dance, dance, dance! ; TRA-LA-LA <#3

Monday, February 21, 2005

yup i'm here.. today mood is? fucked up.. Zzz.. happened first in the morning.. i couldnt awake on time for entrepreneur lesson.. was really tired as the nite before i cant get to slp.. and ting called mi in the morning.. i asked her whether u gers going for the lesson? she said yes.. so i was feeling relieve as some1 is going to help mi sign my attendant.. assuming tat some1 is helping mi to sign my attendant, i went to take a longer rest.. i really nid the attendant cuz of my dad, if he noe i missed my lesson again.. i donno how will he feel.. i didnt wan him to b sad or wateva.. but! hell knows tat tis 3 buddy of mine.. reached sch in time for the lesson but was happily slacking in the canteen.. i was really pissed when i get to know tis.. they told mi "we didnt attend the lesson, we was sitting in the canteen eating breakfast, we r tired" they didnt went for entrepreneur lesson.. the reason was? tired.
wat the hell.. at tat point of time i really felt pissed off by them.. and disppointed in their act.. cant u ppl juz go in the last minutes and sign tat fucking attendant? izzit tat hard? if u gers r not going in.. tell mi! then i will not waste my fucking time taking my rest.. i swear i gonna rush down to sch if i noe no1 is going to sign tat fucking attendant for mi.. u gers know i nid all my attendant badly.. and still did it again! yea.. i mention 'again'.. its not the first time.. its always! u ppl telling mi tat u are going for da lesson but wat happen in the end? u gers didnt went in to sign tat attendant.. gers.. don give mi hope nx time.. juz tell mi if u ppl didnt wan to go for da lesson.. i swear i gonna make it for myself..
buddy of mine disappoint mi in tis way.. why always i MUST be there then u gers r willing to go for tat fucking lesson?! its not the first time.. u gers sld noe.. don ever do tat again.. though i didnt show tat i'm feel so fuck up, actually i really do.. i juz didnt wan to cause unhappiness over such things.. u know we gers nv quarrel b4 and i don think tis matter is a nid for quarrel.. hope tat u ppl will juz understand my situation..
Another matter tat make mi felt so fuck up was hearing some1 comparing and criticize my sistas' mums cooking.. hey come on.. u r at ppl hse having free meals? and u r there criticizing abt the food.. and comparing the food u r eating wib some other feast.. gosh.. can u put urself in the host shoe? if ur mum spent the whole morning or even the previous nite to prepare a meal for ur clz mate gathering.. and knowing some1 was there comparing and criticizing the food tat belong to ur mum hard work.. how would u feel? simply hate ppl who do such a complaining.. i know my sistas was damn upset over tis.. and wat can i say? i love ur mum! ur mum's cooking rocks! hack care abt wat opinion some other say.. ting.. u know ur mum cooking is da BEST in da world isnt it? =)
ok.. feeling better after blogging.. gonna forget all da unhappiness caused today and tml will b a better day for mi! anyway tis few days have a couple of time feeling a mild sharp pain ard my chest area.. perhaps i'm dying soon? i'm thinking too much? -nitez-

i danced @ 6:04 AM

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Hi peeps~ hows da song? nice uh? haha.. Valentine day juz past a few days ago.. to mi.. its juz another day tat i spent wib my FRENZ!! another defination for V day is.. frenzship day! so.. for sure i gotta spent tis occasion wib them.. after a long tiring day in sch on monday, i went to golden mile, lavander for dinner!! gosh.. its soooo far frm woodlands.. went so far juz to hab a plate of katsu curry rice and a glass of suga cane drink? lolz! though its all my favourite, i didnt go there cuz of da food! actually juz wanna meet my frenz and chat ard..
Guess wat came out from henry SOH mouth when he first saw mi!? "STUPID DUMB" wat the.. i juz couldnt find my way to golden mile man.. and he was there keep going on "how dumb can 1 be?" hen.. wat u wan? u tis idiot typical AH BENG!! Kuma wasnt on my side either.. ganging up wib shuan and hen to pick on mi.. dotz3.. how great can my V day be to receive such a treatment frm them? lOlz! nvm.. anyway i think i'm kinda used to it.. Zzz! however, its fun hanging out wib them! especially when i see Troy(henry's doggie)!! OMG! wat can i say about him? he's damn CUTE!! simply loves him to bites.. actually he's kinda dumb type.. but how smart can he be when the owner is dumb? wahaha~! bringing a dog down for a stroll can be a form of excerise.. running ard with them simply making u exhausted.. *suggestion from kuma* to get a dog if i wanna slim down.. lOlz! too bad.. my mummy don allow mi to adopt a doggie.. sad isnt it? nvm.. when i have my own house.. i'll get 1 for sure!! i love doggie!!
Hmmm.. i can see tat u guys r kinda down on v day.. life sucks sometimes! yea i noe.. but look on the bright side.. life is actually beautiful~! cheer up man~ to mi.. i've always feel so fortunate to see tis beautiful world! =)
Anyway feel kinda bad toward darren mark and ting2.. cuz actually the both of them having a date for movies and dinner.. but i dragged them along wib mi to lavander.. causing them to miss the movie part for the date.. i'm sorry!! =X
Oh ya.. forgot to mention tat time i went for huiyi bbq bdae party~! having great fun there.. cuz got to meet up wib my secondary mates.. really got lotsa things to catch up wib them.. and yup.. there are some pics below of pei chi and hui yi bdae party~

The whole group on hui yi bdae bbq~!

We are Evgians!! lolz!

Bdae ger Chi!! and bf, junius

How sweet can tis be? haha..

Waha! bdae ger on da lap!

Poh2 and mi~! i'm sweating~! -_-

i danced @ 2:09 AM

Saturday, February 12, 2005

Listening to tis blog song.. always wondering when can I found my true love? Tis was a really touching song.. I love it~!

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And i'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and Ever
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And you'll stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
And I don't wanna miss a thing

In life, theres 2 guy who's important to mi, I loved them once.. My first love, and a guy who helped mi to forget abt tis first love.. but happy moment always don last.. its onli a short period of time.. wondering why does tis always happen? I guess actually it was over before it began, or perhaps.. it was never meant to be.. I regretted for not treasuring my first love.. I'm sorry.. for another him, I regretted for trusting him too much.. believe in wateva he said.. resulting in hurting myself.. he sucks! But I still love him.. all I can say is.. i'm silly.. I juz wanna be strong nowadays.. forgot abt them.. wat past is past isn't it..? theres no point thinking abt the past anymore.. though memories still hurts, I'm glad to have tis group of sistas and frenz, supporting mi whenever I need them to be there for mi.. wibout u guys I really donno wat will happen to mi.. thanks peeps!! I nv regret knowing tis group of frenz.. Enjoy the song~

i danced @ 2:23 AM

Friday, February 11, 2005

yay~ i'm here again.. first and for most~ HAPPY LUNAR NEW YR to my frenz out there!! well well.. its been such a long time since i last blog.. lazi mi! *knock myself against da wall* wahaha~ lame.. *wondering* y i got for myself such a nick sometimes? swinerolene? haha! as time pass by.. i guess i completely accepted tis stupid nick! cuz.. recently i felt i'm really a pig!! i've been eating non-stop since eve of lunar new yr.. theres really lotsa food station at my hse! and everywhere i go, theres all da new yr stuff for mi to munch.. how can i resist those temptation? cant blame mi actually.. i'm juz a innocent ger who cant resist those temptation.. wahaha~ sooo.. i'm assuming after tis new yr feastive, i'm gonna gain ard 10 pounds for eating these goodies! my face is getting rounder, and yea! double chin is getting bigger! gosh, how great can this be~ shit!! *yawnz* haha.. oh ya tis yr i'm really down on luck.. was playing black jack wib cousin.. but losing it every round.. not a single luck to get black jack b4.. really suay~ lost ard 50 bucks.. so decided to stop playing since i noe i'm not going to win.. and! wib those spare time at grandma hse.. i went to chew all those new yr goodies! Zzz! wat a swine uh? lOlz! *sad case* for mi.. haha.. anyway i enjoyed my new yr.. having a great time wib all my cousin and those uncle, aunties! and of cuz not forgetting to mention how overjoy i'm to receive those "ang bao" hehe.. wib those $$ i'm finally going to get myself a mp3! sound so outdated uh? but tats mi~ wahaha!
Few days ago.. went to watch a movie wib kuma and ting.. called "feng shui" its a nice show!! kinda scary.. and i can see kuma is enjoying himself during da show.. cuz... ting2 was sitting right beside him!! keke~ isnt it sweet? lolz! =X ok stop these craps.. haha.. and yea chi~ i enjoyed ur bdae vvv muchie.. went over ur hse to party and kbox after tat.. great day! hope u will like the present we brought for u~ all da best wishes for u~ muackz!
Hmmm actually today was kinda angry wib daddy.. he's didnt trust mi till now since da incident happened last yr..my heart was aching everytime to see him suppesting mi.. last yr.. i tot ite was a v slacking place.. i run off frm sch everyday.. my attendant was below the required.. they sent letters to my hse.. i collect those letters and dump it into the bin wibout letting any of my family member know.. and continue to run away frm lesson.. finally class advisor called my parent up.. i wasnt aware about tat.. when i reached hm.. my bro lecture mi.. my mum asked mi 'why'? as for my dad.. he's speechless.. when i look into his eyes.. i can see da sadness in him.. my mum told mi he was heartbroken to know tat his daughter did such an act.. he cant believe it.. though to others.. this was juz a small matter to their parent.. but to my family.. tat was a great sin.. i know i was wrong.. i really changed alot after tat.. i admit i still run away frm lesson now.. but at least i juz run away frm unimportant lesson and i always tried to attend all da lesson if i can.. teacher praised mi for getting good attandant recently.. my mates know i've been attending sch.. but not my mum and dad.. they still doubt mi.. i hate of being accuse when i'm doing it rite.. sometimes i really hate being born it tis family.. but after a moment i no longer think abt it tat way.. i know i'm blessed in tis family.. my parent actually dotes on mi alot2.. daddy don limit mi wib how much i'm spending.. he placed hundreds of bucks in da drawer everyday for mi to tk myself.. but i noe my limit.. i onli tk wat i nid.. how can a parent have so much trust in their kids? my parents did.. i noe they loved mi.. mummy dotes on mi lots.. she simply loves scolding & nagging at mi.. always making mi pissed off.. but i noe she still love mi lots deep down inside her.. and oso i have da best brother on earth! he dotes on mi in everyway.. i'm really blessed to b in tis family.. how can i still have such a hate sometimes? i'm really a dumb! i loved them lots too.. juz hoping tat time will help to regain my part of trust in them.. i nv regret to be in tis family.. i swear.. =D daddy! trust mi pls~ i'll nv hurt u again! have faith in mi, mummy~! i love u guys.. tats my confession for today~ *gone*

i danced @ 9:49 AM