"Mr xxx? Your table is by the side. Please come in"

As we walked in, all eyes were literally all over us.

Apparently except us, everyone else either came with their girlfriend or wife. Ours was the only table with two guys sitting facing each other. As if I gave a fuck bout that as long as it made him happy.

When we went through the menu, both of us were so clueless what is what. So, we went for the recommendation by the waiter. Let's see if I can still get the name right after 4-months overdue =P


Tourte of Unagi and Foie Gras with Mesclun - very generous with the unagi portion though I can't really taste the foie gras in it. Can't remember what sauce they used but it was superb.


Étuvée of Maine Lobster - have never taste lobster before, so I can't comment on it much though for me, it's a bit tough to chew and it was cooked well. The broth was so so only, nothing to shout about.


Green Tea Bavarois with Kuromame - way too full to enjoy their dessert. I can say, it's just normal

And the highlight of the day is.........


TRUFFLE BUTTER!!!!!!! It's.......pure heaven, that's all I would say.


The only pic I have of his dish, not sure why I didn't take any. Yes, that's P and no, he's not single. So hands off people! hahaha

How I know he enjoyed the birthday dinner? Because he held my hand tightly when we were walking back and that's all I need and u guys will never understand how much I'm willing to give to be hold as such again.

This post should be up since January but never have any motivation to finish it up and google all the dishes name =P

Love,
me

This reminds me why I keep trying even though all odds are against us. All the suffering and pain but we never give up. Never lose hope because things will definitely get better. Keep believing in u and in love that u are striving for.

I've been replaying the video countless times ever since it was released and two parts keep bringing tears to my eyes; when one couple announced they been together for 17 years and when the park turned from pitch black to sea of pink.

Have totally forgone the idea of going but after seeing this, I wanna go badly. I will go.

U know, I keep thinking of u throughout this video; picturing us laughing and teasing each other. Although some won't agree and prefer it to be spoken in person, till I have the courage to do so......

I love u.

I'm not so sure to consider it as an argument or just one-sided outburst from my side. To me, it seems more like the latter.

Due to some insignificant incidents, I was seething with rage at him and this is not the normal anger that I had every now and then. My hand was shaking and trying my best to hold back my tear. I was in constant argument between my mind and my emotion. I knew deep down whatever happened, it wasn't his fault and not his power to control it but for the first time, my emotion won and I can't make any sane argument.

Whatever sanity I still had, I used it to shut my mouth because if I was to turn verbal, I will regret it forever. When he walked towards me and saw my face, he knew something wasn't right and all I said to him was, "Let's go. I'm mad."

For the next few minutes, we just keep our distance at few paces away and walked silently. Slowly, my anger dissipated. It went away just as sudden as it came. I talked to him back just to let him know I'm okay again because I knew he's a bit scared after seeing me that way >.<

Sigh, stupid me~ really don't know what happened with me that night. We talked about it again over whatsapp and settled it peacefully. I really feel ashamed for showing him this side of me when he done nothing wrong at all.

...although another issue was brought up and made me sleepless for the night.......

Love,
me

Came across this interesting article titled "The reasons why gay men suck at dating" and he raised up few points that we can benefit from even if just a bit. Gonna list down what he said and give my own opinion where needed =P

1. Gay guys are boys until they turn 30

I dont really agree with it as maturity is up to each individual, not a general assumption for every single gays out there. U can be 23 and act like u have three previous lives or 40 but whine like a baby and really, there's nothing wrong to settle down early once u have seen it all.

2. We refuse to sacrifice anything

Something I'm sure we all can relate for. In this regard, we need to take the middle ground, neither the end of any extreme. U can't sacrifice everything to the point u're nothing more than a shell of your former self but at the same time, u musn't be too selfish either. If u think u're losing, think of it this way; when u sacrifice something, u will get something back from what he sacrificed for u as well. Compromise is a two-way street.

3. We are too afraid of feeling vulnerable

To love means to put ourselves out there, ready to be hurt. There's no other way to define it but trust me; all the pain, all the bleeding and sleepless night, the heartbreak and tear falling down, it will all worth it when u find someone that will embrace u tightly and heal u from inside out.

4. We are unclear of our intentions

This is quite a problem among us Asian as we are not as outspoken as the westerners in general. We tend to hide our feeling and always beat around the bush. Speak up doesn't make u arrogant. It means u know what u want and portrays your confidence.

5. We've become nomadic

All I can say is, at one point of your life, u have to decide where u want to settle down. There are people out there who love to move around and never anchor to any place but the chance for u to find them is really minuscule.

6. Money rules our emotional availability

Well, they said it's better to cry in a Mercedes but what's the point if u have to slave yourself to pay back the debt?

7. Hookup apps are becoming the norm

Honestly, I don't get his point for this XD hahahahaha

To sum up, I give u the one line in this article that speaks to me most;

"Though it might seem hot and steamy in the movies, the average film is only two hours long. Compare that to a long term relationship full of ups, downs, and turnarounds."

Love,
me

When someone close to u; family, friend, your significant other, has a problem and they don't come to u or your name doesn't cross their mind at all, what would u feel?

It would have seen to me that I am not viewed as important as I thought I am or they just didn't trust me enough to confide in me of their problem. It's not the matter of whether I can offer any help or not but rather it's the act of whether u tell or not that matter more.

They don't really have to tell in detail especially when it involves work as it comes with secrecy and whatnot but the least they can do is to acknowledge that they are having certain problem. By that, u would know that they are behaving that way because their mind are preoccupied with something at that moment.

But if it's something that they can share about and get some insight from u, it's more the reason to do so. FYI, it's not a shame to ask for some little helps from people around u whenever u are in trouble. It doesn't make u look weak or desperate or incapable. We are human, we need each other to survive. Nobody can boast that he doesn't need anyone. When u need help, ask for it and don't be embarrassed by it.

And trust me, never ever say that u aren't telling me your problem because u don't want to trouble or bother me. There's no greater insult that u can ever throw to me especially if I consider u as a close friend or my partner.

Well, that's just my two penny. Ciao!

Love,
me