rest easy.

rest easy.

Friday, 13 November 2009

X'|

i'm the one who's too naive to realize that i'm the one who's immature. the one who can't be rational. i'm an idiot to not see what she's worth. too egoistical to accept that fact. my ego blinds me. i'm in denial. i know i'm afraid of losing her yet too proud to show it. that tough guy act won't save me. it won't result in anything good. i know too well what will happen if i keep this up. he was right to say that i always repeat the same mistake. now i see myself for who i am, just another smooth operator with mask to hide the monster inside. i don't deserve her. i never did. she has never done anything wrong yet i treat her as if she did something inhumane. how can i say i love her when all i do is hurt her feelings again and again. i want to change to my old self. that kid who's only able to love without the care of the world and without putting myself in the picture. 'i love you', i remember a friend mentioning that those three words have been tossed around too much. it has lost its meaning when it does. i mean it when i say those three overused words to her and no matter how much i say it, it'll never lose its meaning towards her. she's the love of my life. cliché as it may sound, it's the only thing that keeps ringing in my head and it's the only thing i keep telling my soul. i do love her, with all my heart. if you're reading this baby, know that i'm always going to love you no matter what i say cause the truth is, i'm not only afraid of losing you, i'm terrified and i think you're what keeps me sane & alive.

"i love you syg."

I love Yas.

eNd.
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Monday, 2 November 2009

final.

its that period of time where i have to say my goodbyes again.
like i've said to some "easy come, easy go."
my life has reached a point where you just have to say "well that's it. it was fun while it lasted." to yourself.
no one knows my depression as i will go through it with a smile like how i always use to.
i have made good friends, as i've always had and also good memories.
i thank all that i've met and all the memories through that humble meeting.
this is the last of the tales of the tall tales of a foreigner.

and here's memory lane:

got the chance to represent my country. the awesome bruneian team in brisbane -
"Anak-anak Brunei"

all that training paid off. 3rd place. finally beaten the malaysian team after 3yrs.

enjoyed playing ball. met a friend named 'Anakin' how cool is that?

my touch rugby team and i managed the team by being captain. not too bad
last place tho :D

celebrated raya after the uniGames.

adios amigos~

more to come soon~

eNd.
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