Wilkins Fam

Went to the doctor today. Feeling good! We both decided that a c-section is the best option and I am feeling good about that. I am ready to go! SO we have a scheduled c-section on Feb 3rd or Feb 4th. Only 5 weeks away! That means that the baby ticker is off by 7 days! HA! I am seven days closer to delivery! alright! I am so excited! I can't wait to see her! yay!

Christmas morning is always so special. I love to give gifts and see how it makes everyone else happy. Especially Reese. Her big gift this year from Santa was a vintage red kitchen and I wish I had one my size! She LOVES it! It is so much fun to see the joy on her face. She is such a character and makes me smile so much. I loved everything that I got, but I love the sweet card that Bret and Reese made for me. Bret is really so sweet and writes me sweet notes every once and a while and I cherish them. I am a hopeless romantic after all. My parents gave me my other favorite gift! LINDORA! Yay! After I have the baby, I get to do lindora weight-loss and it is not cheap, but I definitely love it because it WORKS! I love love love my mom, she is the best present giver and makes Christmas so special. She is so loving and makes sure everyone has equal presents and it really makes the day so special!

Christmas Eve is always my favorite. I love the anticipation and the excitement. Now that Reese understands Christmas it makes it that much more fun for all of us! We loved being with my family on Christmas Eve and are so grateful that we live so close to them. They are such a blessing in our lives. We love them. Christmas Eve is such a fun day for me!

Remember how I said my new motto is "come what may and love it." Courtesy of the awesome, wonderful, amazing, humble, inspired Elder Wirthlin? Well now is the time to live it and love it. There has been some unexpected complications with my pregnancy. Baby girl is fine. She is awesome actually and this experience has made my love for her grow so much, exponentially actually. I KNOW that she belongs in our home and I can't wait the 7 or so weeks until I get to see her.

My doctor just informed me that these recent complications will be worse, like times 20 worse, with every subsequent pregnancy and when he asked me how many kids I wanted to have and I responded with, "I don't know maybe four or five." He advised me that I should for sure only have one more pregnancy after this one, and that I should FOR SURE wait at least 3 years before I even think about being pregnant again. I was shocked. I was at the appointment by myself and was not ready to hear that. I married young, I wanted lots of kids and that is all I have ever wanted to do. I realize that just because this is the case doesn't mean that we won't parent more kids, there are other ways, but I just wasn't ready to hear this, it definitely came out of no where and it was very very unexpected. I do not discount the many blessings that my Heavenly Father has blessed me with and I do not think that only having two or three kids is bad or a small number, I just wasn't planning this and if you know me, I like to have a plan, I like to know whats going to happen and I do not like to be surprised.

Last week I watch Elder Wirthlin's funeral services and he is so amazing, my favorite and I just love him dearly. He was so loving and so humble and I really gather strength from his messages. I will be fine and The Lord knows my family well and continues to bless us. This is very personal and I debated about putting it on here but I decided to because I am an open person and I just need to write things down for myself and it makes me feel better about everything. I know this is nothing compared to so many other trials that others have faced, but it is something that I have to deal with and for now I will be happy with my two beautiful girls. I cannot imagine more happiness than that.

In other happier news, baby girl has a name, which most people know and now since she is so close to being here I feel like I can finally put pen to paper and seal the deal. Her name will be


Charlotte Melissa

and we'll call her

Charlee.

I can't wait, she is mine and I am so in love with her.

On Friday night we went to the Ritz to go see their HUGE gingerbread house. This year is was like a big sandcastle. It is so pretty. I cannot believe that people can make a huge house like that all out of gingerbread. It was fun to go with all the kids. They are so funny!

Noah trying to steal the candy!
Look at how big that thing is!
We also had another fun tradition. The Judds came over for dinner and a little bit of cookie decorating. The girls liked eating the frosting a little bit more than decorating. It was so so fun!

We love looking at the HUGE tree and Christmas village at fashion island. The tree is like 150 ft high and it is real. It is so amazing! I love it. I remember going there as a child and it is so fun to pass this tradition on with our little family!

I love that Christmas is full of traditions. This year we are able to do more as a family because last year I was so busy with SOTW. It is so nice to be able to do nice traditions so I thought that I would share some of our traditions. They are in no particular order, but I just want to document the traditions that we share. One of our favorite traditions is Disneyland Christmas Parade. They make it snow and it is so fun. Mostly because Reese is completely and utterly in awe of all the floats. I love seeing Christmas joy through her eyes.

A few nights a week I am laying in bed, or sitting on the coach cuddling with Bret and our wonderful coyote family starts howling. It is amazing! It makes me appreciate nature and the fact that even though we live in an area that is pretty developed Heavenly Father's awesome creations are all around us. I love listening to these guys. I have even seen these beauties roaming behind the hill on our house. They are so awesome I love them. It is nice to enjoy things like this.

we are back and we had a lot of fun! We had so much fun hanging with all of our family. Bret got to golf with his brothers which is one of his absolute FAVORITE things to do. I got to relax and cook, and watch Reese enjoy her grandma and cousins. We got to see some dear dear friends and do some fun Utah traditions. I love that place. Unfortunately we got a little bit of a flu/sick bug that put a damper on the beginning of the trip for Reese and me but we got over it quickly and were able to enjoy Thanksgiving and the rest of the time.

Love those girlies!
Favorite picture from the trip!
Enjoying the lights
Family
Little one!
Cuties!
Love Melissa! Miss her, love her and want her to move here!
Happy playing in Grandma's fun house!
reading with Daddy
On the way home we stopped in St George for breakfast with the Allemans and we had a blast! They are such awesome friends and we wish they lived down here! Little Reagan and Reese are super cute together!
On the way home we got stuck in CRAAAZY traffic. It took us 14 hours to go home! It wasn't too bad because I was with my two best buddies! In other news we have only like 9 weeks until the baby is here! I cannot believe it! so so crazy!

I don't know why, but every time Ryan S. says that on AI, I love it and I say it with him, but Bret TOTALLY makes fun of me. But we are...OUT! We are going to Utah for a week to see the fam, we leave EARLY tomorrow morning, so wish us luck! We need to leave early in order to be there for the BYU vs UTAH game. Crazy that we have an in marriage rivalry! Funny though, but I love utah, especially Provo. Part of my heart belongs there and to those mountains. It feels like home when I go back to that little apt on that cute little street where we started our family and don't even get me started about this place. I love it on the campus and it gives me chills walking around and I am so excited to see this girl! I love you! I can't wait to breath in that wasatch mountain air and watch my favorite show! Good things!

Chels, this ones for you! Today Reese was playing with her dolls, barbies, etc. and she picked up one doll and said mom, Aunt Chelsea. I was totally laughing because if Chelsea was a Cabbage Patch doll, this is what she would look like. The doll has tons of really curly blonde hair. It was awesome! Now Reese calls her doll Aunt Chelsea. How cute is that! We are so excited to see you next week! Love you Chels!

We were so lucky last night for family night we got to go up and see Baby Siena and her awesome parents Parker and Jessica in the hospital last night. I cannot even describe to you the feeling that I get walking through the doors to the maternity wing of the hospital. I love love love that feeling. I know, I LOVE the hospital, but it is because I have never had a bad experience at the hospital I have just gone there to give birth and like I have told Bret, if I didn't have to be pregnant for a whole nine months, I would give birth once a month. No joke I love it.

Going to see baby Siena was so wonderful and it got me SO excited for our little girl to get here. I cannot believe that she will be here in less than 12 weeks! I feel like everyone keeps saying that it will go by fast, but I am worried because the end of the year for me always goes by so slow! I wish I could just fast forward to Christmas and then have only 6 weeks left. But I really just got so excited to have a newborn again! Thanks Parker and Jess, she really is such a beautiful little girl!



Reese just wanted to hold her and kiss her. I cannot wait for her to meet her little sister!
Just so Reese doesn't feel left out, a picture of her from the weekend. She is such a cutie!

Thanks Elizabeth for having a birthday so we could have an AWESOME night out! You are beyond awesome! I love your funny sayings and you are just one of the best friends in the whole world! You deserve a ton of super fun nights! Happy birthday!

Why does this maternity line have to be so cute and so expensive? I was searching online for a long-sleeve scoop neck maternity shirt. I have a couple of crew neck options, but I like the ones that scoop a little bit ya know, showing off the few benefits of pregnancy. I found this wonderful tee,
But why does it have to be $75 dollars? I just cannot justify that, but there is another top that I am DYING to get, it is soooooooo cute! Check it out,
It is so neat, it just keeps wrapping around your belly and then you tie it in the cute knot/bow thing on the side. Hello how adorable, um also $125. Are you serious? Well maybe I can not eat for a couple of days! (totally joking by the way.) But I love these!

*Note if you go to the website and you see their ad for HUGE CLEARANCE SALE, don't get your hopes up, like I did, because it is not HUGE and it is hardly CLEARANCE, but whatever. I only have 12 weeks left right. I don't need it!

Again Lisa came through with awesome pictures of our family. Even though I am very pregnant, and not loving how I look at the moment, she managed to capture our beautiful little family so well. I am not posting all of them because we do have our Christmas card coming out soon! AHHHH I can't wait for Christmas, but most of all I can't wait for this BABY!

meet Chelsea, or (Cheltzee haha! she hates when people pronounce her name like that) She is awesome!
She is 19 almost 20,

She has GORGEOUS curly hair that I ENVY!

She has the cutest, tiniest most petite little body!

She is very creativeShe rides around P-Town on this
She is a cowgirl at heart, like me.

She loves this dog like a person, sometimes even more than person!
She is a BYU volleyball player

She is one of my best friends

And.......

She's coming to visit today! YAY!!!