SY's Colourful diary，彩色日记

I was a person who like to day-dreaming. I used to think a lot of my future. However, I found that my future is quite blur and uncertain. At first, I was thinking to pursue a degree in Canada, and work in Canada. I came to Canada because I knew that my dear has a long time to go before graduating from medical school. I was hoping that after I graduating, we will stay together in Canada, and can finally become a normal couples without distances separated.

This was my future, but it is not anymore. Perhaps the time and place will change, not the relationship! I started to feel that all the dreams and hopes I had before are very uncertain. Therefore, I choose to set up my own goal to pursue my own future.

I was strongly impressed by the knowledgeable food science professors and the high technical equipments used in food science department in UOM. I started to feel that things that I learn in food science are very interesting and I wish to know more. I had developed a very strong passion in my mind to become a food scientist, food expert. Thus, my interest toward FOOD and Food Science increases.

Today, I talked to my professor about my degree program and asked about master degree program too. I really wish I can pursue a master degree, because I think basic degree in food science is superficial. I being told that master students get pay for doing research in school, and students may have a 50% discount if the gpa is 3.7 or higher. I made up my mind to pursue a master degree in UOM. I plan to work for a year after graduate, then continue with my master degree. I want and have to financially support myself for this. In conclusion, I need to study hard from now on, try my best to reach gpa 3.7 or higher. My gpa is 3.67 now. I am entering 4th year soon, the material learn is getting harder. If there is a will, there is a way 有智者，事竟成。

My flight is booked and I confirmed be back on 4th July 2009 and leave on 11th September. I can't wait to go home now. I flip the calender and start counting the days. IT IS EXACTLY 100 days.

Since I have 2 months+ in Malaysia, I want to eat as much as I can, shop and buy as much as I like. I will have a new phone number, so remember to call me out!! haha..

I have to stop dreaming and continue on my lab report :(

Banana Loaf

hey, I am doing a survey on a brand new product- Edible candle. This is my group product, the whole candle is made by food material. The bottom is something like poky stick, bees wax which is a food material used to replace the normal wax. Please let me know if you are interested at doing the survey, I can send the following to your email. Or you may answer the questions in the comment. It is great if you let me know what do you think about the product, without doing the survey. Thanks


Candle Questionnaire

<1>What is your age?
A)Under 18
B)18-25
C)25-39
D)40 and above

<2>What is your gender?
A)Female
B)Male

<3>How often do you purchase/use birthday candles?
A)Every birthday
B)For kids’ birthdays or special occasions
C)Occasionally/whenever they’re available
D)I don’t use birthday candles

<4>Rank from most important to least important characteristics of birthday candles
___ Good price
___ Interesting/flashy designs
___ Recognizable names/faces (ie brand name, Disney characters etc)
___ Bright colours
___ Environmentally friendly (natural waxes and colours)
___ Candles that express a special meaning (ie numbers, letters)
___ Packaging (colourful, flashy, stands out etc)

<5>Have you ever seen/heard of edible candles?
Yes (explain) _____________________________________________________________________________
No

<6>What kind of texture would you prefer in an edible candle?
A) Cookie/biscuit – like
B) Slightly chewy – ie mini breadsticks
C) Hard candy
D) Chocolate
E) Other (explain)____________________________________________________________________________

<7>What flavour(s) would be desirable in an edible candle?
A) Fruity
B) Chocolate-y
C) Minty
D) Coffee
E) Other (explain)____________________________________________________________________________

<8>What are your concerns with edible candles?
__________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________


<9>How many candles would you prefer in a pack considering their limited shelf life?
________________________________________________________________________________________________

<10>How much would you be willing to pay for a package of 10 small edible birthday candles?
A) Under $1
B) $1 - $3
C) $3 - $5
D) Over $5

Recently, I found myself lazy to cook. I used to spent some time everyday to cook good food. I found myself put on weight because of that. Therefore, I decided to reduce my cooking and don't eat so much . I found that eating porridge is a good way to lose weight. I lose about 3 kg after 5 meals of porridge. I am going to cook porridge every week for few meals, I will have less pictures of food to put in my blog in future.

I was cooking Malaysian food at home last week. I could not call it nasi lemak because I dont have cucumber, ikan bilis, and peanut. But everything I cooked are spicy and served with coconut milk rice.

Curry pork. 咖喱猪肉。

I was trying to make sambal prawn but I have no ingredients.

I called this is prawn with chillies paste, 辣酱虾。




Spicy chicken wings, 辣椒鸡翅。




Cabbage with chinese sausage. 腊肠包菜





This is cooked by my housemate- Qingqing. Ingredients are
unknown， but it taste good。

I had make a decision to come back to MALAYSIA in end of JUNE. I was wondering so much because the air ticket is expensive. Thanks to my sister who says that amount of money can earn back easily in future ( for her may be), and since she sponsor HALF of the air ticket , there is no reason for not coming back, right? Sister, you are such a great sister. HAHA. I cant wait to go shopping with you when I am back.

Everytime I log into my blog, and saw my last post with pictures of Malaysian food, I really cant wait to go HOME. I can't wait to see my family, to hug the babies, especially the handsome new born baby who i dreamt a lot. I can't wait to see my friends too. Cheng Zhee said she seldom go sing k without me and chia lei around. HAHA, dont worry. My dear and I are coming back, we will go as much as we can :)

Lastly, I wish to go home because I wish to spend sometime with my dear. It was 2 years ago when we were both in Malaysia. We both miss Malaysian food, I have plan of places to bring him for nice food. I really miss those days when we cycling on a 2-seater bicycle, eating cendol along the road side, eating herbal eggs and taking rest at a shopping complex, singing k together, having dinner togehter. Wow there are a lot of things i can do in Malaysia that make me a happy person.

So , conclusion : I WILL BE BACK.

I am wondering whether I should go back to Malaysia this year. The air ticket is Rm 5k+. I will be back in end of june till september if i am going back. Help me to make a decision....

I have put on weight in Canada. I think it is because of winter, the weather is cold and I feel hungry very soon. When I am not happy or stress I like to eat dessert, snacks, or ice cream. I can't believe that I can put on weight even though I don't eat much. This week, I cooked a big pot of porridge with cabbage, sweet potato and eggs. I think I am going to eat for few days to control my food intake.


I am hungry and tired now. Suddenly I remembered some of the nice Malaysian foods that I missed so much. I found some pictures of food, they made me happy and energetic.

Asam Laksa - My FAVORITE FOOD- I used to eat it 7 days a week.

Fish-Head- Noodles = I don't like the fish, which I will give all to my dear :) I like the soup!

Curry Laksa= Yummy !! It is not too spicy but it taste really good




Cendol = My favorite dessert




Indian rojak= Made with fried toufu, eggs, cucumber and cuttle fish.




Nasi lemak= I miss this so much. I cooked the rendang chicken last week but I dont have sambal ( the chillies paste)

I had a personality test based on the colors we choose in order. The outcomes of it are really true and described my situation well. Therefore I would like to share the site: http://www.goldinuniverse.com/

This is my profile:
At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. Your are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.
At this time you 'need to be needed' and again you 'need to need'. You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have the belief that with the right person you could conquer the world.
You are trying to break away from the mundane existence that you have been experiencing of late. You have many high hopes and ideals but you are concerned whether circumstances will allow you to realise these ambitions. You want to spread your wings - to broaden your fields of activities - but you are concerned that your dreams are just that - 'dreams' which are not realistic. It concerns you that you are not thinking clearly at this time - what you need is to get away from it all, to give you time to think. A short vacation could well restore your confidence.
You are presently experiencing excessive stress as a result of self-restraint. You act and think differently from the common herd and you want to be liked and admired for yourself and to associate with people who feel and act as you do. Because of this need to be self-reliant and to break away from mediocrity, you are finding this situation most uncomfortable and you are experiencing considerable anxiety - perhaps even more than you feel the capacity to cope with. You need to find a 'soul mate', someone whose standards are as high as your own - but where? Keep on searching... The situation is uncomfortable and you would like to break away from it, but you refuse to compromise with your opinions. You are unable to resolve the situation because you are continually postponing the making of necessary decisions. You are stubborn but this is no deterrent to a happy life, so why drop your standards. Think positively, everything will work out. It has worked out successfully for you in the past and it will again in the future.
The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing.

After telling everything of how I feel to my dear, he is now saying that I don't love him. He thinks that I don't treat him as good as before. Last time, I can do everything for him, but now I just cannot. He thinks I cannot sacrifice for this love anymore.

I am sure I still love my dear. It is because I still miss him, I still like to see him, I talk to him in my mind while walking, I imagine he is there with me, I dream of him always. I miss him every now and then. I think I have changed recently, I changed to afraid of how my dear feel. I do everything also will think whether that will make him unhappy. Whenever I eat dinner outside or at home, grocery shopping, cooking, I keep watching the time because I know if I take too long, my dear will not be happy.

He is not a good boy friend at certain ways but he is good at some. we used to be very happy, we almost had no quarrel while we were in our 2nd and 3rd year relationship. I am not don't love him when I complaining him. He always said if he don't care , he will not scold me. This is the same dear, if I don't feel unhappy when arguing means I don't care. I am unhappy because I still care. So, please don't say I don't love you when I do.

Today, I told my dear how I feel recently. I feel that our relationship is unstable because we quarrel and fight almost everyday. We argued over some little thing, well for me it is little, for him, it is a big thing. It means that our point of view is different. While fighting with him, he does not like me to fight back, he does not listen to my points because he thinks they are bull shits. He does not like me to say nothing, because he thinks that I am ignoring him. He does not like me to say " you are right", " true", because he thinks I am pissing him off. So, this is why I hate quarrels with him, whatever I said is wrong to him. I don't know what to say while fighting with him.

We are very different. He thinks quarrels are fine. He is happy when he wins during a quarrel, he is happy after fighting. However, I am not. I am not happy at all. He shout at me loudly without thinking how I feel. I am not sure how you guys feel when scolding by someone loudly. I will feel very sad and bad. It is because I grown up in a peaceful family. My parents don't scold me. My parents will talk to me nicely and we don't shout or fight at home. Due to this reason, I cannot stand scolding by others. My parents whom gave me a life to this world, whom I love so much and love me so much don't scold me, I feel sad when being scolded by others. I tend to be nice to people, therefore I don't get scoldings in my life.

However, I scolded by my boy friend almost everyday in past few weeks. At first I told myself to accept it, because I know he is a bad tempered person. Recently, I found myself very unhappy. I felt stress over my school works, and my relationship. I really need some relax, if not I am going to be crazy. I had a few party last few month. Most parties are at home. My dear does not like me to have parties therefore I promised him I am not going to have parties in February. After that, we fight everyday mainly because of these parties I had. He started all the fight by saying things negatively. He just like to say something bad even though he knows that I don't like it, and will fight. Over and over again, I am getting tired. I don't feel his love anymore and I think our love had changed. I know I still love him but I am not happy to be scolded by him. I can accept him now, but can I accept him in the future? I started question myself towards the relationship. How can I changed? How I can I be a happy person while scolding by him at the same time.

从小到现在，几乎每一晚都会做梦。以前，我很讨厌做梦，因为觉得做梦起来，会很累很伤身。尤其是做一些很吃力的梦，第二天会感觉筋疲力尽。最近，我爱上了做梦。因为在梦里可以做到一些在现实生活不能做到的东西。在梦里，是非常真实的，感觉也很好。短暂地离开现实生活还蛮快乐的。

从小到大，我梦见各种不同的梦。最让我深刻的梦是飞天梦。我曾有过数不尽的飞天梦，梦见自己是活在人世的仙女。曾经梦见自己的前世。现在最长梦见的就是回马来西亚。有时候的梦会有剧情，会有连续或是相同的梦。有时候，好梦让我开心一整天。今天，我的心情特别愉快。因为梦见了海滩。碧海蓝天，幽幽的沙子，清凉的海风，动听的海浪声，让我陶醉无疑。今天也梦见男朋友来Winnipeg找我了，给了我一个意外惊喜。何时会美梦成真呢？

现在的我，常常陶醉于梦里，不舍得离开梦境。因为知道自己一起身，就要回到残酷的现实生活，又是必须努力学习的一天。现在，每晚睡觉前都有一个期待，和快感。希望能做个好梦。