=) Stoopid One

dum dum..

every morning..

maybe u dunno...

i also purposely early go out early to college..

dum dum..

these few nights..

i am waiting at ure house down there..

where i always at after when u angry me..

hmm..

i stayed there for like few hours..

dum dum..

do you know..

this brings back a lot of memories..

i really cant let go of you dum dum..

no matter how hard i try..

no matter how many things i do..

dum dum..

i miss you a lot dum dum..

i love you a lot dum dum..

=( dum dum... i miss you badly..

stoopid dum dum..

u know urself easy to get gastric..

still eat onli 1 meal..

u always get gastric can cause u very pain..

stoopid!!

really stoopid!!

call u remember eat on time..

but u never listen..

really stoopid..

dum dum..

remember eat on time ahh..

i dun u hav gastric all the time..

take care of ureself la dum dum.. =(



Dum Dum.. IMY..

Dum Dum..

today i did a very stupid thing..

u remember u told me that u got frens stay there and always go asia cafe..?

after MOS thursday night.. i went to asia cafe..

im so dumb..

i tot can see u there..

day day i oso wish i can see u dum dum..

i at asia cafe..

i look here and there..

so i can get a glimpse of u..

dum dum..

i really miss you..

i really miss you a lot..

hope that i can see u..

dum dum..

how are u doing in college..?

are u doing fine..?

got ppl bully u ah..?

i cant ask u directly..

dunno wad will u think..

so i wrote it here..

hope someday..

maybe someday..

u will see this and come to talk to me..

dum dum..

u still remember wad i promise u..?

i dun wan go college..

coz i dunno how to face you..

and i oso know u dunno how to face me..

so i decided not to go college..

so u can go class..

dum dum..

study well ah..

wadever happens..

ill be always there for you..

Dum Dum.. I Miss You..

yesterday..

i saw her msn there wrote..

has a few cuts in a day..

stupid clumsy..

never take care of ure ownself..

still always tell me u are able to manage..

this call manage ahh..

having cuts here and there..

i wanna ask her where she got cuts..

but i dun wan find her..

i dun wan her think that i fan her..

so i decided not to ask..

and came to wrote it down here..

whether she saw it or not..

i dunno..

most important is..

dum dum.. take care of ure ownself better la..

dun always get cuts here and there dy ah..

someone will be worry about u..



IMY <3

last night..

i dream about you..

it was suppose to be a good thing..

but when the story goes bad..

my dream turn to nightmare..

it shows that u..

do a lot of stuff u never did be4 when u was with me..

like telling ppl..

tell ure family..

post to facebook..

post on msn..

go out always holding hands..

i start to feel very very sad..

in fact im kinda emo after i wake up..

this is the reason why i less sleep after i broke up with u..

u still dunno.. how much pain and suffer im having..

god knows.. i know..

is it hard to settle down a problem..

few groups of friends..

used to be very very very close..

juz because of 1 small problem..

everyone starts to quarrel..

friends.. is friends.. no matter wad we do..

we all look forward for the night..

but problems juz keep coming themselves..

eventhough the problem is solved now..

the thorn will always hide inside our heart..












are you reading my blog..?
day by day pass by..
its almost may..
how did u do..?
did u pay attention in class..
did u feel restless..
did u feel that everything has changed..?
wad it is ure thinking..
now u juz treat me like a stranger..
i wanna talk to you badly..
but i cant..
its oreadi been half a year..
im still missing you..
ill always be there for you..

IMY <3

Every second..

Every minute..

Every hour..

Every day..

Every week..

Every month..

Every year..







im still alone..

in a dark room..

sit quietly in a corner..

crying, missing and silently protecting you..

and also waiting for you..

cause you are my everything..

without u.. i am nothing..

ILY and IMY..

i wonder wad are u doing right now..

i wonder did u ever think about me..

i wonder wad will happen in the future..

i wonder are u being clumsy..

i wonder if u ever talk to me wad will u say..

i wonder..

but the most thing i wonder the most is..












Will I Be The One Beside Of You.. Whenever You Are Crying..
I Miss You Alot...

i still got remind her stuff.. but secretly lol..

i asked my fren to help me..

why i need to remind her stuff..

cause she very forgetful geh..

she always forget to bring her jacket to college.. she very easy get sick de..

get sick then not good..

not onli that.. every morning oso dun eat.. when she get gastric.. she will have it very serious..

always call her eat a bit.. be4 college drink 1 cup of milo should be enuff..

clumsy wan la her..

i dunno wad to do with her clumsiness..

very clumsy.. but still.. i still remind her.. nt directly.. but secretly..

i dunno why.. but i got the feeling that.. no more odi lo..

so i choose to silently protect and wait and remind her..

From now on..

my blog will write onli about my stuff and her stuff..

love requires sacrifice sometimes.. she doesnt know wad i sacrifice for her..

thats why this time in my blog..

i wanna tell u guys about the sacrifices i made when i was with her..

For her..

i gave up my friends in college..

lol yea.. u guys may think im stupid..

for me its worth it..

why..? coz i love her.. and she is important to me.. hehe..

my college friends say that i neglected them..

and i sacrifice myself by telling them that im gonna pui them more..

but in the end i didnt.. i feel sorry for them..

she doesnt know about this actually.. haha.. i wonder wad will happen if she know.. hmm..

the 2nd sacrifice i made is my parents side..

my parents dun like her actually.. cause they think she is lazy.. haha.. for me she isnt..

maybe i too sayang her ba.. i told my parents i dun like ppl touch myself..

i told my parents i even scold her.. haha.. but my parents in the end go help her..

haha.. my parents say if i dare bully her they will scold me.. haha.. funny rite..?

my parents doesnt like my previous girlfriends but this one i can see differences..

they like her very very very much..

haha.. im quite suprised oso actually.. wow.. my parents.. haha..

the third thing is my freedom..

yea i sacrifice my freedom.. my father dun like me always go out..

she found out and stopped me from going out..

i din complain.. i juz follow.. i wanna go out i will ask her.. sometime not i ask is my friends ask..

and my previous heng dai group.. josh.. ah boi.. they all.. i seldom contact with them..

coz i dun usually go out.. try to think.. 1 whole year never go out late night.. juz stay at home..

giv u all oso cannot do it la kan..? haha.. why i can.. coz i promise her odi..

yea even i break a lot of promise.. but those important promises i still keep them..

the 3rd thing i sacrifice is our being alone pak toh time..

lol.. most couples oso go out in 2~ but me.. is different..

i need to giv up the thinking of being in pair..

coz everytime i go out with her sure got another person..

we must go out as friend groups..

must more than 2.. well.. i like her.. so i cant say anything.. which couples doesnt being in pairs..

and our pak toh time onli in the cinemas.. my home.. and in my car..

other place.. cannot.. coz scare ppl see.. go here scare go there scare..

go pak toh oso cannot hold hands.. our fren must be between us.. haha..

wan hold hands must be in the cinemas.. my home and also in my car.. weird huh..~ haha..

u guys sure think i very san fu one..

yea it is very san fu.. but wad can i do.. i love her wad :)

oh yea.. i oso got sacrifice my dignity as a guy.. haha.. yea u guys din see wrong..

its DIGNITY.. or u can say PRIDE..

got 1 time she wanna break up.. i kneel down.. YES i KNEEL DOWN in front of her..

i beg her not to go..

many of u cannot accept it.. but i can do it.. cause she is the onli one..

the onli girl that can make me do this kind of stuff and make so many sacrifices..

my previous girlfren.. i never even remember wad promise i made to them.. lol..

but her is different.. its been 4 months now.. and i still remember wad i promise her..

i promise her i will study well.. and earn a lot of money..

one of the things i promise her is..

our dream house..

she wants a marble spiral staircase..

house with a lot of glass wall.. haha..

a nice balcony..

a room to put all her make up, clothes, shoes so that she can dress up be4 go anywhere..

and also.. i must hav somes Cs~

haha.. that is CEO,Cash,Car,Condo,Credit Card,Caring and oso Cooking..

she oso say wan B's too~

haha.. that is BMW,Bungalow,Billionaire,Body... haha...

there are many more.. juz dunno how to list all out.. haha..

until now.. i will keep my promise cause those promises.. i din make it for fun..

i make it because i am serious..

these promises are very important to me.. and she is also very important to me..

cause i still love her.. =)