Thursday, February 23, 2006 for this few days, i haven't been feeling good.. in 4 days i cried 3 times.. and its all becos i quarrelled with my friends.. big trouble.. its like shouting in class at each other until ppl from other classes stop and see.. hais.. its kinda malu u see.. and now 2 friends gone.. i was still wondering if sophia hated me.. cos she this few days talk to me also less than 20 words.. i felt really sad.. cos she's one of my pals.. and i dun wish to see us like that.. i dun wanna lose a friend like her.. i wanna maintain our friendship and keep it close to me.. but i failed to do so.. guess its becos this few days i'm like a mad women so maybe that changes our relationship between each of us.. has been hoping that she dun hate me.. hoping that our friendship will come back one day.. i will wait.. patiently.. hoping she's not angry with me.. hopiing she will forgive me.. and yeah.. i have forgiven weihan.. but still dun have the courage to talk to him.. actually, i have never hated him.. just feeling that his attitude is kinda problematic in the past.. but now i have learnt from sophia that one must forgive and forget.. know that its gonna take us some time before we are good friends again.. now i dun even dare to call sophia.. i just dunno what to do.. can anyone tell me what to do?? many ppl said i've changed.. i've become more petty.. well, and many ppl dislike me in class.. prefrably the malays.. i dunno.. heard from shariffah that many malays dun like me.. becos i have changed.. i really dunno.. i wanna change.. really.. blogged @ 7:23 PM Saturday, February 18, 2006 today's games day.. nth much.. went gb first then went meet huiqi at 215.. went straight to cck after gb.. kinda regretted not going home first.. cos went there too early liaos.. hahha.. sian.. went ho,e at around 6 plus.. when i at jurong interchange, lijie call me.. ask me pei her go watch performance.. at tampines.. then i was like.. ok lor.. but then too bad no time go home bath.. so just went there lor.. cos i feel that i stink.. so bo bian lor.. hahah.. oh myy.. the performance is actually at ssa.. myy.. haha.. didn't expect to be there.. haha.. yeah lor.. that's how i end my day..=) blogged @ 10:12 PM Sunday, February 12, 2006 haha.. i actually watched i not stupid too twice.. once in my life time i ever watched a movie in the cinema twice.. in the same cinema some more.. just with different ppl..first time is with kayan, nelson, eric, melvin and jerlisa.. i dunno why i got angry with them for some time.. then ok liao.. yesterday i watch again with ruwan, kahming, edwin, paul and one more guy dunno how to spell his name.. its pronounced as dillon?? well, i dunno.. haha.. i'm supposed to meet them 1pm at tampines mrt.. i thought i couldn't make it on time.. btw, i was the only gal in the group.. after gb, i went to change into my home clothes i brought.. at about 12 plus, peiting, huiying and me went to take a bus to tampines.. they pei me go tampines walk walk first.. haha.. i in the bus on my way to tampines already then ruwan tell me meet at school side gate.. i was like.. err..i already in the bus.. then i at the tampines mall already they ask me meet them at the mrt station.. i told them to meet me at gv.. ahha.. at last we didn't meet at 1300.. we met at 2 plus.. the guys was like.. go arcade played for 2 hours just becos we didn't get to buy the 1540 show.. and had to buy the 1740 show.. then they play for so long lor.. i was like.. following them.. all the while.. seeing them play.. ruwan said we want to smuggle stuff into the cinema.. so we went ntuc to buy some stuff.. ruwan bought a 1.5litres of f&n grape and a packet of yupi sweet.. all sai into my bag.. btw, i'm not carrying it.. he's carrying it for me.. hahas.. good hors.. hahas.. cannot let shihui see.. if not she jealous.. =p ahah.. no lah.. joking.. i got headache after the few hours in the arcade.. went into the cinema feeling super sick.. watched the movie.. came out, ruwan drop my waterbottle in the cinema without noticing it.. until downstairs, i went back to the cinema and got my waterbottle.. hey ruwan should be the one helping me the sick person to get my waterbottle ok.. but end up i got it myself.. hais.. well.. its okay.. felt so faint.. went home right after that.. blogged @ 9:35 PM Thursday, February 9, 2006 hais.. i wonder what happened to riduan.. he today like very unhappy.. well.. guess i wasn't able to help.. cos i dun even know what's going on.. i realised that i have really been soo petty this few days.. getting angry over trivial matters.. crying over stupid stuff.. i wonder what in me now.. maybe becos god knows that i dun accept him as my personal saviour.. i really dunno.. well, i have my own reasons.. guess becos i felt that i'm not fit to be one as i dun do anything.. i look down on myself.. well.. he knows.. he's perfect.. he knows what in me.. i really dunno whether to continue to trust him or just give up.. perhaps i dun like the way some of them treated me.. and i dunno if i should continue to go church.. always feel that they dun care me liao.. i just wanna be normal and perhaps dun believe in anything? i really wonder.. i really wonder if i mean anything to anyone.. i really wanna change.. i dun wanna be petty.. i dun wanna be crybaby.. i just wanna be the real me.. well.. guess.. its gonna take me some time before i adapt bah.. blogged @ 6:24 PM Saturday, February 4, 2006 hahaa.. today went to huiyi's, m'am saihong's and m'am jasmine's house for home visitation.. my house also.. hahas..met at bedok interchange at 0930 infront kfc.. we took cab all the way.. hahas.. kinda ex.. hahas.. my house was the first station.. then huiyi then m'am saihong then m'am jasmine our last station.. hahas.. not bad not bad.. got some ang baos today.. HAHA.. oh i love angbaos!!.. bleah.. hahas.. hmm..m'am saihong's house is damn big lahs.. 3 storey mann!!.. oh my gosh.. her house got guitar, piano, guzheng.. wahh.. damn rich lah.. haha.. so many intruments lor.. its really damn big lah her house.. how envious.. aww.. hahas.. sian.. my cam no batt.. then cannot bring my cam along to take pictures.. peiting likes to take pictures soo much that she kept repeating take picture take picture.. sian.. had lunch at m'am jasmine's house.. her house 5 room flat with balcony.. but looks kinda small.. think not small lah maybe too many ppl liao so look very cramp and small.. haha.. after m'am jasmine's house we went home.. i went tuition.. haa.. today go wrong tuition.. actually its correct lah.. but i shouldn't go normal acad maths tuition should go express maths tuition.. cos i study express maths so the book also different.. but then stayed for the tuition today.. haha.. kinda fun.. haha.. raining after tuition ends.. haa.. today mr tan wear same shirt again!! haiyah.. zai zai one lor.. he everytime also wear same one.. hahas.. no lah.. sometimes lah.. hahas.. hmm.. ate alot of junk food today.. ahaha.. dunno why sia.. eat alot of rubbish for the sake of eating.. haha.. yeah.. that's how my CNY home visitation ended.. hahas.. great day!.. =) blogged @ 8:56 PM Thursday, February 2, 2006 hohoho.. i've bought my digi cam.. and i'm so happy about it.. my big bro doesn't know about it.. hahaha.. dunno if should tell him.. dun tell him he also will know one.. one day.. haha.. its such a great day.. 2nd uncle, 2nd aunty, papa and mummy pei me go buy one.. it cost 349 bucks..i'm soo happy.. haha.. still exploring how to use it.. haha.. must play with it first.. if not until dunno when still dunno how to use.. hahas.. its soo cool.. haha.. btw.. we went century square best denki to buy it.. alot of functions.. hahas.. i must take good care of my cam mann.. haha.. if not i will never forgive myself.. hahas.. =) blogged @ 10:23 PM