*Own Laptop
*MOVIES!
*Quiet Time with God
*People around me to be happy(:
*new waterbottle
*CRUMPLER sling bag
*CANON IXUS 85IS
*PHILOSOPHY Back pack
*new wallet
*new backpack
*new shoes
*new phone
*slim down
*True Love
Was blog hopping a moment ago. Suddenly I thought about my oral conversation topic. My topic happened to be about Friends.
Qn1: What is a situation you think is most difficult for you?
Qn2: What do you think is the most important thing in a friendship?
Qn3: Why do you think people loses friends?
I think for now, the most important question is both 2nd and 3rd. Lets see.. If I'm able to explain it properly once more, I might be able to say it properly without hesitation. But not with examiners, of course.
Lets first define Friendship.
Dictionary definition- The state of being friends; friendly relation, or attachment, to a person, or between persons; affection arising from mutual esteem and good will; friendliness; amity; good will.
My definition- Friendship, happens when two or more friends come together to build a strong relationship with one another, having mutual trust, mutual respect and most importantly, honesty.
What about you? What does friendship means to you?
I've told my friends that it takes two hands to clap. One can always have his/her hand high up in the air for along time but if the other do not want to do the same, their plams will never meet. It probably is not the right analogy but something like that. I loved using the phrase, "it takes two hands to clap." If in anyway, you have realised it. Haha.
Just like chopsticks, it must be used in a pair. Am I right?
Here's one scenario, A meets B and became best friends after first year of being classmates. A is a more quiet girl and B being the very sociable one. The friendship meant the world to A, B, too, however, B have too many friends outside. A seemed to the world that she was the only one giving in to everything in the friendship.
A was too kind, she knew that B is sensitive and she knew that whatever she will be saying have to be tactful to B. But B wanted honest answers. What happens when honest answers are given off? Most probably, natural human reactions would be that we are unable to accept the reality. Oh well... I guess, sometimes we just needa listen to others and see how we can change.
This is something random I've been pondering about. For so many years, I didn't really think about what qualities a good friend should have. It was only when I have lost my friends, I realised how selfish I was in the past. Maybe I'm still alittle selfish now. I'm still changing. President Obama said this, "The most constant thing in life is CHANGE." And I thought that, this is true at all times, isn't it?
Mrs Raj once said this, "if everyone were to be king, who would dig the ground?" Yes, if everyone were to be perfect, who would be the imperfect? I won't point fingers at anyone. I just wanna listen to both sides of the story. This is what I've learnt.
Eric once told me, "I'd rather hurt you with the truth than to please you with a lie." Yes, the song, "Sometimes when we touch" have similar lyrics, "I'd rather hurt you honestly than mislead you with a lie." Sometimes, the truth is too much for us to accept, but we have to learn to accept facts right? That's how we improve on our own characters, right?
And also, if you truly treats a person as your true friend, you should tell him/her how he/she have changed. No point keeping everything in your heart, because situation will worsen. Just like what I have done in the past, I kept all the unhappiness to myself. But now, I've changed, I've made myself change.
I always tell Grace about the things that I'm unhappy with. Though at times, I give her a cold shoulder, I apologised and told her all the things I felt that I should tell her. I think after so many things, I've became a much happier person. Maybe because I've been tied up for so long and I finally managed to free myself from many many things. Suffocation, was the word I thought about, when I recall my past. I don't wanna point fingers at anyone, because I know, I know that I'm wrong, somehow, too.
Respect is earned when you respect others. I used to be very bothered about what people thought about me. But as time goes, I realised that, nobody is perfect, there're bound to be people who dislike you. I began to change my mindset, I believe that a friendship is only lasting when the two hands meet in the air when held out together. To a small extent, I believe that quarrels make a relationship stronger each time. It provides both parties, those who are willing, to change for the better. One wouldn't be happy to be the one who keeps giving in. The one who is always receiving becomes pampered as time goes.
Friendship is a two-way thing. There's no way a friendship can grow without the people to give and take. Grace always say, "It is more bless to give than to receive." I agree, to a certain extent. But to a small extent I don't. Why? There are things which you can't give. Things which are so personal to you, e.g friends. You can't give others friends, right? Of the many things you can give others, you must be aware that not everything can be given.
It's funny how strangers become friends. And good friends the next year, then best friends the follwing year. It's sad, when best friends become strangers.
Sigh. Anyway, I saw this very meaningful passage in a book Grace was reading a few days back.
Life isn't about keeping score. It's not how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you have kissed, what sport you play, or which guy/girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair, or the colour of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have a lot of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted/unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness and compassion. It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. These choices are what life's about. -Adam Fendelman.
And when we lose our loved ones, we tend to say, "If I knew.... I would have...." If there are so many "if I knew"s, people would not have learnt how to cherish and appreciate the people around them. Only when you have lost, you will regret for not treasuring the person even more when he/she was still around.
Before you judge others, look into a mirror and take a look at yourself, ask yourself if you're better than others. I've learnt that I should never judge a person unless I really know the person. And when you judge others, God judge you. Isn't it?
There are times when we have to put ourselves in others' shoes. Looking at things at a different angle.
In order for a friendship to be strong, you have to make an effort to maintain it. No use knowing how to say but not knowing what to do.
Wow. I didn't know I can type so much. =/
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Friday, August 28, 2009
It's the second last week of school before our September holidays! It doesn't really make any difference, though. =/ But I'm going to make use of this holiday to buck up on my History. I must study Humanities for the coming week. Next Modnay's Teachers' Day and I have many cards to dooo! I've completed none. Bleah. I'm soo going to make roses. But can I make them without stalks? AHHH.
Anyway, this week is rather boring. But I had fun with my classmates. I can't remember what happened on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday. What I remembered was be3ing scolded by my teachers for not going for Adam Khoo's workshop on Wednesday as well as Thursday. Tuesday was the workshop. Hui Jin, Grace and I didn't wanna go. Like seriously, out of 10 people, how many will apply the skills taught? I didn't even apply what I've learnt in my life, from the previous sessions. I've tried ok!!! But it didn't work out. Oh wellll..
Ok, so what happen was, Tuesday, we skipped the workshop and did something else... I'm not going to elaborate because many pairs of eyes are reading at this now.. You know who. Haha. Anyway, went tuition after that. Damn tired. Got new paper to do. MUST finish by tomorrow? I don't know. Maybe after I've finished my teachers' day cards then I do. :p Hoho.
Wednesday, went to school, early in the morning got scolding from Mdm Aishah. Shit. I haven't been scolded by teachers for some time. RAHHH. I felt really upset, and disappointed 'cos I seemed to be the only one who got all the scolding when Grace and Hui Jin were standing beside me. -.- Forget it.
Thursday, which was yesterday, I greeted Miss Rahma in the morning and I got scolding. And I was told to write a letter to explain myself for being absent for A.K workshop... Sigh. After school yesterday, had oral. Wah. I see the picture I sian lor. I was wondering why there are people wearing slippers to the exam hall. Super inappropriate.
Anyway, yesterday was second last day of Oral. I was supposed to be the last Bedok North candidate but thank God Yuan Ru postponed hers due to some problems and had oral with me yesterday. :D Another boy from 4A was absent on the day he took his exam so he took his Oral yesterday with us. :D I hope I've done fine! And I'm super happy to know that ET took Oral together with yesterday just that he's in Chai Chee. Damn cool right. Haha.
After Oral yesterday, stayed back in school for awhile. Took some photos with teachers. Yuan Ru wanna make cards out of the photos. Hoho.
So today, had lunch at Techview with Yuan Ru after school and head back to school to do our stuff. I had to make cards. Yuan Ru did Math. Went home only at 6 plus! And yep. Here am I blogging. I'm going to post some photos and then off to my cards plus roses plus tuition homework...... Bleah.
I wish O-levels are over quickly so that I can work to earn some money... I am really praying that my family will tide over the financial problem we are facing at the moment.. My tuiiton fees have been alot... I feel very very bad. ):
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Saturday, August 22, 2009
Finally I am able to use the computer. My bro's been using my computer all the time! RAH. Anyway, let's see. This whole week had been busy busy busy. Sigh. Hmm. Last Sunday, studied the whole day with Carmen. Then tuition in the evening.
Monday was Jing Han's birthday. Went to school all the way till 5plus. Then met Jing Han for a movie. We caught UP in 3D. It was awesomeeeee! :D Heh. So I only got home at 9plus that night?
Tuesday, school, bank, home, tuition, back to school for Chemistry night class. All the way until like 8.30pm.
Wednesday... Went to Hui Jin's house to finish up Chemistry past year paper as Chemistry remedial was cancelled. After that went for tuition at Mdm Fina's. It was in the evening which means have to go home late again.. Anyway, it was my mum's birthday. So, after tuition, I went to Secret Recipe to get a slice of cake for my mum. I got home at about 8pm. =/
Thursday, school, Mrs Raj's place for English tuition, back to school for Chemistry night class. Ok, yes, I got home late AGAIN. Bleah. I got home at like 9pm? 'Cos 66 took the whole night to come, then I decided to take bus 60. And then I walked home. Oh yes, it happened to be the start of the Hungry Ghost Festival. [That explains the sudden postpone of Chem night class for QA. Maybe the teacher was afraid? Oh well, that was what I have heard. =/] Thank God, because I got to be able to sit with my friends from 5A whom I haven't got to talk to for a long long time. I had an enjoyable time talking and walking with them to the bus stop we always did. :D
So, after I got home, the very first thing I did was to help Joseph get photos of my bro's guitar from different angles and to print pictures for his Art prepwork. I didn't even have time to bathe. -.- Thank God Jin Hui came over to my place to return me my SS Book3 so he could give me some comments about the pictures and help me choose which guitar pictures do I print. Oh well. I even cut the pictures out using a cutter. I slept only at like 1am. Ate my dinner at 10plus, and bathed only at 11pm. =/ I think I'm really nice. HAH.
Friday, school and had a little Chemistry lesson with Mdm Halizah together with Yuan Ru and Hui Jin outside the office. It started raining cats and dogs. After that, went for lunch with Yuan Ru at Bedok. Then went home. I tried to get a nap. But I was interupted most of the time and I can't get to sleep... It's ok, at least I slept well at night. Oh yes, I just learnt how to make paper lillies and a little of paper roses. Still need alot of practice for paper roses. It's very difficult... Ahh.
So today, met Jing Han for breakfast at Bedok. Then headed to school for awhile before I head to Fanny's for tuition. After tuition, went Techview to "study" with Jing Han. Yes, we didn't have mood to study so we just chatted for awhile then left for home. I left my house again at about 5plus going 6 for tuition at Mdm Fina's. I just got home about an hours ago. I'm soo tired!
Ah. I believe pictures can't be uploaded so... welll..
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Wednesday, August 19, 2009
I know I shouldn't be here. But I'll just be here for a while. Anyway, I wanna share a video with you people. Those who have been mugging for ya exams, take a break! My bro showed me this. This is for his HTM graduation party. Quite interesting though. :D
My classmates have been going gaga over this song these few days. Playing them as and when they like it and stuff.
Enjoy! :D
blogged @ 9:17 PM
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Feeling kinda silly now. When people ask me out, most of the time I simply go with them but when I wanna go out, I simply can't find anyone to go with me. Have I always been stupid or what? Was so exciting about it just now. Now, ask me go out I also no mood to go out already. I hate excuses like lazy, and stuff. Yet I use it sometimes. Forget it. It must be some retribution and stuff. Whatever lah. Everybody's busy....
Nvm, went to school in the morning to study, finish up my homework, talk to my juniors and stuff. I shall go and bath in a while, then probably go and do my assignments, do so studying or go and look for Iris.
RAH. I'm going to sleep.
blogged @ 5:49 PM
Friday, August 14, 2009
Alright. I'm not sleeping yet! I'm so tired but, well. Hah. Two hours ago I just reached home after tuition at Fanny's. Seemed pretty slow here. I mean the time... At the moment. Heh. Yey! I got my Hello Kitty piggy bank today! Hoho. Very cute. Very big also. :D
Anyway, I'm alittle hungry now.... =/ After school, Hui Jin, Grace and Shi Min came to my house. Found clothes for Grace's service tmr. (: I'm nice, I lent her my mum's clothes. HAHA. After that, went Tampines to get some stuff, as well as get stationaries for Grace since her pens are always not working. RAH. You know I'm so lazy to do anything now. Heh.
Let's see, just two days back, on Wednesday, I went Tampines with Yuan Ru to eat Subway for lunch. *OMG!* Then headed off to Popular. :D Before we even reached Popular, just when we were on the way up the escalator to level 3, these group of MEN, probably aged between 20-23years old, simply shoot their mouth off something which they thought was funny but, too bad, it wasn't, at all. What they have said was seriously rude.
It's not like we are friends or anything its just that, one of them simply said, "EE, I thought you eating shit! *pointed at me when I was eating my Chocolate Cheese muffin from Han's and the group started to laugh*" Seriously, I don't mind if we are like very good friends just like Hui Jin and I, Grace and I or anyone, but the thing is, I don't even know this group of BOYS. Damn childish. As usual, Yuan Ru was kinda slow in reacting. She even thought that I knew the guys. But she knew we wasn't friends until she looked at my expression, I wasn't smiling at all!
Oh well, it's over. I'm gonna sleep soon. Gotta go school in the morning. MUST finish my work this time! Alright, I'll update again. Soon. Am falling asleep already. TTFN.
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Monday, August 10, 2009
Heh. I'm back for an update!!! So what happen was, yesterday was National Day!!! :D National Day is LOVE! Heh. Ok, so I went for tuition in the morning and headed to meet Jing Han and then to meet FIVESOME [We've decided to change SIXSOME to FIVESOME, due to some reasons.] at Marina Bay.
That sotong was late 'cos her watch showed 12 plus when it was 1 plus already. Haha. But she was promoted to squid yesterday. HAHA. Anyway, Jing Han came over to my place in the morning to make sandwiches for picnic. :D
Picnic was extremely fun. :DDD *thumbs up!* Thumbs up to Joey who organised the picnic and baked potato cheese and also brought the picnic mat! And thanks to Jolene Tay and Yvonne for buying the Hans cake on my behalf!!! Thanks to Jing Han for waking up early to come over to my place and made the sandwiches with me and of course for agreeing to go BBQ with me! :D Last but not least, to FIVESOME who made the picnic possible! :D *loves*
Picnic was held at Marina Barrage. We actually went one whole round thanks to me. Supposed to alight but I thought it will turn into the place so yah, went one round. =/ Reached Barrage and started off with birthday celebrations for Joey and Jing Han whose birthdays are next Sunday and Monday respectively! Then followed by celebration for Singapore's 44th! :D
When we had difficulty finishing the food, we practically played games and made ourselves finish the food as forfeit! RAH. Lets not eat potatoes and sandwiches for 1 year! Bleah. Just joking!
Went on to meet Hui Ying at City Hall at 6pm. Headed home to get my camera battery. Then to Clearwater to meet M'am Pei Jun and the BB boys for the BBQ. I didn't regret going. I had fun playings games with Jeremy and company! :D Crazy people. I told M'am Pei Jun to prepare a cake to celebrate Jing Han and Yong Sing's birthday besides Singapore's! :D I hope Jing Han was surprised! Hahaha.
We only went home at 11 plus. I reached home at 12am and slept at 1 plus! I wanted to wake up at 8 this morning but I don't know why, my dad's phone auto switched off... RAH. It's ok. I collected my phone just now from Nokia Care. YAY! :D
"It's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen; but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you wanted." -taken from Wei Teng's blog.
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Friday, August 7, 2009
WTH. I type until halfway then the thing closed! Go and die, blogger. RAH. Angry. It's ok.
Hmm. This whole week is rather jaded. The Grace lah. Got cough, sore throat and fever from that Joseph. Then she got 3 days MC. You know, Joseph and Jason reported sick on Monday then right after they went to the office, Grace felt unwell. Haiyoh. I sat nearer to Joseph yet I'm perfectly well. That shows how good my immune system is. Wahaha. xD
And I somehow injured my left shoulder during NDP rehearsal on Monday. Exerted too much force. Oh well.. I even pasted 3 days of Salompas[?] But it didn't really helped. =/ Oh well. At least I finished everything. You know, many people said that I looked very fierce when I was marching. Hehe. Finally. And others can't hear my command. But thank God it was loud enough for the contingent. :D
You know, it's 2 more days to National Day which means it will be officially 2 years since I was in NDP07 with sotong Jing Han. And it's been a year when Jing Han is still in GB with me. Now she graduate liao. AFter parade this morning, was, at the back of my mind, thinking, "Where on Earth is Jing Han??!!!" Sian, in RP liao. *sigh*
I don't enjoy this year's National Day celebration at all. No singing of National Day songs, no performances, no nothing. It just became our postponed Annual Youth Carnival. And lower secondary students got only NE skits to watch in the Hall. Argh, I wanna sing Nationaly Day song. But I seriously HATE this year's nation day song. Sounds very emo. =/ I don't like last year's as well. I seriously only prefer songs before 2008. Sound more patriotic.... Look back to my 2008 August archive and find those videos I posted. Those memories...
Anyway, went to catch a movie with Yuan Ru after the supposed "celebration". We caught "The Hangover". We thought it will be interesting. But, so many unglam stuff! Even got some nudity. -.- I wonder why is it still NC16 when, you know... Oh well.. I wanna catch "Where got ghost?" But it was only available after 11pm. RAH.
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Saturday, August 1, 2009
It's 1st August! As usual, The monthly bell rang. Every first day of the month at 12pm, a bell will ring. I think its significance is to tell us we havwe survived another month??? Not very sure though.
Hmm. I went to school in the morning and joined the girls for parade as well as get my DS2 badge. Like FINALLY. Had it not been the stupid failure of theory test last year, Jing Han and I would have gotten our badges last year. -.-
But anyway, it's ok, I got it already. :D The only few things I feel sad is my Total Defence badge!!! I want it!! But sigh. 'Cos I stepped down from CCA last year for N-levels, I didn't take the test. *Dang* I think I wasn't gven my Heritage badge as well. I finished it like 3 years ago. Nah. Doesn't matter.. Bleah. Had training with BB for NDP this coming Friday. Practised for CC as well. Hopefully, my voice will overcome the band. =/ And of course, not screw up.
So, after parade, I went lunch with Miao and Jing Han at Tech View. Then chatted with Jing Han until like 3.25pm? Even practised oral. Haha.
Went tuition in the evening, then to buy some pins from CS. But please don't finish them again!!! Bleah. I was saying, the other time when I still have all my hair pins, all of them were used up by my juniors. Now, GB room have got afew bottles. So, don't ask from me ok! HAHA.
