thatlady-hearts blog

It has been 4 weeks that boyfriend went into army. Life without him is getting stable. But everytime he come back and the moment he hug me i always wanna cry. Last week he came back on friday we chat alot end up he fall asleep on my bed and i will remember the way he say he is going back home and everything. Is so sweet ! Saturday he accompany me the whole day went to eat sushi it has always been our favorite went shopping and eat dinner with family.This week he is not gonna call me for 5 days because he is going out field. I am trying to find thing for myself to do. I hope i can change my job seriously because i dont wanna work on Saturday, Is the day he book out and i have to work. We cant even cherish the time that we have during the weekend. sighs. I miss him but i am trying to avoid the fact that i miss him just to make myself better. Sometime i would think choosing him is the right thing or is a mistake? But if time goes back who would i choose at the point of time? It will still be him. Even if we are not going to walk down to the marriage path but at least we are in love with each other before and had each other before. I Love you dear. Even if i know that i kept making you angry for some stuffs. Forgive me 🙂

Less than 12 hours later boyfriend is going to become botak and become a army boy. We have been staying together almost everyday for the past 3 years, for the next 2 years we might not be able to meet each other maybe for a week or maybe once a weeks. sighs. i really miss the days that we use to had. I really hope that i could cope without boyfriend being with me, is time for me to learn to be independent. This few day feel so happy because he is so sweet and sexy. ILoveHim to the max. maybe is time for me to grow up. I hope he does remember to call or text me. Hoping that he will be safe and our relationship will move down smoothly. May the god bless.

When to batam with boyfriend on the 27 to 28. We stay at the swiss hotel the room cost us about 80 bucks per night. expensive but it was really worth it 🙂 Went to eat A&W and shopping ! didnt buy much stuff because dont really see something that i like. Boyfriend bought a belt only as for me i bought a Polo and slippers. It was fun and massage was good also :)) so happy !  This trip wasnt about the place but the people that you are going with 🙂 Let the picture do the talking now 🙂

Today i am suppose to eat breakfast with boyfriend i asked him to wake me up and yet he didnt. Sighs. kinda sad but no choice. Tml is gonna go malaysia with mom and boyfriend? i wasnt that sure about him. He asked me to check it out for the batam trip and once i told him about what he asked and he ask me to book for it tml ? WHAT THE HELL ? we quarrel upon this topic and now he is bring up to me and ask me to book for it ! Why the hell we should quarrel about it ? just tell me you are interested in batam and thats it ! whatever now am ii suppose to be happy about it? i am not sure. He went to drink with his friend and he said he had too much of it. Hope he was fine tml without a bad hangover.

Today went to bugis with boyfriend i know something is not right we didnt not quarrel but he was quiet and trying to make me laugh with some jokes and the way he talks i did laugh alot but deep down my heart i am not happy because he wasnt happy at all. Maybe he was tired because he used to be sleeping in that hour in the past. I know that he has been hiding and keeping things from me since yesterday, i tried asking him whats that but he doesnt wanna say it. I try not to look into this matter but till just now his phone rings and is one of my cousin who called him. I was wondering why does she needs to call him everyday almost at that hour ? She is trying to ask me something but she actually called my boyfriend to ask him things about me! Why is that so ? Cant she just call me by herself? And when i asked what does she call for? Boyfriend doesnt wanna say it to me at all till when i am getting abit pissed he finally said PART of that. And till at night someone call boyfriend and i turn back and ask who was that? His answer was Dunno.. How could you not know someone who you just speak to? Sighs. I am trying not to become paranoid yet he is pushing me to become paranoid. I really wanna talk to him face to face. I dont wanna see us quarreling again. Please. I do love him thats why i am reacting this way.