Wednesday, August 30, 2006 wahh i saw junjie today.. hahah. he want to run away but then at last i still saw him.. hahaa.. i wanted to call wang junjie but then at last i called lin junjie.. siao sia.. hurr... nth much today.. just dun feel like smiling today.. my mood was bad.. this days... anyways.. its just moodswing i guess... =D blogged @ 9:13 PM Tuesday, August 29, 2006 wahtever lahs.. today my limbs have so many yi li yi li lors.. its like so itchy.. oh my gosh... i kept scretching then leewee scold me.. haha. she dun let me scretch.. bleahs.. haha.got so many sia.. on my thighs on my hands... hais.. anyways.. today ok lah.. just that got one last min thing then very rush lahs.. stupid sia.. today i very chao ah lian.. bleahs.. i mean the way i talk and the way i walk is super buey song one.. haha. its like at first got IT make up lesson already like so what le.. then last min got enrichment lesson then no more make up IT lahs.. then i was like.. hellooo.. i got better things to do than go this kinda of enrichment lesson lors.. like.. what put paperon ur head draw 3 stick man holding hands, with a smiley face on the middle man then put name below the middle man.. whatever shit lahs.. not important i think.. haha. i scrible on the piece of paper lahs.. hahhaa. hmm.. i went see doctor just now after taf... then omg.. i saw randy's mummy leh.. in the clinic at the counter there.. i was kinda surprised lahs.. haha. then i quite malu lahs.. haha. hmm.. sian.. then after see doctor go home bath then go tuition.. and now, i'm blogging.. HAHA.. blogged @ 10:14 PM Monday, August 28, 2006 wahlao. ok lahs. its my fault for asking ppl not to tell u that i was promoted, but have u thought of why i did so? its becos the first time i was promoted to lance corporal already u not happy then now i dun wanna tell u i promoted to corporal becos u will confirm dun wanna be committed lor.. and u will confirm think that m'ams are being biased.. pls lor.. if u can be committed, be punctual, come gb every week make sure ur attendance is good and pls lor.. ur attitude shows that u dun even commit urself into gb lahs.. u think my rank for fun one ahh.. u think i work hard just to get the rank? hello.. i wanna be committed to my cca oks.. i'm doing everything not becos i wanna get the highest rank ok. i wanna prove to others that whatever thin ppl can do, i fat person also can do ok.. yes, who dun wanna be promoted?? of course i wanna get promoted. but i dun wanna get promoted through relations ok. i wanna get promoted with my own capabilities ok.. and dun shout at me for nth ok.. check before u scold can.. nobody talking about u anyhow scold.. BACKSTABBER.. anyhow say i say ppl.. what the hell... dunno dun anyhow talk lah.. didn't even hear what we talking about jiu han xue pen ren.. whatever lah u... NONSENSE. blogged @ 4:31 PM Saturday, August 26, 2006 whoo.. i'm promoted to CORPORAL.. wahahaha.. haha. anyways.. went to sch early this afternoon around 1245??? hahaa. hmm.. went to sch to prepare, to settle our bags in gb room and and set off to presbyterian high sch. [sorry if any mistake.] its a national event of course we had to be in our full U. even m'am jasmine, our captain were in U for the very first time. and of course m'am hwee leng were in hers too.. haha. both officers wore their full U for the first time.. i was saying m'am jasmine's hair very outstanding.. she can be counted as the only officer with her hair dyed.. HAHA. hmm.. hais.. why am i crying this few days? i can't get things right.. i got reprimanded.. i got so tired.. i got so sick of everything around me.. een evryone around me.. really.. well, nvm.. as ms ho says, one should be living for the future. let the past be the past.. if wrong, change, correct, just remain. doesn't it make sense?? hmm.. after the promotion thing went back to sch for bnss BB 10th anniversary.. only me, zhili and kimhong went.. but still ok lahs.. smart seh them.. haha. i'm so tired today.. wore full U for the whole day lahs.. its like so hot.. hais.. sth i wanna say now.. to feline: hey. so sorry i can't make it to ur chalet aka bday celebration.. i have got stuff to do.. and somemore... i didn't wanna see some ppl.. hmm.. anyways, happy belated bday ya. =) to church: hey. so sorry to my church friends. sorry that i didn't turn up for fellowship this few weeks.. have been really busy for my gb stuff.. will try to turn up soon.. sorry to my leaders, vincent and huiqi.. i promised i would turn up.. but sorry i didn't really kept my promise.. i was really busy for my gb.. esp july and august.. i will turn up after my exams. really. now i swear. hmm.. i'mm sorry to all my mates. i'm really tired. blog next time. having a headache.. hais. bye. blogged @ 9:54 PM Friday, August 25, 2006 i'm totally freaked off lah.. my mummy die die also dun let me have that phone which just cost 198 bucks??!! okok. nvm.. i dun care anymore.. i msged him.. wa long long msg.. which consisted of 7 pages.. of course 2,3,2 pages seperated lah.. i knew he won't reply. cos he will just say he dunno what to reply. whatever. blogged @ 10:09 PM oh my god.. today after sch go find m'am jasmine and m'am hweeleng to go the tailor thing to make my cullottes.. hmm.. at first thought going meet him to buy feline's present one.. then he go say buy tmr.. then i say tmr i cannot.. then he say what buy what church dunno what lah.. then i dun give a damn le.. anyway.. he sees her more important what. so why should i even give a freaking damn??? what the hell........ i dun give a damn to this freaking guy lah.. dun even care whether i'm dead or not.. wah lao ehh.. dun even know if he treats me as a true and real friend.. what the hell.. ok whatever.. no mood to blog lahh... BYEBYE. blogged @ 4:01 PM Thursday, August 24, 2006 make my life a better one... make my life more colourful. make my life lively.. who can be so nice?? i dun think anyone will.. sometimes its really sad.. in sch.. i felt that many ppl doesn't know me truely.. i felt so lost.. but i dunno who i can turn to.. not eric definitly.. cos its pretty obvious that he sees feline's present more than me being burnt or even injured.. and that he doesn't care.. all i want is a word of care and concern.. even if its not from him, who cares?? ppl said they would be with me.. remembered i lost 6 marks for my lit test?? i failed just for 1 mark.. remember the day i am burnt? remember the day i cried? remember the day i fell? remember the day i felt lost, felt that nobody was with me? thinking that all these might be so commonnow.. but all i want is someone to just care for me.. nobody was there for me.. even when they said: "pam, dun cry, no matter what happens, we'll be there for u." pls. i'm really tired of all these words.. if u only meant to make me happy, and all these are just empty words, dun promise me ath if u can't do it.. i dun want empty promises.. really.. i'm really tired.. i may be saying all these time and time again.. but who listens?? someone said that he would listen to me.. but is that empty words?? i think it is.. cos.. i'm nth.. i just have to confidence.. many ppl thinks that i'm a guy.. i mean i'm boyish.. but does that really matter? just becos i dun like wearing skirts?? its my appearance that many ppl dun like.. even i myself dun like my appearance.. whatever, i can't do ath.. serious. if u aren't true to make me happy, dun make happy with an unwilling heart.. i only want sincerity.. true from heart.. really. all these is what i want.. i'm not asking for much.. sigh.. blogged @ 7:38 PM Wednesday, August 23, 2006 hahaa. today do the fliming for the music pro again.. cos monday not successful.. now also not so successful.. hahaha. hmm.. nth much to blog lahs.. hais. sian ahh... tmr thursday le.. haven't call the ppl yet.. whether they going back to yuneng not.. hais.. i feel like just let nature takes its course.. and i dun feel like calling.. hahah. cos i feel like i'm forcing them or sth.. haha.. but i promised i will plan a gathering.. hahah. but until now i haven't done so.. hahaha. cos i very busy lor.. i is da mang ren oks.. hahaha. hmm.. perhaps i have to spend the weekends calling?? hahaa.. hmm.. i'm going to have practical exam tmr for home econs.. anyone wants my cookies??? hahahaa. confirm very nice one.. hahhaa. ok lahs. its very lame.. haha. u want eat also i might not give u leh.. hahaha. i might not even give someone lor.. haha. hmm.. sian ahh.. havetochoose sub for next year.. many ppl choosing poa.. hope i choose i can get in lahs.. cos i hate the rest of the sub.. which is F&N, D&T, art & design.. i seriously hate it.. i mean i really wanna work hard lor.. hais.. nvm.. i will really do my best.. i dun wanna regret.. really.. haa.. ok theres's too many "haha"s.. hahhaa. oops.. sorry.. haha. bleahs.. haiyah.. enough of hahas but haiyah.. hurhur. okok i know i'm getting more and more topic-less.. HAHA. bleahs,.. ok lahs. nth to blog lahs.. tmr? confirm got thing blog one.. haha. =D blogged @ 8:02 PM Tuesday, August 22, 2006 ahhh.. can u believe i fell down again?? u know how i fell?? i was in taf lah then we are to do some squatting and walking exercises.. i mean squat and walk.. get it?? hahaha. then i think my shoe too not slippery then i fell.. hahahha.. bleahs.. pain ok.. the surface is as rough as bricks leh!!! hahaha..bleahs.. then nobody cared. hahah. nvm. doesn't matteer.. but anyway.. eric msged me. asked me if i'm getting ath for feline.. i didn't felt like replying him.. but i did.. i told him i wasn't he ask if i wanna share.. so ok lor.. i share with him lor.. then i asked him if he knew about me being burnt.. he said he knew but TOO LATE?? hello. if u really care for someone, how late doesn't matter as long as u have the heart ok.. so i didn't replied.. hur.. whatever.. doesn't matter.. i die also nobody will care.. perhaps only for ppl who really treasure me.. whatever... blogged @ 7:48 PM Sunday, August 20, 2006 just came back from camp.. very tired lor.. then some more we didn't get to bath.. not even at least once a day.. hahaa.. anyways. this camp was organised by the 34th coy.. its a training camp.. we had fire drill. .and we had to change into our full U in 5 min.. and even if we had the time to bath, we can only bath for at most 3 min.. well, what to do.. we are ug... haha.. ok now i'll report to ur about my camp day by day.. First day...[18 aug 06] hmm.. after orali had to rush home to bath and get my luggages and had to set off to st hildas..i was so nervous.. haha..we didn't really do much that day.. wasted alot of time.. i didn't surrender my phone.. cos i think i didn't see the need.. hahah.. so i'm kinda secretive lahs.. haa.. hmm.. we had to cook our own food at night.. using messtins, fuels, matches, wax.... and we are given cooked rice, luncheon meat, egg, cabbage, fishball, hotdogs.... and we ahd to set the fire with the materials given.. hahaa.. didn't really eat much lahs.. cos they all finished the food what.. then all of us had to struggle with raw cabbage.. haha..hmm.. then we sleep at 12 plus i think.. haha.. oh yeah. i dunno what's going on.. there's a gal i think i know who but i won't name it here.. there she was having her period, and we are asked to bring used envelopes to put our sanitary pads.. but instead of puting it in the envelope, she actually threw it under the sink in the toilet.. and its not pad ok.. its a lump of tissues, filled with u know.. its so damn freaking gross lah.. no offence ahh.. but it's really irresponsible of that gal.. Second day...[19 aug 06] woke up at around 0645.. went for morning exercise at 0700 i think.. haha.. then cos we are late what then we had to run to the chalet entrance from our chalet.. in 20 seconds.. haha. then when i run until the entrance, gonna run back that time, my slippers came out cos got ppl step on iit.. haha. but i dun care i just ran back.. me and abigail leading.. wahahha.. bleahs.. fast huh. hahaa. we ran only once.. haha. got squats had o run twice..or thrice i think.. hahaha.after exercises is quiet time.. then gb meeting.. all my ppl came for meeting.. except for huiting.. xinhui was very sick.. she got high fever.. and her fever has already started last wed.. she didn't come to sch on thurs cos she's got a fever..its already 4 days.. hais.. i'm so worried for her.. then m'am jasmine sent xinhui back home.. she was strong.. no doubt she was sick, she still came for gb.. that's a very good attitude.. really.. jiayou ks! she didn't went for cip.. cip was alright lahs.. it was national day carnival aty around marine parade.. we are asked to do crowd control.. it was quite ok.. but when we are leaving there, and going back to camp, i suddenly wanted to go home with yichun they all.. i felt really lost.. i wanted to go home with them.. and at that moment i regretted going for the camp.. hais. and when they left the bus, at bedok inter, i felt really left out.. i dropped my tears.. i didn't want to.. hais.. nvm.. went back to camp and reached at around 8.. saw the seniors of st hildas standing in the house.. they had a fire drill.. the sec 1s, made fun of it.. i felt that there's no funny matter although its just a practise.. hmm.. i have surrendered my phone.. peiting surrendered hers too.. the sec1s some is surrender some is confiscated.. they cried.. i dun understand why but i know they cried.. hmm.. we slept at around 2 plus in the morning.. i chatted with vanessa.. so nice chatting with her.. haha. Last day...[20 aug 06] hmm.. this morning we had fire drill.. and i panied, i can't find my cap.. cos i dropped it.. then i cannot find.. so i just wore my hairnet and went down.. and as u know, when i panic, i will literally forget everything and will then cry right?? haha. so i didn't i was really afraid i'll get scolding.. hmm.. ms gan tipped me.. she told me how to get down fast in 5 mins when there's a fire drill.. she didn't scold me.. she talk to me nicely.. hmm.. needa change back to gb coy tee and coy skirt but i didn't cos mine is really smelly and dirty.. its aready placed together with the dirty clothings.. so i just wore my home tee, and my pants.. haha.. i took quite alot of pictures.. haha.. hmm.. ok lahs.. i'm so tired lahs.. hahaa. ok lahs.. i'm stopping here.. really very tired.. gonna sleep soon.. haha. =p haa. cooking food. on the first day for dinner. orh hor!! shuwen pinched the food!! ahh. lai ren ahh! bleahs.. ahh.. weet!! rebekah squad!! hahah. =)) grp photo! leadership camp'06 is over. yey! 73rd future leaders. =)) haa.. my two wonderful squad leaders!! thanks!=) blogged @ 3:13 PM Thursday, August 17, 2006 haha. dun miss me when i'm not coming online from tmr till sunday.. hoho.. haha. 3 days cannot see me.. dun miss me ahh!! bleahs.. hahaha..sian ahs.. 3 days cannot use comp.. 1 day cannot watch tvee.. hurhur.. but rest assure i'll be back on sunday.. hahah. packing also 77-88 liaos.. haha..[read that in chinese qi qi ba ba] LOL!! bleahs.. hahaha.. stupic sia.. today taf right.. i got abrasion.. i told the teacher and the instructor.. they just dun like me rest and then, it got worst.. HELLO!! i'm human too.. and these few days, i haven't been feeling well for my throat.. well.. whatever.. nobody cares anyway. haha. supposedly having chinese oral tmr.. but becos i'm, going for camp, i've to take the oral on monday after sch.. before iL.. hahaha.. hmm i'm gonna miss my bed!! bleahs.. -.- haha. ok lahs.. blog when i come back.. wanna sleep liaos.. byebye!! dun miss me ahhs!! =D blogged @ 10:32 PM Wednesday, August 16, 2006 haha. sorry for not blogging for this few days.. didn't really have much to blog about.. haa.. hmm.. today i saw kayan in bus.. then we talk lah.. coss there's nth friends cannot do.. hahaa.. hmm.. wahh.. i'm kinda disappointed lahs.. cos its like. i'm the only one who failed my chinese CE lahs.. its like.. hais.. anyays. yes, of course i cried.. hais.. hmm.. today got the NIE english and maths TEST.. hahaa. u know i capped TEST?? becos its so called TEST.. hahaha.. bleahs.. okok.. its lame.. cos i is even number mahh.. then i do maths lahs.. hmm.. its like.. so damn hard lahs.. some questions is dunno what one lah.. so hard lors.. hais.. anyways.. i'm hurt!! physically!! ahh.. i burnt my right hand just now when i was cooking noodles.. ahh.. anybody care for me?? apply cream or what for me?? bleahs.. no lah.. just joking.. who xin tong for me??? ssss... so pain.. hais. know how i burnt it? i was pouring the soup into the bowl.. then the bowl full le.. i tried to carry it to the table.. then as u know liquid has no definite volume, so it goes about lahs.. then i burnt my hand. so far only one person know that i burnt my hand.. which is puaysee.. haha. hais. eric doesn't know cos i promised myself not to msg him.. cos he say i everytime msg him also wrong timing what.. so i dun msg him lahs.. heh heh.. hmm.. hais. my hand 7 years never kana burn le leh... when i was in pri1, i remember myself being burnt by fire.. it is when my family was burning joss paper lahs, then i dunno why i will kana burnt by the fire also.. i think is i put my hand too in le.. then kana burnt.. and pls, its also on my right hand... ahhh.. so sway lor.. hais.. i was hoping not to burnt myself lahs!! ahhh.. freakooooo.... ahh.. anyways.. ok lahs.. now nth to write le.. blog tmr... hohoho.. =p blogged @ 8:06 PM Saturday, August 12, 2006 haha.. as usual gb.. today i so free.. hahhaa.. wahh ehh maybe next week i going st hildas' leadership camp!! awww.. i'm freaking excited about it.. although its at chalet but its at yacht club.. whoooo... hahaha... cool.. i'm so happy.. hahha.. ever since that day have been kinda high lor.. hahaha.. bleahs.. blogged @ 7:04 PM Friday, August 11, 2006 i've been talking about him these days whenever i go back to sch.. hahha.. hmm.. haven't i been really in bad mood last week.. i mean for the whole of last week? and after sat, i felt so damn much happier.. althought some stuff happen two days ago, i'm still happy.. and i'm so glad that i've mushroom they all with me.. and of course carmen they all.. but most of the time i'm with mushroom they all mahh.. so many stuff carmen they all never see before and dunno one.. like when will i cry and stuff.. but eric knows. =D hahaa.. no becos i told him.. well, he didn't really know me as well as mushroom they all.. hahaa.. really feeling so much better today... i mean i just felt that my life is as lively as it used to be.. just that i'm so sorry guys and gals that sometimes i'll have moodswings.. so sorry.. and i'm sorry for being petty at times.. i admit it.. cos many ppl i know do have that weakness.. hmm.. hope ur can forgive me.. i'm sorry i left a hole. T.T hmm.. anyways.. today i was kinda dao mei, unlucky lahs.. i dropped my phone when the bus is coming.. and my keypad, cover dropped out.. ahh.. sickening.. hurr... and i was so malu.. ppl was looking at me.. ahhh..i can't believe it.. hahaha.. lucky my phone is HEAVY-DUTY one ahhh.. if not i tell u... hahaha.. blogged @ 4:58 PM Thursday, August 10, 2006 sian ahh.. today whole day at home.. neverhad lunch.. cos i think everyone's not free... who cares.. just woke up.. hurrr.. moses woke me up.. now i can't go back to sleep.. know why i slept? not becos i'm tired.. becos i didn't eat and had no energy.. so went to sleep lor.. yesterday also i never had my lunch.. well, somehow i kinda disappointed lah.. i msg him.. then ask him eat already or not.. he say eat le... hen bo bian lor.. if not can ask me pei me go eat.. nvm.. whatever lahs.. anyways, i chatted with jj just now.. wah i next time can be counsellor le.. haha.. haiyoh.. cos i talk like counsellor like that.. bleahs.. just joking.. hahaha.. jj promised me he will jie diao smoking.. hope thats not an empty promise.. hmm.. anyways.. i realised i'm kinda gum with my pri sch guys than sec sch guys.. i felt much much better with my pri sch guy friends.. e.g ky, dy, ric, jj, nel, mel, toby, zhenxing, etc etc etc.] hahha.. really lor.. hmm.. then if for gals, sec sch more close.. i mean i am free to tell them sometimes what i'm thinking.. ppl say i just kept everything to myself.. thats why eric says i'm wierd.. just becos i cry when i'm really angry.. when i'm not really angry, i only look like i'm angry.. i cry also becos when i'm sad.. very upset.. well, i wasn't like that last time.. hmm.. only when i come to sec sch.. then i tell eric i wasn't really angry last night lahs.. i tell him when i really angry will cry de.. blah blah blah.. then he say i very wierd.. i told him my friend say i keep everything to myself thats why will suddenly break down or sth.. he say then must tell mah.. i say what u expect me to do? tell u everything ahh? then he say ok.. bleahs... hurr.. omg.. that jj so purposely lor. yesterday i just told him his display name very rou ma he purposely go change the personal msg until so rou ma.. omg.. nelson's personal msg also so rou ma.. so many of my friends' nick or personal msg all so rou ma one lehs.. haiyoh.. then i say i really already also my heart like want drop out like that.. hurr.. becos tai rou ma le!! ahh.. hahaa.. then my gor say if got ppl like that tell me i jiu won't think its rou ma le... bleahs.. haiyah.. who will be so good tell me all kinds of rou ma stuff.. bleahs.. haha.. hmm.. i got nth better to do today lehs... tmr shang xue le leh.. haiyah.. dunno what i'm gonna do tmr.. shanrong say want come my house do the art project also never come.. haiyah.. whatever.. i hate art man.. and that teacher.. i wonder what's with the art project sia.. is it so important?? the teacher say it is.. ok whatever.. hmm.. i'm kinda looking forward to teachers' day.. i wanna take many pictures with ppl i couldn't take picture with last time.. haha.. like those guys.. er hem er hem.. hahha.. i want take picture with my gor!! haha.. bleahs.. =p blogged @ 4:35 PM Wednesday, August 9, 2006 i cried again.. this morning.. i was really upset.. first my bro is so selfish.. ya.. he doesn't even let me touch his phone when he says he will.. yes, he had a new phone recently.. so god damn freaking selfish lah.. then i go mama's room.. i only say so selfish... then mummy ask me what happen.. not in a nice tone duhh... and its like i only said i wanted to borrow gor's phone to use... then mama say got ur own phone dun want use want use other ppl phone.. then i talk back lah.. i say my phone very good to use meh.. then she say who ask u wanna lose ur phone.. oh pls... who w3ants her phone to get stolen.. in sch?? and its during lesson wheni went office and ppl using my phone made it being stolen??? HELLO. i didn't want this to happen k.. i ran all the way back to the workshop ok.. but i'm just so sway that i didn't got back my phone k.. i cried ok.. even if that's just a simple phone with no cam, no bluetooth no whatever, its still a phone ok.. others can say how stupid, how careless i am but how could my family keep blaming me on things which are not my fault?? and not even to my expectations.. whatever i do will never be pleasant in ur eyes. i know. and even i want ppl to accompany me to east coast, its such a hard stuff... i mean nobody even is free to accompany me.. even erric is not fre.. ok whatever its not the right time today.. today is national day and everyone is busy. what rights don i have to keep them by my side?? many said they would be with me all the way, but did they?? think again.. went to chuanya's house.. lucky she asked me to go her house.. cos i really didn't wanna stay home.. i felt better when i went her house.. actually, i really dunno why i come home i dun wish to talk... i mean i'm really pissed off.. really.. i dunno but i am.. definitely.. i've been having stomachaches these days.. but who cares? perhaps.. only puaysee?? none others not even eric cared.. my family dun care, neither do my friends cared.. what's the use of having him as a really good friend? well i tell u ok. puaysee told him i was sick.yes, he did msg me.. but did he really care? or just for the sake of msging me?? pls. remember last time, i asked him. he said he will take me to a doctor but that is when he have the money. but now? he had just two words. NOT FREE. i already know what's the response. sso puaysee, dun cover up for him. he's like that. i have known him for almost 4 years. i know what he's thinking ok. let me tell u, now i dun care what he treat me, what the hell he's up to. i won't care anymore. anyway. here's what i think of this year's ndp. its great.. but for technical problems, there's some problems halfway through the show.. well, overall, its still ok. blogged @ 4:27 PM Tuesday, August 8, 2006 so fast jiu 8 august le.. less than 5 hrs jiu national day le.. hais.. anyways. today had ndp.. i was shivering for the whole parade.. well, not everything went smoothly.. cos the drumbeats wasn't really right.. i mean everybody says that... the drumbeat was alittle too fast... well, i did my best.. i hope i didn't have corkups.... haha.. wahh, remember daryl said he's gonna bring the tee for me.. wahh really very big lahs.. then i wore his, huiyi wore mine.. haha.. also very big lahs.. i wear that one also i think its very big lahs.. haha.. and pls, wanjing wore daryl's shirt too, and its very very big.... hahaa.. hmm.. today went to pick wanjing up from her house there in the morning.. ahha.. so pretty..... oh myyy.... haha.. reach sch haven't 7 yet.. but going 7.. haha.. somehow i was quite disappointed that the sec1s and huiyi was late but i know their reason for being late.. haha.. i know they didn't mean to, so i won't blame them.. but maybe i will talk to them bah.. if not they will say i kaypo de.. haha.. i dun wanna be kaypo really.. hmm.. finished sch at around 0930.. haaaa.. i bet ur schs didn't finish so early bah!! hahaha... hmm.. its really early and we didn't had much to do after sch.. haha.. so me, wanjing, sophia and pauline went to eat perhaps.. but only wanjing and sophia eat.. hahas.. i was thinking that its still early so i didn't wanna eat.. i just buy sth light.. wah 7-11 alot of tkps kids.. and its freaking crowded.. and as u know, the 7-11 near my sch is kinda small so its quite difficult to some stuff when there's many ppl.. hmm.. i had mashpotato!! hahaas... wah.. today i no money sia.. so broke le.. ahhh.. hais. sian.. today after everything me and pauline went tampines.. then meet carmen.. haha.. then we go walk walk..haha.. eh i very good lors.. i never ps any of them.. hahhaas.. well, quite fun lahs.. then today carmen come my house... want me teach her guitar when i suck in it.. hahaa.. then pei her play lah.. hahaha.. hmm.. today quite tired lahs.. but nvm lahs.... tmr holiday.. HAHA!! so think nvm lahs..... hahaa.. k lahs.. nth to post le.. tata. =) wahh. guitarist seh!! hahaha. wahh. character seh.. xD haha. aren't we pretty?? =)) ehh.. sleepy head! time to wake up lo!! blogged @ 9:28 PM Monday, August 7, 2006 ok i just went into my bro's room.. and what sia... he go buy a cam better then mine, more expensive than mine lahh.. i saw ok.. and its like 6 hundred plus ok.. whatever lahh,... use my cam can lah then go buy cam yrself.. i know i last time use ur cam u bu shuang right.. nvm.. buy buy lah.. ppl buy phone u complain.. u ownself buy cam ppl never say ath.. i hate it sia.. everything also want better than others.. its not as if anybody is what lah.. hello... i'm ur sis ok... arsehole... what's the use of buying so good de cam, basketball, phone when u dun really needs it??? esp basketball and phone, do u really need it?? ur phone already got cam still go buy one so ex de cam... win le lahh.. blogged @ 8:39 PM wahh.. today after sch go home saw felicia poh then see xinyi.. haha.. we three take same bus sia.. then xinyi ask me what happen.. haha.. then we also alight same stop.. haha.. then i pei xinyi go buy thing.. then see teng and her derald.. haha.. then i purposely say wahh last time everytime ask me pei her go buy food now dun need me le ahhh... haha.. hmm.. xinyi ask me why eric treat me so good i dun want consider him.. bleahs... the reasons are, [1] we are not suitable for each other. [2] i'm not ready. [3] i'm afraid. [4] i dun think i can do it. and i think its not the time yet.. and its not just how close we are but if we have no chemistry for each other, what for being together?? huh?? so.. yeah many things to xiang one.. haha.. cannot su kak su kak de.. haha.. blogged @ 8:11 PM wahlao.... stupid sia.. today lit test so damn freaking idiotic upset and angry lahs... its like i can't finish the last question lor.. its like there's two questions and i can't finsh question 2.. what the hell... the the teacher keep on chase me finish.. wahliao.. one last 3parts question sia.. and its like i chiong two parts but is anyhow do one lahs.. then the last question is like 6 marks lah.. stupid arsehole.. then i so angry i broke down.. kanasai...what sia.. hais.. but what to do... hope my first question can pull up my marks lor.. its over 25 but ahhhh... hais.. my marks gone!! i'm so sad.... blogged @ 7:54 PM Sunday, August 6, 2006 hmm.. went fop with eric.. wah ehh for the first time eric's not wearing black.. he wore yellow with a little green.. and the teeshirt is brazil.... hahahaa.. sia lah.. bleahs.. then he wear jeans as usual.. haa.. i wore jeans and teeshirt too.. bleahs.. wahh i go eric's cell hor, all trhe stupid kinda stuff start coming out.. bleahs.. hahaa.. anyway, we was late in meeting them 1530 at kallang mrt.. haha.. cos i waited for eric.. if not i confirm won't late one.. hahaha... then he only 1530 then reach bedok mrt lor... haha.. saw chailian while waiting for him.. she was with her two younger bros.. going temple or sth... haha.. then we chatted on ur way.. wahh lao.. chailian say she with franco le sia... chailian ahh!! how could u gao jie-di lian???!!! arghhh... nvm.. out of topic.. bleahs... anyways.. chailian went lavender.. me and eric went kallang.. hmm.. i wonder why so many ppl like talking about me and eric when we just very good friends.. bleahs.. alot of times he ps me sia... then nobody talk to me de.. if not very seldom.. then got one couplehor keep saying i'm eric's stead.. oh whatever... haha.. wahh eric yesterday very jia lat sia.. he gastric sehh.. i heartache sia... bleahs.. joking lahs.. but as a friend i felt sorry for him.. eric, next time must eat regularly ok!! if nobody pei u go eat call me, i pei u go eat!! bleahs... hope he's feeling better now.. hmm.. today is city harvest 17th anniversary.. i think.. haha.. then the service starts at 11 they already there queuing up for the seats le.. cos seats are very limited.. haha.. eric asked me so many times whether i wanna go or not.. but my ans not stable leh...hmm.. during like the praise and worship right, they pray what.. then they dunno say what hold hand ahh then hold lor.. then cos is my first time hold his hand what then i paiseh lor.. my hands sweated.. becos i nervous lor... bleahs... really lor.. i so malu.. cos my hands kinda wetlah.. i very seldom got sweaty palms de lor.. ahh.. so malu.. bleahs.. haha.. sot diao sia.. wahh i reached home only at 12.. haha... we go eat dinner aka supper first then go home.. ehh got one person very irritating lor... eric, u know lah.. then like gen pi chong like that.. we go where also he wanna follow.. then me and eric cannot guang ming zhen da de talk.. i mean can lah.. but not convinient mahh.. and no privacy mahh.. that person keep interupting me and eric's conversation lor.. then i never ask him he kaypo go ans.. i never talk to him also he answer.. eric talking to me also he ans... haiyah... whatever lah.. lucky i not same sch as him... bleahs.... anyways.. eric's so sweet.. he sent me home yesterday.. HAHA.. u know right.. he damn pro one.. i tell him dun charge hp batt everyday charge only when there's no batt.. then he really never charge sia.. then no batt le.. hahaha.. pro sia.. hmm.. anyways, like that only lahs... nth much to post le.. haha.. **eric!! thanks ahh... for sending me home.. so sweet.. bleahs.... =p** blogged @ 8:10 AM haha.. funny.. there was a dream... i dreamt about me going with eric and kayan... to bugis.. we wanted to go somewhere i think.. then suddenly huiting come out.. she go take neos with us.. then suddenly siyuan come out.. then she say whatever machine no good.. nono i think that one is huiting say one.. then my 3 juniors, jinghan also m'am peijun also run out leh... when i say jing han also m'am peijun right is not what leh.. is becos in the dream, jinghan dunno why become m'am peijun... hahaa.. then i saw my 3 juniors gonna take neos also.. so we take together.. but sth strange is that i was supposedly wearing my home clothes.. but then hor when i walk into the machine thing right.. i become wear full U sia... sia lah.. then when i take off my gb hat, jinghan's hair suai down sia.. then she become m'am peijun already.... haha.. funny sia.. stupid right the dream.. its like mix bnss, ynps and church lor.. and i'm trying to cope with them.. i wished i had more time mangement.. blogged @ 8:05 AM Thursday, August 3, 2006 well... if its really for me, nth can take it away from me.. but if its not for me, why the hell do i even try to get it to make it mine?? ppl change.. so many of my friends changed.. some is really not who they used to be.. i felt that as time flies, many are getting from bad to worst, from good to bad, and from good to better.. i'm confused... about why i'm here? some said i was here for a purpose.. some said i was here becos of god's creation.. in other words, ppl said that i'm here for a purpose.. what is it?? i'm really sick and tired of how my life have passed.. yes, i'm only 14 or even not yet 14.. what could i ask for?? absolutely NOTHING. blogged @ 3:26 PM Tuesday, August 1, 2006 hmm.. perhaps i admit i still like him.. still wanna see him but i promise i will start afresh means i will do that.. i won't let all these bug my life.. its not gonna last.. this feeling is not here forever... and i felt much much relieved putting this down, letting it go.. nowadys i'm obsessed in the 9pm show. i mean.. i really wished my life could be like that.. i'm trying to control my diet now.. i really wanna lose weight.. i dun wanna be despised.. seriously.. i have blogged about this issue for quite some time and i really dun wanna blog about it for now.. its really warm to see the show like that.. i'm just envious.. i'm so glad i didn't see him today.. perhaps becos i took a bus earlier.. and yes, of course i wished to see him.. perhaps for one more time in the position of me liking him.. and next will be friends le.. but i seriously wonderif i'm still his friend.. i hope i am.. oh no i miss eric's msges.. ahhh... bleahs.. cos now i msg him also no use sia. cos his phone no money.. then he never reply.. haa.. dun be narrow minded, he's a good friend.. haha.. wah he and san san like enemy sia.. see each other only one say my name one say zhenxing's name.. wahh sia lah.. u know why my name? cos san2 thinks that me and eric is a pair.. HAHA. well, we aren't a pair.. so get it correct lahs.. we can't be together de.. we are too close le.. HAHAHA.. hmm.. wah if he read my blog jiu hao le.. haha.. then he will get to know my life.. my BORING life.. haha.. ok lahs.. gtg. gor wanna use.. SOON. hahaa.. bye. blogged @ 10:01 PM