So, we've been in nothern California this week while BB is working and, for some reason, my mind has been in kind of a crazy place. I blame
Dawn. Watching her (do fabulously - did you see her kill it in the challenge last night?!) on Survivor and fulfill this dream has caused me to reflect a bit. So, when I was a teen-ager, I had every intention of going to law school, and eventually joining the FBI. I also wanted to write a book. Then, I had a church leader that I really
really looked up to who told me those goals (the law school/FBI ones, not the book) were huge mistakes and that I would ruin my life. I (sadly or not) listened. I have often wondered where life would have taken me if I hadn't heeded that counsel as a teenager. Here's what I realize about myself now: I'm kind of a hippie at heart. I've started many different books - all in various stages of completion. I wonder if I have the drive to go the distance (I've seen Shannon Hale's roll of rejection letters after all)... I am not a type A personality.
I like chillin', hanging', kickin' back... I really like to get out and play with my kids - they know they can coax me into the hotel swimming pool even in fifty-degree weather. Here's the strategy used tonight by D-man: "Mom, come in the pool! Please! Right now Dad is in the lead but you can pass him if you swim with us!" Yes, he's six. In the lead for WHAT?
But, it would probably be a good thing if I was more motivated to plan what's for dinner most nights and if I could sew a stitch beyond a button. Anyone who's seen how much I like to sit back with a Mountain Dew can imagine what I'd be
without the WoW.
Is there a point to all this? Maybe. Here it is: I look around my life and am inspired by
so many incredible people. I moved into a neighborhood of people that blow me away with their drive, their kindness, the millions of extra miles they go. I married into a family of incredible, smart, talented people who have integrity coming out of their... well you get my drift. I met people on my mission that have forever changed my life. I grew up with some folks that absolutely astound me with the hand they were dealt and what they did with it. I am NOT exaggerating about that.
I was placed on planet Earth with a couple of fabulous parents and another couple of great sibs (far better than me). If it wasn't for my family and faith, I'd probably be sporting dread locks on a beach somewhere doing my best to
not work an honest day. OK - maybe not quite that extreme - BUT - If it wasn't for my family and faith, the people who have made the biggest impact in my life would not even be in my life. I'm not sorry at this point that I'm a mom and not Scully. I've been ridiculously blessed. Back to that point (if it actually
is a point). Sometimes I feel a little burdened by what is required of me by said family and faith; but when I really stop and think, those two elements in my life have brought everything worth anything to my life. I'm sorry if I've ever griped about having to prepare a Sunday School lesson or attend a family dinner. Not to say I'll never gripe again. But just at this moment I'm realizing where I would or wouldn't be without them.