If you fill in the blanks those are the words that came out of my mouth about 3:40p.m. this afternoon as I was on my way to a local coffee shop.
I was driving East on a four lane road that was mildly slush covered when a westbound minivan spun out of control about 5 car lengths in front of me, did a complete 360, crossed three empty lanes, hit a curb, then a guardrail, then rolled 4-5 times down a 100 foot embankment, towards a partly frozen lake.
Had it been 30 seconds later she would have hit me instead of the guardrail.
I immediately pull over, pull my emergency break, hit my flashers and got out of the car. I ran over to the edge of the embankment and saw the car on its wheels. I ran back to my car popped the trunk and got my ski patrol pack with all my bandages and emergency care supplies. A car pulled up behind me and asked if I called 911. I said I hadn't and I took off running down the snow covered slope not knowing if I was going to have to jump into the lake to get someone out of the car or not. I was terrified as to what I was going to find. Was it a mom that had just picked up her kids from school? Did someone get ejected from the car? Were they in the lake? How badly were they hurt?
As I approached the van I could see one passenger bent over in the car. I didn't see anyone else. There was a trail of debris all the way down the hill and glass was everywhere. As I got closer I asked the lady if she was okay as I came around the smoking engine compartment of the van. She was able to get her door open and I asked her a few questions as I quickly did a once over for any major bleeding or obvious injuries. Upon my first glance I didn't find any major injuries and she didn't complain of hitting her head or hurting her neck at all. By this time she was fully out of the car. In the back of my head I was worried that she was in shock and had other injuries or possible neck injuries that could cause big problems. I was also concerned with the smoke that was coming out of the engine compartment.
I asked if she was okay to walk up the hill and I helped her get back up to the road. When she got to the top and looked back at her car she starting staring at the wreckage and uttering her disbelief. At this point a nurse and another man were next to us as I had the lady sit down in my car. I knew she was in shock and I didn't know if she had any other injuries that needed to be addressed. I got my pack out, explained that I was a member of the ski patrol and asked if it was okay to check her out further. She had no head or neck pain, no back pain, no shoulder pain, nothing in her chest or abdomen, no pain in her legs or feet. The only thing I found was a small cut on her left arm that had already stopped bleeding by the time I found it. I cleaned up the cut on her arm and wiped the blood off her hands and fingers.
One little scratch. That's it.
She was still in obvious shock so I had her sit in my car while we waited for the sheriff to show up. We kept talking to her and tried to get her calmed down. With time she did. I kept asking if she had any pain that she was starting to feel knowing that with the initial shock wearing off she might be feeling the pain now.
Nothing.
The sheriff arrived on scene after about 15 minutes and we all had to wait for him to finish his report before we could go. Once the sheriff arrived she got out of my car and started walking around and was much calmer and relaxed by this point. We were all completely amazed that she rolled her van at least four times down that hill and only had one little cut on her arm. Not to mention how close she was to that lake. Things could have been much worse than what they actually were.
After I got back in my car and started driving away is when it hit me. I started shaking and replaying the entire thing in my head. Ski patrol training does a lot as far as teaching you how to deal with the injuries, it does a great job of teaching you how to prioritize who's the most critical if there are multiple patients, and it does a pretty good job teaching you how to control your emotions when you're actually on scene. The one thing that ski patrol training tries to give you but cannot completely is that adrenaline rush feeling.
We are tested in every possible scenario and all environments but when it comes down to it, training is still training. We know when we are finished with the training exercise everyone will be okay and will go home safe and sound.
No training can give you the true feeling of working on an accident scene where you don't know if the person you are working on is going to live or die. When it comes down to it the only way you can truly understand how you are going to act as a rescuer is to learn from the experiences you have working on a scene. Everyone tells me that with time and more practice my confidence will increase and I will learn to control my own emotions so I can focus fully on the work that needs to be done. I guess all I can do tonight is be thankful that first off this lady was okay and secondly be thankful for the fact that the "test" I was given tonight looked a lot worse than it actually was.
Wow...