TRUE COLOURS

i visited my cousin's 1st child 2day
the baby is so so so cute
i went to buy sumthing for my newest niece ytd
n i realise everything for babies is so cute
i wanted to have it for my own
i even ask my dad to buy it for me
but fortunately, my very rational dad ignored me

another cousin's daughter who is just 12 yrs old is so much taller then me
she's even taller than my dad
n she's oni 12!!
i just wanna add another 5cm to my height..155cm is enuf for me
it's so unfair!!

my sis say she's going to give me surprise..
wandering wat it is

my brain is going to explode after studying general paper
there's so much to study
i think i'll just fail my test
after all, failing is the key to success..hehe

something will still remain the same no matter how hard we try to change it..
i'm having prejudice against some1..how to change this?

u noe that i'm the kind that get jealous easily
i'm trying very hard to change
i'm not angry at u doesn't mean i dun mind wat u did to me
i reli mind, just tat i dun wanna tell
do u realise i'm not happy?
do u noe wat i'm going through?
do u care bout me?
tell me wat u r thinking
will it b better if i leave?
i'm sick of this thing happening to me almost avday
if it's so hard for us, lets just end it
there's no point of continuing this kind of hardship
if ur life will b better off without me , just tell me

sometimes i'll wondered izit my problem or urs?
or izit us?
i can't decide...i dunnoe wat to think

it's like whole world is abadoning me
i finally noe wat it's felt like when u think whole world had abandoned u
u will get mad at av1, u will think the world is unfair
then u will think: izit my fault?
n u can't get a answer for urself
it's hard to live like this

finally expressed my feeling..feels better now..


worst of all my very lao bei geh handphone is officially dead
i'm using my sis's hp
i wanna buy a new hp, but my parents dunwan to sponsor it..haiz
luckily rm500 is coming to me soon..

hmm, where shud i start?
last friday:
went swimming
went tuition
miss last gathering with see wah b4 she went to russia
wore a blue trousers which colour will fade when it is in touch with water( n guess wat? it rain heavily tat day!!)
n i've became a blue-blooded girl tat day!! looks awful...

last sat n sun:
ntg much happen
stay at home to study, completed 4 chapters of economic studies
facebook n keipo bout other's ppl life
send msg to see wah to tell her to miss me n intro leng zaís to me..haha

mon:
went out with some1
on9 for almost 6hrs continueously
drank a weird drink- orange tea( taste weird)
ate a very nice fried chicken

2day:
went to visit my ex tuition teacher-mr siew with karxian, honlean, wesley n winson
chat with them for almost 4 hrs
gave mr siew a pink tshirt as a give of appreciation
convince him to teach form6 but fail
found an interesting blog:
http://willyoumarryme2010.blogspot.com/
this guy is on a mission...lets help him to complete it

tml:
eat, sleep, study, on9
boring day..

i've lost interesst in almost everything
i dun like to watch tv, i dun like to on9, i dun like to listen to music..i dun like almost avthing
except sleeping n playing guitar
and of course study is a must

i reli wanted to stay in my hse whole day without going anywhere
i think i nid some time alone with myself
i dunnoe wat's wrong with me

i realise i've wasted alot of my precious time
i slept around 2 hours after school avday, n i always feel that 24 hrs aren't enuf for me
but by taking only 30 minutes nap per day, i can actually do alot of stuff

i've forgotten my essay's topic, so i'm unable to do it now
tat's y i'm blogging
n i did an account question all by myself, eventhough there r some mistakes, but i'm happy with it

received a call that brightens up my day
reli tq for avthing u did
n i'll appreciate u 4ever

hey blog, sorie for leaving u untouched for so long
i admit i'm a lazy pig
it's a tragedy for u to have me as ur owner

my life has been evolving between studies n dating with my lovely bed n pillows
yup, i slept alot n i reli meant ALOT!
exam is coming soon..a couple more weeks n it's d decision time
i think i'm going to be the last few in my class
but i'm pretty sure i won't b the last

i reli dun have to mood to study
but i reli have the mood to learn guitar
guitar ROCKS!!
i've borrowed a new guitar..it's a beautiful babe to me

there's some ugly pics of me in facebook
can't believe my primary classmate will upload that ugly pic
and there's my pics during camp
there's pic where i'm all wet, there's pic where i'm doing weird poses
there's even a video..miss the good old days

i have to wait till 2am only can go to bed..y?
bcoz i have to wake up a sleepyhead to study
i will definitely not sacrifice my sleeping time to study
to me, sleeping is the most important element in my life

i'm yawning...

i'm so 8 these days..
i'm too lazy to upload my blog, but i like to read other ppl's blog
my life is sooooo boring, so there's reli nothing to brag or to talk about(except my pillows)..haha
i suddenly hope tat my dad will buy me a new guitar..
but he say i shud use my own money..
did i mention i lost my atm card? it is still missing till now
without the card, life is meaningless