Friday, October 28, 2005 today is the last day of school.. feeling unbearable.. but still have to leave each other for 2 months.. well.. this is.. school holidays.. haha.. well.. i hope in this 2 months.. i will slim down.. hee hee.. =) oh gosh.. i forgot to bring cam to school.. haiz.. if i bring then i can take pics.. haha.. its over le.. holidays teacher gave alot of homework to us.. soo many.. all the subs except for lit, geog and chnese.. i guess.. haha.. btw.. guess how we spend our last day in school?? first.. we went to school as per normal.. haa.. we went to class as quadrangle was wet becos of the rain earlier.. we went to class and wanjing suggested we do the cleaning of tables first.. like that we can confirm to get our report books back.. actually i also dunno lah.. oh mann.. i totally forget to bring rag and detergent.. i asked the gals if i could borrow some.. so we shared the detergent and the sponge or rags.. we were cleaning, cleaning and cleaning.. here comes PAUL!! with a big bottle of detergent and soo many old tee shirts... then we started to use the detergent to wash and we use sophia's detergent powder also.. we cleaned many tables.. we help most of them to clean as i know that they surely will not clean de so we help them to clean lah.. see we so good.. ahh.. while cleaning a few drops of detergent dirtied my skirt.. haiz.. well.. doesn't matter becos its like that lah.. at least i had fun cleaning them.. hee.. after all the cleaning and stuff ms lim and mdm rahma came in.. we greet them.. we had our national anthem sang and pledge said.. we had silent reading.. after that we went to the hall for dialouge session.. which is like discussing about everything in school lah.. like ccas, shoes.. and stuff.. haiz.. sian sia.. talk so much.. haha.. haiyah.. dun care le lah.. its over.. well.. the dialouge session end for 2 hours.. from 8am to 10.15am.. 1015 then go recess.. teacher say by 1045 must go back class do dunno what lah.. so many things to do.. so sian.. went back to class.. mr beh came with two survey forms.. one is corel draw de one is the video editing thing.. finished and we were all ready to get back our report books.. but teacher say alot of things before she gave us our report books.. the ncc bois so sway.. they can only get back their report books if they go for training that day.. haha.. yeah.. nth to write le.. take carez and i will cya soon ks.. =) blogged @ 3:24 PM Monday, October 24, 2005 this is the last week of school le.. friday getting back our report books.. haiz.. time flies.. so fast another year has gone.. and so fast i'm gonna be sec2.. and so fast a new year is gonna start very soon after the november, december holidays.. two months.. hope during this two months, i won't eat rubbish.. haha.. dunno if most of us gets up going to sec2, what will happen to the rest.. hope all of us gets promoted to sec2.. dun wanna see any of them retain.. if only life could be fair.. woaw! if this friday no pe then we won't have to present le.. hopefully there is.. cos i am so excited!! =P 1g had so many misunderstanding.. some is able to resolve but some is stayed there forever.. not say forever but for the whole year they seemed unhappy.. if the misunderstanding between them could resolve SOON, i promise i will never neglect any of my friends again.. really hope to see the old them back again.. both in the same class, same cca, same section.. both of them have their own specials.. the misunderstanding between them has never ended.. not even once.. A think that B is a backstabber.. B got hurt.. A thought that B leak out secrets of A.. haiz.. both has gone so far in class.. when is this miserable thing gonna end?? hopefully it will be now.. as the misunderstanding got deeper, the smaller chance of seeing them together agian.. now ppl just dun seem to be themselves.. they live for others.. they dun live for themselves.. some slim down becos of others.. some changed their image to be like others.. why can't they live for themselves??? some ppl dunno why they live.. they think that they live for the ppl around them.. well.. its not true.. alot ppl told me that i live for myself not live for others.. ppl can only see me physically.. they won't know what i'm thinking unless i tell them.. even if i tell them, they might not geddit.. they might get the wrong idea that i'm treating them as a rubbish dump.. treating them as nth matters.. some treated me the way i treat them.. that's where the phrase "dun treat others the way u dun want them to treat u" comes in.. this pharse is really special.. its becos its tells me that the way i treat other will be reflected as the way being treated.. and the way u treat others will leave an impression in u.. the way i treated someone is really bad.. but i can't bring myself to treat him any better.. thinking that the way he irritated me in the past.. made me scared of him.. made me feel goosebumps towards him.. the few days that he wasn't in school, i didn't care if he existed.. although seeing huiyi, sophia and shihui asking him why he didn't come to school made me feel guilty.. i have tried.. tried to treat him better but thinking that the way he treat others was compared to daryl.. he compared himself with daryl.. daryl did call him a dog.. but only him.. he called everyone a dog.. i mean.. he took things for granted.. and seeing the msges that he sent i can't see sincerity.. i can only see that he's not being sincere in apologising or even to say something.. always with the word "lolx" in between of something important.. always changing the topic when asking something serious.. if only he didn't treat others like a dog, i dun why i needa treat him one.. he's a flirt.. he likes soo many gals when he's already together with one of the gals he liked and liked him.. he's just taking things too simple.. not taking things seriously only made ppl think that he's a sloppy person and never taking things seriously.. haiyah.. i dun wish to talk about him lah.. talk about him only made me feel goosebumps.. sometimes i really wondered why life must have love and bgr.. just dun geddit.. it may be thinking of some ppl saying that love is wonderful and noble.. but i dun see any points in love that is noble.. that is wonderful.. well.. have many friends started all this even before sec 1.. some started right when they got into sec1.. i dun see the need of having bgr when they dunno the real meaning of love.. yeah i can admit that when i was in pri school i used to have stupid desires of having bgr.. even now.. but i told myself i won't like anybody until i meet him.. many times ppl ask me who i like.. well.. i just said nobody and my answers will still be the same.. its becos i simply have no idea of what is love and have liked so many guys before.. all not serious.. and the like i say is just simple.. not for the character but for the looks.. but now i realised that looks ain't that important.. although it still does.. i got hurt before that's why i have stopped to like anybody.. although i didn't get a chance to be love or a chance to love, i'm still happy.. becos i'm happy to be a single.. i'm happy to lead a single life.. happy that i have friends that love me and i love them.. so i dun see the need of having bgr.. not important to me.. my friends and family is always placed first in my life.. studies second.. and bgr will be last.. cos its not as important as having true friends.. well.. hopefully my life leads a very smooth single life.. take carez.. =) blogged @ 5:50 PM Sunday, October 16, 2005 haha.. i meet belinda at batok at 6.30pm.. cos we are gonna celebrate mike's birthday.. haha.. and i didn't know how to go turf city.. so i meet belinda at 6.30pm she said we are meeting the rest at 7pm.. haha.. btw.. its on the 14th of oct.. which is the day before.. i meet belinda at 6.30pm lah.. then she asked me to wait for her infront of the bus 77 there.. so i waited for her there.. she arrived and we left for turf city.. thought we will be late.. well.. in the bus, i took out a card to write birthday wishes for mike.. as i write, the bus was moving.. so its abit diff to write.. haha.. i ask belinda how old was mike and she say he's 20.. that means year 85 de.. ahh.. ok nvm.. its my mistake.. when we reach the bus stop outside turf city where we meet the rest, we are the first to arrive there.. thinking that the meeting time is at 7, nobody was there.. well.. belinda see wrong time.. its at 7.30.. ahh.. nvm.. we didn't wait for a long time too.. something sad is that there's only 5 of us.. mike, vincent, wenjun, belinda and me.. haha.. thought it would be alot of ppl.. haha.. well.. i enjoyed myself too.. mike got a soundtrack and a game i guess from some of them.. i just gave him a card.. apologise for the mistake i made.. he's 19 not 20 anyway.. haha.. i only knew that when i accidently saw the wrapper of the present.. wenjun written there happy 19th birthday.. i was like so paiseh.. haha.. then we walk into turf city.. feeling so excited.. haha.. mike kept taking out the present he got.. haha.. how envious..well.. i dun go for games and stuff.. as we walk, vincent was like talking on the phone since the minute he called someone at the bus stop.. until we reach the resturant.. hmm.. not exactly a resturant btw.. its a seafood resturant.. it cost us 60 bucks.. each paying 12 bucks.. vincent blanjar mike the 12 bucks.. haha.. hmm.. isit the birthday present for mike, vincent?? haha.. joking lah.. btw.. vincent was wearing his spects.. normally he wear contacts.. but dunno why that day wear spects.. then everytime he got put wax then style his hair de.. that day he didn't even style his hair.. haha.. belinda told me then i know.. haha.. wenjun ask the uncle give us a cooling place becos its really very warm in there u know.. haha.. we got the stuff and went to sit down at the table.. vincent still talking on the phone.. then he pass me a plate to get whatever i want lah.. then i took the plate belinda sit at the table looking after our belongings.. i walk one round.. dunno what to take.. so i came back to the table told belinda to take over me go take the food.. haha.. then i take over look after the belongings.. mike put the butter on the plate which is on the stove.. too much butter liao.. when he put the chicken on it, the thing kept splattering.. then wah.. we kana hit by the butter.. then here comes vincent with the full plate of beef.. he sat down for awhile first.. btw.. mike came back with a full plate of chicken.. the two guys served us leh.. i mean they cook for us.. wenjun was saying anybody who becomes vincent's gal, is very lucky.. becos he knows how to cook... mike cook little bit then the rest vincent cook.. vincent hardly sit down.. he was serving all of us u see.. he cook so much chicken.. and beef.. wenjun say to vincent when he get the full plate of beef, saying that make sure u finish the beef hor.. haha.. vincent ask me if i want the beef.. i say dun want.. then he served me with the chicken so much chicken.. so nice sia the chicken haha.. here come belinda with vegetables..btw.. wenjun came back with mushrooms! she said she like to eat mushrooms.. haha.. well.. the gals referring to us, didn't do much.. we only sit there eating what the guys cooked.. mike and vincent are the ones doing the cooking.. we are the ones doing the eating haha.. as we eat finish the food.. vincent went to get more food.. wenjun went to get live prawns which was already dead and oysters.. 25 prawns and 10 oysters.. wah so much leh.. wenjun ate most oysters.. she like to eat that too.. prawns was also in her fave list.. haha.. she ate crab shell also.. with vincent the chef helping her to cook the prawns and the crab shell.. vincent was taking about science??!! hha.. dunno what convection, conduction and radiation.. haha.. lame lor.. after dinner we left alot of prawns and oysters.. its already 10pm.. i didn't go home. belinda bu fang xin i go home myself.. so she ask me go her ah ma house with her to spend the night there.. we all reach the bus stop outside and waited for bus 74.. while waiting, vincent was like twirling my hair.. arghh.. lame hor.. haha.. he so fun leh.. then bus come liao went up the bus le.. waved goodbye to the rest.. reach belinda's ah ma house liao her aunt, her ah ma and her cousin was watching the cd.. dunno what's the name of the show again.. haha.. nice show.. haha.. then went to bath.. then the next day nth much happen lah.. so dun needa to post..=) blogged @ 11:08 AM Friday, October 14, 2005 haha.. exams are over two days ago.. just lazy to blog.. hmm.. so.. how's exams?? bet most of ur studied hard for ur finals.. haha.. i didn't study.. haha.. dun scold me hor.. hee..yeah.. well.. the exams ain't that difficult anyway.. haha.. good teachers dun always have to come out with difficult exam questions huh?? haha.. teachers gave us lotsa hints for the finals.. haha.. cool.. yesterday and today marking day.. so dun needa go back to school.. so was thinking of sleeping longer as its a holiday for me.. mei xiang dao hor.. haiz.. my sleeping plan was ruinned by sophia and weiteng.. sophia woke me up from my sleep at 9 in the morning yesterday!! today weiteng larggy cham ah.. she called me at 7 plus ah!! arghh.. there goes my sleep!! sad hor.. wah both of them all wake up so early de lor.. yesterday say 9 go jogging with her.. today is go for breakfast... yesterday sophia actually wanted ask me go jogging with her.. i say dun want.. then she wanna go library at 10.. at that time i just woke up cos can't get back to sleep mah.. then today weiteng ask me go breakfast with her.. i told her call me back at 8.30.. then she say unable to call.. she say she call until 8.55 still unable to call.. haha.. at last 8.55 can call liao.. haha.. pro hor.. i also dunno what's going on lor.. haha.. well.. its not the first time they woke me up from my sleep.. arghh.. i wanna sleep longer.. dun so early call me ah.. next time.. haha.. k lah.. well.. yesterday afternoon lijie msged me told me about mike's birthday today.. i was so shock.. haha.. i told ok.. but have to ask my mama first.. i wait until mama come back then i ask her.. she say ok.. well.. i meeting lijie 6.30pm at cck interchange.. i will be leaving the house at 5.15pm.. just in case.. haha.. although my downstair got 67.. but i dunno how to go turf city.. so i meet lijie lor.. haha.. well.. i blog when i come back from there k?? haha.. kk.. cheerz peeps!.. take carez.. and cya.. =) blogged @ 10:32 AM Sunday, October 9, 2005 life didn't seemed the way i expected it to be.. why did life have so much of misery?? is life worth the betray of ur dignity? if life is worthy, why did ppl betray themselves for money?? why did money exist?? if money didn't exist, ppl won't have financial prob.. if money didn't exist, ppl ould not betray themselves just for the sake of supporting their family.. for the sake of being somebody.. life is in a mess.. in world that nobody cares.. i'm trying to help.. i'm trying to turn everything.. i'm trying.. running to the river, but ended up jumping into the sea.. river is swallower than the seas, the oceans.. seas and oceans seemed so deep.. trying to save the situation.. but i think its all a waste of time and effort.. there's no use for me to persuade her anymore.. i tried.. very hard.. the stubborness in her made her chose the wrong route the wrong path.. for the sake of money.. betraying her soul.. says that everything in life seemed meaningless to her liao.. i didn't know.. maybe its her.. i want her old self back.. says that there's no more turning back.. no more route for her.. if u are reading this i hope u understand.. truly hurt.. truly disppointed in life.. truly lost hope, faith in life.. lost of dignity in her sense.. why did all this happen?? if all this didn't make life so difficult for her, she still can turn back.. totally lost.. totally dunno what to do.. tell me what to do if u really exist.. lost of faith when that something happened.. blogged @ 12:08 AM Monday, October 3, 2005 haha.. went tampines regional library with ruwan, shihui and kahming on sat 1st oct 2005.. children's day.. its the first time shihui went out with her friends.. the very very first time.. haha.. and well she's going out with her "honey", me and kahming who are the gooseberries.. muahaha.. bleah lame.. i meet shihui at bedok interchange alighting point at 1pm.. btw, i wore jeans and black tee.. on friday, when me and sophia went to shihui's house for the p.e powerpoint slides.. presenter gotta do the slides..actually when say go study sophia wanted to go but when we say go tampines library then she dun wanna go liao.. then shihui went to ask her mum if she can go lah.. then a miracle came and that's when shihui's mum agreed to her request.. shihui was so excited.. dunno what to wear.. but she wanted to wear a mini jeans skirt.. she told me to wear but i refused.. at first ok but then at last decided to wear jeans.. we called ruwan first becos shihui was wondering if sophia didn't go then only me and her very sian.. so she called ruwan.. ruwan can go also.. becos ruwan leave very far from the east, we told him meet us tampines control station at 1.30pm.. when we met ruwan i called kahming whose living in tampines, can come down liao.. he say ok.. btw, he said he only take 5min to reach tampines library if he takes a bus.. but he was like dragging until about 2.15pm then he called me ask me where we were.. by that time, ruwan has already finished his homework.. so i asked ruwan to go fetch kahming up lah.. they came up.. ruwan became abit talkative liao.. cos finally his "bro" come and accompany him mah.. before that was like 1 guy and 2 gals.. he so paiseh.. dun even dare talk to us.. wah.. kahming really very pro lor.. he came in red tee, 2 quater shorts and sandals.. and 2003 national day backpack high high de.. i was like.. me wearing jeans and black tee plus shoes.. bag is sling bag.. ruwan wearing black tee and long pants plus shoes.. bag also sling bag.. shihui wearing pink tee and mini skirt plus shoes.. bag also sling bag.. pro right.. wah.. guess what shihui said when me and ruwan wear black tee, long pants, shoes and sling bag.. she say me and him very pei.. like couple.. i was like.. "hey he's urs man.." haha.. wah.. kahming came in really sloppy.. btw.. the library's closing at 3pm.. we left the library at about 2.45pm.. well.. the three of us, shihui, ruwan and me did some of our homework.. i didn't finish all.. but shihui and ruwan finished all their homework.. kahming was like.. didn't even do his homework.. bring the homework all for fun..go there copy ruwan's work.. btw.. he reach there, he take my phone.. haiyoh.. dunno do what lah.. so pro lor.. go there actually is study de.. but he didn't lah.. just he wanna sleep.. haiyoh.. after we left the library at 2.45pm, we went tm.. for our lunch.. went to long john for lunch.. me and shihui ate combo 1.. but kahming and ruwan didn'teat.. instead they went to buy the umeya the thing.. they also never eat.. they buy the items from the shop for the sake of the plastic bag.. haiyoh.. rich lor.. btw.. ruwan's the one who paid for the stuff.. then i ask him why dun wanna eat.. he say ladies first..wahh.. so gentleman sia.. then after awhile, kahming ate the jelly from the packet of deserts.. then ruwan said i thought i said ladies first?? i was like.. -.-'' do u know that me and shihui shared one drink and gave the other to the guys.. i mean both of us bought a drink each but becos shihui wanted to share with me as she can't finish the whole cup by herself.. so we share.. and gave the other cup to them lah.. ruwan say he very full.. he pour half into his voda voda waterbottle which he bought at cheers earlier on.. the other half kahming drink.. wah.. pro.. haha..while eating, i never use the knife to cut de mah.. shihui being so gentle.. no lah actually she very cor lor wan.. just trying to be gentle on that day.. she used the knife to cut her chicken and even the fries she cut.. hey guess what kahming said.. he said lian na ge fries ye yao cut.. which means the fries also wanna cut ah.. like being so.. wah the fries can just poke and eat mah dun need cut wan lah.. i think that's what he meant.. haha.. after lunch at long john, we went to take neoprint.. no matter how we forced kahming to take he persisted.. wah he damn pro at rejecting and running around the level.. shihui forced him to take but then kahming run shihui chased him.. me and ruwan was like.. -.-'' public place also wanna play.. well.. ruwan actually also dun wanna take one.. but we pull him in.. me, shihui and ruwan went into the shop first.. kahming waited outside.. we changed money and joined in the queue.. ruwan told us he go outside to bring kahming in.. he tried to pull him in like we tried pulling him earlier on.. after awhile, shihui joined in and pull him in.. too bad.. still unable to pull him.. see lah.. 2 person also cannot pull a so thin de guy.. haiyoh.. at last only me, ruwan and shihui go take lor.. but ruwan he take only two shots then he run out liao.. then me and shihui continue the rest of the shots.. haha.. finally finished taking.. went out for decorating the shots.. we were like waiting and waiting until someone told us that ours is at the side.. ahh.. so paiseh sia.. we was like ok.. we went to the wrong decorating machine.. we decorated.. the neoprint was printed out.. we went out of the shop.. actually wanna go back into the shop and cut.. but kahming said he got scissors.. so we cut outside the shop.. we ask ruwan want anot.. he say dun want.. but we still gave the shots with him.. no matter he wanna take or not we stuff it to him.. today.. shihui told me that she saw our neoprint pasted in the wallet of ruwan's.. i was really happy.. haha.. yeah.. well.. there's something bad happened today too..well.. i dun wished to talk about it here.. but good news.. we patched up liao.. u must be thinking who i patched up with right.. haha.. i patched up with lee wee and huiyi liao.. and once again we are friends.. so the moral of the story is.. true friends do quarrel but it won't be a very long period of time.. friends always patched up after a some quarrel and some time.. just give each other some time to realise where we done wrong or stuff.. friends forever.. take carez.. blogged @ 6:50 PM