Team Jogan

So it seems... every time I get pregnant I always have a few problems :)
Yesterday I woke up from my nap feeling... wet. So I went into the bathroom and it looked like my water had broke. Which freaked me out since I'm only 12 weeks along. Anyway, so I called the doctor and they said the description I gave sounded like my water could have broken, but that it was super unusual for somebody this early. But they couldn't get me in that day (it was pretty late in the day) so they set me up an ultrasound appointment for the next day (today). Anyway, I spent the rest of the night laying on the couch not doing much in hopes that somehow things would be okay.
This morning I woke up about 6am and went to the bathroom and realized I was bleeding. At that point... I kind of lost hope. So I crawled back into bed and somehow fell back to sleep. When I woke up again I checked and there was no more bleeding, just a little brown colored, old blood, which signified that it was there a while before it came out. Which to me meant that the problem maybe wasn't my water breaking? I just wasn't sure. So I again... waited until appointment time finally came. The ultrasound went great. Baby is fine, heart beat of 163, with plenty of fluid around him/her. I was SO relieved. Anyway, then the tech finished checking things out and we went to meet with the doctor. The doctor said the baby looks great, but there is what they are thinking is a blood clot and probably caused the bleeding. The fluid is still confusing to us all. They aren't sure where it came from. There are a few options. 1. The placenta leaked some fluid into the uterus and then it gushed out and the placenta healed and the fluid replenished 2. It was just some fluid from in the uterus that leaked out or 3. It was an attempt at a twin pregnancy and the twin was just a gestational sac that didn't develop and finally just ruptured and is gone now. Anyway, we don't know, but everything is fine now, except I get two weeks of taking it easy (harder than it sounds when you have two kids!!!) to make sure that if the blood clot came from the placenta that it doesn't happen again.
Whew! Such a relief. The last two days have been a complete roller coaster and I am happy that it is over.

 

You know between being pregnant and nursing you don't get the chance much, so I fasted for the second time in a LONG time. Anyway, a man in our ward had been battling cancer so I was fasting for him and his family... Well it was a surprise the feelings and emotions that I experienced throughout the day, but one instance in particular was a truly amazing experience. Logan had stayed home sick and kept Abby with him. Emma and I went to church. I dropped Emma off at nursery and went to Sunday School. During Sunday School I had some really intense feelings that something was wrong. I kept thinking Emma had somehow gotten out of nursery and was wandering around lost somewhere waiting to be found. I was sitting in the middle of a middle row so I didn't want to get up and walk out to check on her if I didn't have to. So I closed my eyes and said a prayer. Just asked to know if I needed to check on her now. I got a distinct feeling of peace... But I still knew something was wrong. It took a while but a thought crossed my mind and I thought I knew what was wrong. I didn't know for sure until later that night when I was telling Logan about my experience. But as I was telling Logan the thoughts and feelings came soooo strongly that I couldn't deny it. It wasn't Emma that had been wandering around the church waiting to be found... It was another little spirit, farther away, ready to join our family...

 

 

A few weeks later packed up and moved! It was a crazy week. I was taking a class that went from 8-4 and my mom was watching the kids all week. And we were packing like crazy. And then Friday of that week we moved. Logan packed everything up and took off with the truck. KariAnne Pratt (best VTer EVER) and I cleaned my apartment, and then I packed the kids in the car and we moved. It's crazy to me that it happened. And it's crazy that we are here, in the town we are going to be in, hopefully forever!

 

When we were packing we were about 10 minutes too slow. Our tent and some stuff got soaked in the insane rainstorm and hailstorm that hit... It was soooo fun. Not, haha.