SY's Colourful diary，彩色日记

Just finished watching the movie called The Grey. It was recommended by the reader's digest. The story is about a group of people survived after a plane crashed and landed on a tundra. From the group of 7 people, once died followed another after being attacked and hunt by the wolves and coyotes. Something touched me was the determination of these survivors, trying very hard to be survived. The last survivor out of the 7 is the leader of the group. Even though he could not help each one of them, but he remained calm along the journey with encouragement of his wife in his mind. The movie ended with a black out after he met the alpha wolves at the den. It means there is an open ending. Before this movie, I don't like open ending movies. It was because I was like wasting time at watching a movie. However, I like how the director use it in this movie. It gives audiences a chance to think about the end. In this movie, it gives me a hope even though the chance of the actor to be survived is limited, but nobody knows what it will turn out if he tries to fight. Similar to things happen in our life. we need hopes and faith, only when we believe in ourselves, things can turn out differently.

It is been almost 5months since the last blog I wrote. I had been very busy this year. I became more active in the badminton club and took part in different tournaments in the beginning of the year. Even though, I haven't really win a good prize, but I had a lot of fun games. Thanks to my dear and my mix partner, Roy who trained me and gave me courage during the games. In March, I had a very great time back to Malaysia, visited my family and friends in Hong Kong, Malaysia, And Singapore. It was really excited to see two cousins got married back home. Ever since i came to Canada, i felt that i had missed a lot of family events and the joy of it. This trip was a good trip, other than the marriage i attended i also had a family trip to Taiwan. Five weeks had just gone too fast, and I am now back to Canada. on the flights, I keep questioning myself, whether I really like to stay in Canada and at the same time missing all my family back home. I don't think I am very happy in Canada, buti don't like living in MAlsysia either. I think something is missing, then I realize I missing a goal in my life. I have been working for 2 years, no oppurtunity for advancement or in my life. other than playing badminton, seeing the money in my bank account growing slowly, basically everyday I live without a goal. I had nothing to accomplish everyday. However, I am going to change. I want to push myself to seek for a better life and better future, I want to be a pharmacist in Canada. The percentage of getting in is low, less than 20% chances, and only 55 students succeeded each year. English is one of the requirements, which is a big challenge for me whose English is the second or may be third language I learned. Despite the fact of all negativities, I Am going to try. I have a year to improve my writing, and I will have to go back to school for some courses. There is a will! There is a way. I believe if I have a faith, I can do it. Even if the end result may be is not what I want, at least I been through it and the journey of trying is an important part of life. I will start writing blog again to improve my writing, and I wish my family and friends can give courage and support. After all, I just want to find a goal in my life, to live happily and look forward to the future.