im dead.
**so far gone
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