tall tales of a foreigner.

morning, i'm still wide awake and it's 7.14 a.m. it's less than 24hours til the end of 2009 and it flew by just like that. i wasted a year of my life like snap, crackle and pop. got no plans for new years. still got a lot on my mind. i'm going through the last thing that's on people's minds. my pasts haunts me. memories flood my eyes. images pop into my head and starts to ricochet. anyways let's raise a glass to the good and bad memories, new and old friendships and last but not least, the cliches of the world that people still believe in to try and make it a better place.

here's a video that i found that couldn't have said what i couldn't in a better way:



These got to me..
"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't ever suppose to let you down, probably will.."

"You will have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's harder every time.."

"You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.."

"You'll fight with your best-friend.."

"You'll blame a new love for things the old one did.."

"You'll cry because time is passing too fast.."

"And you'll eventually lose someone you love.."

"So take too many pictures, laugh too much and love like you've never been hurt before because.."

"Every sixty-seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.."

eNd.

hello readers, i've been coming up with crappy titles for posts. its because i have no clue what to put down so i just put random shit that pops up into my mind. again there's nothing new here. it is still boring, it still sucks. anyways i'd like to say something if you're trying to hide something make sure it stays hidden and if it has something to do with someone you dislike, its the last thing that you want to know about, am i not right? if you don't understand, then nevermind. i think i'm partly depressed. when i'm down, i'm really on the lowest point. its pretty hard to figure out the reason why i'm like this, you know why? that's cause i tried. maybe i know the reason but i'm in total denial. definitely maybe. there's always that something that pulls me down the next day, its either something i find out on my own or its the typical suspect which is the daily struggles of life. good thing about blogging that i've learnt, it takes away abit of that unwanted feeling that you want to throw away. writing about your feelings does help at times. one last thing before i end this post. " the things that i hide leads to the reason 'your love is fragile' and the things that you hide leads to the reason 'i don't want him to get mad' "

eNd.

lately i haven't been getting any proper sleep at all. i'm dead tired. always sleeping around 5a.m. and waking up at around 8 or 9a.m. the reason behind this is that my parents are on holiday, nuffsaid. everyday waking up cranky like the hulk and you won't like me when i'm cranky :) anyways, i've been playing l4d at night time with my neighbours and brothers just to kill my boredom. i wana go out but i'm just too tired. i need my sleep but i want to go out. i think i'm going to die soon. i feel so dead. ntah eh, i don't know what else to blog about. i just want to burn time so that i can get on with my life :)

can't wait to get my license. it'll kick start my life again. neways, i've said this from time to time again that it is BORING here. since i've got nothing to do i've been thinking nonsense lately. my mind's not straight. i can't have a clear head. i've got to get something to clear my head. this is freakin' depressing. nothing more to say. that's all, goodnight readers.

eNd.

good-evening readers, lately i've been cleaning my room and just working out, hoping to reach my goal of 1,000 push-ups and 10,000 sit-ups by the end of the month. i tried cooking and found out that i don't know how to add flavour to soup lol. epic failed man :S to improve i'm checking out recipes from cooking websites and trying to learn how to make different types of dishes. okay moving away from food now, last night again we cruised around, chilled at the beach and just went home but it was overall a pretty slow yet awesome night to go places like the beach. at the beach, some people were blasting their sound system in their cars and putting on some music to get rid of that awkward silence. i was bored so i danced to some of the tunes that i liked hahaha..and it was dark no one saw me :D it rained for abit but then it went away and thought that it might be a good idea to come another day :D i wish we had more people to bring out as it would be much more fun. well, maybe some people grew out of the habit but it's not time for me yet as i still want to let the night know that it's still young whenever. i have come to an end to yet another post on my blog. adios~

eNd.

i almost gave up. pretty close i might say. i lost it. it wasn't easy but eventually things worked out. it might not be the same but maybe a change is for the best. anyways, last night apparently the fishes won the game against the KL Dragons and gave them a run for their money. wanted to catch the game but couldn't be bothered to go as i was too exhausted from futsal. congrats to the fishes, good job. today, again i did nothing. watched some tv, ate lunch, watched tv again, changed the channels most of the time. i was barely watching what's on. maybe i'll do some workout after this. guess that's that then, more updates later.

eNd.

salam sejahtera and hello viewers of my blog, if there are still any left. anyways, life's been on a stalemate. nothing to do here in brunei. the only things i do are play futsal in the afternoon with friends and cruise around with faz in the middle of the night. my driver just went back to indonesia so i'm stuck, not being able to go anywhere. i always wanted to update my blog but my laptop is currently unable to connect to the wireless and it's at a neighbour's house which i am suppose to pick up but i'm too lazy to go get it. i'm using a pretty bang-ed up desktop at the moment. it'll do the job for now. my relationship's going fine..i think. i guess it is true when they say some things are best left unsaid or left in the dark. oh well, i think it is best for me to take my own advice and not say anything. it's not like its affecting me..much. anyways, i need to get a license to get me around and a job to move me around. i miss brisbane alot. i miss hanging out with my friends there. i miss 412. i miss KG. i miss doing some of the things there. i practically miss everything that is there. i guess that's enough of missing brisbane. moving on to the big events that has happened which was football funday at JIS where i had a really good time playing with friends and the masquerade ball held at Holiday Lodge, Jerudong, where i stayed the night there and had a great time during the event itself. the next big thing on the calendar is the ptem prom next year. it's going to be held at the grand hall at empire. hopefully that's going to be a blast. even being back in brunei for quite a while now, i still haven't got the chance to properly hang out with some of my friends. maybe i'll the chance soon enough. well, i guess that's all for now and next thing to do on my list is: -nothing.

eNd.

its that period of time where i have to say my goodbyes again.
like i've said to some "easy come, easy go."
my life has reached a point where you just have to say "well that's it. it was fun while it lasted." to yourself.
no one knows my depression as i will go through it with a smile like how i always use to.
i have made good friends, as i've always had and also good memories.
i thank all that i've met and all the memories through that humble meeting.
this is the last of the tales of the tall tales of a foreigner.

and here's memory lane:





eNd.

and Happy Birthday to my bestest biatch, Sabs. May you grow old with grace.

i've been feeling empty lately. i feel as if there's this empty space that never going to be filled. i don't know why. well maybe it's just all in my head. neways, aku kan chill dulu. that's all for the post today. maybe i'll continue later or something.

eNd.

i really don't like growing up. it makes me think and thinking leads to questions. the questions lead to more questions and it continues to form an endless circle. after solving problems, another problem resurfaces. more responsibilities, more pressure and so on. i know complaining about it won't help but it does release abit of that tension. i keep talking about getting my priorities right and straight but i've never been able to do it. it seems like, i need something disastrous to change me dramatically. well enough complaining for now. i've got an essay due on wednesday and another in class essay writing on thursday and i need to prepare a bibliography/reference list for my tutor to sign. the only good thing that i'm looking forward to is my return to brunei this saturday 8th of august. i can't wait to meet my best-friends, friends and not forgetting my lovely girlfriend whom i miss so dearly. before i end this post, i thank god for my lavish lifestyle. i know that i'm taking everything for granted. i hope to change. i hope to be someone. i hope for a prayer to be answered. i hope for myself to want to do something about myself.

eNd.

today was okay i guess. started off the day waking up and going to class late. first was english, the class was working on the essay that is due next week and i haven't even started anything yet. next was organisation and management class and there was a test. i didn't know about it so the outcome will not be surprising. i had international perspectives next and there was another test. i wasn't really prepared for it but tried my best. i think it was an alright attempt. after the test, i rushed to get my stuff to play football but when i got there the match had already stopped. apparently the principal of the school which owned the field said that we're not allowed to be there so the two teams left and it was quite a let down. even the basketball players were asked to leave from the court. anyways they said that the match lasted 15mins with the result 0-0. since there was no football, i've decided to go to the gym with my friends. stayed there for like an hour and a half then everyone headed off in their own way. guess what? i've lost 3kgs over the pass 2days and now i'm back to 75! handal eh :D i was suppose to sleepover at clv but then only jon and farah was there so there's no point staying over. tomorrow's paintball, half excited, half nervous because of the wounds and bruises that are going to sting as a result of it but i still can't wait for it :) ntah eh, can't think of anything else to blog about. shyt! i'm bored.

and oh yeah..
on the 30th July 2009, me and my baby has officially been together for 6 MONTHS. HAPPY 6MONTHS ANNIVERSARY BABY :) we've passed the half year barrier. i should say that this is a great achievement for me since i've had to go through one or two girls just to get to where i am right now (god its a tiresome thing to go through; the break-up, the depression and the getting back up on your feet phase thing, time and time again) ahh well, it's my gain and your loss :) we were should have been's but we were only could have been's. i'm happy that baby stuck by me. i know it's nothing much to brag about but it's awesome to be in a relationship this long knowing some people are longing for this kinda thing to happen to them. to all who doubts long-distance relationships and says that they would't work-out, well up yours i say =)

eNd.

nothing much to talk about. i've decided to blog to kill time. baby's not online, not sure why though. been playing CS & w0w to kill time as well but then i got bored of killing stuff too. i've lost my touch in CS, i think it's never going to improve unless i go through some really intense training. i've bought CS steam a couple of days ago just to start things off. played a match online but lost in two maps, dust2 and inferno. we didn't take any rounds from any of the two maps. well i think i'm going to go back to playing cs now. neways, looking forward to the bssbne game night on saturday. we've just suggested to bring laptops and play l4d, cs and other pc games so can't wait for it. that's all for now i guess.

she

back to aussie baybehh`~~~

last night was a good match between Manchester United and Barcelona. the hopeful man united crashed and burned in the finals against barca in rome last night. a disgraceful 2-0 lost to the catalians. goals from the first shot on goal for the team from eto'o and the goal which gave the hands down win to barca from messi the wonder kid. congrats to barcelona.

eNd.