I discovered something new, not the least amazing, about myself.

I get over someone quite easily.

Call it heartless, emotionless or anything, once I chose to shut the feeling down, it didn't take long before it's gone completely.

Take my most recent..... endeavor as example. I had high hope for it to work out well, I put almost everything in it in such short time but it still crumbled. How long it took me to get over him? Less than a week. Some may say because it's still new and nothing much yet but I knew my feeling towards him was genuine.

I reckon been an avid listener is not a bad thing after all. As I listened to people's problem and breakup, I prepared myself to face such mishap so that when the cruel truth bite me, I was ready. I did fumble but the recovery was sooner than expected.

The other reason was because of a wisdom I got from 'Tuesday with Morrie'. When been asked whether he felt sad because of the predicament he's in due to the ALS, he said he will but no more than few minutes in the morning. Give urself a good cry if u need it but then concentrate on all good things still in life. I cried for one night because of him but that's it. He doesn't deserve anymore than that.

Should be meeting my three weedevils tomorrow but need to postpone it to next month. Can't wait to see them =)

"Love wins. Love always win."

Love,
me

A very strange dream last night(monday night)

The beginning was a little bit blur as I tend to forgot detail of the dream once I woken up but towards the end, the memory got stronger. Was walking towards toilet when I realized the guy in front of me was from my gym. 30-ish, nice body, so-so face, 180cm because my head is around his ear.

Got into the toilet. He went to the cubicle while I headed to the urinal, something that never happen in real life. I have never even once in my life pee at urinal, always use the cubicle. While was finishing my 'work', felt like someone at my back. Turned around and saw him....with his shirt unbuttoned @.@

Totally unexpected. After that, he said something in Mandarin. Shook my head, he repeated the same sentence and I still can't get it. Then he uttered "Can't speak chinese? No wonder don't understand." DAMN! Even in my dream, people mistaken me as chinese ar >_<

Pulled me into a cubicle, closed the door and zap! I was back to bitter reality. Fuck la, it always end when the fun began. Kinky/hot/wet dream is quite rare for me and it never finishes. Think the dream reached such absurdity because of my abstinence from masturbate. Yup, been 3 weeks already.

Ok, time to hit the sack. Exhausted from helping other with his assignment while mine...feel so lazy to do it la. maybe tomorrow morning XD

Love,
me

Is today Friday or has the weekend come earlier than expected?!

Managed to do nothing today. All because of just one mishap, unrepaired bike. Damn u! My brother didn't park it properly and it fell down yesterday evening. Broke the handbrake and dislocated the front part a bit, which make it much more dangerous to be used. As if it's in any good condition before >_<

Sooooo.......no lab, no gym, no food. I was stuck at home all day.

Cannot stand the mundane day anymore. Went out, walked to nearest and bought myself......ice cream!!!!! Wall's Cookies n' cream(750ml), the cheapest for decent taste.

Guess how much I finished in one sitting? Half of it!!!!! urrrggghhhhh, feeling so fat right now T_T

oh oh oh, this movie is finally on screen.

Thinking of going to watch it either this Sunday or next weekend. On a second thought, it will surely be packed with kids on weekend. might hit it on weekday with the hope of smaller crowd xP

Have a good weekend. Next weekend, it gonna be the final month of 2012. The end, eh? Teehee!

Love,
me

I should have known better.......

Always advise others to be careful but end up, I did the same mistake...

Rule of thumb - avoid dating bi..

When people have a choice, nobody gonna pick the worst possible ever. Between the miserable, shunned life or the so-called normal life, isn't the choice obvious? Stupid of me to think he will be any different

Don't say I'm such understanding guy. What else can I do? Beg u to stay and love me? No way! Frankly speaking, I will accept that we are not meant to be together but I do feel a bit angry. If u have the plan to marry a girl in near future and have ur own family, why are u wasting time dating guy and giving hope to others?

Do u expect that I will get into relationship with u for 5-10 years, then let u go marry a girl while I'm left with nothing? Which sane guy would agree to that?! I really don't understand.

Guess I was right about one thing. There is not gonna be a third date.

Love,
me

Hate riding my bike once the sun sets. It has such a negative impact on me......

Sucky drivers that pretend u don't exist by his side is one thing.....

The other thing is that I will start thinking, subconsciously, problems that I had and coming out with the worst answer/scenario that my boggling mind can create. By the time I realized I was having negative thought, I would be so depressed already....

Today, the same thing happened again. Was on my way to gym and decided to go for the body combat class only. When I arrived at the gym, few things done flashing in my tiny brain that I got super-depressed.

Good thing I was there for the class. Jabbing, kicking, uppercut, elbow, back kick, side kick, and I'm back to normal. Should get myself a punching bag and hang it inside my room. The best way to fuck all the problems away.

Smile, my dear. Happiness from within.

Love,
me
p/s: is there gonna be a 3rd date?

In life, family, friendship, relationship, study, u have to set those up properly especially in relationship.

The cycle's repeating, again.

And right now, I am approaching the bottom line. Things started nice and smooth, all lovey-dovey and sweet; the same way it used to be for the others as well.

As time passed, the feeling.....dissipated, I reckon. Not me, but from the other side. Me is still as enthusiastic as ever, just like the 1st time we dated.

When u sent 6 lines of whatsapp and he replied a line only, u know something's wrong. No more morning/night msg, no more msg btw his study break and that time, I didn't even have to msg him 1st. Ah well

I'm giving the same benefit of doubt, busy and it could be true. Seen him less on tweet and facebook, even whatsapp. Busy myself with something and hopefully, he be free anytime soon, somehow.

Lets start the waiting game, shall we?

Just come in

Love,
me

(There's caption for this video)

Jung shared this video with me this morning. Sweet enough that it made me watched it over and over again XD hahahaha

Learnt a few things yesterday over the birthday celebration. Love is unconditional but reason acts as the trigger. U won't get bored seeing him everyday because u really love him

Love,
me

Yesterday(Thursday) had been a lovely day, after such fucked-up week.

Went out dating with him. Nothing out of the norm; shopping, dinner, movie. 'Silent Hill : Revelation' is such a lame, stupid movie. If u haven't watch it, no need to. What else we did? Oh yeah! The sweetest memory of the night was when we kissed while he was driving. I know, kinda dangerous but quite exciting as well =P
____________________________________________________________

Been looping this song for the past few days. It has done miracle in lifting up my spirit =)




That's all. Tomorrow going out to celebrate my adik punya birthday. hahaha. U know who u are XD

Love,
me

The most stressful day at the lab so far, nothing come close to it.......

My research grant was already stretched thin and need to fork out more money to fix this....

Just felt like putting everything down and just go find him to snuggle but then life goes on, have to face it headlong and settle it.......

On top of that, not even enough time for lunch. By the time I arrived home, was extremely hungry that a bit of dizziness kicked in....

Only the thought of meeting u again in 2 days time bring smile on my face.....

Seeing u over the skype tonight had never been anymore exciting =)

Hopefully things get better soon. Cant wait to see u

Love,
me

Productive Sunday, if not weekend at least XD

Blogging is becoming like a weekly thing for me now. Not because I don't have anything to update u guys, it's just laziness and procrastination to the max XD

So, here's the update since a week ago.

I'm back to been single but not available.

It was no-one fault. We didn't have any argument or anything but due to my inability to keep up with long-distance and lack of communication because of his busy schedule. LDR is clearly not for everyone and I'm definitely one of them. So, we decided to call it off and just be friend. Some say I should try first and give it more time but deep down, I know it won't work. So, I don't want to tie him down, attached to something that has high chance of break-apart and let him go. After all, if we are meant to be together, we will be.

While all those were happening, I got to know this one guy through grindr. We treated each other as friend initially. Well, at least from my side though from his, I know he is interested me. He is very sweet and adorable, a lot shorter than me. He really invested lots of his time on me. Despite his packed schedule as master student, he managed to whatsapp or call me every now and then. Even after I'm no longer attached, I tried to keep some distance from him because I don't want  to give false hope to him. I like him, no doubt bout that, but I scared the feeling towards him was just a fling, a filler after the broke-off. For now, we will go slow and see if the feeling is still there after few months.

Btw, Dogathon is on this Sunday. So if u guys have nothing to do, come over and participate. Bring along ur cute doggies and mingle around. I'm sure ur lil'(or big xP) furry critter will enjoy it.


That's it, for now. I leave other updates for some other times when I shake off this laziness again =P hehe

Love,
me