1.26.2010

Crack is Wack Benny!!!

Benny has so much personality. He CRACKS me up! His pants are always hanging down and he is not even teen yet!





Ben is my messy child. Alex never liked to be dirty or sticky; Ben in the other hand is just a walking mess. It doesn't matter how many times you wipe his nose there's always boogers hanging down. He is a drool machine, his t's are always soaked wet and every ones in a while he will take a hand full of poop out of his diaper and play with it. He's messy when he eats, I mean, really messy and he loves going on the toilet and play with the water. Now there is a slight possibility that I may not care as much as I did with Alex to keep him clean but man if I did, I would probably go nuts. He makes it impossible to cut his hair and he will eat anything he finds on the ground. His favs are several days old pieces of chicken or bread..or both (I know, he wouldn't if I kept my floor clean).
He's definetly starting to show his temper now. Yesterday he bit me because I didn't wanna give him anymore oreos. He throws tantrums when he doesn't get what he wants. Its funny cause he'll run around until he finds a spot he considers safe to land on and thats when he throws himself on the floor and does all the adorable kicking and screaming.
But, isn't he CUTE? He loves playing with balls and cars.
He has the cutes little grin and he knows exacly when to use it (when in trouble).
I love my sweet sweet angel. Every morning he will greet me with a huge smile (and a big diaper) and makes me feel it's gonna be a great day.

1.24.2010

a little bit of nothing


Do you ever feel that way? Like you are in a dark hole, running for the light that keeps moving further and further away from you and all you wanna do fall and cry?

Life has been a bit difficult around here lately. Things that I hoped to be resolved a long time ago are still a problem. I lost control over things that are very important in my life and I'm having a very hard time getting that control back (and if you didn't know, I'm a control freak).

Im trying to learn all the good out of this situation.. Like,


when you are feeling down, look to your side and you'll find someone pulling you up.


That life is not always what you dream for but what you make of it.


That you will see the quality of those around you in the most difficul times.


That every day is a new start, a new opportunity for you to be better than the day before.


That I cannot turn back time or change the past.


That I have the potential to be whatever I want.


That Heavenly Father loves me and that my pain hurts him as well.


That I have more than a million reasons to never give up..


And the most important one..
That after every storm THERE WILL BE A RAINBOW TO WARM UP YOUR HEART.

1.17.2010

HAITI





My heart goes out to you.