Happy Tears? Is there such thing? I don't know. I don't know if that's what I want to call "
them"...and by
them, I mean
mine.
But on Saturday night, I cried. I cried real happy, emotional, prideful tears. Sounds sappy, I know.
See, I had seen an advertisement for the "Pittsfield Hot Air Balloon Festival" for a few weeks and thought "IV would love this." There was the promise of Fair food, Hot Air Balloons and Helicopters. How could we not go?
So after his nap on Saturday, we packed up the car and made the 20 minute trip up to Pittsfield. The weather was perfect and we were all excited.
We did everything you would expect us to do at a small, local Fair/Festival. We ate junk food, watched the Helicopters, played the dart game for a cheap stuffed dog and bought soft serve.
All is great right? Sure. Until IV sees something for the first time....the "KIDDIE RIDES". I thought there was no way he'd want to go on
any rides, I mean, after all he's 2! Boy was I wrong. He was adamant about going on one of the rides and repeatidly asked as Stew and I stood there, looking at each other like..."
really?"
So there I stood, in line to buy tickets for our first "Kiddie" ride.
I stood in line with IV, handed the tickets to the ride conductor and placed him on his choice, a blue car. I strapped him in and walked outside the gates. I couldn't believe it. I stood outside the gate with Stew and watched a bright eyed little boy...sitting patiently for the ride to start. I called out his name and he flashed me a HUGE smile. I yelled "I love you, buddy" and he responded. "I love you too, Mama."
I cried.
I cried as the ride started and his laugh echoed throughout the ride.
I cried as he waved to us.
I cried as he ignored us.
I cried...all while trying to capture this special moment.
My baby wasn't and isn't a baby anymore and that makes me cry...happy/proud/sad/overjoyed tears.
And - sometimes you just have to let them go and let them be big for a little while. Then sit back and say "
Well done, Mama. Well done."