never let it fade away

Lately been plagued w an obsessive bug. I get "all about" something, and go at it incessantly. I often find myself too deep and struggling to get out. Like that time I was caught up w designing bathrooms and looked at images/sketched all day for days and got vertigo when I stood up to go home after work.


So tonight the bug was about smartphones. I just had to make a decision on which phone to get, right now, regardless o my current bank balance and the previous decision to leave the actual buying till fall which is when usually the phones get a turnover and the prices all change drop. Stupid, I know, but I just couldn't let it go.


After much reading and deliberating and more thinking and frankly just boring the Dear w my constant indecision, I've finally decided to drop the Windows Phone HTC 8x and go w the Plan B iphone. Reasons being a "not there yet" OS and the lack o apps I don't think I'm much o an app person but well my closest men are using iphones and I figured I could share paid apps.

Then came the question o which model? At the moment only a used iphone 4s is w/in my budget but come fall (or whenever Apple release the latest iphone 5s/6), I suppose the price would drop for the iphone 5, hopefully to my budget range. And w the high from a pre-bed Old Town White Coffee 3 in 1, I carried out more deliberation and thinking and ended up deciding to hold out for the discounted iphone 5.


Now I'm exhausted, but the bug has finally been laid to rest. I can sleep easy knowing my decision is made and I will not be reading smartphone reviews anymore. Yay *said in a very weary tone from my bed*

Here's to reconnecting w my writing self. I fear that in this era o"spill every single thought on social media", I have chosen to "don't say a word to anyone anywhere",  I will one day explode.


Had a short talk w Dear, and wrote an email to Ying2 regarding uni research/decisions. Yes it's once again time to research Masters of Architecture.
I've been putting it off for a long time, taking work experience as a "way out" o making immediate decisions. But as I get settled into the routine o working, the clock continues to tick, counting down the time till I've to get my bum back into the crazy archi life.

I enjoy architecture, I really do. Never was a "design enthusiast", but I find matching people w spaces, especially seen in my current job o (helping senior architects) in designing bungalows, very satisfying. I just don't particularly enjoy working day and night, w/o rest, day after day. Back in high school, Yying commented that we were both achievers in different ways, she in her event planning and execution, over w/in weeks, and me in my prefect duties/volleyball team, training and going bout routine all year round. Personality comes into play too, I guess. Perfectionist I am not, and will not be, but it doesn't mean I do not admire or aspire to create beauty. I just have my own imperfect way o looking at things. Much to be learnt #Ineverseemtobereadyfortheworld



Now that twitter joined the conversation (me w myself, eavesdrop if you like), I would like to make a small confession. I've always tried not to want something too much. I do not wish for, or hope for things. Not wanting was a habit perfected over the years to squash feelings o disappointment. I also avoid mainstream thoughts and actions that creates chances for competition, again to avoid disappointment should I lose the (unseen not discussed but very much present) competition. So it came as a surprise, even to myself, that I decided I wanted a smartphone. Out o the blue I find myself dissatisfied w my current Nokia, and wanted a change. It's a surprise, because I've always believed that internet and games should not be w us 24/7. I'd love to bring ebooks around, or have a small camera/gps I could carry in my pocket, but a smartphone is more trouble than it's worth. Is this a sign o trying to "keep up w the crowd", or "it's necessity", or simply "I covert (want)"? Sigh.

Was updating wordpress and realized I've not been blogging at either space.

Here's an exclusive photo o Dear and I. Don't usually upload couple photos as a rule. But just to emphasize how I get really excited bout having photos o both o us. In the same frame.
 


Also an exclusive update on my new Exercise-No Dessert- No Fastfood regime. Just finished my Day2 exercise- 10 minute belly fat blasting workout.. dont ask. The idea is that cuz I've gained weight recently well no I dint weigh myself but it's harder to get into my jeans and barely managed my skinny jeans so yeah and I refuse to gain more.. Will try the regima for 30 days at least. Here's to doing!



That's all for tonight, will update more frequently I promise. Have a good Monday ahead!