Friday, May 30, 2008

The View from the Bleachers



I always forget how much I love being at the ball park on a summer night, rooting for the home team. Last night I got to see the Mets beat the Dodgers at Shea. My friends and I had hot dogs and beer, and, because it was popcorn night (!), free popcorn. The hot dogs tasted great in that inexplicable way ball park food does when you're really hungry after a long day at work and the long ride out to the stadium on the subway. I love seeing all that green on the field and the figures of the ball players so far away down there. They look tiny, but you can still read their bodies: the way they all go so still while waiting for the pitcher to wind up and deliver, the way the home plate umpire rests his hand on the catcher's shoulder in what always seems an oddly friendly gesture (why do they do that anyway? to better see the pitch? to steady themselves?), the cluster of players around the pitcher when it's time for him to go.

I'm too tired to write much more (it was a late night and I had to go to work today!) so I will let the pictures tell the story.










Sunday, May 25, 2008

1,500 Feet



That's how high I climbed, yesterday, on a hike I went on with the hiking club I joined last fall. The picture is a little blurry but I like it because you can see just how high I was, looking down over the Hudson River and the town far below. The two guys sitting on the edge of the cliff with their dog were talking earnestly about something or other. It made me nervous to see them sitting there but I like having them in the picture.

The hike was much too hard for me, but I made it to the top because I had no choice. I knew there would be some climbing from the rating in the hike book, but I had been wanting to challenge myself a little, and also, if truth be told, meet some people who might be closer to my age than the ones I meet on the easy hikes I usually go on. Not that I am what you might call young (!) but the people on the easier hikes tend to be well into retirement age, a good deal older than me.

Another reason I chose to go on this hike was that it started in the afternoon, not early in the morning. Since it can take me two hours on public transportation to get to where the hikes start, a nine o'clock meeting time means I have to get up at 6:30 on a Saturday. I can do it once in a while, but it's a struggle, believe me.

The minute the group starting going up the mountain, I was left in the dust. I was truly chastened by how much worse shape I was in than I thought I was. The hike started out with a wooden stairway that was pretty steep. When I got to the top of that, I thought, okay, maybe the worst is over. The leader had told me that the beginning of the hike was a tough uphill, but then you get that part over with, and it's more level.

What he meant, it turned out, was that the first half of the 7-mile hike was uphill and then more uphill. That's what it felt like to me, anyway--although afterwards I looked at the trail map and the uphill part was apparently only one mile.

I tried to keep up a steady, slow pace, but I was pretty much panting for breath the whole way up. The hardest thing was not knowing when it was going to end. Every time I came to the top of one little rise, I thought, "Okay, this must be it." Then the trail would switch in another direction and keep climbing. One kind soul, a woman who was stronger than me but not quite as quick as the rest of the group, lingered with me at first and then got ahead of me but kept more or less in sight, calling back encouraging things once in awhile, like, "Good job, Sarah!" and "Keep on coming!"

At one point, I had to stop and sit on a rock. I was starting to feel nauseated. I felt like I wouldn't be able to go on after that but I knew the group was waiting for me at the summit.

After I rested I felt a little better, so I continued my tortured climb. Up ahead I saw that the woman who had befriended me from my group was talking to a couple coming down the mountain. They parted, my friend continuing upward, and the couple continuing down. The woman in the couple yelled down to me, "Come on! You can do it! If an old woman like me can do it, you can!"

She seemed to be around my age, but I appreciated the encouragement.

As they approached me, she said, "It's worth it, believe me, once you get up there." Then the guy, who was one of those guys who apparently can't keep from flirting even when he's with his wife, said something like, "You feel great once you get to the top and start coming down. Look at me, don't I look rested?"

"You look great," I said.

(Okay, maybe I'm the one who can't keep myself from flirting.)

He seemed a little startled, then came closer to me. He was kind of a big, bearded guy, beard neatly trimmed, a little overweight but not in terrible shape, obviously, or he would never have made it up the mountain. He had a certain, as they say, animal charm.

He said, "Hold still," and rubbed something off my eyebrow.

"What is it?" I asked.

"I don't know, some kind of bug," he said, showing it to me as he rubbed it between his fingers and flicked it away.

Then he repeated, "Really, you're doing great, you're almost there."

His wife was taking all this in stride.

"Give her your stick," she said.

He immediately handed over a branch he had been using, the perfect height and strength for a walking stick.

"Really?" I asked, looking at them both.

"Yes," he said, "It'll help you on the way down."

I thanked them and continued on, heartened by their kindness.

I made it to the top of the mountain not long after that, just in time to see everyone getting up from their comfortable resting spot. They were walking towards me. "Okay, turn around," the leader said, "we're going that way."

But I had to rest, and look at the view, and take pictures of the two guys sitting on the edge of the cliff, so I did, and then set off to catch up with the group.

The rest of the hike was easier, and I could actually enjoy it, now that I wasn't so worried about keeping up with the group or whether my lungs were going to burst. We walked around a beautiful lake (see pic), and through the forest and past a waterfall. There were muddy patches and little slippery crossings. One time I almost slipped and fell in the little stream but I managed to right myself. The sunlight flickered through the trees. The air smelled good.

Towards the end of the hike there were four of us who kind of stuck together. At one point we were confused about which way the trail led and the leader was nowhere in sight. We were just breaking out the cell phone to call him when we heard him hallooing through the woods, calling out the name of one of the guys. He came back and led us safely out of the forest, back down the oversized wooden staircase to the parking lot.

And that's how I spent the unofficial first day of summer.


Thursday, May 22, 2008

Tie-yerd

I'm in that fog that comes from finishing a semester of teaching. Somewhat elated to be done, somewhat wistful, too, because I had a really great group of students this semester. But mostly tired, in either one or two syllables.

Oh, and here's a question for anyone out there who watched the season finale of that Doctor Show Named After a Famous Medical Textbook: Does anyone else want to know how to find a therapist like Meredith's, who can cure you in three sessions, and who lets you pop in on her with searching questions at odd times of the day?

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Reading News

I read a lovely book this week: Love Falls, by Esther Freud, probably best known to most people as author of Hideous Kinky, a book I haven't read although I did see the movie.

In Love Falls, Freud captures amazingly well the resilient spirit of a 17-year-old girl confronting various kinds of first experiences while on a summer vacation in Tuscany with her father, whom she does not know very well. The book made me think of all kinds of things: of being 17, of Tuscany, where I was four years ago, and of being in love. It was nice to read something hopeful.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

One More


Here's another one from my Coney Island day, again taken by my friend. Oddly, or perhaps synchronously, I think it would make a good illustration for a recent post by jo(e).

Grandma




Now imagine that bosom fluttering. (See this post.) Scary, huh?
(In the interests of full artistic disclosure, I should say that I did not take this harrowingly vivid picture nor the one of the Wonder Wheel posted just below. My friend who visited Coney Island with me took them. But I did take the boardwalk picture illustrating my original post.)

Wonder Wheel


Fib Poem

For my two favorite students:


We
are
tired,
the three of
us. It's late, after
class. But they wait with me for the
right train, the one that takes me all the way to Brooklyn.


For all you textual scholars and linguists out there, I am treating "tired" as having two syllables. What do you think?

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Excursion


Yesterday I went out to the southeast part of my borough, where the sea meets the boardwalk. I was with a friend who grew up in the New York suburbs, and has lived in Manhattan, but never Brooklyn, and who has lived away from New York for the last few years. So it was an adventure for him to travel out to Brighton Beach, the neighborhood, where the signs are all in Russian, and then to walk on the boardwalk to Coney Island, where even on a gray chilly day out of season, the soon-to-be demolished amusement park is still attracting tourists, New York families, lonely people, and curiosity-seekers of all sorts.

I grew up in this part of Brooklyn, so when I was younger I took the beach for granted, but yesterday, after the longish subway ride from where I live now, passing all the subway stops named in this poem, and after walking a couple of blocks on the congested commercial main street in Brighton Beach under the elevated train, I felt that shock of pure pleasure at seeing open space at the end of the street, and then ascending the steps to the boardwalk, and look, there it is, the ocean, the sand, miles and miles of open air.

Although the population of Brighton Beach has changed over the years, the people on the boardwalk were very much as I remembered: old ladies in shapeless coats walking arm and arm, slowly, or sitting on benches in the watery sunlight, turned towards each other, their canes not far out of reach. As ever, the boards below your feet stretch out in a grid that gets lost in infinity as you gaze in one direction or the other. The railing along the side, dividing the boardwalk from the beach, also stretches out, sternly.

In Coney Island, we walked among the rides and took pictures. We got our fortunes told by a scary-looking life-size dummy imprisoned in a plastic booth. The words, "What Does Grandma Say?" were painted on the outside of the booth. Grandma has a white blouse with a lace collar buttoned up to her neck and a white shawl of some sort over it. When you put a quarter in the box, her long mechanical fingers move searchingly over the cards in front of her. Most scarily, her thin, white-blouse covered bosom inflates and deflates, just slightly, to show that she is breathing. A little card drops out of the box with admonitions on it: don't take that trip a friend has been advising you to take, don't be so quick to help out your friends, don't talk so much.

The amusement park is as un-Disneyfied as it could be--all the rides are garish colors, the Wonder Wheel is magnificent and huge and solid against the sky, the decor dates perhaps from the 1920s. The horses in the carousel look as if they are straining to take off, shake off their bondage. Most of the kiddie rides are spinning around with perhaps one car, or horse, or boat, occupied--because it is off-season and cloudy, or because the heyday of Coney Island has long passed.

As I tell my friend, I feel like I'm in a Ray Bradbury story.

I marvel at how this place, this park, can contain both the innocence of a child, perhaps eight, who, in this age of sophisticated digital amusements, seems pleased enough with his ride in an old-style train car, brightly painted and perhaps labeled "conductor," and the more tawdry experience promised by the sideshow featuring "real live people on stage," including the elastic lady and Electra, a "real live person" who is electrocuted but then comes back to life. At the side show, a little man, perhaps 3 feet tall, in clown makeup, tells us earnestly about the attractions within, stressing again that the people are "alive," and also, in a remnant of circus patter that predates the global age, telling us, as if this were impressive, what state each of the live attractions is from: Billy the ten-foot-tall man is from Texas, another performer is from right here in the New York area, another one is from California.

My friend seems as if he might want to go in and see the side show; he asks the little man how much it costs. I think that I will probably wait outside if he goes in, but in the end he decides against it.