It has been a year since the last time I saw u. Who would have thought u be back to our home in a coffin, eh?

I didn't talk much about u here for the past one year. It has been around two or three posts only, if I'm not mistaken. It doesn't mean I've forgotten about u at all. I just think it's better to keep the memory to myself only.

U know, I've missed u a lot. We have never been that close after I started high school but after u no more here, I wished I have never go to high school just to maintain the closeness we used to have. I envy when I saw people ever so close with their siblings and can talk and tell bout what's happening with their life. I just wish u are here and I could do the same to u as well

Mum and dad may not show it to us but I noticed subtle changes happened. For instance, we no longer take pic together during raya anymore. U have always be there for raya every single year and I suppose they wanted to remember it as that. 2 years ago was our last photo together. Nothing new since then

I'm sorry that I don't make much time to visit u. Lately has been pretty crazy and I don't have mood to go back also. I kept finding excuse to remain in KL because I can escape from everything here. I promise I will find u in a month time, ok? =)

Till another year maybe or whenever I miss u too much again. Who knows maybe I will join u unexpectedly as well; just like how u surprised all of us. Till then

Love u always
Your 'twin'

When things spiral out of the track, do u chuck it out and go for the next best thing or do u retrieve it, dust it off and try to fix it again?

How sure are u that the next best thing that u pick up won't end up malfunction again?

There are two extremes that u must try to avoid. Just because not going well or there has been some arguments, doesn't give u the right to stop trying. Yeah, I say it's a right because u only have it after u try hard enough. When it breaks, fix it. Keep trying and trying as long as it is worth it.

But at the same time, never overlook all those subtle signs that u pick up. Don't be blind when it's obviously pointless to try anymore. Faith is always welcomed but never blind faith. It's not wrong to be doubtful when there's evidence pointing towards it. Don't just sweep it under just because u don't want to face it.

It's hard to balance, I know. When both side are right in the middle, I would say lean more towards one more chance. It's better to be wronged in giving pardon than to punish wrongly, they say and it's true. Maybe that one chance is all u actually need in the end.

I don't think I make much sense here. Just wanna pen down what had happened for the past few weeks but maybe not the right time yet.

This too shall pass and I know I am one of 'this' as well.

Love
me