First Things:
DAVID in all caps looks like an upside down word.
My inner clock is messed up. I feel like a really long time ago.
I like watching things blow up.
The other day I was talking to a guy who said he was smart, but then qualified it by saying he read some article that said smart people are less happy than dumb people. I could just tell the whole time he was trying to compliment me to cover for letting the cat out of the bag that he is some kind of genius. I thought that was kind of a weird thing for him to even bring up. Because I don't care that you're depressed, you just called me dumb to my face.
I am not posting as much since I have no home computer. OK, I sort of have one, it's broken though, so I have to shine a flashlight on the screen to see anything, and then just barely, and it's hard to find the cursor or watch videos. It works for the basic things, but it's pretty humiliating. Being this kind of poor is weird? But I guess it will give me character and shiny hair and make boys like me.
I have to buy a computer though because I have got something on my burners. A SOUP OF CREATIVENESS. ON MY BURNERS.
I am currently at work at it's the worst. For some reason Jeopardy is the hardest thing I've ever written. Though it's possible my editor just bites.
I finished this survey at 9! and he is still taking his sweet time giving me edits! IT'S 2AM.
Last thing: Writing trivia questions about a trivia show is the definition of something so stupid I don't even know.
14 May 2010
06 May 2010
05 May 2010
Dear Future self,
I hope this finds you well.
I have more hopes.
I hope, by the time you get this, you'll have cleaned up the bedroom and paid those bills you've been putting off. I hope you've been ok to just eat and not be a crazy person. I hope you've been more normal in certain ways and less normal in others.
And the laughing thing, I hope you live there like I do.
I hope you are doing something in exchange for money that makes you happy and feel fulfilled. I hope you are doing things for other people who need help, and that you can speak French and Spanish.
I hope you are going places that you want to go to, like Norway and Alaska and The Cloisters.
I hope you are spending time with people who are cool and support you and love you and who are totally into you loving them back, whole hog.
I hope cats are still cute in your time! Because, jeez!
I hope your body is cool and moves nicely and that you are ok with it.
I hope those things I am worried about turn out to not be a big deal in your time.
Things are ok here, I just hope things get even better by the time you happen.
ok, anyway. If you ever find a a mode of transport to come visit the past, let me know. We could make toms of money. Otherwise, I'll see ya when I see ya.
love,
past self
I hope this finds you well.
I have more hopes.
I hope, by the time you get this, you'll have cleaned up the bedroom and paid those bills you've been putting off. I hope you've been ok to just eat and not be a crazy person. I hope you've been more normal in certain ways and less normal in others.
And the laughing thing, I hope you live there like I do.
I hope you are doing something in exchange for money that makes you happy and feel fulfilled. I hope you are doing things for other people who need help, and that you can speak French and Spanish.
I hope you are going places that you want to go to, like Norway and Alaska and The Cloisters.
I hope you are spending time with people who are cool and support you and love you and who are totally into you loving them back, whole hog.
I hope cats are still cute in your time! Because, jeez!
I hope your body is cool and moves nicely and that you are ok with it.
I hope those things I am worried about turn out to not be a big deal in your time.
Things are ok here, I just hope things get even better by the time you happen.
ok, anyway. If you ever find a a mode of transport to come visit the past, let me know. We could make toms of money. Otherwise, I'll see ya when I see ya.
love,
past self
29 April 2010
28 April 2010
Bro, I'm sleep!
Last night I worked on a NASCAR race at Talladega, and then Rupaul's Drag Race. One was all "He was up in his bumper" and "he pulled out fast", and then the other one was a drag competition. LOLZ.
My biological clock is completely farked. After more than a year of staying up until 3am and then sleeping until I am done, when I try to get up at a specific time, it is the hardest thing I've ever done. It's a ridiculous thing to complain about, I guess, but in my dreams I'd be getting my work outs in the early morning before work. Pipedreamtown.
Last night I worked on a NASCAR race at Talladega, and then Rupaul's Drag Race. One was all "He was up in his bumper" and "he pulled out fast", and then the other one was a drag competition. LOLZ.
My biological clock is completely farked. After more than a year of staying up until 3am and then sleeping until I am done, when I try to get up at a specific time, it is the hardest thing I've ever done. It's a ridiculous thing to complain about, I guess, but in my dreams I'd be getting my work outs in the early morning before work. Pipedreamtown.
26 April 2010
I currently have too many jobs.
I am trying to quit my cleaning job, but I don't have the heart. I tried to prepare them for a transition, so that I can work full time during the day and they can work with one of my unemployed friends. I prepared them, with the occasional mention. Then an official email, and a list of friends who need the dough. Instead, they want me to come on weekends, or every other Saturday, and work 10 hours if that's what it takes.
I also have this TV workjob which, while lonely as hell at times like this, is not the worst thing I've ever had to do. I just wish it wasn't at night when I am trying to do shows and rehearsals and classes and see movies and drink Dos Equis with single men at an outdoor cafe.
I love darkroastedblend
I am trying to quit my cleaning job, but I don't have the heart. I tried to prepare them for a transition, so that I can work full time during the day and they can work with one of my unemployed friends. I prepared them, with the occasional mention. Then an official email, and a list of friends who need the dough. Instead, they want me to come on weekends, or every other Saturday, and work 10 hours if that's what it takes.
I also have this TV workjob which, while lonely as hell at times like this, is not the worst thing I've ever had to do. I just wish it wasn't at night when I am trying to do shows and rehearsals and classes and see movies and drink Dos Equis with single men at an outdoor cafe.
I love darkroastedblend
25 April 2010
so, guys!
I guess I am back to posting more than 140 characters of tipsy comments . I like it.
Today I taught the improvs to a tight groups of promising peeps, had a tuna melt, ran to a show. Went to the boring bar, then another bar, attempted heading to a third location, but when a guy you're with voms in 2 consecutive cabs, you have to let it go. I can party, you guys, but bodies need tending to.
I just ate a whole jar of salsa I made a few days ago. it's like, 10 calories so whatever and also it's fine so don't worry about it.
I guess I am back to posting more than 140 characters of tipsy comments . I like it.
Today I taught the improvs to a tight groups of promising peeps, had a tuna melt, ran to a show. Went to the boring bar, then another bar, attempted heading to a third location, but when a guy you're with voms in 2 consecutive cabs, you have to let it go. I can party, you guys, but bodies need tending to.
I just ate a whole jar of salsa I made a few days ago. it's like, 10 calories so whatever and also it's fine so don't worry about it.
24 April 2010
Ok, so whatever. I missed this and didn't realize it. so here is what I should have done in January.
Some of this stuff might apply for 2010, because my mind is going. Whatever.
1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
remained unemployed for almost the entire year, except for the last week, when I got a job watching TV.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I lost 30 pounds!
and yes-my resolutions this year are as follows:
lose 50 more
work out 5x a week
pay off my debt
feel good about myself
do a job that is a good one that I like and am good at.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
MY BROBRO had a peach named Ruby! she is THE BOMB!
4. Did anyone close to you die?
We lost a family friend in flight 3407, and my cousins father in law. Not close close, though, but it is still sad.
5. What countries did you visit?
Toronotville, Canadatown
6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
I am sooo ready for love. Seriously. So joyful and crazy and like, not desperate, just full of like, i don't know. Passion? I feel like a goddess sometimes and it would be so cool to share it all over somebody. So yeah, that.
And upper arms that don't make me ashamed.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I grew up a lot, I think.
9. What was your biggest failure?
No sex for the calendar year. (possible win)
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
. . . no. Weird.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
I got some on-sale asics at the mall back home. they have served me well.
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
This answer will always be "my friends", because they are better than anything I could ask for. But also my parents have helped me out financially this year which has been like a blessing from the Big Man himself.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
I mean, this is a dumb question. Because I will not be honest here.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Where it was supposed to.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The Baldwins, fixing my body.
16. A quick mix that will always remind you of 2008?
Phoenix, Lisztomania
Mat and Kim, Daylight
single ladies
all Bill Withers songs
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier by a mile
b) thinner or fatter? thinner
c) richer or poorer? FLAT BROKE.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Career minded stuff.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
panic attacks.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Spent is with my sister mostly butin Buffalo with family. Best, per usual.
21. How will you be spending New Years?
singing an impromptu 90's medley with the greatest people ever at the greatest party of my life.
22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
dipped my toe.
23. How many one-night stands?
sex-free.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Buffy again, and Glee
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
commuters and gum-chewers.
26. What was the best book you read?
Day of the Triffids
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UJKythlXAIY
(technically 2010, but who is counting? oh, you? ok.)
28. What did you want and get?
A whole mess of time off, a little better at teaching hopefully, perspective.
29. What did you want and not get?
an agent, my own computer.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Paranormal Activity, Time Crimes
31. What did you do on your birthday?
Vomited. Oh.
32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I don't know? Maybe a vacation? I spent a lot of 2009 in a panic attack, so maybe not doing that would have improved my quality of life.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
"Does this hoodie go with everything? because I am a 12-year-old boy."
34. What kept you sane?
Kittens, improv, tweeters, working out and sleeping.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Oh funny! This used to be my bag and now not at ALL.
Though, Christina Hendricks. while I am not really that gay at all, I would. for that.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Health Care reform! YES PLEASE SAYS MY LACK OF A REAL JOB AND VESTED INTEREST IN LIVING
37. Who did you miss?
Outgrabes, bastart, mikegarvey
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Campbell, Siddell, Shepherd. My students.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009
Happiness is a choice.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
from 'third planet'
"your heart felt good
it was dripping pitch and made of wood,
and your hands and knees
felt cold and wet on the grass beneath."
Some of this stuff might apply for 2010, because my mind is going. Whatever.
1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
remained unemployed for almost the entire year, except for the last week, when I got a job watching TV.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I lost 30 pounds!
and yes-my resolutions this year are as follows:
lose 50 more
work out 5x a week
pay off my debt
feel good about myself
do a job that is a good one that I like and am good at.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
MY BROBRO had a peach named Ruby! she is THE BOMB!
4. Did anyone close to you die?
We lost a family friend in flight 3407, and my cousins father in law. Not close close, though, but it is still sad.
5. What countries did you visit?
Toronotville, Canadatown
6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
I am sooo ready for love. Seriously. So joyful and crazy and like, not desperate, just full of like, i don't know. Passion? I feel like a goddess sometimes and it would be so cool to share it all over somebody. So yeah, that.
And upper arms that don't make me ashamed.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I grew up a lot, I think.
9. What was your biggest failure?
No sex for the calendar year. (possible win)
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
. . . no. Weird.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
I got some on-sale asics at the mall back home. they have served me well.
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
This answer will always be "my friends", because they are better than anything I could ask for. But also my parents have helped me out financially this year which has been like a blessing from the Big Man himself.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
I mean, this is a dumb question. Because I will not be honest here.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Where it was supposed to.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The Baldwins, fixing my body.
16. A quick mix that will always remind you of 2008?
Phoenix, Lisztomania
Mat and Kim, Daylight
single ladies
all Bill Withers songs
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier by a mile
b) thinner or fatter? thinner
c) richer or poorer? FLAT BROKE.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Career minded stuff.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
panic attacks.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Spent is with my sister mostly butin Buffalo with family. Best, per usual.
21. How will you be spending New Years?
singing an impromptu 90's medley with the greatest people ever at the greatest party of my life.
22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
dipped my toe.
23. How many one-night stands?
sex-free.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Buffy again, and Glee
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
commuters and gum-chewers.
26. What was the best book you read?
Day of the Triffids
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UJKythlXAIY
(technically 2010, but who is counting? oh, you? ok.)
28. What did you want and get?
A whole mess of time off, a little better at teaching hopefully, perspective.
29. What did you want and not get?
an agent, my own computer.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Paranormal Activity, Time Crimes
31. What did you do on your birthday?
Vomited. Oh.
32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I don't know? Maybe a vacation? I spent a lot of 2009 in a panic attack, so maybe not doing that would have improved my quality of life.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
"Does this hoodie go with everything? because I am a 12-year-old boy."
34. What kept you sane?
Kittens, improv, tweeters, working out and sleeping.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Oh funny! This used to be my bag and now not at ALL.
Though, Christina Hendricks. while I am not really that gay at all, I would. for that.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Health Care reform! YES PLEASE SAYS MY LACK OF A REAL JOB AND VESTED INTEREST IN LIVING
37. Who did you miss?
Outgrabes, bastart, mikegarvey
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Campbell, Siddell, Shepherd. My students.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009
Happiness is a choice.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
from 'third planet'
"your heart felt good
it was dripping pitch and made of wood,
and your hands and knees
felt cold and wet on the grass beneath."
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