tall tales of a foreigner.

eNd.

i've decided to blog about my day from now on since i practically don't have anything to do here. okay let's start with how my day went. urrmmm..woke up at 10 and rushed cause i thought i had class at 9 (well the class would've ended by then but at least i tried =p) then it turns out that i don't. almost had a cramp again this morning cause i was walking pretty fast to school lol. had lunch at mcD's with Ghani and Pak (new friends i've made). finished school at 5. was damn tired when i arrived home, fell asleep on the sofa then woke up when my roomate cameback from the park. decided not to go back to sleep so i washed the dishes and cleaned up everything. felt hungry and cooked 2packs of indomee for dinner. went online for a while so i decided to blog =) changed the layout of my blog since i was bored. got plans this weekend. going out with friends but i'm not really sure if i'm up for it or not so i'll make up my mind this friday. that's all i guess. now i'm just sitting outside my place just chatting with my baby. at night this place is quite peaceful and calm. very relaxing. wish i can share it with my syg =)

eNd.

i'm annoyed by the internet. i'm annoyed cause i can't upload the photos. i'm annoyed cause my timetable is damn full. i'm annoyed cause i miss everyone back home. i'm annoyed cause i can't see my baby on webcam. i'm annoyed cause i have to sit outside everytime i want to go online or use the damn internet. i'm annoyed cause everytime i sit outside, the fcuking mosquitoes are having a bloody buffet. i'm just so fcuking annoyed at the moment. school started today. it was 'OKAY' as in oookkaayyyyyyy..this is fcuking boring *yawn*. i missed one class cause i haven't recieved my timetable, tadi baru dpt. my schedule is hectic from pagi till afternoon. i had foundation english and we talked about the "Three Little Pigs". i'm like, "WTF?" the homework i got was easy. i'm just waiting for my new friend to send it to me through email so i can finish it. the work's due on friday. oh yeah, got to know a new friend again just now. he was an ex-jis and bruneian too =D so we clicked. it was cool and sad at the same time cause he's like the third or fourth bruneian (i'm not really quite sure brapa lah but who's counting lol) that i'm close with. i don't know what i'm going to next. i'm just sitting outside in the garden at the middle of my place. oh yeah, my place is 4305/Number 2 Carraway Street, Tower 4, Kelvin Grove. esehhhhh..ingat dah hahahaha!! sedih seddihhhhh..izz izzzzz.. *tsk tsk* oh yeah, i just remembered. when i checked my mail box just now, guess what i recieved? MY ATM CARD!!!! wooootttt wotttttt`~ hahaha!! iski banar..i feel like a man now. i've got money (inda plang banyak cause i used it to eat most of the time, mahal jeennggggg), i shaved =) , i've got an Atm card and i've got a credit card. yeaaaaaaaaa`~ but all of that won't make me happy unless i've got someone to share it with and that's why i wish baby was here or whoever lah. i rindu brunei and everyone in it. neways, it's hard to end my posts with songs with all these connection problems. FCUK YOU 3 MOBILE BROADBAND!!! O=)

eNd.

i can't deny this feeling anymore. i'm sad that i'm leaving. i can't take faking all the damn smiles on my face. family, friends and my girl yas, i'm leaving all this behind in brunei. i know i can't be in this situation right now because it'll mess me up badly when i get to australia. i'll miss everyone here. i'm trying to do everything i can before i go. some people hates me for leaving, i understand how you feel but one day you guys would be leaving too. we'll go our seperate ways and grow up. i'm going to enjoy my time being a teenager as much as i can. i'll make all the mistakes i can and learn from it. the friends that came into my life, i'll cherish them. the memories i've made, i'll remember them. everything and everyone will always be in my heart and mind. i'll never forget you all. thank you for popping into my life =) i hope you all will always have a spot reserved for me in your hearts. thanks for the video made by my PTE friends. THANK YOU!!!! here's the link if you wana see it:



i spent my last day in brunei with a blast though it was kinda messed up. i couldn't think straight because all that was on my mind was "Damn son, your going to leave tomorrow!" as i was cruising through brunei in man's benz with rusman, zeem, rawi and ain, i told myself that this would be the last time you'll see all of this before you leave. i savoured every last image and took a picture in my mind of how everything looked like. in the morning i had training in JIS, it'll be the last one with my BANDAR BLACKS TEAM.



i love those guys. the coach actually said that we had a match but kana KALING!!! nada ada!! rupanya training taieeee..but at least i got one try masa practise match =) then after di JIS went to Business school. actually i wanted to see my baby perform but inda smpat sorry so we just checked out the fun fair. urmm..then ke ICC to check out the fair there. lapas atu..pegi makan di food zone at gaydong properties. my treat lol =) lps knyang we went to THE MALL cause i had to meet my BABY!! sbb i miss her so much and she sounds weak on the phone so i had to check her out. we meet at gelato. we talked for abit then i had to rush home. sent ain dulu den rawi, zeem den me. thanks for the ride mannnn!!









Human - Mateo

i know that YOU ARE STRONG because you said so. you've been strong eversince i've told you that i was leaving and when you took the risk of being with me. Why stop now syg? you've been someone who could stand her ground and still put a smile even with tears falling down your cheeks. don't cry anymore please my dear. i know your sad and guess what i'm sad too. think about it, i'm leaving a lot more than friends here in brunei. i'm leaving the place where i lived for almost 18years and in those 18years, i've compiled a lot of memories. if you feel sad or anything, go to your friends. you have loads of great friends that are always there to help you. your dance group the "eyeteaserz" yg pacah2 atu, they are able to make you laugh and smile so make use of that syg. i've seen you laugh so hard with them. i know your in good hands. your friends in pte lagi. i know they will takecare of you. comfort you when you need it. they say friends are medicines for everything and anything. i trust and love you with all my heart. i don't really care what you do as long as you know your limits. i've changed to not be foolish enough to do anything stupid so i'm hoping to be someone much more better than who i was before. syg...actually my heart tells me that we can't make this relationship happen because long-distance relationships usually ends up being unpleasant. though my heart may have doubts, your words diminish them and made me believe that we can do this, that we can make it through. like you said you'll wait for me so i'll wait for you as well. i'll be back by the time you know it. thank you syg for making me someone you really cared for and love. someone who you cried your tears for. someone who you trust with everything you've got. i may not be perfect but you accepted me for who i am and not for who i ain't. thanks baby, i love you and words can never express the way we feel for each other.

here's a song just for you:



You Make Me Feel - Nathan

[Verse 1:]
I can't explain
Don't understand but everyday I think about you
Your the one and it's for real
There ain't no words it's just how I feel
Deep down inside and I can't hide the way you make me feel so high

[Chorus:]
And I cannot deny
You make me feel...
Like a kid in a candy store
You make feel...
Like I've never been here before
You make me feel...
Everyday is my birthday
You makin' feel this way
You make me feel...
Like I just won the lottery
You make me feel...
Like I'm chanin' my ensame
And I thought about
Never thought I'd feel this way
You make me feel

[Hook:]
I'm gunna come get you I can't get you outta my mind
I'm gunna come get you girl I gotta make you more mine

[Verse 2:]
I get butterflys everytime
I stare deep into those eyes
Maybe I'm helpless or I'm just selfish
Cause I want you all too myself
Oooh what I'll give to make you mine
There's nothing that I would not try
And that's the reason why
You make me feel...

[Chorus:]
Like a kid in a candy store
You make feel...
Like I've never been here before
You make me feel...
Everyday is my birthday
You makin' feel this way
You make me feel...
Like I just won the lottery
You make me feel...
Like I'm chanin' my ensame
And I thought about
Never thought I'd feel this way
You make me feel

[Verse 3:]
I'm gunna come get you I can't get you outta my mind
I can't help my hearts like and open book
Won't you take a look
Cause' it ain't hard to see that you got me
OH NA
Baby... the way you got me feelin' is kinda
Crazy... what you got is what I need
I'm lovin' everything I see
We fit perfectly
Cause...

[Chorus:]
You make me feel...
Like a kid in a candy (ohh)
You make me feel...
Like I've never been here before (mmm)
Everyday is my birthday
Everyday is my bithday (yeah) feel this way
I said you make me feel...
Like I just won the lottery (oh like I just won the lottery)
Like I'm changin my ensame
And... I thought about never thought I'd feel this way
You make me feel...

eNd.